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idk if you're still writing the post-cemetry scene fic with pining eddie (idk if i'm describing it right) but i would love to hear more about it/see a snippet or too if you feel so inclined 👀

someone asking about angsty pining fic in the month of our lord april 2024? this was such a lovely surprise 😭 i'm gonna be honest with u anon i'm likely not going to publish 911 fic again BUT because you asked so nicely i'll give you a few older snippets from my draft:

Eddie sighs, breaking the stare. “You have a key, you know,” he says finally. “Feel free to come join me whenever you want.” He turns on his heel and walks back inside to finish his goddamn brownies, leaving Buck standing in the doorway.  It’s silent for a few minutes. He’s in the middle of measuring a tablespoon of espresso powder when Buck steps into the kitchen and shuts the door behind him. Eddie feels the weight of Buck’s gaze on him as he folds the powder into his brownie mixture, but he doesn’t turn to meet his eye until Buck speaks.  “Is that…” Buck falters. He clears his throat. “Is that my recipe?”  “Yeah,” Eddie says gruffly. “Chris asked me to make it. Said he wanted to share it with his friends when they come over tomorrow for their playdate.”  Buck snorts. “Man, you can’t call it that. Chris nearly bit my head off last time I tried. Kept reminding me that ‘playdates are for kids, Buck,’ and that he’s not a kid anymore.”  Buck emphasizes that last bit with air quotes, and Eddie can’t help but grin at that. But his smile fades instantly, remembering the somber look on Buck’s face when he’d opened the door. He highly doubts that Buck came over just to commiserate about the trials and tribulations of watching Christopher grow up.  Eddie bites the bullet. “Why are you here, Buck?”  Buck shifts nervously. He shrugs and looks away from Eddie. “I — I don’t know what to say. I don’t know how to answer that. You’ve never asked me that before.”  Eddie scrubs at his face. “I've never had to ask you that, Buck. Things are different now. You’ve been busy.” 

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“Wow,” Buck says acidly, all traces of heartbreak gone. “I’ve never heard that one before.”  Eddie frowns. “What?”  “Really, Eddie?” Buck’s voice cracks on the last syllable. He shakes his head. “Unbelievable. Just — unbelievable.” “Buck — what are you talking about?”  “We were just trying to protect you, Evan," Buck mocks. "You were never supposed to find out. We kept it from you because we love you. Any of that sound familiar to you?” Eddie’s breath hitches on the word love, because he doesn’t know, he can’t know, but then —  Oh.  Fuck.

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Buck: We’ll get through this just like everything else. I promise. It’ll be okay.  Buck: Eddie, did you eat enough today? Should I come by and bring you some food? Buck: You know you’re still my best friend, right? That’s never going to change, Eddie. Never.  He reacts with a thumbs up or a tap-back heart on most of the messages, too exhausted to do anything else. He replies with a thumbs down to the message about food, certain that he wouldn’t be able to handle seeing Buck so soon. He knows he’ll have to face him in person eventually, but his tired, broken heart just wants to postpone it as much as he can.  The last one, though, is a balm that both soothes and agitates Eddie’s burning, aching heart, and he taps out a brief, Thank you, you too. Always, in response. It feels like too much and not enough all at once, and Eddie wishes once again that he was a little better at resisting Buck, that he didn’t feel that need to reply to his every message lest Buck worry even more about him. The only one he actually acknowledges is a message that comes in at 2:43 AM on Sunday. As he opens the message, Eddie absentmindedly wonders if Buck’s having a hard time falling asleep for the same reason as him. Probably.  It’s a link to a new exhibit at the Griffith Observatory, accompanied by a text that reads: Can I take Christopher here next weekend? Eddie squeezes back tears as he replies with a brief, Of course, and puts his phone down, letting the darkness swallow him again. 

