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Just throwing this out there. It was in my notes and has been for a few years and I have yet to actually write it. So if by some chance someone wants to write it or knows a story like this. PLEASE GO FOR IT AND SEND ME A LINK 😭

Fandom: Supernatural

Characters: Dean, Sam, Benny, Cas, OC's and other canon characters welcome.

Ships: Dean/Benny, Destiel, Destiel + Benny whatever floats your boat. Just no wincest.

Plot:

Set in the correct universe, but not entirely canon? In the sense that everything is somewhat normal. But Benny isn't dead. He came back from purgatory with Sam.

Sam still isn't a big fan of Benny, so Dean doesn't talk to him a lot. But he tries to find a balance between keeping Sam happy and also being there for his friend who is clearly struggling with life here.

Dean was out by himself one night and stumbles upon a case. He tells Sam he'll be home later. Doesn't tell him that he's hunting, he makes up some lie. He and Sam were probably fighting earlier. He'd rather be by himself than deal with Sam right now 😭

Well, Dean doesn't show up later that night. It's been hours and Sam is panicking.

Dean wakes up the next morning with very little memory of what happened. All he knows is he was hunting a vampire...and he woke up covered in blood, his stomach hurts he's so fuckin hungry...and he's terrified because he's sensitive to light and can hear things so much better. Better than he'd like, he can hear someone's heart beating, blood pumping from a mile away...he knows one thing for sure is he was turned last night...

But he doesn't know if he can be cured, cuz he doesn't remember if he killed someone/ate someone or drank blood or anything...

He was going to call Sam, but he's kinda embarrassed. He wants to just kill himself now... especially when he finds a dead body nearby and they were clearly attacked by a vampire.

Dean kills the vamp that turned him... but not in time before they force blood down his throat... there's no going back...

He calls Benny first. Not Sam. Benny was in the area, he was supposed to be visiting him anyway...and when Benny finds out...he makes it his top priority to take care of Dean. He says Dean doesn't have to die. They can work with this... but Dean doesn't *want* to do this. So now Benny is trying every thing he can to convince Dean he doesn't have to die... but they might end up both dying just to live in purgatory forever 😬😬

Sam doesn't find out for like a few weeks and he's obviously losing his shit. Because I just can't imagine Sam genuinely being chill about this. Sam would be looking for his brother. Eventually he finds him and he's upset that Dean's just been out with Benny.

Bonus points if the only reason Sam found out Dean was a vamp is cuz Benny told him.

If no one writes this, then maybe I will eventually get around to it. Thanks for reading. Sorry the idea is so long. I needed to add more detail otherwise it's too vague and might not get what I want exactly.

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in 2025 let’s bring back being enthusiastic on ao3. leave a comment on every chapter. leave kudos and, if necessary, leave “double kudos” in the comments. tags and notes on bookmarks. the whole nine yards. let’s show fanfic authors how much we love them.

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I need people to talk more about Dean and Garth's relationship in Supernatural. (Maybe they're already talking about it, but I want them to talk about it with me.) I think I've been thinking about this more in my current rewatch because my brother-in-law loves Garth so much (as he should), but honestly, I'm always thinking about it at least a little bit.

Y'all, that man named his twins after the two people Dean Winchester loves most in the world. I know it was played off as a joke that it was Sam and Cas instead of Sam and Dean, but it is actually so serious to me. The respect that Garth holds for Dean and that Dean comes to hold for Garth is something that I think is rare and valuable for both of them.

I know Garth gets away with a lot because he's just a Silly Little Guy and people don't always take him seriously, but the way that he and Dean interact is actually such a good example of a healthy platonic relationship between two men. I think Dean could have seriously benefitted by spending more time with Garth.

Their relationship is also such a good control to which we can juxtapose Dean's obviously-more-than-just-friends relationships with men on the show.

For an example, Dean and Garth hug in literally every episode they have together. Twice in 8.06 Southern Comfort and 15.10 The Heroes' Journey. And they're not all just casual greetings or farewells. Garth hugs Dean because he's a hugger but also because he knows Dean needs physical comfort and isn't getting it elsewhere (the hug at the end of Southern Comfort being a good example of this). Their hugging also demonstrates a level of increased comfort with each other (mostly on Dean's end) as their relationship develops, with the first one in 7.08 being awkward and not especially well received by Dean, and Dean eventually being the one to initiate in 9.12. But it's not romanticised or sexualised because they're so clearly not romantic or sexual.

Cas, despite being in almost 150 episodes and being around for three more seasons than Garth, and being Dean's "best friend", hugs Dean seven times throughout the whole show, which is literally THE SAME NUMBER OF HUGS. We see the same number of Dean and Garth hugs as we see Dean and Cas hugs. The difference is that when the two of them (Dean and Cas) hug, they tend to cling. They hold each other. They are physical with each other constantly in other ways, but don't bring each other to touch so fully except when they can excuse it with grief over one of them imminently dying, the relief of one of them narrowly escaping death, or some similar stakes. It means something more when they hug.

Even looking at Dean and Benny, we can see that their hugs follow a pattern more similar to Dean and Cas than Dean and Garth. They hug twice in Benny's seven episodes: once when they make it out of Purgatory and once before Dean kills Benny, sending him back to Purgatory. Both of these instances fall under near-death/escaping death scenarios. And Dean spends a lot of time intentionally distancing himself from Benny (largely because of Sam), but when they are together, they display a certain degree of physical closeness (not to the degree of Dean and Cas but, really, who does) that Dean and Garth don't have.

There's more to be said about how the absence of this intimacy in Dean's homoerotic relationships is a tool of his denial and obviously hugging is only one metric by which we can compare these relationships, but that's all for now I guess.

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The Handmaiden’s Tale

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thinking about destiel and their relationship with their fathers in law is really funny to me because john winchester would absolutely HATE cas' presence and importance in his son's life meanwhile chuck is obsessed with dean in a very twisted way

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Dean getting Cas back and then immediately getting to act out his cowboy fantasy is just top tier

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you think just because you're gorgeous that means you don't have to drink water?? pssh, think again, bub. you really thought just because you're smart and beautiful and loved that means you don't gotta drink water. ridiculous.

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Sometimes I think I hate the SPN finale and then I remember that Jensen initially fucking hated it so much that they got Eric Kripke to gaslight him into thinking it was good. Only for him to immediately go off and create/produce/act in a spinoff series after the show ended all so he could fix the shitty writing. No one hates the SPN finale like Jensen Ackles hates the SPN finale.

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It's okay to feel sad over the holidays even though other people are happy, celebrating and expecting you to be happy. You don't have to feel happy. Life is shit sometimes and we're allowed to be upset about it. Even if it's "the most wonderful time of the year."

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Sometimes I remember that Dean and Cas would have little movie nights together just the two of them and I want to beat my skull in on the countertop because that’s such a darling detail that doesn’t add to the plot, it’s only purpose in being mentioned was to show how close they actually are outside of hunting

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I think the funniest thing about Dean and Cas has got to be that they were in a relationship for years yet none of them seemed to realize that. That is objectively quite hysterical.

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I really miss how fun McDonald's used to look inside. It's so boring now. 😭