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so everyone already has said this but i hate how they constantly leave hannah out of everything and treat her awfully just because she exists ^^ like she's not the one who lost her teammate and has the most reasons to be the one who should be part of the team And ban bacon (yeah zamwaffles are great but can we talk about crashouts and how their relationships evolved from mutual hatred to respect and love and bacon saying that the worst part about the warden project is leaving hannah?).

i really appreciate mapicc's efforts to include hannah and make her feel valued and welcomed on the team. like maybe she will have less reasons to betray if you treat her as an equal.

i hope next week she kills 6 people :3c and one of them will be derapchu :3c and she will be a strong beautiful girlboss with 20 hearts and a good team.

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yippee YIPPEE!!! Yippee! JUMPING INTO YOUR ARMS– wait no ok sorry just saying hello over here no no no I see you I see you yes yes yes happy happy happy yayaayayaa o yea pangi–

also tv brothers YAYYA i love them so bad

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the sillies but it's 48.9% pilukey and 48.9% pangkey

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Obviously, people love to speak about the constant back and forth banter Pangi & Lukey have, which is something that people know them for. When you ask anyone else about the two of them, they'd tell you about how they always bicker despite being tied at the hip.

They're known for their constant joking and being unbearable to be around, basically making every other person with them a third wheel, even when they're not actively flirting. They just can't seem to keep themselves away from each other, or mentioning the other even when they aren't around.

But beneath that, there's also a deep devotion to each other. Lukey willing to give up his life for Pangi, and Pangi wanting to do everything in order to keep Lukey safe. Even they themselves don't say these things out loud because that's not how their love works. It works through actions, being there when called upon, the way they easily give things up for each other if the other asks.

I think part of it is their strength. People don't actually know just how much they care for each other, just that they do care. But it's rarely something that they explicitly say.

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i love ur pangkey art more than anything else in the world. also, question. u draw them with matching earrings, do those represent something? or why did u add that little detail??. i just noticed and thought it was so cute :,)

emerging from under my rock. hello cooper and mika !!!! the earrings are jade stone that all honey badgers share in my drawings <33 because i am. normal ^-^ why jade? simply bc i like it <3 it's meant to purify your soul and all that jazz and god knows these mfs need it.

normally they wear the stone however they like but pangi and lukey is pangi and lukey so ofc they have to match. gayasses. ^-^

i hope this answers most of the questions, i got this ask once before too so i thought this time i'll simply draw it out! to make the little gnomes in my brain happy and to show you guys a proper visual :] honey badgers my absolute beloved, i love them all so much ;w; <3

but yeah! these are just my silly little headcanons and designs, i honestly just wanted to draw them all and this is the perfect reason for it LOL

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hey this is a PSA. to any non-lukey viewers/mains/investors who have seen a clip of his little cubito jumping and crouching and punching and just being so expressive. i just want you to know he is TWICE as expressive in facecam.

all within like. 2 minutes of each other max.

also pspspsps investors show us you're favorite lukeycam moments. there's a lotta good ones :3

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does anyone else think about ball pangkey every single day or should i just die . don’t think ill ever finish this but like Oh god my shayla

here’s what i Have of the full i just thought it looked better cropped

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i love ur pangkey art more than anything else in the world. also, question. u draw them with matching earrings, do those represent something? or why did u add that little detail??. i just noticed and thought it was so cute :,)

emerging from under my rock. hello cooper and mika !!!! the earrings are jade stone that all honey badgers share in my drawings <33 because i am. normal ^-^ why jade? simply bc i like it <3 it's meant to purify your soul and all that jazz and god knows these mfs need it.

normally they wear the stone however they like but pangi and lukey is pangi and lukey so ofc they have to match. gayasses. ^-^

i hope this answers most of the questions, i got this ask once before too so i thought this time i'll simply draw it out! to make the little gnomes in my brain happy and to show you guys a proper visual :] honey badgers my absolute beloved, i love them all so much ;w; <3

but yeah! these are just my silly little headcanons and designs, i honestly just wanted to draw them all and this is the perfect reason for it LOL

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DAILY AFFIRMATIONS

1. I AM A GOOD LITTLE LAB EXPERIMENT

2. MY SUFFERING IS FOR THE GREATER GOOD

3. THE SCIENTIST THAT EXPERIMENTS ON ME LOVES ME UNCONDITIONALLY

4. I LOVE GOING INTO THE TUBE/JAR/INSERT RELEVANT APPARATUS OF CONTAINMENT

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tr!zam and my personal trans connection

if zam (the content creator) is trans it's literally not my business i don't care this is about the character. okay.

with his recent addition to the realms smp, there's been a surge of trans!zam headcanons, in every way, but i'm rambling with primarily transfem zam in mind. this is also all my interpretation i just like to yap

none of zam's characters are explicitly trans, but i don't think they have to be to still be representation. throughout multiple smps, zam's character has brought a theme of identity with them. lifesteal s4 discusses values, s5 the exploration of identity, and both s6 and trsmp the journey of looking for a purpose. identity is so deeply interconnected with being transgender, it is the core of why the concept of gender goes beyond just a label. it is so easy to brush off zam's princess character as just a gimmick, but especially with the recent realm streams, i've found that as a transgender person, i deeply connect with her.

