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hi i don't think / dont know if i have an ed but i do eat weirdly i hope this ask is allowed :sob:

eating issues culture is taking one bite of my very delicious food that i love and putting it down to get a drink and then looking at it and suddenly. i want to throw it away even though im STILL HUNGRY.

sigh... the only thing safe is premade storebought ready to eat stuff...

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ED culture is how have I went two months binge free just ruin it all because McDonald's brought back spicy chicken nuggets

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Arfid culture is getting upset when I lose a safe food or my brain introduces a new rule. Apparently peas and rice (which are both safe foods) aren't allowed to touch on the plate. This rule only used to be for beans with anything else, but I lost beans as a safe food anyway so it doesn't matter. Why can't I just eat what's on the plate

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Ed culture is feeling like I'm not valid because all the ed content I see is about ana and I have arfid

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ED culture is "where did that bruise come from?..."

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ED culture is having a family vacatioj soon and worrying on how to restrict when the country dosent mandate cals on menus

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Ed culture is my goal weight is 13 bmi and I KNOW that's bad, I know that's unhealthy, but anything higher feels like a disgusting number

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Ed culture is spending several hours in the hot sun bc the car broke down and feeling guilty for eating when I got home, & still being hungry and feeling guilty for that

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ED culture is I feel like I'm the only restrictive ed'd person who just cannot fast to save my life 😭 (Furthest I've gone with like almost 24 hours but I couldn't make the Mark because it got so bad with the migraine getting worse than I'm used to and I just broke it by eating a packet of fridgr raiders and then I just went to bed and felt bad because I couldn't even go 24 hours)

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Ed culture is I miss the weight I was when I was 13. I was still too heavy, but now I'm heavier. I want to be the weight of my 13 year old self if not skinnier

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system introject + ed culture is realizing that you struggle a lot more than anyone else in the system and wondering why until you realize that your source most likely has an eating disorder and making the connection that the brain probably took that and made you a symptom holder for the disorder eating 🥲

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Ed culture is do my vitamin gummies break my fast do my vitamin gummies have too many calories am I fucking up taking them

Answering for real anon, your vitamins and other pills DO NOT BREAK YOUR FAST. Not taking them actually damages how well your fast works, PLEASE take your vitamins and pills as needed!!!

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ED culture is why does the idea of losing my fertility because of this make me happy and not scare me

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Possible / probable ED culture is feeling your struggles with eating are invalid because they fluctuate and sometimes you can eat no problem and other times you can't at all, and also because your body image distortion has always been that you're too thin rather than not thin enough

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(slight vent I guess?)

Disordered eating of some nature culture is your doctor telling you you've lost weight and being concerned about it because you "don't have weight to lose" and you're now nearing a low bmi weight

and on the one hand being freaked out about it and trying to fight back the old thoughts from years ago where you were convinced you were getting too thin and were certain you were skeletal no matter how much you tried to eat,

but on the other hand being glad that finally after years of struggling with eating and even frequently having to skip meals because of being unable to eat anything that people are finally starting to take things seriously and are doing more than just saying "you need to eat"

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Autistic person with restrictive ED culture is so all of my autism safe foods are also fear foods for my ED due to calorie count so what the hell do I eat?

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Ed culture is my daddy is so worried and concerned about me, I feel terrible. But I can't stop, I can't, I just can't. I'm dizzy, and nauseous, and weak, and I feel prideful about it. But hes so scared, hes so concerned, and worried. But I can't stop. This means its working

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