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I may tweak this a bit, buuuuuuuut...

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Life has been a lot the past six months. A few downs here and there, but mostly on the up. I've been popping in and looking at this blog from time to time, so I'm hoping I may be able to write here soon. 💖 Just had to get back into the space to do it.

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Angela Carter, from "The Lady of the House of Love" in The Collected Stories

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XAL'ATATH, the Harbinger of the Void

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I kind of want a new icon set for Even in Arcadia...

But I don't want to make it. DFGKJGHSDFJKGHD.

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TELL ME WHAT YOU MEANT BY "LIVING PAST YOUR HALF LIFE."

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Small update: Partner is doing well! He had his (hopefully) last ot appointment this upcoming Friday and will be properly 'discharged'. I'm back at work, which is kicking my ass, but is way more fulfilling than the stuff I was doing this time last year. So we are onwards and upwards as always. ✨

Activity here will forever be slow but I appreciate people for sticking with me.

I AM NOT DEAD BY THE WAY. I am still looking after my partner post-op. I hope you're all well. 💖

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I AM NOT DEAD BY THE WAY. I am still looking after my partner post-op. I hope you're all well. 💖

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✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐌𝐀𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐃𝐄𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐒 . ( a collection of dialogue prompts based on varying types of demands &. requests . adjust phrasing as necessary . this prompt WILL likely be updated in the future . )

don't say a word .

don't leave me here .

meet me at our spot tonight .

follow me and stay close .

don't beg , it's pathetic .

can you ( tie / zip ) this for me ?

stop lying to me . tell me what you did .

put that down , you don't know what it ( is / does ) .

get out of my sight .

stop pretending you know what's going on .

find a first-aid kit . quickly !

don't get yourself killed .

leave them to me , just go .

just admit that you love me .

just admit that you hate me .

come here , let me look at you .

( name ) , don't make me do this .

drop your ( weapon ) .

stay here and wait for my signal .

don't just sit there , move .

take this and run , don't let anyone have it .

pretend you're my ( partner / girlfriend / boyfriend ) .

don't look , you'll give us away .

don't say another word .

stop pretending like you care .

go make sure the coast is clear .

take this with you . it's a good luck charm .

don't tell anyone about this .

if anybody asks about today , lie .

stop looking at me like that .

tell me you love me .

just kiss me , already .

keep your eyes on the road .

stop crying and calm down .

come with me . there's so much we could do .

wear the ( dress / tie / item ) i gave you tonight .

show me how you like to be touched .

hold my hand .

kiss me , make it look real .

look at me . how many fingers am i holding up ?

will you marry me ?

just slow down for a minute . what's going on ?

take a deep breath , you need to calm down .

get out of here , ( name ) !

draw your weapon .

go rest . i'm not asking .

take a step back .

give me a straight answer .

be polite to our guests .

look me in the eye and say that again .

put your feelings aside for a moment .

keep close to me .

here , let me see that .

look up at the sky .

get out of here , i don't want to see you right now .

stand up , this isn't over yet .

close your eyes and count to ten .

smile for the camera !

keep your head down .

( name ) , let me past .

listen carefully to what i'm about to say .

don't just stare , come in .

stop laughing , this isn't funny .

take this and hide it .

don't make a sound .

put your hands up .

quit causing problems everywhere you go .

just admit that you don't know what you're doing .

stop right there , i mean it .

don't say that name aloud .

just trust me , okay ?

stop acting so childish .

call the police . now .

tell me you love me , even if it's not real .

take a good hard look .

stop the car , ( name ) .

don't make eye contact .

stay out of trouble .

just do it already , we've waited long enough .

hold me tight , and never let me go .

finish what you started .

tell me what you know .

just stay away from me .

turn around . slowly .

don't be scared .

put it down before somebody gets hurt .

stop pretending , i'm tired of the pretending .

grab me my ( item ) , will you ?

don't make assumptions .

put this over it to stop the bleeding .

get to safety !

wipe that look off your face .

secure the area .

keep an eye on them .

look at yourself in the mirror .

run . run and don't stop .

eat . you haven't touched your food in days .

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𝕄𝔸𝕂𝕀ℕ𝔾 𝔻𝔼𝕄𝔸ℕ𝔻𝕊. A continuation of this.

𝐃𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐔𝐓𝐄𝐃?

Of course she does, the simulacrum reminisces: sixteen years old and parents dead; the unwitting fool to a broken socket and a wide-eyed sister carrying their father's dilapidated toolbox in her right hand; when the wrench was turned wrong, the wires gripped too forcefully, the power escaped—jaw clenching, teeth curling, muscles contracting ( how do you scream when your body cannot fathom the sound? ), the witness to an ambivalent force that cared naught for whether you lived or died.

It flashes bright. Lightning. A momentary luminance on a world besieged by darkness—a demonstration of power, fleeting and ephemeral—she'd always been preoccupied with the second, ignoring magnitude of the former. It fades away.

STARE AT THE MALEVOLENT GOD WHO REVILES THE LIGHT, who stole Hope in the din as he batters the world with wind and water. He who sends you down like a bolt upon his enemies like a spark against dead grass; the fire that burns until there is nothing clean and pure and good—will you only see when the inferno is burning? Will you look only when the world is ash?

Do you remember being electrocuted, @oeidn? Do you remember? It feels like this.

