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Why does it still sting?

I thought I’ve moved on.

I’m supposed to be happy now.

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After a couple years the song “Exile” by Taylor Swift still hits me

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Today is the day I bury my mom. I’m not ready, it hasn’t hit me yet that she’s even gone. Is something wrong with me? I did not sleep at all last night; I was only able to close my eyes for maybe 20 minutes.

All of this is just making me look back on my life and I’m filled with regret. I’ve been changing but I have a lot of work still left to do. I just wish I had someone to support me. Probably my biggest regret is the fact that I’m alone and I have no one to blame but myself.

But that’s also my motivation.

#doitforme #doitformykids #justdoit

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I can’t sleep. I’m so alone in an empty apartment. I want my old life back. I want my mom back. I want Ashley and Emmy back.

I hate this. 💔 someone come cuddle me please

#Iwishyouwouldseethis #imissyou #inadownswing #EHP #ANR

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Not my mom please!

I love you so much mom! I’m sorry for the argument and I know you know that I love you and I know you loved me. You may be gone but you will not be forgotten. I will carry you with me, always as will Layla and Emmy. We will watch over the kids mom, rest easy, hug your mom dad and grandparents and everyone else that went before. Please give Ab and Pop my love.

I truly hope there is something after this, because I am terrified. My mom was one of the strongest people I know and she was my lighthouse. My beacon that guided me and always reminding me where home was. I’m fortunate to have lived with you practically all my life, but I shall miss you for the rest of it.

I love you mom, always have always will,

Your mommas boy,

Eddie ❤️ 💔

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I hate myself more than anyone could hate me

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I struggle but I continue

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Well that just killed me 💔

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Yea that killed me on the inside..I just want to be done..can I leave now?

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I hope 2024 is a better year for me. I don’t know how much longer I can do this.

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I’d give anything to hear you say I love you to me one more time..I probably never will and I blame myself. I’m sorry ______. I really am. I love you and ____ so damn much and I miss you every day.

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Please talk to me…I miss you so much 💔

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I need a sign.

I’ve been stronger lately, but I’m losing hope. Show me you love me, somehow, someway, I need a sign. A hello, a smile, something. I’d do anything. 💔

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Starting to realize you were fighting for us harder than I was. Things you were trying to get me to do was only your way of trying to fix things.

I was so wrong for so long and was in my own way and didn’t know it. God I wish I could go back and fix it.

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I’d do anything for one more chance to have my family back 💔

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Im fairly confident I wouldn’t be missed all the much

#almostdone

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I want my life back