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Happy pride month to my dad. When I came out as bi to him, this man googled what it ment, look at me and said "ohh. Yeah. You get that from me. You'd have far more siblings of I only shaged women." And went right back to his work emails.

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Felt

Honestly I feel like im only allowed to exist if im useful, quiet, or suffering enough

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I've had quite an emotional week, but I made sure to take the time to draw 💜 I'm trying to find a method of finishing a piece that I like. I don't prefer lineart, but clearly I lose my patience at rendering LOL

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Part of the reason I'm so adamant about encouraging people to get comfortable with bugs, my own interests aside, is because we cannot have a bright, solarpunk future without them.

A green future is not a bugless future. It is, in fact, a fairly bugful future. If you care about ecological stability, then you need to start with bugs, because they're the most at risk with our current use of pesticides.

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Good Morning, Stolas❤️‍🩹

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Charlie! 🍓

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Me: 🙂

Me: *remembers Stolas was a flawed, traumatised, neurodivergent, mentally ill abuse victim with no support network, and he still chose to step up and try his best to be a loving, doting, protective, caring, mature, and sensitive parent and to never put the weight of his pain on his child's shoulders*

Me:

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When Blitzø is SO aware of the class differences, but in his heart of hearts actually views them as equals. 💕

I wholeheartedly agree with everyone who has pointed out that Stolas believing he would die in Blitzø's place highlights how oblivious he is to his own privilege.

But I also want to talk about how Stolas wasn't the only one who genuinely believed he, a Goetia, could die in Blitzø's place.

Blitzø's agonised cries are not the cries of someone who thinks their lover is making it out alive 👀

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Blitz and His "Fuck or Be Fucked" Worldview

There's been a whole lot of talk about Blitz and whether or not he's masculine (and why people assume he is) and what role(s) he plays in bed.

Then there was the penguin short, where he said this . . .

and we all got upset because it didn't match things we know and love about him . . .

I'm not writing this post to claim that he is or isn't exclusively dominant in bed (he's not- there's part of him that loves when Stolas is powerful and wants to get stepped on by him. OBVIOUSLY).

I'm writing it to delve a little into why this matters to him, and the clues are in how he talks to people all the time.

First of all, when Blitz is feeling his most powerful, he loves to boast about fucking people . . . in a violence way, not a sex way. BUT he always uses language that compares it to sex. Specifically, being the one doing the fucking.

He even kind of projects that attitude when Moxxie is fighting the boar creature . . .

Bitches and sluts and whores are people who lose. It's a gender-neutral term. Which ALSO just happen to invoke the connotation of these people (and boars and seals) being fucked.

Not so coincidentally, he also uses AFAB body part insults to condescend to or dismiss women he doesn't like.

And diminishes Moxxie's genitalia/suggests that Moxxie gets fucked when he's picking on him.

He implies something similar about sexual submission when Fizz is getting bullied by Mammon . . .

And when Blitz is losing, well . . .

Suddenly he's getting fucked and/or aggressive women are growing dicks.

So life is "fuck or be fucked." No matter his actual feelings about dressing feminine or about what's enjoyable in the bedroom, he looks at just about every interaction through the lens of who has the power. And connects power with traditional masculinity and sexual agency. In life, he's a top because if he weren't, he might get fucked. And getting fucked is bad, because then he'd lose control.

I have no doubt that "fuck or be fucked" has helped him survive. And people ARE out to fuck him over. But not everyone is. Cue Marina and the Diamonds lyrics. If you know, you know.

A little vulnerability, in the bedroom and/or emotionally, would be good for him. He's taking baby steps, and I don't think he'll let his guard down all at once. But I hope he gets more and more open to letting Stolas and other loved ones help him get there.

This was inspired by a conversation with @akirathedramaqueen, like a lot of what I post on here is <3. And thanks to people in a particular discord server (you know who you are but I won't list all of you) for encouraging me too.

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Something interesting I’ve noticed.

[That inevitably led to me overthinking everything again and resulting in another prediction/hope for future seasons]

Stolas himself admits here that he expresses himself best through song. And thinking about it, he’s right! Throughout Helluva Boss we’ve seen instances where Stolas has tried to express his feelings/thoughts to others, but will ultimately trip over his words or backtrack. Particularly if he’s nervous or desperately trying not to upset the other person. Some examples? Those texts to Blitzø and that meeting with Asmodeus for the Asmodean Crystal.

Stolas sends Blitzø wall after wall of text going over everything that he wants/needs to say, only to backtrack immediately after Blitzø responds with a quick apology and an insistence to “nevermind”. With Asmodeus it’s a little more subtle. Throughout that meeting Stolas seems to stumble over what he wants to say quite a bit, actually hesitating and stopping frequently to collect his thoughts before speaking again.

Stolas himself readily admits that he “loves words”, but he only seems to be the most comfortable with those words if he’s reading or singing them, or in complete control of the situation.

Which brings me to my next observation. Blitzø actually seems to understand Stolas’ feelings better listening to him sing.

In fact, the two times Blitzø has been present to hear Stolas express his feelings through song, Blitzø almost immediately sought him out afterwards to talk.

Granted, both instances Stolas wasn’t really aware that Blitzø was trying to open up (either being drunk or outright passed out), but it’s interesting that both times Blitzø hears Stolas sing he immediately tries to have a heart to heart conversation afterwards. Something that’s near impossible to get someone as guarded/emotionally constipated as Blitzø is to do.

Granted, maybe I’m reading too much into this, but this definitely seems like a pattern to me. The only times Blitzø (willingly) tries to open up are after he hears Stolas sing, and the only times we see Blitzø actually sing himself is when Stolas is involved in some way. And in a show that’s basically a musical where Blitzø himself as the main character hates on musicals…I can’t help but think Vivzie is hinting at something.

Specifically, that Blitzø isn’t going to be the one to say “I love you”, he’s going to sing it! Blitzø is gonna get a song, I’m convinced of it!

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Old and gay and that's okay! 🌈✨️

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Past vs present 💔

3/10 Comic Archive: [link]

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Hazbin Hotel group pride shirt available via Hot Topic May 23, 2025.

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our king✨👑

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They Are The Bestest Of Friends ❤ 😁

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Blitz and Stolas have a slumber party for two in the latest chapter of Forgot Not To Fall For You 😘 read it ✨ HERE! ✨