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This version of me is a complete puzzle from everything that happened in my past. I carry no regret in life despite all the bitterness I have been receiving this whole time. I train myself to accept things as how they come out to be. Like it or not. I will just simply take things as a lesson for me to understand that life does not always go as how I want it to be. Those traumatic events might sadden me deeply but without them, it might be impossible for these days’ version of me to be here. There must be a reason exists for everything, always.

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Things be putting me in a tight corner yet I chose to keep my tongue tied ‘cause every time I let my mouth speak on behalf of myself, it will make me feel like wearing my heart on my sleeve and I genuinely dislike the idea of being read like a book. / You know when your heart feels like cannot hold it anymore, yet you are too afraid to pour your heart out. It just feels safer to hide things behind this curtain and walk around with a mask on. Things will get better as time flies, anyways.

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I believe that the best parts of having a birthday are to have the chance to reconnect with the people I once was close with in the past, to be in touch with those who have been lost in sight, and to relieve the sense of longing I did not know exist for both them and the memories that are engraved in my mind.

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“Why does it feel like I've known you for ages.” Perhaps, I was the man who died in your dream, the one that haunted you in one and all of your nights, the one you wanted to kiss the death, the one you wished to forget.

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To see the flame that bore from my ungranted dreams, I know it is a grave of ash and a land that is drought where I will be buried. / And, if I were to die tonight, I hope it is just a deep slumber that I will have, and a land of dreams where I will stand; a kinder place little me constantly wished to be in.

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I remember watching MuMuHug as a kid. My aunt used to always take me to a DVD rental station and she rented me everything that I wanted including this cartoon! Insane how time flies really fast, I was still a child who did not even understand how to read, and now I am an adult. You know, MuMuHug has forever held a special place in my heart as my beloved source of joy, besides My Little Pony and Dora. This cartoon really has this simple story that just wraps you up in warmth and comfort while also giving you a much dose of fun at the same time. <3

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We don't have to live according to what people tell us to. We are the ones that own our lives so let's just put those yap aside and live the life of ours to our best. We will forever be loved for every reason that exists, regardless of anything.

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I hope in peace our grief will vanish, I hope in joy our tears will diminish, and I hope in gratitude and love our neverending misery will perish. Cheers to all the wounds that slowly healed and to all the moments that we used to cherish. Things will get better as we wish.

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Your love belongs to you alone even when nothing else in the world does, it will forever be all yours; for when all else fades away, within you, love will stay. Thank you for choosing to love again even when there is no reason to. You are so loving.

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LITERATURE; Fyodor Dostoevsky: The Idiot. / Franz Kafka: The Metamorphosis. / Brontë Sisters: Jane Eyre, Wuthering Heights. / Sylvia Plath: The Bell Jar. / Emily Dickinson: Because I Could Not Stop for Death and Hope is the Thing with Feathers. / Jane Austen: Pride and Prejudice, and Emma. / Arthur Conan Doyle: Sherlock Holmes Series. / And of course, Edgar Allan Poe: The Black Cat, The Pit and the Pendulum, The Raven, And The Tell-tale Heart.

SINGERS; Mitski, Iron & Wine, Novo Amor, Bon Iver, Angelo de Augustine, Bambi Baker, Men I Trust, Beabadoobee, Clairo, Cocteau Twins, Ricky Montgomery, Taylor Swift, Gracie Abrams, Laufey, Soko, Stephen Sanchez, Sleeping at Last, and many more that are yet to be revealed.

SERIES; Gossip Girl, Modern Family, Game of Thrones, Gotham Series, 1899, Dark Series, Gilmore Girls, The End of the Fucking World, et cetera.

MOVIES; Good Will Hunting, Dead Poets Society, Before Trilogy, Forrest Gump, Monster (2023), Abbas Kiarostami movies, Saving Private Ryan, The Pale Blue Eye, A Man Called Otto, Fast and Furious franchise, Enola Holmes, The Shawshank Redemption, Little Women, Flipped, The Virgin Suicides, 10 Things I Hate About You, et cetera.

OTHERS; Mumuhug, Scooby-doo, Thewizardliz, TEDTALKS, My Little Pony, One Piece, Black Clover, Bungou Stray Dogs, Kimetsu No Yaiba, Attack On Titan, Owari No Seraph, Ghibli Studio movie, et cetera.

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Afraid not of the death for they are your most loyal friend.

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I was once a wanderer howling in storms

Who is broken and tortured by the disbelief

Was once a lily that torn by the torments

And I am dead ever since, forgetting how to life

But, you are here, my dear, dwelling in this turmes

Letting my soul rise, paint me a breath, bringing me alive

Hold my warmth and keep me safe in your arms

Eyes closed, mind solaced, now dies the grief

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Don't you find it saddening how you'd live your life never knowing someone loves you so deep?

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If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver If only I am braver

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And if you ever lose your cheer, come and whisper your fear to my ears. Do not hold your pain too tight, let it fall. Do not hold your tears, let them go. Fear nothing for I am an anchorage for you to anchor in.

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They said life lasts long but why does mine end so fast? It feels like just yesterday my lungs long for a breath still, how can I be dead in just a blink of an eye?

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I hope my love can reach you before my eyes can even capture the sight of you, my dear, future lover.