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Story 1

Hometown-Part 1

I found a photo which the place I was into it since a long time. It is almost there. With the entrance of green weeping willow on the road sides. It is spring? Summer? Autumn? I totally could not recognize them from the picture but the bright smile is apparently on the girl’s face. She looks really young with the similar eye and brow as me.This summer, I come back to this place in the picture————my father’s hometown. I just finish my first year of the University in another country. On the train, some of the people comes to my mind…my grandparents is sitting in the living room wait for me;Kitty with her talkative tone and bright smile; Mary just finished cooking for the hot dog and particularly leave one to me in the white plastic bag; the play ground with my childhood companion…It is almost 10 more years since the last time I went back .

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Hometown-Part 2

I get off the bus. The sunshine is bright and warm. And it feels like the birds in the sky is singing pleasantly. The name of the village is renewable at the entrance and Kitty, my cousin is standing at the entrance of the village with her white suite. Kitty looks at me with a light smile but without any words. Her face frowned though to patted on my shoulders. I looked the eyes which is much more deeper on her face. Suddenly, with my nose stings again at the thought. Walking through into the village, the fresh air swipe on my face. “You look tired.” Kitty said that. I showed my bags to her which has the part of the blot which the passengers on the train left it to me. “You could not imagine how many people on the train and the people next to me chatting all night!” I answered her. Kitty laughed and use the lower her head to take our the tissue to wipe it on my bad carefully. The way to home is used that long time so that I have enough time to recognize the old things in my memory.

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Hometown-Part 3

However, it is so quiet. I could only hear the sound of wind stroke the weeping willow. Around a while, I saw the green roof house with the familiar name of “SaSa”———the only shop in this village. I could not wait to meet Mary who used to be the holder of this shop. I quicken my steps  to the show without noticing my headphone has fallen down. “Mary! I am back!” I shout as I walked through to the shop. At that moment, the strange face turned to me and get in touch to my eye contact. “Mary has gone to another village.” The “strange face” reply me like that. How should I describe the moment? It likes that you just finished cooking an apple pie and hope to get the first taste of the sweet from it but the hot stuffing has scald your tongue. I shrug my shoulders and say thanks to them. Kitty just carried up me and give back my headphone which she picked up. “Mary has some trouble with her family she told me the last time I met her. I did not see her as well since that.” Kitty turn over her head and looks the other way.

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Hometown-Part 4

It is almost arrive to my grandparent’s house, sudden I saw a familiar person with the brown hair. The yellow shoes is still wore on her feet.  I recognized

she is…Doudou! My best friend who usually accompany for the time I was in there. I just open my mouth want to say hi to her but she just walked quickly without any mood and seems of not recognize me. My summer seems end at that time. Doudou with her firm eye sight walk pass me. I want to say something but the wind has blocked my mouth. I heard Kitty sigh for a second. Then I come back to the house, my grandma Jen is just finish the afternoon nap and waiting for me on the bed. Jen looks elder than before. Jen used her hand which is rough but warm to touch my hair with swear and speak slowly: “Welcome back…my dear.” The old fan is working and makes the noise of “zizizizi…”through out the room. I look Jen and stand for the water in my ocean.

Grandma is alone by herself now.

And he, my grandpa, at the beginning of 2018, has gone to travel in another planet.

The sunshine seems so hurt to come through the window and I do not know why the bird is making noise to break this peace.

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Story 2 Remember Me-part 1 I could not remember how many time that he tried to go though in my dreams. My Grandpa, Yi, left me from now to forever. A normal class day, I just get up and found it was nearly late to class. I quickly tidy up myself as well as stand for my phone that is full of the sound of message notifications.Today is a sunny day which means I could escape for one day of “Raincouver(Vancouver is always full of rain)”. At that time I am hurry to rush to the bus stop and look the title on my phone——it was my young sister Ran. I typed her quickly with question mark on message. Nothing feel like the mood of that impatient to her since it is already mid-night in China. It is wired that something catch my heart tightly and cold to worry her but also her tone makes me like the ant on the hot pot. She replied me off and on, even word by word: “Sister…,I …” “Sister…did you know that…” “Sister…I’d better to tell you on the phone.” What? What is her attitude like this? I stop thinking at that time, and the dark fill in my head. I saw the word he typed at next: “Our grandpa, he has gone.” The sky seems heavy to oppress on my back and my eye get dim. I never feel like the rain has come that fast to drop on my heart. I try to hold my phone but it absolutely fall down on the ground. It seems like the sky turns to the darkness at once with the cold wind run across my hair. With the sound of the bus coming, the lines of people are getting on the bus one by one. I am the one frozen in the place and start sob instead of moving for a step more.

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Story 2

Remember me-Part 2

No, I shouldn’t be like that. I try my best to get here so that to go to class, right?

