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Reblog if you wish cancer didn't exist.

Only a sick bastard wouldn’t reblog this.

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“I đavlu je ponekad hladno.”

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Ne diraj to mesto. Probudices uspavanog demona.

Vanshni

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Daj mi intelektualno. Daj mi karakterno.

Daj mi orginalno. Daj mi domišljato.

Ja nisam lak. Ja neću lagano.

Daj mi da se zaljubim u tebe.

Ne u tvoje tijelo.

Daj mi da se zaljubim u tvoj um.

U tvoje želje i strahove.

U ono što najviše želiš i ono čega se najviše bojiš.

U tvoje snove i ciljeve.

U ono o čemu sanjaš, a bojiš se da ne izgubiš.

Daj da se svađamo,

jer ne mislimo isto dok istim pravcem hodamo.

Da se mrzimo,

jer se toliko jebeno volimo i ne možemo jedno bez drugog stajati.

Kamo li postojati.

A ne da se mrzimo, jer volimo druge.

Daj da ne mogu prestati misliti o tome o čemu ti razmišljaš.

Da me tvoje riječi proganjaju cijeli dan.

Da jedva čekam noć da legnem kraj tebe.

Ne zato da spavamo zajedno,

nego samo da zaspim kraj tebe.

Daj da nam bude komplicirano,

iako želimo jednostavno.

- Balašević

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Plivaj nazad ka obali ne spasavaj davljenika.

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What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

but you killed everyone else around you too. 

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“Reče volim te i hitro me poljubi i snažno zagrli svojim malenim rukama oko vrata… Znao sam… Nikad se nećemo odvojiti… Volim je… Volimo se… I to je dovoljno da bi bili srećni.”

- Meša Selimović

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Jedno drugom svemir.

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Kakva pizda od muskarca treba da budes da provodis vreme uz neku devojku samo da bi “imao” devojku, a to sto je ne volis i ne cenis ma to nije vazno, bitno je da se vidi da imas tu neku kvazi devojku i da si zapravo dvolicno govno najvece od coveka.

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Ne možemo normalno da se pogledamo, oboje počnemo da se smijemo. I zato je ona… Ona.

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U zivotu upoznas ljude

mnogo ljudi

Sve one iste

Iscupane iz kalupa

Pustis ih u zivot

i oni te ubijede

Da sreca ne postoji ako nije materijalna

Da ljubav mora da boli

Da ce te svi izdati

Zabosti ti noz u leđa

Kad Tad.

Ubijede te da je glupo biti drugaciji

Ubijede te u suprotno

I ti postanes kao i oni

Samo obicni izrezbareni kamen

A onda

Onda upoznas nekog ko te smiruje

Nekog na koga si slab

Nekog ko jednim pogledom moze proizvesti 101 oluju emocija.

Nekog zbog koga ti srce zaigra

zbog koga pocnes disati drugacijim tempom.

Nekog ko te povede u nove avanture protiv svijeta

Nekog za koga mislis da je drugaciji

Ali

Prije ili poslije

I on te napusti

A ti ostanes onaj isti kamen

Onaj isti dragulj

ali bez emocija

Jer ipak

Covijek vremenom potrosi emocije na pogresne ljude. 😌🌹

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Pitali su me.

Voliš li je?

Naravno.

Odgovorio sam.

Kako da ne volim nešto malo crno što uđe pod kožu i onda ti od ljubavi ne da mira.

Pitali su me

Šta najviše voliš kod nje?

Njenu dobrotu.

Rekao sam.

To nije ona prosječna dobrota. Ona ne samo da čini dobro, ona misli dobro svima, što je teško, teže no što možete zamisliti.

Šta najviše mrziš kod nje?

Nastavili su.

Tvrdoglavost.

Odgovorih.

Kada joj pokušam pomoći, a njene male, nježne ruke odmahnu kao “Mogu ja sama!”, bez obzira da li je u stanju to uraditi.

Tri najljepše stvari na njoj.

Oči, ruke i crna kosa.

Ne želim objasniti.

Voli li te?

Pitali su me.

Naravno.

Odgovorio sam.

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ako ikada osjetiš da sam ti daleka,

da se gasim

sjeti se

onoga što si učinio nakon što sam te prvi put poljubila i rekla “ovo je greška”

(primio si me u svoje naručje,

cijelu sakrio u sebe,

rekao si:

“ovo što sada držim u rukama je

moje i ne dam to

nikome

ovo što držim u rukama mi je

slaba točka”

i nisi puštao)

sjeti se, bebo

i učini to opet,

molim te

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živiš.