❝Puh-lease, like you don't know who I am.❞ A petulant retort, the thief that swaps the sorrow for a tricker's smile and an accusatory finger pointed to the other like a weapon. ❝I'm the mirror of a dying world. Unlike you, I've had time to get acquainted with this place and aaaaall it's little idiosyncrasies. Can I tell you a secret?❞

Her hand brushed over the apex of her lip, quelling her counterpart's retort. She'd tell he no, she always did. No matter the fear, joy, anxiety or strife. So many little vulnerabilities.

❝Yusnaan thinks they throw good parties, but they're so last century. I reckon it's Snow fault, y'know? Blah, blah, blah look how cool I am when I know I'm secretly a failure blah, blah, blah. His heart's not in it. I reckon we should go together, you and me. You do you—something like the little one-two pow!—and I'll show you both what fun is.❞

Little fists thrust against the air in a mimicry of her violence, her smile twisting after a beat. ❝Unless you do hate me, which would make you a liar. But we've all had to tell lies at some point, right sis?❞

❝I bet it comes second nature to you now.❞

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I had to put an order in for my hay fever medication because my nose is killing me today. Once it arrives and I feel more human... it's over for you all.

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While I'm going through the Kingdom Hearts series again (and crying at reCOM because fuck I hate the card system), I am diametrically opposed to the way the game(s) frame Kairi as a McGuffin at best and a hopeless damsel at worst. You mean to tell me that a tomboy growing up on an island where her friends play-fought with balls, jump-rope and wooden swords, who was fully ready to sail the seas with her best friends, doesn't know how to fight? A girl that, if given the opportunity, would have absolutely made Yuffie/Leon (or both!) teach her applicable battle skills to defend against the heartless? I can completely understand from a gameplay perspective why she wasn't included—even if I don't agree with it given the companions you get in each world—and from a story perspective why Sora asked her to stay behind given the weeks/months he had to fight and improve while she slumbered... but to frame her as 'getting in the way' does a disservice to the both of them when I fully believe Kairi can and would kick both his and Riku's butt if push came to shove, she just didn't need to prove it to them in that way, and she has too much self-determination to just stay behind in Traverse Town while Leon and the others left.

As far as my canon for her goes, I Kairi went back to Hollow Bastion/Radiant Garden when Aerith, Yuffie and Leon did because it's still a home to her (even if it's not her true home anymore) to continue to assist the princesses in any way she knows how, clear out heartless and train to try and become as strong as the others. Like, I can even see the dialog the game would have her say; something like, 'Of course I came with them! Silly billy, did you even read the note Aerith wrote for you?' / 'Leon and the others are helping me train while we keep the library safe. Soon I'll be kicking your butt again—just you wait!' / 'It's strange to be back here. In my heart, our Island is home. But I still want to protect it. I really hope you find Riku soon.'

Obviously this is cut short with the conclusion of KH1 and Kairi goes home, but she would have trained up until the events of Castle Oblivion/her friends sinking back into day-to-day activities, school, etc. Once she does remember, she goes right back into it.

I don't mind the idea that she's not as well versed as the others because of her slumber/memory loss/etc, but I just... do not like the game's insistence she's hopeless and I want to rectify it in my canon. Does Kairi occasionally get tripped up in a real battle verses training? Of course, that's being human, and I do think that is taken advantage of. Is she so hopeless that Sora and co. turn around and she's passed out? No. I think she'd go down fighting (ha) in any scenario she's put against, and I feel like their enemies weaponize that in her and the boys innate need to protect her.

In the words of my partner and I, "Girls like Kairi are the first in, last out, clever as a whip, elbow them where it hurts." She's absolutely bit someone. To be honest, I reckon that part of her possessed Naminé  and she bit Ansem!Riku (to his mortification). Literally a case of "If I wasn't sure which Somebody you belonged to, I sure do now! Thanks Kairi!"

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Vanille: We've been together ever since I woke up. Lumina: Right. Thick as thieves.

LIGHTNING RETURNS: FINAL FANTASY XIII (2013)

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My baby is home and in bed. 💖 I'm not going to be doing much today because I want to be on call in case he needs anything, so I'll probably just send out prompts and the like. If you have one reblogged to the dash recently I've probably sent something, but feel free to like this post and I'll take advantage.

Specify muse, otherwise I'll take a gamble or do dealer's choice. :)

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Heading to the hospital! I'm not likely to be around much today (if at all), but I'll be posting updates of his progress to my bsky.

Oh, I should mention as well! My partner has bilateral carpal tunnel release + guyon canal release on the 8th (for me), which means he will be going into hospital and staying overnight. My activity may be non-existent that day and take a slight nosedive afterwards as a result while I help him with his post-op care. It's not super common for people to get both hands done at the same time, but we and the surgeon agreed it would be the best for his mental health to get it done in one hit than have the one where the experience of surgery and/or the recovery time may make him resistant to getting the other later on. He should be fine, he just needs to show he can feed/dress/care for himself after surgery and then he can go home. 💖

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VLADIMIR MY SKRUNKLY LITTLE MEOW MEOW?

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I made some modifications to my rules, btw! Nothing that needs a mandatory read; I just cleaned up some sections, added some clarifying details and fixed punctuation/grammar that I didn't like.