I get on the bus. The bus is full of jolt to shake my heart like up and down. I never feel one experience of loss a family member who is really important to me that leave from my life. Even I know he is suffer from the cancer for a long time but I really of not want this moment attack me by this way. I didn’t prepare. The whole day in class, I never feel a day is that long. Everyone looks strange but me, seems as an outsider. I am not good at relieve my feelings correctly to the other.I was in the deep trap and no one could really pull me out of this muddy. Every scene reminds from my mind about the childhood life in the countryside. My grandpa rode a bike to take me buy toys and books in Mary’s shop. But I never take them back when I grow up. He always encourages me to study new things which is my interest. But I am always lazy about study when I grow up. He is always smile and never blame the younger. But I am trying to escape to talk with him when I grow up. Everyday, he got up early to prepare the breakfast to me and my cousins…but I never cook one meal for him. All of these memories, I feel the thing about love. I feel a grown-up girl who is so bad that loss the companion with her best grandpa. The person who accompany just 18 years…and I have no chance to go back to see him in the last time.

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Story 2

Remember me-Part 3

Gradually, the day become more dark like to throw my sorrow out of the sky. I finish school to go back home. I see most of the light has full of the windows from the building except mine. I decide to sit by myself for a while.

Well, grandpa, I believe you are totally not feel the pains anymore,right? I am fine in Canada with lots of friends and really learn something. Too much missing and regretting… but I believe you will feel my feelings, right?

I wish you everything well. Please wait for a while. We’ll be get together soon.

I will never forget you, my best grandpa ever.

Have a good night.

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Story 3

How do you say goodbye to someone-Part 1

The last summer vacations before I go to Canada.

It is a Friday night,with the mobile sound rung,my heart becomes anxious and worried.

The thing should be dated from a week ago from that time.

After dinner,I had a walk with my friend on the playground which we used to do it as usual days.The sunshine is too warm,too soft,it seems that it can melt my heart too become a same climate as the sun. With the sound of the boys playing basketball. I see the sunset of the sky with orange and pink colors decorated. The gas lamps were blazing, and every window bloomed ruddy with a steady flame. Then we saw someone who walked towards to us,slowly and slowly,closer and closer.I have never felt a feeling like this moment, everything seems to become slow down even the  good weather become solidify.He hesitated for a while when we saw each other faces clearly.I felt that the moment that the sunshine start to get back in very light,free and gentle to stroke my face and react this moment become extremely magic and shined.However,with no doubt that he threw his basketball to me abruptly.I get back to the reality and try to caught swiftly to the basketball but I failed.I saw the familiar “ugly”smile on his face.He said that: “hey!Stupid(translate in to the Chinese meaning of kidding someone)!You waled like a small fat penguin!hahaha!”

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How do you say goodbye to someone-Part 2

I did not now why I did not give  him some response in time before he walked away. My friend asked me: “Hey! Why did you don’t give him a “hit” as usual? “ I frowned with my face. I felt curious about that.I just keep recalling that magic moment.I also asked myself why I did not give him a fist just now? Then during the whole night after I finished my housework I even took up the showering time to think about him. I felt strange about myself.I have never feel like this to him.As well as I concerned that we are just classmates,or …friends? Whatever the moment is kind of precious to me.I have never fell like this to think a person like this for a long time. Or maybe,could I call it like a crush?

During the days after that moment,when he made a fun on me as usual,I did not know why I react very torpor. He shake his head and said what happened to me why I look abnormal today? We have been as classmates as friends for almost two years,and I have never paid any attention too him as that much.I start to figure out what is it. I even want to know what does he think about me.My mood swings into horrible panic when things are goring poorly.I am afraid if I did something improper it will make the situation become more awkward…I am afraid that I am falling and I am also afraid I may lose a friend.However,I realize one thing that is important,I can feel I should talk this to him.I sent my feeling If it may bother him a little more,whatever after I say them out I felt much more relax about myself.

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Story 3

How do you say goodbye to someone-Part 3

The mobile rings sharply noisy.After a while,I answered it. He told me that I was the one who is the most important in his youth as well. What we both know is that we are going to say goodbye to each other since he decided to stay in his hometown but I am ready to start for the new  journey in my life———go abroad studying. I want to say something,but none of the words can be spoken out. During the night, he rings me on my phone. I grasped the phone tightly. Both of us are too nervous we even could hear the sound of breath from each other through the telephone lines. At last ,he said: Would you like to go for the first but also last dating with me before you leave?

During the dating, we go to the each corner of aquarium. And feel like no one will leave for tomorrow.

He didn’t say goodbye,either me.

I have never seen a sunshine which is that glinted,and poured on my face to reflect the moment period of youth,very softly.