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okay im sorry my sister was shoving this song into my face and idk why but i listened to it and went "holy cow this feels like a soulsucker song but specifically ego's soulsucker" so um. you should listen to it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hA1bxkMQr14

I' never heard of this song before BUT IT ACTUALLY DOES!! SO MUCH!!! Even the cape pleaaaase I can picture a whole mv for this (I wish I had the time to make it real). And he'd be wearing sunglasses on the chorus, it just sounds like it!!

I love how the lyrics are also relatable to greatest hits too like come ooooon

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YEAH!!! I really wish I could open twitter rn but the app still isn't working on Brazil, but you can try going to Awsten's or the band's profile and searching for "slug" tweets!

I can't fully remember the context, but one day all of a sudden he just started posting red slugs, changed his name and pfp to one and all!!

I think it was around July of 2023, so it was in fact after the property era (nvm my half asleep blabbering on the tags of the original post)

Sometimes when I open my blog and see my header I wonder if people even get it. That one week (or couple of days) when Awsten changed his twitter name to slug and tweeted slug related things. It wasn't even a big deal and it lastest so little, yet it was stupidly significant enough for me to draw it (honestly I wouldn't really remember about it if I hadn't made that drawing and put it as my header).

Anyways, anyone remembers it? Haha..

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Sometimes when I open my blog and see my header I wonder if people even get it. That one week (or couple of days) when Awsten changed his twitter name to slug and tweeted slug related things. It wasn't even a big deal and it lastest so little, yet it was stupidly significant enough for me to draw it (honestly I wouldn't really remember about it if I hadn't made that drawing and put it as my header).

Anyways, anyone remembers it? Haha..

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dumping more overly saturated, busted up contrast sketchbook scans for you!!

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guitar concepts for the boys!!

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inspired by kpop dolls, I decided to make my own mascots for NCT! Meet Peach Purrfect (Jaehyun), Doingo Boing (Doyoung) and Yubat (take a wild guess)!!

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I've been obsessing over this sign ever since the Guilt mv

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also

experimenting with my Soulsucker design!!! I'm not 100% decided on his outfit (mostly from the belt & below) but that's how I like drawing him most of the time!!

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experimenting with this outfit design for Soulsucker!!! I'm not 100% decided on his outfit (mostly from the belt & below) but that's how I like drawing him most of the time!!

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THEORY APPROVED BY AWSTEN LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOO

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I like to think Soulsucker and Starfucker are always fighting/bickering inside Awsten's mind and that just drives him crazy

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I got myself some more Awsten photocards!! And made toploaders that are supposed to be pocket versions of parx albums :) and cup noodles!!

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Welcome to the Property (sketch)

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band retweeted that, I would say I got pretty close lol

OKAY SO, with the new Soulsucker lyrics "out" (from what can be figured out from videos and things people have posted), I think the idea I had of Soulsucker was kind of wrong. But now I have more theories for St*rfucker!!! So I'll share some of them here, but feel free to contribute because sometimes this gets hella confusing!!

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THE PROPERTY is the safe space Awsten built to protect himself from his fears or insecurities, as known as the demons.

THE SOULSUCKER comes from the part of Awsten that doesn’t want to leave his safe space. In order to protect the Property, he will destroy everything that tries to enter it (like in self sabotage when he ends a relationship before it can hurt him). However, that overprotection is also harmful, because that means Awsten won’t try to step out of his comfort zone and confront his demons. Because of that, the Soulsucker is also a demon, something Awsten needs to get rid off in order to leave the Property.

It's been a pleasure (So destroy my world, I'll tape the cracks) – you can try to ruin the property, but he'll protect it

It's nice to meet you ('Cause what you give out's what you get back) – he will destroy whatever tries to harm the property

THE ST*RFUCKER, as mentioned in the song of same title, is the only way out of the Property. If leaving a comfort zone means facing what you’re hiding yourself from, then the St*rfucker is Awsten’s alter that has learned how to face the demons, or is trying to (ex: the lusty lyrics that reject religious guilt).

To be honest, I'm still trying to figure him out, but that's what makes sense in my head for now. We mostly got Soulsucker content, such as Intellectual Property, but the next album/thing will be St*r's perspective supposedly so there's that. Just have to wait a little!

The St*rfucker and Soulsucker hate each other, but it hasn’t always been that way. They were once one, Awsten, but grew apart due to inner his conflicts. Now while Soulsucker wants Awsten safe inside the property, St*r believes he’s better off out of it.

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STORYLINE

We can't really pin point where exactly the story starts, but it was surely presented for us in Greatest Hits. Throughout the dreamy section of the album, we see Awsten talking about the demons and how they haunt him, as well as the presence of another character and the need of being somewhere safe.

