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I’m the poster boy of good guys

Frolicking happily with my wife

I fell for a girl that’s well deserved

And I got into the school that I preferred

But if you think about it I’m really upset

I left my friends and I’m most likely in debt

I’m not married, but I fell in love with shame

I sing and I dance but it’s just so it seems like I’m okay

There’s no more stars shining when you go away

My eyes are closed but I still know that you’re the same

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I’m sorry if I talk about death a lot

Sometimes my brain feels numb as if it’s about to rot

I don’t know know how to explain myself

It’s not that I’m upset, I think it’s just my mental health

It always feels like a storm is brewing

But when I opened my eyes, I saw the clouds were booing

I look up to them for answers but all I get is doubt

Wondering how the fuck I’ll make it if they just scream and shout

The winds keep growing stronger

As the days just go on longer

The sun comes out for seconds as the clock goes back an hour

I wish that I was still there but I love all the power

When I’m in the area I just want to cower

You’re all a bunch of monsters storming my fucking tower

I’m sorry that I chose fun over money

If you want the best for me, then let me be who I will be

I’m not your doll

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What the fuck you want from me

Did you see all that I can be

Did you do it in spite of me

What the fuck is that spose’to mean

Fuck...

I don’t think that you’re cool cause of your Saint Laurent

That’s not what I want

I want a friend to treat me right

That’s all I’m asking for

But none of these n***** know what happened before

They treated me like a whore

They took my friendship for granted

Now here’s what they have in store

I took a trip to PA just to gain some more

But now I’m the kid in the group that everyone ignores

Wait...

You must be using me

You must be using he

He is who I wanna be

He is something that I really need

But when I get him I’ll make sure he doesn’t breathe

I’ll make him bleed

But make sure he doesn’t leave

The faces in his hands made you fall in love with he but suddenly

You saw the darker side of he in the mirror

You saw the darkness shining through his figure

The shadows got bigger

He made the good inside you get bitter

I think he’s within ya

Shhh...

I am the monster who hides under your bed

Wait no inside of your head

Your conscious is dead

I feed off emotions you shed

I’ll hurt you as if you just bled

You know what I said

My blood is thicker than led

So your words and my heart aren’t wed

That’s the shit that I said and I meant it

You take my friendship for granted

So I’ll take your life as a failure

Don’t @ me, sincerely, your terror

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To my only sister

We were born from different wombs

But born with the same blood

Our father placed us with whom

He thought would give a fuck

We grew up separated

But we made it back together

We were created

To be people who not only do better

But to make changes to our family

The way things work make me feel crazy

They surely don’t give a damn bout me

I chased my dreams and everyone fucking tried to persuade me

That writing isn’t beneficial

Shit well you’re too superficial

Let me breathe

Please

I just cannot believe

That all my family just told me they’d rather me join the army

I’m not your child, gramps, and I will not be starving

My passion lies within my voice and my hands

But you’d rather place a gun than a pen, like do you really give a damn

One day I’ll become successful

When I come back just know that my life will not be stressful

And if they ever tell you not to start chasing your dream

Just remember that you have me as part of your team

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Sometimes I count on the wrong people. I never really asked for forgiveness but I guess that since I’m always in the wrong, I need to apologize. You all make me feel like I’m going crazy. Their attitudes spin around me like I’m watching Wherl of Fortune. No matter what I choose, it’s always taken out of proportion. Is this why life’s a gamble? Maybe I just haven’t met friends that are good enough for me. Maybe I just haven’t met friends that are willing to accept me. Maybe I need friends who treat me better than myself. Maybe I need friends who actually have respect for themselves. I don’t think that I choose badly, maybe I judge prematurely. Maybe I push away all of the good ones and that’s why all the bad ones stay. Maybe I take too long to speak and that’s why nobody will come. I spent a week eating alone so I guess that might partially be why. I don’t know, I always feel like I have no friends even when people tell me they are. It always feels like a pity party instead of a party party, so I sit in my room at 3 am typing things like this so that I don’t feel as alone as it does when you’re surrounded by every self hating comment you’ve made in the past 24 hours and the fake smiles everyone gives you as you wave at them in the halls. I love myself, but sometimes I just feel so sad.

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🔚

See all the signs in my head are pointing at the door

The way you lips are moving makes me not want anymore

I’m gone (yeah)

I’m go-one (yeah, yeah)

I saw a light in your window while your room was getting colder

I think I saw a ghost standing right over my shoulder

My head was hanging low while your voice was losing moisture

The way you spoke to me made me want to get some closure

I had to speak my mind, maybe I could fill you in

But when I said it all, all you said was “how you been”

I can tell that you don’t listen but it’s okay I don’t either

When you complain to everyone, they see why I say “I don’t believe her”

You’re a liar and a phony; you don’t care about my heart

I’ve always been there for you but I guess you’ve been fake from the start

I’m gone (yeah)

I’m go-one (yeah, yeah)

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Race to the Finish

I swear I can’t stop thinking about the days that flew right past

I really ran out my clock and now I’m passing the flask

I asked for some time back

Nevermind I’ll rewind that

You don’t see that I came here for me and that’s blind fact

Misconceptions let you in but I’m who let you stay

You’re diabolical, I swear you just get worse in every way

I gave you several fucking chances and you’re still acting tough

How’d you beg me for my time but what I gave ain’t enough

I made a point to see you, but you never thought to come through

Now when I reminisce I think of how I could’ve saved you

Life is tough but understand that I have never left your side

I swear that if my mind was there you’d have the perfect guide

I’m like the North Star, my demeanor just glows

You always knew the way to go whenever I let it show

Without me there was no team

Everyone gave up the dream

And now Khali is all alone

So don’t ask “what the fuck is wrong”

What’s wrong with you?

