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Red, White & Royal Blue (2023) | "Trying to make it—go away."

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“no. it just tells me that you want me all to yourself.” nick said with a grin. he wasn’t sure whether or not charlie would actually reveal the details of his dream, and his boyfriend thoroughly surprised him when he did. fuck. now nick was imagining the sight of charlie on his knees for him. “so that’s what you want then? for me to fuck you somewhere we might get caught?” he couldn’t lie, the thought alone excited him more than it should’ve. nick lifted his arms up to allow charlie to pull his shirt off, a little smirk on his lips as the other took in the sight of him. before he had the chance to lean in and kiss charlie, his boyfriend was already doing just that and nick moaned softly against his lips. “can we try.. something else? we can stop whenever you want to, i promise.” after getting that confirmation from charlie, nick’s hands would tug his pants and underwear down to free his cock. he gave charlie a second to take it in, before reaching for his wrist and guiding his hand closer. “don’t think about it too much. just imagine you’re touching yourself.” he gently reassured him, wrapping charlie’s hand around his cock. “fuck..” he mumbled, keeping his hand over charlie’s and guiding it to start stroking his length. it’s already slick from his previous orgasm and he knew that his next one wasn’t too far. “is this.. is it okay?” nick asked.

eventually he couldn’t help himself, hands coming down to unbutton charlie’s pants and slip his hand beneath his boxers, tugging his cock out. he stroked it at the same pace charlie had been, leaning forth to kiss him and silence any moans from them. thankfully the sound of the shower running drowned most of them out. “i can’t stop thinking about fucking you..” he admitted. “being buried inside of you.. god it’s going to feel perfect.”

charlie gave a gentle roll of his eyes, "what? me being jealous is adorable? you don't think it's like...obsessive?" that's what they called him all of the time when he was getting bullied. ben called him it too and it was the last thing he wanted nick to think of him. "right OKAY and whose brilliant idea was it to make me join the rugby team again? hmm? mr. rugby captain?" he teased, playfully squeezing nick back with the same force. "oh." and anxiety was creeping in again. what did that mean? that nick was...big? charlie had always imagined that he would be which also excited and terrified him. what if he couldn't handle nick either? would nick break up with him? "i dunno i think...we can do whatever we want. i think it'd be best to plan. and to. well. research." he admitted as the blush was back on his skin. and while he was still feeling anxious, he quickly kissed nick. kissing nick was the best thing for dealing with his anxiety. "well. loads of things happened. we were both naked and. and. doing things." his heart was hammering from out of his chest, never really doing dirty talk before, "i. i. was on my knees. sucking you off. and then. well. then. you were um. pushing me against the bathroom wall and. well. fucking me?" chest was rising and falling as his gaze remained fixated on nick, nodding his head at the request.

nervous hands fumble down his boyfriend's chest before pulling at the fabric of his shirt and tugging it over his head. mouth goes dry as bright eyes rake in the sight of nick shirtless, hands roaming around chiseled muscles, "god, nick. you're so. hot." he admitted, once again in disbelief that this man was his boyfriend. shaky hands then settle on the button of nick's pants, swallowing thickly as it comes undone and he pulls the zipper down. charlie leans forward to capture nick's lips within his, hands taking the opportunity to soar across untouched flesh. hands dare to go lower and he gasps when his hand touches nick's clothed length. they were wet, a mixture of new pre-cum and from their other release.

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a sky full of stars and he was staring at her him. - ATTICUS POETRY

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You speak French... Like, fluently.

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“not ridiculous, it’s adorable.” nick’s arms came back to wrap around charlie and give him a little squeeze. “you can’t be as terrible at anything as you are at rugby, so there’s that.” he teased, nodding at those next words from charlie. “it felt better than a blow job from her, actually. she couldn’t really, um.. handle all of me.” he hoped that wouldn’t scare charlie off by saying that, but he was bound to find out how big nick was sooner or later. his smile grew when he saw how excited charlie was about losing their virginity to each other, nick immediately leaning in to press kisses all over charlie’s face. “is it something that’s meant to be planned? i feel like we should, i want it to be perfect for you.” he mumbled against charlie’s skin. nick easily lifted charlie up into his arms when he agreed to the shower and walked them over to the bathroom as quietly as he could. “don’t stop there, give me the details. what happened in this dream?” nick asked as he set charlie down on top of the sink. he was sure to shut the door behind them and then got the shower going, turning back to face charlie once he had. nick took a few steps closer until he was settled in between his boyfriends legs. “could you help me out of my clothes? i’ll return the favor.”