I see his fucking face but he's not me - MAGNETIC (hinting Soulsucker)

Driving where no one can catch me Need a place to breathe and the sun is setting - Ice Bath (hinting the property)

Enough time to right my wrongs because I've wronged a lot - Ice Bath, hinting the religious guilt, another reason why he'll be hiding himself in the Property.

I won't quote the whole album, but every song show one of his fears or insecurities if you get deep into the lyrics.

What I think that happened: by the end of Greatest Hits, Awsten builds the Property (and I suppose he built it because all of the worker outfits he's been wearing to shows). The need to keep himself safe originates the Soulsucker, the protector of his safe space. Intellectual Property shows his ways of protecting the Property with destructive behaviours, such as self sabotaging (take a wild guess) or distancing himself from things that could possible hurt him (Closer). His strong prensence, especially on stage, means that he has taken over while Awsten is still inside the property, unable to leave.

St*rfucker originates from the needs of confrontation, facing what it takes to get the things he craves for. Overcoming the demons, facing his religious guilt in order to be able to love, to be loved and enjoy things that his demons wouldn't allow him to. He is the only one who can get Awsten out of the Property, and I believe the next releases from the band will show him trying to do so.

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I personally collect photocards of Awsten in stupid shirts

I have a few polaroids too but I'm too lazy to go them. And don't even get me started on parx themed toploaders

i wish pop punk/punk rock bands had photocards the kpop does. why would i not want to trade an officially licensed picture of remington leith for an officially licensed picture of english teacher frank iero. give me party poison gerard way and i will give you intellectual property awsten knight. photocards are so silly but why would you not pay to have patrick stump in your pocket?

STEAL THE PHOTOCARDS FROM THE KPOP STANS

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OKAY SO, with the new Soulsucker lyrics "out" (from what can be figured out from videos and things people have posted), I think the idea I had of Soulsucker was kind of wrong. But now I have more theories for St*rfucker!!! So I'll share some of them here, but feel free to contribute because sometimes this gets hella confusing!!

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THE PROPERTY is the safe space Awsten built to protect himself from his fears or insecurities, as known as the demons.

THE SOULSUCKER comes from the part of Awsten that doesn’t want to leave his safe space. In order to protect the Property, he will destroy everything that tries to enter it (like in self sabotage when he ends a relationship before it can hurt him). However, that overprotection is also harmful, because that means Awsten won’t try to step out of his comfort zone and confront his demons. Because of that, the Soulsucker is also a demon, something Awsten needs to get rid off in order to leave the Property.

It's been a pleasure (So destroy my world, I'll tape the cracks) – you can try to ruin the property, but he'll protect it

It's nice to meet you ('Cause what you give out's what you get back) – he will destroy whatever tries to harm the property

THE ST*RFUCKER, as mentioned in the song of same title, is the only way out of the Property. If leaving a comfort zone means facing what you’re hiding yourself from, then the St*rfucker is Awsten’s alter that has learned how to face the demons, or is trying to (ex: the lusty lyrics that reject religious guilt).

To be honest, I'm still trying to figure him out, but that's what makes sense in my head for now. We mostly got Soulsucker content, such as Intellectual Property, but the next album/thing will be St*r's perspective supposedly so there's that. Just have to wait a little!

The St*rfucker and Soulsucker hate each other, but it hasn’t always been that way. They were once one, Awsten, but grew apart due to inner his conflicts. Now while Soulsucker wants Awsten safe inside the property, St*r believes he’s better off out of it.

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STORYLINE

We can't really pin point where exactly the story starts, but it was surely presented for us in Greatest Hits. Throughout the dreamy section of the album, we see Awsten talking about the demons and how they haunt him, as well as the presence of another character and the need of being somewhere safe.

I see his fucking face but he's not me - MAGNETIC (hinting Soulsucker)

Driving where no one can catch me Need a place to breathe and the sun is setting - Ice Bath (hinting the property)

Enough time to right my wrongs because I've wronged a lot - Ice Bath, hinting the religious guilt, another reason why he'll be hiding himself in the Property.

I won't quote the whole album, but every song show one of his fears or insecurities if you get deep into the lyrics.

What I think that happened: by the end of Greatest Hits, Awsten builds the Property (and I suppose he built it because all of the worker outfits he's been wearing to shows). The need to keep himself safe originates the Soulsucker, the protector of his safe space. Intellectual Property shows his ways of protecting the Property with destructive behaviours, such as self sabotaging (take a wild guess) or distancing himself from things that could possible hurt him (Closer). His strong prensence, especially on stage, means that he has taken over while Awsten is still inside the property, unable to leave.

St*rfucker originates from the needs of confrontation, facing what it takes to get the things he craves for. Overcoming the demons, facing his religious guilt in order to be able to love, to be loved and enjoy things that his demons wouldn't allow him to. He is the only one who can get Awsten out of the Property, and I believe the next releases from the band will show him trying to do so.

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my sister and I were joking about this so I had to make it real