often, she discusses the sense of obligation she feels from being a princess. she has to be selfless. she has to dedicate herself to the yellow faction, because who is she without them? what is her purpose?

she seeks validation, both internally and externally of her identity, she looks to make people happy and takes their burdens as her own, she seeks to be equal to the people who she sees as "good". foolish, ros, and sneeg are three people who she often looks for some form of guidance, but the one she sees as the most equal to her is ros. she wants to be ros in the way that ros wants to be powerful- she wants to be cared for, she wants to be gentle, she wants to bring people together the way ros does.

she wants peace and the space to discover her purpose. how can she be equal to ros if she doesn't know who she is?

maslow's hierarchy of needs suggests that people need their basic needs to be fulfilled before they can reach a sense of self-actualization. following that theory, safety is the second need to be met in order to progress. if she lives in constant insecurity of her life, the lives of her faction, her friends, and the stability of the world she lives in, when does she get to advance onto making sure she feels like she belongs? when does she get to build her esteem?

tr!zam is a character constantly trying to find herself, her purpose, in a world where everything but her seems to be what matters most. with the amount of pressure put on her, everything- at least to her- feels like it will change with what her purpose is. there's pressure on her shoulders to help, but how does she balance both herself and the faction?

in my transgender experience, seeing tr!zam experience the same things i have felt like seeing myself on a screen. she had a similar personality to me, good humor, and she felt the same pressures i did.

when growing up and experiencing my identity, i was constantly afraid of coming out, both for obvious reasons and because i was scared of being "wrong". obviously, you cannot be wrong with your own identity, you can only discover new things about yourself, but the idea of coming out and then in 6 months to a year (or however long), saying "so, nevermind, this one fits me more"? i wanted nothing more than to be like my friends, the ones who knew themselves, who had that solid identity. and i saw a lot of that in tr!zam

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"you tolerate me and I couldn't be more grateful for that because there's not many people here who do"

oughhh lukeys so normalpilled. he's like why are you tolerating this horrible dynamic. I expect nothing from you but occasional company I enjoy you a lot and its unhealthy the way water expects you to spend your time.

hes encouraging bad to talk to water in an understanding way but to stand his ground, they're roleplaying as bad and water now as to how the convos gonna go and bads being silly about it and its so cute

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i want to write a whole analysis on this but like. just for now. i want you all to know I don't trust newt ONE bit. he might not be completely evil but the cute uwu softboy flower loving is SUSPICIOUS when you remember him and Lucas used to be complete mad scientists. "Lets run some tests, shall we?" <- NOT THE WORDS OF A SOFTBOY. DOES ANYONE HEAR ME

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do you guys ever think about how tr!lukey only ever known tr!pangi without his glasses. do you ever think about how from the moment they knew each other, pangi didn't have his guard up. do you guys ever think about how recently pangi started wearing his glasses again to conceal how bad his sickness/corruption is getting and lukey was surprised to see him like that. do you ever th

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raises my hand. what if pangi struggling with her gender and lukey doesnt quite realize that that's whats going on bc pangis being really vague about it. "i dont feel right in my body" "ok well yeah pangi youre corrupted it's ok. we'll fix that soon enough :)". just completely clueless

Ever since waking up in this realm Pangi felt weird. People acting like they knew him while he had never even seen them before, everyone telling him stories of his exploits when this was the first time he ever even laid eyes on this world, people telling him how he went to the ball - that apparently happened here on two separate occasions - in a dress and a bow… And that surely couldn’t be right. He couldn’t be caught wearing a dress, he couldn’t be caught liking flowers, that’s just not something he would do. Even on Lifesteal as a bit he had never worn a dress, so why would he do it here, and not once, but twice? It just seemed like a lie. A very nice lie, a lie that he wished could be true- but it wasn’t. It couldn’t have been true. He’s a guy, he doesn’t like all those girly things. He’d never wear a dress, especially not to a public event, nuh uh. 

And yet when searching through his enderchest, which was surprisingly full for this being his first ever day on the server, he found something strange. A pink bow. The same that Aimsey told him he was wearing during the first ball. Just a coincidence, surely, it was just there by accident. Why would it ever be in his enderchest? It just didn’t make much sense. He took it out to look over it, and it sure was the girliest thing he could imagine - a pink bow with some flower petals attached to it, made to fit perfectly on one of his head scales- a prank, surely. But it wouldn’t hurt to try it on…

Nope, no, no. He stopped himself centimeters away from putting the bow on his head and quickly put it back in the shulker, and shoved the shulker itself deep into the enderchest. He couldn’t be thinking about this right now. He couldn’t be spending time getting distracted with these silly things - he had the entire server to explore, and he heard something about Nirvana that lets you fly? Surely that is more interesting than some bow. Or a dress. Or a pretty blue cornflower that he gave away - despite desperately wanting to keep it. He shook his head, he was getting distracted again. Too much free time on this realm, back on lifesteal he always had to fear for his life and didn’t have time to think about these things, so why did he have to be stuck here with his thoughts? It just felt miserable.