"no, no...i. i want to." he assured, rolling over onto his side so that he can easily look into nick's ember hues, "it's just. i dunno. it makes me...a bit jealous, i guess?" charlie admitted with a chuckle, "is that ridiculous of me? and well. i guess i'm afraid i'm not going to be. erm. well. as good." cheeks heat up at the thought of charlie using his mouth on nick. he think he'd quite like that even if he didn't know where to even begin. "really? that felt better than a blow job?" which surprised him. guys were always going on and on about how much they liked blow jobs. and he had to admit he's imagined what it'd feel like getting one from nick. quickly he's grinning like a lovesick idiot once again, "um...yes! that's what i want. i'd love for my first time to be with you." he bumped his nose against the other's, "you're my favorite person." brows are knitting into a furrow, shaking his head as curls bounce in the process, "he's not worth any of our energy. i don't even care about him anymore." and honestly, charlie wasted so much of his time on ben, he'd be damned if he let ben interrupt any of his time with nick. "i almost told you a month ago. i had it all planned out in my head and the moment was...there. it was perfect. and i just...panicked and backed out." he's humming appreciatively, fingers going to play at ginger locks, "well seeing as i AM the one who woke you up, it seems only fair." though he nearly chokes on air at the suggestion, eyes widening before smiling, "i...yes. yes. i'd like that very much. i had a dream about that once. erm. it involved you. and me. and the rugby showers."

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“we don’t have to talk about this if you don’t want to.” because nick could see that it had upset charlie, and that wasn’t what he’d wanted. but he also hadn’t wanted to lie and insist that he hadn’t done anything. “well.. i was way too nervous to touch her, so we didn’t do much. she, uh.. used her hand, and her mouth on me. but honestly? what you and i just did now.. god, it felt so much better.” he admitted with a soft chuckle. it was likely because charlie had actually meant something to him, nick figured. “i’ve never gone all the way before, if that’s what you were worried about. it hasn’t ever felt right until you, charlie. i want you to be my first.” nick practically whispered to him. “only if that’s what you want.” he added quickly. nick shook his head then. “it wouldn’t be a fight, he wouldn’t be able to get back up after i hit him. but i understand what you mean. i’ll leave him alone, for you.” or at least nick would try. if ben made some sort of comment about charlie again, he’d have no choice but to put him in his place. “have you? why didn’t i know about this? i’m hurt.” nick playfully brought a hand up to his heart and faked a frown. really it warmed his heart to know that charlie had felt the same way for just as long as nick had. he sent a quick text to the group and let them know that him and charlie would be there, setting his phone aside soon after. “i officially have too much energy to fall asleep again. looks like you’ll have to entertain me.. somehow.” he spoke suggestively. “we could have a shower together. would that be alright?”

"oh. right." though charlie had suspected that nick had more experience than him, it was still hard to hear him admit it. a mixture of jealousy and anxiety setting in. what if the girl he was with was better, more skilled, better at knowing what made him happy. "well. how far have you gone? what...what have you done?" he both wanted to know and also didn't want to know. but this was the kind of stuff boyfriends talked about, right? "oh yeah? like what?" he's watched some porn but honestly it was too much. it was too intimidating so he didn't like it all that much. a soft smile preyed onto pink lips at nick's reaction to his mention of ben, hand falling to caress his cheek, "you don't have to worry about him. he's not worth it and i don't want you getting into anymore fights because of me." even if it DID turn him on just a little bit. the fact that nick wanted to defend his honor was a bit romantic. "i definitely don't want you to stop. ever." charlie whispered then he groaned when nick pulled away and turned his focus to his phone, "i think it would be nice. they all really want to see you. they're also probably sick of hearing me talk about you non-stop. they'll also be pleased to know that i finally told you that i love you." he nervously rubbed at the back of his neck, "i'd been...obsessing over it for a few months now. when to say it. how to say it."

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nick nodded as he listened to charlie explain how new this was for him, smiling at that blush on his boyfriend’s cheeks. “that’s alright.” he reassured him, nick’s smile faltering slightly when charlie asked him that question. “uh.. yeah, i have. just never with another guy.” nick told him, though that second part was probably obvious. “there’s lots of things we could try. things i think you’d really like.” he couldn’t hold back his scoff at the mention of ben, the fact that he’d wanted more from charlie didn’t come as a surprise and yet it had still managed to piss nick off. “he’s a prick who never deserved to touch you in the first place. one of these days i’ll sort him out and he won’t even dare to look at you anymore.” nick has to force himself to take a deep breath and calm himself, reaching down for one of charlie’s hands to help. “i’m sorry. i just.. really don’t like him.” especially not after ben made it clear that he wanted to get back with charlie. for now, nick would push the thought out of his mind and enjoy their time together. hearing charlie moan for him again was more than a welcomed distraction. “mmh. so you’re asking me to stop? it doesn’t seem like it.” he spoke teasingly against charlie’s skin. nick only pulled away when he heard both of their phones going off, grabbing his own phone and opening up their friend group chat. he read over tao inviting everyone over for a movie night at his place tomorrow night and nick immediately looked up at charlie. “should we go? i can’t promise that i’ll be able to keep my hands off of you in front of everyone but it’d be nice to see them all again, wouldn’t it?”