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Hen beats him to it. “What happened, Buck? I thought you really liked her. Weren’t you planning to introduce her to Maddie and Chimney next week?”  “Not anymore,” Buck mutters. “I broke up with her.”  “What?” Eddie snaps head snaps up. “Why?”  Buck doesn’t meet his gaze, his lip quivering. The rest of their team is watching them, eyes darting back and forth, and Buck blinks hesitantly before swallowing down a sip of coffee. He wipes the cream off of his upper lip and looks Eddie in the eye.  “You know why,” Buck whispers. 

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Hi I would like to know more about your 911 Barbour thinking thoughts and ideas :3

Hi!!!!!!!!

So, I’m kind of turning all of this over with the idea of maaaaaybe writing a fic but let’s be real. I probably won’t. But, a cut for length

My vision is that at the end of this season we get Eddie breaking up with Marisol and some sort of confirmation to the audience that he has feelings for Buck, has probably known about them for a long time but pushed them down, but now he just can’t anymore. But, because of this recent episode uncapping the well on his Catholic guilt, he decides that he has to sort out a lot more stuff for himself before he could be a good partner for Buck. Maybe Marisol makes a dig about him being a bad boyfriend or something? I don’t know, I just know he’s going to be in a place mentally where he thinks if he tried to be with Buck now—if Buck would even want him back—that he would ruin it.

So we end the season with us the audience knowing where Eddie stands, but Buck does not. The season ends for him with him still together with Tommy and being happy to embark on a new relationship.

Now, season 8 starts, and they’re still together, still happy. We see Eddie working on himself, we see him in therapy, we see him tackling his religion and the way he feels about it and who he is. Ideally, we would finally get some kind of reckoning with Helena.

He’s also still friends with Tommy. And so I think we have this subtle story as well where he and Tommy have actually become very close friends. Maybe Tommy talks about what it was like to be closeted so long with him. I’m undecided if I think Eddie would open up about himself, just because I feel like he thinks if he did he would be so transparent about the person that has finally broken through all his walls to make him want to look at this part of himself and, well. That person is Tommy’s boyfriend. Who Tommy is in love with and who Eddie is beginning to fear loves Tommy back

Because they’ve spent this whole half a season developing a really good, happy relationship. Maybe around midseason finale time they start to talk about the possibility of moving in together. Maybe they’ve dropped the L word.

Midseason finale rolls around. Eddie’s spent the whole season getting right with himself, and comes out to Buck. But only about being queer, because he sees how happy Buck is, how happy Tommy is even! And who is he to tear that apart? But we the audience are left with the impression that Buck is unsettled by this in a way that will be clear to us is because he’s starting to question if what he’s always felt for Eddie is more than what he’d always thought

First or maybe second episode back we get some kind of small disaster that ends in Buck and Eddie being trapped and injured together somewhere they truly believe they have no hope of being rescued from. Think the well, but even more dire, somehow.

And Eddie, even though he’s sworn to himself that he was going to try to get over Buck, is now faced with both going to his grave never having told Buck how he feels, and letting Buck die never knowing that Eddie loves him so much.

And it won’t matter, right? They’re going to die here. You don’t have to be worried about the consequences of your actions when you won’t be alive for them, right?

So he tells Buck he’s in love with him. He tells him he’s been in love with him for years, that he’d lain in the street bleeding out reaching for Buck because he had always been reaching for him and will always be reaching for him.

And Buck’s sobbing, and angry. He’s so so angry. He wants to know why Eddie couldn’t have done this before they’re dying, done this before he has a boyfriend that he’s in love with. Because of fucking course he’s in love with Eddie. He thinks he’s loved him from the moment he set eyes on him and only loved him more every time since so why couldn’t he have done this when it wasn’t too fucking late

And then, before they can really reckon with this knowledge that they’re in love and it doesn’t matter because they’re going to die down here anyway. The impossible happens. They’re rescued. They’re going to survive

But it doesn’t change that Eddie’s too late. It doesn’t change that Buck genuinely loves Tommy, that they’re together, that they’ve been looking at houses

Except that, of course it does. Because Buck loves Tommy but he breathes Eddie

Breaking up with Tommy is probably the worst thing Buck’s ever done. It breaks his heart to do it, but it breaks Tommy’s worse. Tommy tells him he had a plan. Once they’d picked a place, on their first night there he was going to ask Buck to marry him.