Imala sam prijatelja hah, ne mogu bas reci prijatelja jer ga nisam pretjerano poznavala. Imala sam poznanika. Nismo se bas druzili previse, nismo provodili vrijeme zajedno. Ne sjecam se ni da smo progovorili koju rijec. Sve do rođendana nase zajednicke prijateljice. Bili su najbolji prijatelji. Kao i nas dvije. Taj dan, tih par sati, voljela bih vratiti. Voljela bih da sam mu rekla neke stvari koje tada nisam imala hrabrosti. Voljela bih da se mogu vratiti, i pruziti mu ruku u znak prijateljstva, a ne izbjegavati ga. Voljela bih da mogu vratiti vrijeme, da mogu ispraviti neke stvari. Bila sam grozna osoba. Grozno sam se ophodila prema njemu. Prema svima uopcenito. A svi su se na njemu izivljavali. Bio je tiho dijete, mirno, povuceno. Zracio je nekom vrstom dobrote, koju je u danasnjem vremenu tesko pronaci. Na taj dan, taj rođendan, vrijeme je stalo. Pricali smo kao da se poznajemo godinama, a ustvari jedva znamo ime jedno drugome iako smo zivjeli kuca do kuce. Skola je zavrsila, stvari su se promijenile. Ja sam se promijenila, prije svega. Htjela sam da ispravim neke stvari, ne samo sa njim vec sa svima. No, okolnosti su bile drugacije. Javili su mi da je mrtav. Tumor. Tih par minuta se oduzilo kao cijela vjecnost. Bio mi je drag, ali to nisam pokazivala. Dok vam se ovakvo nesto ne dogodi, nemate nikakvih obrazlozenja da pricate o tezini zivota. Nemate pojma kakva ogromna mrlja na dusi bude kada, taman kada odlucite da promijenite stvari, ta osoba nestane. Po facebooku i instagramu su poceli citati "Kad izgubis druga to je nesreca, to je tuga od svih najveca." Postavljale su osobe koje su ga najvise maltretirale, koje su mu unistile zivot. Maske jos uvijek nisu pale. Zapitam se ponekad, sta bi bilo da sam od samog pocetka bila uz njega, da sam mu pokusala pomoc. Da mu je neko drugi pokusao pomoci. Sta bi bilo da ga nisu maltretirali, da mu nisu otkrili tumor, da je zivio sretnim zivotom kao svako drugo dijete. Da li bi bilo drugacije? Da li bih se ja osjecala drugacije?

Jedino sto znam jeste da, kada vam se takvo nesto dogodi svijet pocinjete gledati drugacije. Pa Boze svi smo ljudi, bez obzira na nacionalnost, ime, boju koze. Ljudi smo. Zasto vec jednom jebeno ne prestanete siriti mrznju? Kako vam nije mucno od nje? Zamislite kako bi bilo da niste ono sto ste sada. Ljepse je zar ne? Sirite ljubav ne mrznju.

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100 Reasons NOT To Kill Yourself

1. We would miss you. 2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. You are amazing. 9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better. 10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead. 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive. 12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died? 17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again… 19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. Listening to incredibly loud music 21. Being alive is just really good. 22. Not being alive is really bad. 23. Finding your soulmate. 24. Red pandas 25. Going to diners at three in the morning. 26. Really soft pillows. 27. Eating pizza in New York City. 28. Proving people wrong with your success. 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. Being able to help other people. 32. Bonfires. 33. Sitting on rooftops. 34. Seeing every single country in the world. 35. Going on roadtrips. 36. You might win the lottery someday. 37. Listening to music on a record player. 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower. 39. Taking really cool pictures. 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. Hearing crazy stories. 42. Telling crazy stories. 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know. 45. Travelling to another planet someday. 46. Having an underwater house. 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. Trampolines. 50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again. 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke, 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. People do care. 54. Treehouses 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees 56. I don’t even know you and I love you. 57. I don’t even know you and I care about you. 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. Starbucks. 62. Hugs. 63. Stargazing. 64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is. 65. You’ve changed somebody’s life. 66. Now you could change the world. 67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you. 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life. 70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. Making snow angels. 72. Making snowmen. 73. Snowball fights. 74. Life is what you make of it. 75. Everybody has a talent. 76. Laughing until you cry. 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist. 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive. 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero. 82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. One day your smile will be real. 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. Eating crazy food. 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. Sleeping in all day. 90. Creating something you’re proud of. 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends. 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate 94. Sherlock season three. 95. Cuddling under the stars. 96. Being stupid in public because you just can. 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen

IF that isn’t enough:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696 Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433 LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255 Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386 Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743 Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438 Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673 Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272 Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000 Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253 Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453 UK Helplines: Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111 Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600 Drinkline: 0800 9178282 Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614 India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669 Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7 suicide hotlines; Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430 Australia: 13-11-14 Austria: 01-713-3374 Barbados: 429-9999 Belgium: 106 Botswana: 391-1270 Brazil: 21-233-9191 China: 852-2382-0000 (Hong Kong: 2389-2222) Costa Rica: 606-253-5439 Croatia: 01-4833-888 Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67 Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908 Denmark: 70-201-201 Egypt: 762-1602 Estonia: 6-558-088 Finland: 040-5032199 France: 01-45-39-4000 Germany: 0800-181-0721 Greece: 1018 Guatemala: 502-234-1239 Holland: 0900-0767 Honduras: 504-237-3623 Hungary: 06-80-820-111 Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90 Ireland: 1800-247-100 Israel: 09-8892333 Italy: 06-705-4444 Japan: 3-5286-9090 Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292 Malaysia: 03-756-8144 (Singapore: 1-800-221-4444) Mexico: 525-510-2550 Netherlands: 0900-0767 New Zealand: 4-473-9739 New Guinea: 675-326-0011 Nicaragua: 505-268-6171 Norway: 47-815-33-300 Philippines: 02-896-9191 Poland: 52-70-000 Portugal: 239-72-10-10 Russia: 8-20-222-82-10 Serbia: 21-6623-393 Spain: 91-459-00-50 South Africa: 0861-322-322 South Korea: 2-715-8600 Sweden: 031-711-2400 Switzerland: 143 Taiwan: 0800-788-995 Thailand: 02-249-9977 Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800 Ukraine: 0487-327715 Uruguay: 095 73 8483 You will be missing out on every single wonderful thing yet to happen to you.

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