"i've never...i've never done anything like that before." charlie admitted, a blush creeping up his neck and settling onto his cheeks, "have...have you?" realizing they've never really had this conversation. with how far they've gone with other people. "ben...tried to take things further once before but i wasn't. i wasn't ready. i didn't want to. not with him." he sighs softly as their lips connect once again, "i've been thinking about it a lot lately too. i want to...try a lot of things with you. i feel safe with you, nick." and he knew it wasn't that simple and it'd never be that simple but it was true. nick made him feel at home and protected. and the times they spent together were his sanctuary, "i believe you." he whispered before capturing nick's lips within his own once again, "no because then she'll start to dislike you and you've only JUST won her over." though he was an adult now. they both were. he squealed when nick trapped them under the blanket, "i think i quite like being trapped." charlie admitted, tightening his grip on the other. though he moans when his boyfriend starts to work his neck again, "niiiicck. if you. if you keep doing that...you're going to get me hard again."

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nick’s arms came to wrap around charlie once he’d gotten on top of him. “it was amazing, wasn’t it?” he agreed, just about to lean forward and connect their lips until charlie spoke again. next time. nick really liked the sound of that. “hey, i do want to. especially with you, charlie. i.. it’s been on my mind quite a lot lately. touching you, exploring your body.” nick admitted softly, a hand coming up to settle over charlie’s cheek. “i love you, charlie. i don’t want you to question whether i’m only saying it because you did, i’m not. it’s how i genuinely feel.” he leaned in closer, pressing a kiss to charlie’s forehead. “you’ll spend the night, won’t you? if your mum gets upset, tell her that i trapped you here.” nick smirked as he reached for the blanket and pulled it over them. “there, now you’re trapped. you can’t go anywhere.” he went right back to kissing and sucking on charlie’s neck, leaving marks where he knew charlie wouldn’t be able to hide them.

"no, i would NOT. god, you're so annoying!" charlie said with a chuckle, doing his best to turn his head away from nick playfully but he was trapped. though the hot breath against his ear and the skillfully spoken french DID cause him to shiver and it made him more painfully hard than he already was. he couldn't believe this was actually happening. his breathing was getting shallower and when nick started to rut against him, charlie knew he wasn't going to last. and then nick's cumming and moaning and god, he sounded so hot when he moaned and charlie wasn't far behind him, gasping when his own release settled over him. cheeks were blissfully red, sweat was plastered to his forehead and he was still breathing heavily, "woah." he turned his head, unable to help the dopey grin, "um-yes. better than alright. that was...amazing." charlie chewed on his bottom lip before rolling atop of nick, resting on his chest as he pressed wet curls against nick's forehead, "maybe next time we....we try that. without any pants. or underwear." and he's surprising himself with how eager he sounded, quickly backtracking, "i mean only if you'd...want to."

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“would you like hearing it even more in french?” nick asked with a teasing grin, because he already knew the answer to his own question. he leaned in, lips brushing against charlie’s ear as he whispered, “tu es à moi, mon amour.” he could practically feel charlie shiver underneath him which was exactly what nick had been hoping for. he’d have to remember to reassure charlie that he really did mean his confession and attempt to ease any doubt that his boyfriend had. because nick understood why charlie would question it, especially since they were in such a compromising position and it was difficult to gather their thoughts. for now, he silenced those doubts with his lips, tongue brushing up against charlie’s in his mouth. the feel of charlie’s hips rocking up against his was what set nick off, he quickly pulled back from the kiss to bury his face into the crook of charlie’s neck in hopes of muffling his moans as he came in his pants. even then, nick doesn’t stop moving until charlie found his own release, panting heavily as he did. he let his body fall onto the bed beside charlie once they’d finished, a hand running through ginger hair as he chuckled. “i can’t believe we did that.” he admitted, turning to look at charlie. “i don’t mean that in a bad way, i’m just.. surprised. in a good way.” he’d also have to change out of his pants and grab a pair for charlie as well, but his point still stood. “how do you feel? was that alright?”