Buck cries because there’s this beautiful wonderful man that wanted to give him everything he’s ever wanted, but he’s not Eddie. Buck tells Tommy through his tears that he wishes he’d met him first, before Eddie had grown up inside him like a vine, impossible to remove without tearing out everything else.

Tommy leaves. Buck tells Eddie he needs a little time. That he loves him but he can’t be with Eddie while he can still smell Tommy’s scent in every inch of his apartment. Eddie understands, and the next few episodes just have little moments where Buck takes some time, but then you can see them slowly circling closer until the season finale, when Buck kisses him

Then: 911 Harbour announcement. Lou Ferrigno Jr led spinoff. For me, I would like to see the show starting with Tommy being promoted to captain. We know Lucy moved to air support for more chances at advancement, maybe that’s a goal he wants too and he’s old enough for it. We know he’s jealous of the family that is the 118, so maybe there’s been some shakeups, and so some of his team are people he’s worked with for a while, but he also gets to bring in some new faces. Throughout the first season they form their own found family

I know Arielle has that surf rescue show coming this fall, but for my fun here, who cares? So she’s one of the leads as well, because I would love more Lucy, frankly, but I also think two familiar faces would be good.

I think Tommy’s story would start out with him just being both a pathetic wet rag of a man after having his heart broken by Buck, while simultaneously deciding that if he’s going to be single yet again he’s going to fucking enjoy it, so it’s obvious what he really wants is a forever kind of love, but he insists it’s not

As for that love, hm. I’m waffling on whether I want him to meet someone quickly that maybe he has a bit of a Meredith/Derek sleeping together before the first day at work and oops that’s my coworker kind of thing or maybe actually he falls in love with a dispatcher, and they do kind of what they were doing a bit with Buck and Abby but actually drawn out for a good chunk of time where they don’t meet for a while? Lots of places they could go with that!

Anyway I think they could do two or three crossovers a season where air support comes in to help the 118 with bigger emergencies, but then a few smaller ones per season as well. At some point, maybe during 911 season 9 or 10 and therefore Harbour’s 1st or 2nd, there’s some kind of situation that pulls him back into Buck and Eddie’s orbit, and they can make amends with him.

Anyway those are my ideas. If you read to the end of this, uh. Hi. Sorry I’m sure you weren’t expecting, well, all that

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watch eddie start to get tipsy and want to be so supportive of newly out baby bi buck that he’s like “let’s go find a lgbt party for you!!!” and then everyone at the party starts thinking they’re like together together (“you guys are such a hot couple!”) and buck goes to correct the first person who says it but now a slightly drunker eddie grabs him by the bicep and shouts “this is my partner buck!!! he’s bisexual!!!” and everyone just cheers and well… buck just forgets to correct anyone and that is how 50 or so people believe for the entire night that eddie and buck are getting married to each other because they keep talking about a wedding and their son and they’re touching and beaming and radiating love.

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eddie smiling at buck as he djs and one of the drag queens leans over and goes “you two are cute together” and it’s loud right so surely eddie didn’t hear that correctly so he goes “what?” and she goes “you and your boyfriend. fiancé? you guys are cute together” and eddie’s blush deepens and he’s too wasted to remember his smile’s supposed to falter and buck’s the most beautiful thing he’s ever ever ever seen and he’s not his but eddie can pretend he’s also not anyone else’s for just one night so he smiles and goes “oh, we’re not together” because eddie’s not a liar and the drag queen raises one perfectly arched, disbelieving eyebrow and hands him another shot

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Inspiration Saturday ✨

Tagged by my lovelies: @theotherbuckley, @dangerpronebuddie, & @hippolotamus :)

I really don't have much in terms of inspiration because this week took a lot out of me and left me in a rough place today. But I wanted to make something so here's a little something something to combat the hate coming towards BuddieTommy as of late and the ridiculous messages I've seen towards my fellow authors who are writing for this amazing OT3.

