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Tried writing a poem, cried a lot, but felt a little better

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I don't understand that you're gone.

May 22, 2025

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Because even the sad songs sound happy when I'm with you.

I love you.

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Sadness and grief is all I have to keep you close to me. To prove you existed.

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There should be streets filled with paintings of you.

I love you.

February 12, 2021

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August 28, 2023

The seasons keep on moving ; They'll never stop And you're gone.

It's like the world is spinning, It's taking me with all its power, flushing time and space together And still there's nothing here?

The songs will still play, Always to be listened to. But you're gone.

The clock makes little sounds for each second A new possibility, like a little flower, I could take care of, Like a little wave of energy to my day

And you're gone. And I'm not doing anything, for anyone, not for myself, Not because you are gone, rather cause I don't want to The goal is fading and I don't want to reach it. I am defeated.

And then I think about the insects and the music and then I think about you! But then… I think about other things.. and they win over, because I am defeated.

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Wish I could walk out but so many people care

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There's so many tears in my mind

That my brain has drowned

My body's muffled in an invisible pain

A pain that'll stay for a lifetime

I can't feel my body or my hands

I do feel my cold feet, it feels like they'll never get warm again

It's kind of funny

Lost in the thoughts, obessions

Compulsions

Scared of every possibility that life has to offer

Scared of being evil even when I try my best

Sometimes I ask myself how did I get so paralyzed

I'm just stuck in my mind

And that's the tragedy

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There's something about love that you never knew

How much it hurts ; not because of loss

But because when you truly love

You have to heal

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The past I never even was aware of

Controls the most vulnerable parts of me

In ways I hate, it shows myself

Under a despicable light, all my demise

How do I love myself when I'm just the same?

I'm aching and losing touch of myself

Everyday more and more towards peace

So why does it seem like it'll never end?

My own thoughts, feelings and pain is betraying me

Who can I trust when I can't even trust myself?

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Chadd’s Ford by John Milner Architects [671x996]

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Cottage on Great Barrier Island, New Zealand [1500×1000]

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Kitchen and eating area, framed by a large glass wall, opens to a courtyard in an eighteenth-century weavers’ cottage in Wiltshire, England. [980 x 1298]

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Unique, colorful and interesting apartment complex in Guizhou, China. Photo by Jordan Hammond. [634×768].

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Pause here for a mental refresh. 🎶

Play Song

Escape

Enjoy

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Because even the sad songs sound happy when I'm with you.

I love you.