that response elicits a breathless and surprised, "oh." from his lips before he's smiling and wondering how in the hell he managed to get nick nelson as his boyfriend, "i. okay." hands slide up the back of nick's neck, resting there as he tilts his head, "yours. i like hearing you call me yours." fingers trace down against the redhead's chiseled jawline, "and that makes YOU mine." charlie hummed, also quite liking the sound of that. he loses himself once again in his boyfriend's lips, never wanting nick to ever stop kissing him. he happily allows his knees to fall open, making room for nick in between his legs and the way his name falls from nick's lips has his length throbbing even harder, hissing from the contact of nick's clothed cock rubbing against his. fuck. he could feel that nick was big. and that both excited and terrified him at the same time. those few moments of silence in between him confessing his love has charlie spiraling in his head, convinced that he'd just ruined EVERYTHING with those three stupid words. but then nick's saying it back and his heart is soaring, "you...you do?" he's asking in disbelief, "are you...are you sure? you're not just-" but before he can nervously back track, nick's lips are against his once again and he's sighing into the kiss happily, kissing him back with a more feverish passion than previously. and feeling particularly bold, his eager tongue swipes out and along nick's bottom lip, drinking in the taste of him before dipping into the other's mouth and exploring. needy hips decide to take it upon themselves to thrust up and are met against nick's bulge once again, "fuck." he stammered.

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“i don’t want them to assume anything, i want everyone to know that it was from me. and that you’re all mine.” nick could think of a few people who needed that reminder.. or rather one in particular. it was tempting to ask charlie if ben had tried reaching out to him again, but nick didn’t want to bring him up at the same time. he lets out a soft sigh of relief when charlie begs him to keep going, and nick was more than happy to oblige. he leaned down and kissed charlie’s lips, a hand coming up and toying with his curls. his other one carefully pushed charlie’s legs apart, giving nick more room to get in between them. rather than rubbing against his thigh, he grinded against charlie’s bulge and immediately moaned at the contact. “charlie.” he groaned. “does that feel—” nick’s words were cut off by that admission from charlie, eyes going a little wide. clearly it had caught him off guard, and despite the fact that he couldn’t really think straight with how much pleasure he felt, nick didn’t need to do much thinking. he knew how he felt about charlie, he’d known for quite some time. “i love you, charlie. more than anything, anyone.” and then nick captured charlie’s lips into a kiss once more, smiling against them.

he still felt bad but he didn't want to ruin the moment so instead he just gave a nod of his head, "i really do love it though." charlie whispered, fingers still wrapped around the necklace, "thank you. and you're...okay with people assuming it belongs to you?" yes he knew they were out and nick had posted to his instagram but charlie still wanted to be sure that he was comfortable. the last thing he wanted to do was make things hard for nick. "oh yeah, totally imaginary. i think i might have given them to myself." he could feel his pants tightening and this was normally the point where they stopped before things got too heated but he's happily surprised when nick continues. charlie can't help but watch as his boyfriend practically humps his thigh and he was certain he could come just from that sight alone. at the question, he gives a shake of his head, "n-no." hand goes to rest on nick's cheek, eyes still boring into his boyfriend's, "please don't stop." he felt like his heart was going to burst from out of his chest. this was all new. he'd never gone this far before but he wanted to. "nick...i. i love you." and with those words finally being spoken, he's suddenly petrified, "you don't...you don't have to say it back if you don't want to or if you don't feel the same way."

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nick was quick to shake his head and dismiss charlie’s words. “you didn’t have to get me anything, charlie. really.” he assured him. it wasn’t their anniversary or a birthday, and even then nick would’ve been perfectly fine with just spending time with charlie. “ah, so all of the hickies he covers you in must be imaginary too, then.” he chuckled a little at that, hands wandering down to charlie’s hips to keep him from moving too much underneath him. it didn’t really help, between the way charlie moaned for him and how amazing it felt when he rubbed up against him, it wasn’t a surprise when nick had gotten hard from it. obviously it’s not the first time it’s happened around charlie, and normally nick would insist that they stopped until he calmed down. this time, though, he didn’t pull back. instead nick pressed his aching cock against charlie’s thigh and started grinding against it, gasping out as he did. “d-do you want me to stop?” nick asked him, pulling his head back to look into his boyfriend’s eyes. he knew that he should stop, but he wasn’t sure if he could bring himself to unless it was what charlie had wanted.