If you support this pairing, maybe check out my collection Buck's Boyfriends 🩵

And if this isn't your thing, then keep on scrolling and have a lovely day 😘

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i started this as a joke wanting to recreate the eddie still as a renaissance painting and then.... i made this.

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i dont think we fit on the bed

buck/eddie/tommy | 7,4k | explicit

“So, which one is it going to be, Evan?” Tommy asked, rubbing himself on Buck’s ass, but not quite giving him anything. Buck made a confused sound, so he continued, “Which one of us is gonna get to fuck you today?”

He groaned, the phantom pleasure a bit overwhelming. Eddie cupped his jaw, running his fingers through his hair while he decided. It’s not like it was ever an easy choice. It usually led him to picking the one he hadn’t last time, but this time…

“Both,” he muttered, and he felt both of his boyfriends tense at the answer. “However you want it, just— both.”

OR: Stablished buddietommy takes the day off. (Includes Tommy and Eddie taking care of Buck in various ways + a little domestic fluff).

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kiss it when you're done by bigfootsmom on ao3

bucktommy • explicit • 2.3k

“Yes, yes— Tommy, please! Please please pleasepleaseplease—” Buck babbles, begging with a ruined voice for Tommy to come inside of him.  Tommy starts pulling away, cold air rushing in between them as he sits back on his knees. Buck panics, stomach flipping as he flails out, grabbing at Tommy’s arms and squeezing his legs around him.  “Wh–what are you doing?” He cries out, looking at Tommy with wild eyes as he tries to keep him close.  “Evan—” Tommy’s voice is strained as he holds himself perfectly still, a knot of concern forming between his brows as he swallows. “I’m gonna— baby, I’m not wearing a condom.”  Buck is not a fan of the pull out method.

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stuck now so long, we just got the start wrong

aka rival firefighters 🚒 | buddie | chapter 2/10 | Explicit

Eddie’s just finished helping load up the last patient into the 118’s ambulance, Wilson already in the front with the engine running and ready to go, and Han in the back, settling in beside their patient, when Buckley finds him again.

“Diaz! Are you a match? Because you ignite a fire within me.” Buck says, stupid cocky smile in place.

“Are you a smoke detector? Because you’re really loud and annoying.” Eddie shoots back, way too mentally worn out from triage to go another round with Buckley.

A loud laugh rips out of Wilson, echoing through the cabin while Han laughs so hard he almost chokes on his gum. Once Han’s recovered, he wipes his eyes, looking at Buckley and wheezing out, “Oh my god you can’t be serious?”

Eddie uses the question as his chance to slip away and make his way back to his own team. Only for Buckley to call out to him not even seconds later.

“Hey, Diaz!”

So close. He was so close.

He comes to a stop but doesn’t turn around, not wanting to give Buckley the satisfaction or whatever.

“I hate it when you go! But I love to watch you leave!”

Eddie shakes his head and can’t control the huff of a laugh that breaks free. This guy really is something else. Eddie doesn’t even bother with giving him the finger or retaliating, just continues walking until he’s back with the 136.

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cowboy buddie for @exhuastedpigeon for being the nicest and sweetest to me. they have a fic in the works that i just know will SLAP. so go to her blog and make sure to check that out <333

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FUCK IT FRIDAY!!

Tagged by @tizniz @shipperqueen6 @thekristen999 thank you 💜💜💜

putting the F in our Friday again as for reasons (aka @stagefoureddiediaz ) I was reminded of this so in my eternal battle to bring 911 fans into the dragonhold or weyr I offer art and smut to start the weekend from to To Fly The Skies 60K

The gap between them makes him ache, it feels too wide after what they just shared. Buck slides closer, slowly because he feels oddly shy right now. Eddie continues to smile softly and reaches out to take his hand, fingers brushing his knuckles in a gentle caress. It makes his heart flutter, Buck’s eyes drop and focus of the slow movement, his heart is beating faster.

