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concept: let’s go to bed at 9pm instead of 3am. let’s drink more water for our bodily health and less coffee for the aesthetic. let’s not skip breakfast because it’s worth running a little behind even if it’s just some fruit or cereal. let’s go socialize even if we’re kinda nervous. let’s love ourselves when we feel down, because flaws are not the end of the world. let’s work hard but take breaks in between instead of procrastinating and then rushing. let’s ignore what people who don’t know us have to say about us behind our backs. let’s be kind to each other because we’re all trying here. let’s hype up being mentally healthy rather than being perfect. let’s live our lives like we want to.

just a thought.

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drained of blood, the heart is white

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Concept: you’ve been married to your wife for 3 years. You wake up in your bed before she does, your nose cold but your body warm. Careful not to wake her, you get out of bed and your toes curl when your feet hit the cold floor. You brew a pot of coffee and take a cup, making sure to leave enough for her. You pull on a big sweater and walk out onto your deck, sitting in a big wood chair to look out over the forest. The leaves are orange and edged with frost. All is quiet as the sun rises over the trees. You hear the door opening behind you and your wife sits down next to you, wrapping the comforter from your bed around both of you shoulders. You sit there like that until the sun is well up and your coffee cups are empty.

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The reason depression is literally the worst is not because of the soul-crushing sadness or the wanting to kill yourself or the self harm or all the violent and extreme emotions that come with dealing with this particular mental handicap. It’s the long and painful stretches of days of weeks of months where you’re not really depressed, but you kind of just exist. The time you spend sitting in bed aimlessly browsing the Internet instead of finishing that video game you thought was fun or going out with a friend to see a movie or getting up and doing your laundry. You exist, and it’s okay, but you’re not really sure why. You’re not doing anything productive when you have all the time in the world to be doing it. You feel like you’re missing out on life, but at the same time you feel that it doesn’t really matter. That’s the worst kind of depression.

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I completed my 30 Day Decluttering Challenge where I discarded 1 item on day 1, 2 items on day 2, etc., all the way up to 30 items on day 30.  That is a total of 465 items discarded in 30 days!  That’s a LOT.  If you want to see it all, I logged it daily on Instagram at 20percentyear.

It started off easy, but after about day 10 it started to become a struggle.  I found myself opening random drawers just to find things to meet my daily quota.  That is not an efficient way to declutter a house.  That was the downside of the challenge.  The upside was that I finally got sick of scrambling each day to find items and decided to tackle what had become my worst area of the house – the garage.  

The garage had become the dumping ground for stuff we needed to get rid of but didn’t want to deal with RIGHT THEN – giant box from an exercise bike (purchased two years ago), my daughter’s old Ikea mattress, non-working vacuum cleaner and carpet shampooer.  And then there was the stuff that actually belonged there like painting supplies, yard work equipment, lawn mower, snow blower.  The rest of the garage was such a mess that I had to dig out the lawn mower to start using it in the spring.  And forget about anything being put back where it belonged.  I couldn’t climb the Mount Everest of crap to get to the cabinets and actually put it away.

Finding items to declutter daily was a breeze once I started on the garage.  It was not, however, an easy job since it is July and where I live it gets unbearably hot and humid this time of year.  Countless hours when into the job and much sweat.  I’m not officially “done”.  While I cleared out a ton and can now find everything, there is still more to discarded/recycled/organized.  I did succeed in at least getting stuff off to the sides where it is accessible and I can easily maneuver the lawn mower in and out.  I’ll go back to the job in the fall when the weather is nicer.  For now it is in satisfactory condition and such an incredible improvement from before that I’m happy to  move on to other areas of the house.  

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once you stop fantasizing about that ideal version of yourself and start working towards becoming that person by setting your alarm clock earlier and actually going to the gym and actually volunteering at places and actually eating healthier and not procrastinating and working just a little bit harder you’ll realize that it was so easy all along. becoming your ideal self will only ever exist in your mind until you make the decision to work towards becoming that person. get up!! get going!! it’s now or never!! there is no light at the end of the tunnel!! get that flashlight and pave your own path bitch bc no one else is going to do it for u!!

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