"i do love it." he admitted with a grin though he took his bottom lip between his teeth, chewing on it, "though. i dunno. it'd be nice if you didn't HAVE to rescue me all of the time." and there went his dark thoughts ruining yet another sweet and perfect moment with nick. a burden. he just always felt like a burden. and he didn't think it was fair for his boyfriend. charlie pouts when nick pulls away from the kiss that left him wanting more but he chuckled, following the instructions, "are you going to give me another hickey?" he teased though the sensation on his neck was NOT from his boyfriend's lips but from something else entirely. his teasing demeanor was quick to evaporate as fingers went to toy with the necklace that hung around his neck. he couldn't help the tears that started to well up in his eyes, "nick." charlie said softly before bright hues meet his boyfriend's, "i love it. it's perfect...thank you!" it wasn't often that he got gifts outside of his birthday and he'd never gotten a gift with as much meaning as this. "i didn't. i didn't get you anything..." he admitted, defeat washing over him though it was quick to disappear when nick placed him on the bed. charlie swallowed thickly, his heart starting to race as he stared up at the other with wide hues, "nah, i don't think so. honestly sometimes i think i've just IMAGINED him. i'm not sure he's real at all." though his jaw goes slack at the feeling of nick's lips upon his neck, goosebumps prickling up against his skin and he does squirm, a small moan escaping from his lips, "don't stop." charlie whispered before adding on, "i mean. stop...if you want to."

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“you love it when i rescue you, admit it.” hearing that charlie had missed him too caused nick’s smile to grow. he pressed another kiss to his boyfriend’s lips, this one lingering a bit more than the last. “keep your eyes closed.” nick whispered to him, pulling away to grab something out of his bag. he’d then walk back over to charlie and step behind him, placing the necklace onto him and clasping the back of it. “if you hate it, you can take it off. but i found it at the shop and.. i thought it was cute.” he stepped around to the front of charlie, smiling at the small ‘N’ hanging from the necklace. in an instant he’d picked charlie up into his arms and carried him over to the bed, carefully setting him down before nick would get on top of him. “tell me more about this amazing boyfriend. do i know him?” he smirked, head dipping down so he could press little kisses against charlie’s neck. eventually he’d start sucking at the skin in the way that always made charlie squirm underneath him.

he's immediately grinning as nick's pulling him up, " and you are watching way too many marvel films. when are you going to stop coming to my rescue, huh? " charlie teased, playfully bumping his nose against the other's before capturing nick's lips within his own, sighing into the kiss. "missed you." he murmured, before squeezing the other into a bone crushing hug. why did a week feel like an eternity? " you're not forgiven. how dare you fall asleep after a long week of rugby practice and travel? rude. " charlie teased again with the crinkle of his nose, " yeah, it's always weird coming back though. like after having the freedom in college and then having my mum babying me again. plus i've just been . . . thinking about you a lot. think my whole family is fed up on hearing me go on and on about my amazing boyfriend. "

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well, I literally just have brushed my teeth, so… HEARTSTOPPER S01E04/S02E04

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the first thing that nick had done after greeting his mum was head right up to his room and plop down on the bed. he told himself that he’d get up in a bit to unpack and have a shower.. only to end up falling asleep before he could even take his backpack off. he hadn’t been able to hear charlie calling out to him those first couple of times, but then his phone went off and it caused him to stir awake. “outside my—“ one glance in that direction and nick could see his boyfriend clinging onto the ledge. “oh!” he was quick to get out of bed then, rushing over to the window and pushing it open. he easily helped charlie up, even with how sore his muscles were. “someone’s been watching too many romance films.” nick said teasingly, arms sliding around charlie’s waist and pulling him close enough to connect their lips. oh how he’d missed this.. missed charlie. “mm.. i fell asleep in the middle of texting you, didn’t i? sorry. i was exhausted.” he admitted. “what about you? have you been settling in alright?”

despite the fact that they were both adults and in university, his mum still took the opportunity to overly coddle him whenever he came home for the holidays. going as far to try to give him curfew which didn't always work when he was living at home and it certainly wasn't going to work now. especially since it's been a full week since he's seen nick and charlie was certain he couldn't go another day. it was late. midnight. and charlie was standing outside of nick's house, paying attention to the fact that all of the lights were off and it seemed as though everyone was asleep. it wasn't one of his greatest ideas, to decide to try to climb up to nick's window yet lanky limbs were trying to do just that. in his head, he thought it'd be a nice, grand romantic gesture but the execution was much harder than he anticipated. charlie loses his footing, finds himself sliding and now he's half hanging off the ledge right outside nick's window. "nick!" charlie hisses in a whisper, "nick!" one hand manages to pull at his phone, miraculously texting, "stuck outside your window lol"

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