“I’m glad you’re home.” Buck’s voice is soft and quiet, he lifts his eyes to meet Eddie’s and ends up caught there, just looking at him, wondering how this happened to him. How he got to have this man. 

“Me too” Eddie matches his quiet tone not looking away.

“And we’re good now?” Buck checks, biting on his lower lip nervously. Eddie lifts the hand not holding onto Buck and frees his lip from the anxious nibbling, “you’ll hurt yourself like that” he mummers, thumb now running gently across the reddened skin, Buck lets his mouth relax, his breath quickening at the look in Eddie’s eyes.

“Yes we’re good,” he starts to push Buck backwards  “and we have some time before Chris will be back. If you can think of anything we could do?” His eyes crinkle as he says it and Buck’s hit with a wave of love and affection, it’s coming from both of them, flowing freely in both directions.

Buck laughs, as Eddie pushes him lower, he lets himself be pressed flat onto the bed, “cool, did you want to get some chores done” he smirks at the look he gets “cos I kinda need to tidy up round here.”

“Shut up” Eddie tells him fondly, as he leans further forward, hands on either side of Buck’s head, swinging his leg over so he can straddle Buck.

Buck likes the direction this is going “You going to make me?” he challenges teasingly.

”Maybe” Eddie’s voice is deep and holds a promise Buck is very interested in investigating. He can’t help notice how the muscles of Eddie’s arms flex as he gets slowly closer controlling his decent carefully until he’s lying flat on top of him, their  bodies pressed together. Buck shudders at the relief it brings, Eddie’s a steady reassuring weight holding him down, enveloping him, with their chests pressed together like this their hearts are aligned, beating so closely to each other. He feels a little dizzy at the thought as he lifts his head up, silently asking to be kissed.  Eddie obliges, dipping down to close the tiny gap left between them, taking Buck’s lips softly with his own, moving them slowly over Buck’s. He teases and pulls at the sensitive flesh gently until Buck’s moaning softly, moving with him. Eventually Eddie pulls away lightly nipping at Buck’s now swollen lip. He sits up moving his weight in just the right way to make Buck groan louder and move his hips in response.

Eddie looks flushed, his eyes bright in the dim room but he chuckles. “You have missed me huh, if a little kiss can get you all worked up like this.” Buck attempts an outraged glare because he says it as if Buck can’t see how hard Eddie is too, as if he isn’t sitting there with a wicked smile as he rocks his hips gently, moving against Buck sending little jolts of pleasure through them both.

Then Eddie rubs against him harder and Buck arches up stifling another moan he manages to say “want me to show you how much I missed you?”

Eddie keeps up the steady rhythm and Buck’s needy whine finally slips out.

“Oh I can tell baby” Eddie sounds extremely pleased by the fact and by the way Buck suddenly gasps out his name.

“Tell me more” he says his voice becoming rougher, letting his own need start to show. Buck knows how much Eddie likes it when he talks in bed, what it does to him. He’s happy to oblige.

“That first night I was so cold without you,” Eddie leans back down to start work on Buck’s jaw and neck, it makes it harder to concentrate but Buck makes the effort, “couldn’t sleep, wanted you to keep me warm.” Eddie hums next to his skin asking for more.

“Missed you arms, your hands” his breath stutters as Eddie’s mouth makes contact with his chest, clever fingers having unbuttoned his shirt without him noticing. Eddie runs his fingers over muscle and sucks marks onto his body then soothes them with kisses. Buck arches up with breathless gasps that pushes his hips forward.  He’s stopped talking so Eddie prompts him “what else did you think or” he hums against his skin, runs the flat of his tongue over Buck’s nipple “do while I was gone?”

