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4 hours and 32 minutes Call 🥰

Friday (March 26, 2021)

‘Continuation of Rest Day’

This is one of my favorite day this month. I got the chance to talk with my crush and do academic work with him. We started around, 12:45am and ended at 4:45am. I didn’t expect he didn’t slept for 4 days because of academic work, I wanna go to his house and give him some food in McDonald’s because I know he’s craving for burger and fries but he lives far away. Also we planned on meeting the next day to play in the computer shop. I felt so special when I’m with him, Is the universe giving me a sign? I hope so. Please God, give me the chance to be with him. 

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Rest Day 🤩

Thursday (March 25, 2021)

No classes today because we deserve to take a break and prepare ourselves for Holy Week next week. I did nothing the whole day, I just took a nap, watch TikTok videos, scroll in my social media accounts, and check on my friends if they’re okay. 

It was already night time, me and the boys decided to call and do our activities together. Suddenly, me and my crush were the only one left in the call. I decided to tell him call me in my profile, because our other friend is sleeping already....

TO BE CONTINUED............. 

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Last day of Examination 🥳

Wednesday (March 24, 2021)

Finally! It was the last day of examination. After the stress of studying at night and would wake up forgetting it makes me wanna cry. 

I checked the schedule and I saw our exam in DRR was only 1hr and 30 minutes. I already answered it for 40 minutes became I was scared the form might close and It won’t be graded. 

After the exams. I took a nap to recharge myself. I double check the To Do List in google classroom and I saw I have many missed activities. Oh Well, Time for me to do it so I won’t fail this 2nd semester.

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2nd day of Examination 📚

Tuesday (March 23, 2021)

I haven't still received my permit and I was getting worried already because my professor's might not record it and might fail me in the end.

I took the exams without permit because I don't want my grades to get deducted. After the exams, I just sleep.

My mother had to wake me up to come along with her in the office and she needed help from her paper works as well.

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1st day of Examination 💀

Monday (March 22, 2021)

I haven't reviewed my notes for the exam, but I'll just use my stock knowledge and what I've understand in the lesson. I was happy our examination in Literature was due next week and I have time to review from the other subjects to catch up. Me and my boy bestfriends decided to voice call and review for the next subject.

After the first day of exam, I decided to sleep and review at night time to prepared for the next day.

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Lazy Sunday 😩

Sunday (March 21, 2021)

I stayed in my bedroom the whole day and slept as much as I want. My family asked me to join them to eat lunch, but I decided not to because I don’t have the appetite.

Our exam is tomorrow I haven’t reviewed and my sister haven’t paid for my tuition. 

During the night time, me and my boy best friends decided to call and check one another since we haven’t seen each other for a while. I had fun talking to them, until my mother called me to attend the online mass with her. I still wonder why we have to attend the online mass so late even though we have a lot of time in the morning or noon.

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Goodbye 8 Stitches 🤕

Saturday (March 20, 2021)

Last night, me, my sister, and her best friend decided to go out and play the whole night come home in the morning. I can already walk well but I can still feel the ache and pain in my left knee, I hold on to my sister’s bestfriend while walking just in case I don’t stumble. As we reached our destination, the gate was locked and luckily our friend was already upstairs waiting for us. But another person opened the gate because that person was already leaving. We decided to play for 4 hours, I ordered some snack for me to stay awake. After for 2 hours I was kind drained and bored. I let my friend play my account in Genshin Impact since I’ll take a nap and wait for their time to finish. 

It was already 5am, we were done and we walked home. I fell asleep for 4-5hours and woke up 12 in the afternoon. My mom told me to prepare because we were going to the hospital so the nurse can remove the stitch in my upper right forehead. I took a bath, but I was kind a slow because I’m not used to it. After taking a bath, I decided to wear some baggy pants, I’m still ashamed people seeing my wounds. I put band aid on my other wounds in the right elbow and hand since it’s too exposed and it might get infected.