When a couple of days later Pangi met up with Zam, he was stunned to see him- her. He couldn’t really bring himself to call Zam “he” anymore, it was getting difficult even back on lifesteal, but here? She was wearing a long dress, had long hair and spoke much softer, and it made Pangi rethink some things. He had been noticing Zam dress differently, more girly, on lifesteal more frequently than before, but it was a running gag ever since Kings- but maybe it wasn’t a gag at all? It almost felt weird. No, not Zam - with the amount of times she joked about wanting to be a girl, Pangi has long suspected it wasn’t a joke. But… For some reason it made him feel weird about himself. Zam was so comfortable wearing a dress here… Maybe Pangi did wear a dress back at the ball, too? He didn’t write it in the book, but it just… It just felt right. He wasn’t exactly sure why it felt right, but it did. It was confusing. He didn’t want to think about it right now. It was fine, everything was fine. He was still a guy, just curious about what he had looked like in a dress. It probably didn’t even look that good, and people laughed at him, and it didn’t matter, so why would he even try to look for those answers?

The thought lingered at the back of his mind, however, as annoying as a mosquito you just barely can’t get, and as Pangi was spending the entirety of today just building with Lukey, he couldn’t help but wonder if he might have some answers.

“Hey, Lukey? You went to the ball with me, right?”

“Yeah, I did! Pili asked me to go with, and even though I said no, you still killed me for that - and then had the audacity to ask me, then tell me I couldn’t go to not upset Ros, then get asked out by another guy and then go to the ball with the both of us. Why?” Lukey turned to Pangi with that same playfully mocking expression on his face that he had during at least half of their conversations, and Pangi almost regretted asking him anything in the first place, but he believed that Lukey wouldn’t lie about the dress - he lies about plenty of unimportant things, but usually tells the truth when asked outright. Usually.

“Is it true that I wore a dress? Someone told it to me on the first- well, my first day here, and I just want to compare the accounts.”

“Oh, yes, you certainly did! Beautiful red dress with gold accents, which was a nice touch - red is a very good color to hide wine stains, or blood stains.” Lukey nodded thoughtfully, closing his eyes as if to recall the details of that evening, stupid smile spreading across his face. Pangi hated that he could imagine that dress, he hated that he could see himself wearing it. Why would he ever wear it? Why did he want to imagine himself wearing it?

“Did… Did I look good in it?” Lukey paused after hearing this question, smile getting subtler, and tilted his head slightly trying to understand just what Pangi was asking. Then, he nodded knowingly, which looked even more annoying for Pangi than his stupid smirk, and replied:

“You looked happy. Well, for the couple of minutes before Pili and Zam arrived, that is.”

“That doesn’t answer my question and you know it!” Pangi was getting annoyed, his tail tip slightly vibrating as he tried to pry some answers from this guy who kept getting more annoying with every passing second.

“Everyone looks better when they’re happy, Pangi. That includes you. And yes, you looked great in that dress. And when you started swinging that axe, too? Oh, that was magnificent! What I wouldn’t do to see you like that again.” He was doing the voice. Pangi hated that voice. Well, he loved that voice, and he hated the fact that he loved it. 

But… The thought that he looked good in the dress… Ugh, it was so annoying. He couldn’t think about that. It just felt so right and so wrong at the same time. He hated it. He hated it so badly. Why does he have to deal with all this nonsense instead of being hunted down every waking moment of his life, like back of lifesteal? That was easier than being here.

“I just… I just don’t feel right, Lukey.” Lukey’s smile softened, and Pangi hated him for that. How dare he be compassionate. It all felt wrong. He hated everyone. He really should’ve killed everyone on this server, like he wrote in the book. He’s so stupid.

“Is it about the corruption, or… about something else?” Lukey’s voice was soft, and the hand he put on Pangi’s shoulder made Pangi want to throw up. He hated everything. Why was everyone so nice here? Why did he have to deal with these thoughts here? He despised every moment of this.

“You know, Pangi, I think I might have your dress somewhere in this lab if you want to try it out again, just to see how it looks? I think it might be stained in a little bit of blood and slightly torn by Sneeg’s spear, but blood is barely visible on red fabric anyway, and the tears can count as style points. Do you want to try it out?” Lukey’s voice was still so soft, even as he started looking through chests, trying to find the piece of fabric that Pangi kind of wanted to try on again. It was stupid. Everything was stupid. 

“Yeah, I’d like that.” Pangi’s voice was suddenly weak, he could barely even hear himself, but Lukey must have heard it anyway - he lit up, and started searching even faster, and Pangi wanted nothing more than to kill him for that, for making him feel this way, for making him consider wearing the dress. What was wrong with him?.. 

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these bitches gay... good for them... good for them

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I loved this stream lol