Buck gathers himself and continues “Thought about you, things you’d do to me if you were there. Thought about this, your mouth all over me” Eddie grazes his teeth over Buck’s nipple making him hiss in pleasure. “Yeah like that, made me hard Eddie just thinking about you. Wanted to touch myself” 

Eddie sounds cool and collected when he asks “Did you?”

“Tried to be good and wait but I couldn’t, felt so good, not as good as your hand, still wished it was you”

He’s aching now dick trapped in his trousers straining for release.

“Show me” Eddie pulls away, and Buck can see he’s not calm at all, he’s flushed and his eyes look almost black, his desire clear in his heated gaze.

Now Buck’s got room to move, he misses Eddie’s warmth but he makes quick work of his clothes. Eddie’s still dressed, sitting next to him, his eyes burning as he watches Buck revel more and more skin until there nothing left to remove, Eddie takes a deep breath, “Shards you’re so ….” His hand traces across his body, chest, stomach, sliding his hand past his hips to linger over the strength in his thighs, his hand roams freely but he doesn’t touch the one place Buck wants him too. 

Eddie’s watching him intently eyes dark and hooded. “Show me” he asks again then comes back to press soft bites into the flesh of his neck up to his ear, making Buck whimper, he whispers  “don’t rush baby take your time.”

Buck’s eyelids flutter shut, his hands traces the outline of his cock, he lets his fingers drift lightly up and down, he’s only starting to tease himself. He can hear the hitch in Eddie’s breathing and opens his eyes to see him staring down the length of his body, he’s transfixed by the sight of Buck’s hand sliding up and down. Buck wants to push them both a little further.

“I touched myself like this, thinking about you, wishing it was you.” He lets his grip get firmer he wants a little more, he moans at the feeling and at the thought that Eddie’s watching, enjoying what he sees, getting harder. He can feel him against his leg, a firm solid line, he smiles when he starts to move, rubbing himself against Buck’s thigh. He’s trying to be quiet but he’s not doing very well. Eddie shifts slightly Buck doesn’t realise where his hands have gone until he feels a finger slide between his legs to circle slowly around his entrance, 

“Did you touch yourself here too? Imagine me here?” 

He had but he can’t say it because Eddie fingers have pushed in a little and taken his words away.

“Buck?

He’s panting now, feeling a little desperate “yeah yeah I did, didn’t feel like this, more, please.” The last word comes out as a desperate moan. Eddie gives him more, pushing in again but only a little, teasing him more than anything until Buck’s a shivering mess within a few minutes.

Eddie’s voice pulls him out of the wave of sensations “I wasn’t planning on fucking you Buck, was planning on riding you, make you come like that but now I can’t choose.” Buck can only gasp, Eddie has two fingers in him and it’s not enough,

“both we could do both” he stutters out. Eddie laughs, “so greedy” he kisses him and slides his fingers out, keeps a little pressure there so Buck twitches trying to get them back.

“No, you look so good, sound so needy, I think I’ll fuck you” he sounds so casual, like they’re discussing what to have for breakfast and he’s not driving Buck out of his mind. Buck’s nods to show he’s on board, he can’t talk because Eddie’s other hand is in his mouth fingers sliding in and out. Buck’s playing with them with his tongue, moaning around their thickness thinking about Eddie’s cock in his mouth instead. “You look so ready for it baby, is that what you wanted while I was gone, my cock in you making you come?

Fuck it was, and it sounded even better now it was Eddie suggesting it while his fingers are dipping back in stretching  him, when Eddie lets his fingers slide from Buck’s mouth over his throat and rests his hand above his heart, Buck quickly makes it clear what he wants. 

“Please Eddie can we, will you? I want it.”

Eddie moves, grabs the salve they use for just these occasions and with one quick pull brings Buck to the edge of the bed leans over for more kisses as unbuttons himself, uses the salve with more teasing fingers and then lines himself up, bending Buck’s knees, and slowly so slowly pushes in. The long slow slide makes them both moan and Buck’s hands grasp at the covers of the bed.