As we arrived at the Naga City Hospital, we patiently wait for the nurse. I heard that one nurse saying “isn’t that the girl who got an accident using a mountain bike?” ha...ha... very funny. I wish I return the favor by saying “aren’t you the nurse who fainted in the station?”. I requested to say how many stitches were already cut because I was anxious. When he already cutting the 5th stitch, I screamed out loud because It was painful, but the nurse apologized for being clumsy. As the 8th stitch was removed, I felt relieved. My mother asked the nurse about the symptoms after the accident because she was concerned it might show up after. But the nurse clarified it to her the symptoms will show up on the 3rd day, such as puking, dizziness, blurry vision, out of balance, and non-stop headache. None of those symptoms showed up, I was considered lucky. Thank God I won’t make my mom spent 6,000 pesos for my CT scan to know if there is a problem inside my brain. I am still adjusting without the gauze covering my forehead. The doctor did a good job actually stitching it, the scar wasn’t obvious and I can cover it with my bangs. Oh well, lesson learned and I should be careful next time.

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Rejection 🙃

Friday (March 19, 2021)

Our class moderator sent a message in our group chat that we should pick a partner for the activity later, I tried asking my crush. I want to know him more, but I felt he doesn’t want to talk to me. Class already started and he wasn’t there yet, I tried calling him but he didn’t answer. As he entered in the meet, our class moderator was already making breakout rooms for every partner. I was waiting for him to do the first move but he didn’t, I guess he’s mad at me for disturbing his deep slumber. Instead, I choose another partner. Francis is one of my closest friend in class as well, he’s not really my human diary but he was the 1st person I told that I have a crush. I felt sad my crush didn’t picked me, I guess the universe already gave a sign which is a big slap on my face. 

When me and Francis already entered the breakout room, we really didn’t talk about the activity. But our lives and he was in Lucena, Quezon Province. Imagine he travelled far despite the pandemic we are facing right now, what a brave soul. I told him about my crush and he gave some little advice, It was helpful and I calm my anxiety. Lucky to have a friend like Francis.

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Disturbance 🙄

Thursday (March 18, 2021)

Today was our retreat, I have to wake up early because it starts by 8am until 4:30pm. I didn’t go downstairs to prepare myself but I opened my laptop and logged in the zoom meeting. I thought the retreat only in our section, but nope, we were mixed with the other 2 sections from my strand, which is HUMSS, and other 2 section from STEM. I listened to the program, but I was distracted by our group chat because my classmates were saying something funny and sending epic pictures. When we were distributed in our breakout room, there is this one person I hate to be with. He was my former classmate in grade 11, his perspective are different and sometimes he doesn’t think before speaking. During the sharing, we talked about what courses will we take for college, what are our plans in life, what did we learn from the retreat. We were 6, but the rest of the 2 members were not talking and sharing, understandable because not all students have stable internet connection. 

We took a 1 hour break to eat our lunch, and I return into the meeting after. I watched TikTok videos while waiting for the others to come back. As the afternoon program started, 1 of our members said something offensive which made everything awkward. I told it to my classmates and they were mad. Me and the other active member talked and he said he wasn’t comfortable as well. So we decided to be silent and do nothing. I didn’t enjoy the retreat because of him, he was so insensitive. 

After the retreat, I fetch my mom in her office. Me and my best friend scolded our former classmate for being insensitive about earlier. Some of them agreed on my opinion, and it was nice actually. I hope men like him would grow up and stop being a pervert.

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Drawing ✏

Wednesday (March 17, 2021)

Another day to start over again. Little by little I’m recovering from the injury, the ache and pain is slowly fading and I don’t feel tired. I woke up 8am since I have a class to attend by 9am. I took a bath, It feels weird touching the stitches while cleaning it and It really feels numb. After taking a fresh bath, I wore my clothes and check what time is it. it was already quarter to 9, I opened my google classroom and enter the google meet, I send the link so my classmates would enter the class. While listening to my professors discussion, I decided to cook my own breakfast. I don’t want to attend classes with an empty stomach and for the sake of my anti-biotics. We were discussing about the answers of our summative test, I tried reciting even I know there were mistakes. At least I tried and we learn from our own mistakes. I kept checking If my crush was already In the meeting, he was late but at least he attend classes and I know how annoying their internet connection is. After the 1st subject, I decided to take a nap since my next class is 1:30pm. I dreamt about my crush, we became lovers and our relationship was healthy. I wish that would happen in real life, but I know I’m not his type because he sees me as my closest friend.

