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I hate myself more than anyone could hate me

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I struggle but I continue

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Well that just killed me 💔

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Yea that killed me on the inside..I just want to be done..can I leave now?

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I hope 2024 is a better year for me. I don’t know how much longer I can do this.

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I’d give anything to hear you say I love you to me one more time..I probably never will and I blame myself. I’m sorry ______. I really am. I love you and ____ so damn much and I miss you every day.

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Please talk to me…I miss you so much 💔

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I need a sign.

I’ve been stronger lately, but I’m losing hope. Show me you love me, somehow, someway, I need a sign. A hello, a smile, something. I’d do anything. 💔

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Starting to realize you were fighting for us harder than I was. Things you were trying to get me to do was only your way of trying to fix things.

I was so wrong for so long and was in my own way and didn’t know it. God I wish I could go back and fix it.

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I’d do anything for one more chance to have my family back 💔

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Im fairly confident I wouldn’t be missed all the much

#almostdone

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I want my life back

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I’m probably gonna miss her forever, aren’t I?

#biggestregret #ImFine🎶

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So I don’t come on much anymore but today has been a bad day. The last 2 years has been one giant rough patch. I’ve faced my demons and am still working on more. Recentlyvthough, I feel empty. I’ve realized my circle of friends has been reduced down to two good friends and maybe 3 acquaintances that I talk to on a somewhat daily basis. Also, I seem to see that no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to be good enough for people and man I’ll tell ya, that really takes the life out of a guy.

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HELP

I need somebody, help

not just anybody, help

you know i need some one

HHEEELLLLLLP

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. I cant wait until April when I get to visit some old friends in Indiana. I need some real friends right about now

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I havent been on here in a while..just popped on to get something off my chest. Today sucked..i had plans but of course they got crapped on and now im home alone. My daughter is with her mother and my parents r away for the weekend and i can honestly say ive never felt lonelier in my life. I miss having someone by my side that i can talk to and cuddle with. Tonight would be a great night to cuddle with someone. I hate feeling unwanted, but i feel like that feeling is all in my head sometimes but i feel like its with good reason.I just need some human contact.