Eddie keeps his pace slow, enjoying Buck’s increasingly frantic noises, his words of encouragement to go harder, faster, he doesn’t listen, trying to make this last. Buck’s hands seek and find his own cock and start to move around it, firm hard strokes, he doesn’t want to wait any longer, with each stroke he sounds even wilder, until it’s too much temptation for Eddie and he does what he Buck’s begging him to do, increases the pace and is rewarded in a few moments with increasingly frantic moans.

”yeah Eddie just like that,” he’s panting and gasping, getting so close “harder, there, yeah, that’s it I’m so close, he lets out a strangled whimper “ yeah, there ah, you’re gonna make me come, yes” he can hear his own ragged breathing as the words peeter out and become a long high gasp as he comes with a bone deep shudder. Eddie watches wide eyes tracing the evidence of Buck’s pleasure spread out all over his chest and with only a few more thrusts joins him with his own soundless gasp.

Once their heartbeats settles they rearrange themselves. Eddie pulls Buck in close, kisses him starting between his birthmark and the thread score that’s healing.

Buck mummers “welcome home” and Eddie smiles into the kisses he’s leaving against Buck’s face.

It is very good to be back.

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Fuck it Friday-- Repost

Like others, I started reminiscing about fandom around the time of the shooting and decided to re-share my story:

Trying Hard to Remember, Trying Hard To Forget

This is thorough, painful examination of the healing process using the dichotomy of Eddie not remembering the shooting while every second was burned into Buck's memory. It's a brutal look at the slog-fest of injury recovery and emotional trauma.

Snippet:

The last bandage covered most of Eddie’s right side and Buck stood there studying it, his breathing a little harsher, his fingers trembling until he shook his hand to still them. “Sorry.”

“It’s okay,” Eddie said, leaning his left hand against the edge of the sink. He’d have to sit down soon, but he needed to see this through.

Taking a deep breath, Buck removed the tape, revealing an eight-inch line of staples running from below Eddie’s armpit to the back of his shoulder.

Eddie bit his lips, looking at them, imagining what the ER doctors had to do, swallowing against the sudden feeling of awed horror. “I was told the surgeon only broke one rib during the procedure. They managed just to spread the others without causing additional fractures.”

Buck swallowed, his voice low. “To repair the lung?”

“Bullet nicked the upper left lobe after it damaged the thoracoacromial artery going in.” Eddie swallowed, looking at Buck in the mirror, suddenly understanding what the chaos of the scene had to be like, knowing the procedures that had to be performed to save him. “You must have gotten to the ER like in….”

“Four minutes,” Buck said with a shuddery breath. “We got there in four minutes.”

Eddie swallowed, because it hit him now, how close it’d really been, how even a minute or two later and it would have probably been too late. He’d had a hemopneumothorax and suffered a great deal of blood loss. Or that was what the doctor told him. Because anytime Eddie tried to think back to it all….

He stared at his reflection, at all the healing wounds.

“Thank you, Buck.” It sounded so damn inadequate to Eddie’s ears.

“There’s nothing to thank me for.”

Eddie stared at Buck in the mirror, at the sincerity in his eyes, the rawness there making Eddie’s heart pound. “I’m here because of you.”

..

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—just a little something i wrote a few weeks ago to go with episode 7x4 🫶🏼

rated: g | words: 2.3k | read on ao3

summary:

A heavy sigh fell past his lips as Buck let his head fall into his hands where he was rested over his island. He’d never meant to hurt Eddie, and he felt awful about it. All he’d wanted was to get the guys attention. He’d gone about it completely the wrong way though; he hadn’t needed Maddie to tell him for Buck to realize that.

It was just that—well he was jealous. Of what though, he wasn’t sure.

—or—

After his lunch with Maddie, Buck goes to see Eddie. Feelings realizations ensue.

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