It was already 12 noon, I woke up and ate l lunch and prepare myself for the next class. I listen to chill music to help me meditate and to release negative energy so I can concentrate during the lesson since our Midterm examination is already next week. I reminded my eldest sister to tell my papa about it and she should ask for the payment of my tuition. As I check the time, It was already 1:20pm. I check if the google meet was already active and it was, I sent the link to my classmates. After a minute I saw Father Principal entered the meeting, it was unexpected which made me panic. During the lesson, I was in charge of listing down who recited in my group, I felt proud of my groupmates because they were active for the sake of the points. We got the highest points when our groupmate answered our professors name correctly. After class, I told my professor what happen during the accident and I might submit the summative test late because I am still recovering. After I left the meet and take a nap again.

As I woke up, I watched TikTok videos, and I remember my best friend, Beasue, for giving me a pizza last Sunday to cheer me up. I decided to draw her. After tracing it, I colored it and showed it to her. She was happy and I told her I’ll give it to her when we meet again. Suddenly, I drew my crush. I chatted him first, our last chat was the day I got an accident. He asked how my condition is, I screamed from so much joy. I showed him the drawing and he was amazed and told him I might give it when we meet next time.

After for how many hours, I receive a call from our group chat. I was happy hearing my crush voice once again. But I got scolded because I was being too impulsive to come along and they know I can’t walk properly. At least they cared about me and grateful having them both as my friend.

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Lazy day 🥱

March 16, 2021 (Tuesday)

I slept by 11:30pm last night and woke up 9am, I still feel the ache and pain but this is temporary. While waiting for my 11am class, I suddenly missed my friends, I wonder how they are. I see our group chat was filled of pictures of them together, I envy them. 

Our class has received an announcement from our professor that he won’t be able to discuss due to personal concerns. I felt sad because I willing to listen in his class, I find his topic cool even though it’s just a minor subject. 

I just lay in bed the rest of the day, watched TikTok videos and after I fell asleep. As I woke up, I remember I should drink my anti-biotic, I hope my mom won’t get mad at me for being forgetful.

As I check my to do list in google classroom, I see I have a lot of missed activities. I feel so irresponsible for not doing it earlier. I lack of motivation, I was still down because my crush isn’t talking to me anymore. I hope he’s okay and we’re still friends.

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Deep Slumber 💤

Monday (March 15, 2021)

I woke up 6 in the morning, I can’t move my body due to the aches and pain from the bike accident happen 2 days ago. I can still hear my scream for help because I was abandoned by the people I call so my friends, which they weren’t. As I went downstairs to eat my breakfast, I drank my anti-biotic because I was doing what the doctor says so I can recover quick.

It was already 7:15am, I opened my laptop and waited. As I logged in, I went inside the google meet and sent the link to my classmates so they can enter class on time. I ask authorization to my professor not to turn on my camera since I am ashamed of my appearance, she asked if I was okay and what happen, I wanted to cry but I don’t want show to everybody how weak I am. I told her I am not yet ready to talk about the incident due to the trauma. She understand my condition and told me I could rest in her class if I can’t endure the pain.

During her lesson, I unexpectedly fell asleep due to the pain killer. I woke up by 9:35am, I felt disappointed to myself. So I decided to email my other 2 professor to excuse myself in their class. I cannot endure the pain, I cannot think but only the trauma all over and over again. After I emailed my professors and classmates that I won’t be attending classes, I fell asleep again. 

I woke up 12 in the afternoon, ate my lunch and drank my anti-biotic again. I went back to my bedroom, slept once again. I woke up 3 in the afternoon, it was my last subject. I noticed my professor didn’t check the email, I have no choice to tell him before he starts the lesson. As I explained and showed myself why should I be excused, he grant me to leave his class. Finally, I can sleep again.

All I did the whole day was sleep, knowing I’ll be left out in class. I trust the heavens they’ll give me the strength and guidance for me to have a positive mindset while recovering.