What the fuck did you go through?

I thought that I was going crazy but I guess that makes two

You really had it all until I left, First went Quincy and then J

What the hell should I even say

All the girls left as soon as You dropped out of school

Khali locked himself away

I haven’t seen him since that day

But now I’m running all these memories down my spine

I gave you way to many chances so this is the finish line

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🌄

As the sun lowers and the moon rises

I awaken from my slumber to avoid a new crisis

The man lingering in darkness is ready to prounce

Since I know that he’s there, he didn’t come unannounced

I toss and I turn just to get nice and comfy

But his breath on my neck makes my hairs stand up promptly

I cling to all hope that he’ll leave me alone

But he whispers to me in a very deep tone

My eyes close tightly as he grabs my neck

I fear for my life but I can’t get upset

I just think of a light that’ll tie my soul down

So he can’t suck it out, but he still sticks around

My personal sun rises from inside my heart

Her calm voice and bright smile keep me from falling apart

Not even he can break me when it comes to my love

I’ve begun to bloom like a flower, because you’re more than my bud

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You

There’s some feelings that I can’t quite express

But you know me more than I know myself

Those words I speak hold value

So when I say this you’ll know it’s not taboo

I’m madly in love

And when push comes to shove

I’ll do whatever to make sure you’re good

When you need a hug

I’ll give more than enough

So you know that you’re still understood

Love may be spelled L-O-V-E

But I’d rather say L-U-V

So that you know that my love is for you

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Sleep Paralysis

I awaken to the whispers echoing around my room. My eyes search for light but all that is present is my bed surrounded by darkness. I clench onto my covers as a door appears behind the darkness. The handle begins to turn slowly until the door can be opened. Before I can react, a hand with long and dark fingers slides through the crack, trying to force itself inside my room. As the door creaks open, a tall, dark, and slender figure steps in. It towers over me by at least 4ft. My body stiffens as I try to move, but nothing works. It’s almost as if I was glued to my sheets. It wraps its long and pointed fingers around my neck and pulls me out of bed. Hanging from his hand, I begin to cower in fear. It opens its mouth pulling my face close as it begins to suck the soul from my body. A single tear drops from my face as I hang hopelessly from it’s hand. All I could think was that I was already dead, but before it could finish, my eyes opened and revealed the reality that I desired. I had finally woken up and escaped that hellish state. If I stayed any longer, I think I would’ve actually died.

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🌏

These past few months gone have by quick

And the way that I feel can’t be changed

When I see you I know that these feelings will stick

All my thoughts are together and won’t be rearranged

Because you have my heart and won’t lead me astray

You’re the best thing for me so I’ll be that for you

Love isn’t easy but you make it okay

Out of everyone I’m glad that my heart fell for you

Time isn’t an issue so I’ll definitely see it through

When it comes to the world all I see is two

It’s just you and me so I’m happy as can be

The way you make me feel is just out of belief

If my heart had a lock, then your love is the key

At the end of the day, you mean the world to me

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Jubilation

I’ve wished for many things

But to know that this is real

Makes it worth more than anything

Your smiles makes me feel comfort so it’s easy to deal

All the nervousness in my mind is gone in an instant

From day one I’ve always felt your warmth from a distance

But now we met for real and I can’t believe how great that you are

Your beauty is beyond belief, you shine brighter than a star

When you talk to me, I only feel like it’s us in this world

I like a lot of things but you are just the only girl

If it was just us two I’d be the happiest man of all

If you’re an angel I must be the one that took the fall

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👶

You look at us as a bunch of bandits,

Robbing and killing in daylight

We walk, talk, and act differently because we honestly can’t stand it

Everytime you see a problem you turn your head but is that alright

We stay up all night tryna figure out how to win this fight

I’ve counted on plenty of y’all for help But you didn’t even have me in sight

I’ve fallen so many times and not once have you put your hand out

How do you expect me trust you now when you keep offering all of these handouts

It’s not easy to be our age so can’t you give us a break

We’re millennials so you’d count on us to see what we, the people can make

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Why are these so factual🤔

Daily Horoscope for Aquarius: July 23, 2018

A very close friend or a member of your current peer group – who means a great deal to you – has recently found it necessary to go out of their way to tick you off. At least, that’s the way it seems. It’s worked, too – better than it should have. You’re not just angry, you’re furious. Before you let go and let them have it, be sure you’re right. Feeling righteous is far better than feeling guilty.

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Late nights

Sometimes I stare at my ceiling thinking of your perfections.

Your brown eyes, wide smile, and your caramel complexion.

I was on a dark path until you came in my direction.

Your heart shined brighter as I looked at my reflection.

You found a piece of me to give peace to the pain inside your soul.

I found the same in you, now my smiling has gotten a bit out of control.

This feeling inside my heart is unbelievable.

Honestly I think our feelings are undefeatable.