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all of these places are my safe places in my apartment. I am definitely a homebody so I have to make my home all cozy. happy halloween by the way 😉 

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Honestly, if I had an encounter with this woman, I feel like I wouldn’t be phased. My mother is EXACTLY the same way. She is always dying her hair a similar color to mine, although I get the blonde from her. My mom is always right. If i had run into her, I probably would react the same way I do with my own mom, a little it of loving attitude and a joke. She would come back with something crude and mean and we would laugh it off. Maybe we were separated at birth ?

My Mother

She used to dye her hair a color closer to mine, but when the grey started taking over she said “fuck it” and jumped on the new trend of grey hair. It’s currently in a short perm, because she does not “have time to argue with it” every morning. She fully plans on putting blue, green, or pink in it for the holidays once its all the way white.

She talks to her plants and sometimes I’m pretty sure they talk back. She often says that If superpower were a thing she would be Poison Ivy. Even admitted she would probably be a villain too. Because humans suck.

“Next time he runs away, just let him go. See if he can find a family that loves him like we do.” or “He’s just playing, he only runs farther because you are chasing him.” She says these things about our dog, Loki. Huskies do have a habit of being escape artists after all.

I am almost entirely positive that everyone, from elementary to high school, was afraid of my mom. Including the teachers. One time my history teacher called on me when my hand was not raised, panic attack ensued, detention for ‘not talking’ was given. My mother was livid. A parent-teacher meeting was held. I was never called on for the rest of the year. And someone in my friend group, not one of mine personally but a friend of a friend, once asked her if she was a witch. She responded “If I am, is it wise to be so rude as to ask?” Not to mention that when I was in school we had a magic 4 years without bullying. I even asked a friend if I was just oblivious. She said no, there was simply no bullying that happened while we were in school.

My mom works at a police station, keeps their network working. They got her a whip for her birthday once. And she gets into arguments with them, always, even her boss. Most of them come back to her later to apologize, because she was right. She is always right.

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snooping

“ get OFFFFFFF me!!!! “

“ you’re psychotic “

“ i look like a blimp “

“ i’ll beat her a$$ “ ( i want the rest of the tea on this one )

“ have you seen the new mythic weapons? “

“ DKEJDBCOIEUVBORIEV “ ( my cats fighting , my personal favorite )

snooping is honestly fun but also, makes me feel weird being in someone else's business. 

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Try this 4.7

Although I have not known her quite five years, my supervisor is QUITE the character. She is older, in her late 50s early 60s, with long black hair. She has dark eyes and always wears eyeliner and lipstick. A few qualities that she possesses are leadership, hard work, punctuality, and kindness. Although she has these good qualities, she also gets overwhelmed easily, which I think is one of her charms. She truly is one if the greatest bosses that I’ve had. Raschele has a few signature qualities about her that just make her who she is. She is an avid dieter. She was vegan for many years but has recently introduced ground beef back into her diet. She and her husband always share a mini blizzard from Dairy Queen, they never get their own. Every morning when I come in, she says “ Hi! How are ya lady? “ My personal favorite is that she has a pair of glasses for every outfit. She quite literally has a pair in every single color. Three important events that have happened since I’ve worked at First Federal is the pandemic. I had just started at the bank and had barely completed my training when the shutdowns happened. Raschele made sure that I was still on the schedule even though the lobby had closed and it was just the drive through. Another one is when we get huge bags of coin delivered and we have to put them in the appropriate wrappers. Not that significant but she is always so bummed when we get them in :( Another is when school started. My schedule is very crazy but she made sure I still got the same amount of hours I had before. Wild as she is, Raschele is amazing. 

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Erin Hanson

https://www.instagram.com/thepoeticunderground/?hl=en

Erin Hanson, more known simply by e.h . I first found them by mindlessly scrolling through pinterest. After reading one of their poems, I instantly fell in love. The complex metaphors and vivid imagery really drew my attention. Not only with those elements, I related to their poems. They have one for any situation. Since that day, I have wrote a few of my own poems, not as nearly well done. The poems draw me in for the diction, syntax, and how seamlessly they are put together. They are the perfect combination of poetry and storytelling that really draw a reader in.

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Lyric

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hmw2E7bKJeo

I don't live in California, I'll inform you, that's not where I reside I'm just a tenant, paying rent inside this body and I Got two windows and those windows, well I'll call them my eyes I'm just going where the wind blows, I don't get to decide

Sometimes I think too much, yeah, I get so caught up I'm always stuck in my head I wish I could escape, I tried to yesterday Took all the sheets off my bed

Then I tied up my linen with five strips of ribbon I found Scaled the side of the building I ran to the hills 'til they found me And they put me back in my cell All by myself, alone with my thoughts again I guess my mind is a prison and I'm never gonna get out

So they tranquilized me, analyzed me, threw me back in my cage Then they tied me to an IV, told me I was insane I'm a prisoner, a visitor inside of my brain And no matter what I do, they try to keep me in chains

Sometimes I think to much, yeah, I get so caught up I'm always stuck in my head I wish I could escape, I tried to yesterday Took all the sheets off my bed

Then I tied up my linen with five strips of ribbon I found Scaled the side of the building I ran to the hills 'til they found me And they put me back in my cell All by myself, alone with my thoughts again I guess my mind is a prison and I'm never gonna get out

Said even if it's true, no matter what I do I'm never gonna escape I won't give up on hope, secure another rope And try for another day Said even if it's true, no matter what I do I'm never gonna escape I won't give up on hope, secure another rope And try for another day

Then I tied up my linen with five strips of ribbon I found Scaled the side of the building I ran to the hills 'til they found me And they put me back in my cell All by myself, alone with my thoughts again I guess my mind is a prison and I'm never gonna get out

Reflection: I first found this song on spotify when I was listening to a radio created from one my playlists. This song instantly was an obsession for me. I would play it when I was cleaning or driving or not doing anything at all. The lyrics are very descriptive. It makes me think of an old castle with satin sheets and thick grass that he runs through. It makes me feel sad but also hopeful. Sad, because he is stuck and struggling to get out of his head. Hopeful because he always finds a way out. If he has done it once, he can do it again. The lyrica that I have in bold are the ones that stick with me. They give me the sense that we are just souls in a temporary place. Although the sing is kind of sad, it is beautiful. You all should listen ! 

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Try this 2.6

Boring Cliches 

- only time will tell

-it’s raining cats and dogs

- someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed

- fit as a fiddle

- time flies

- time heals all wounds

- cute as a button

- make your blood boil

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Cliche Swap 

- only time on the wrong side of the bed

- it’s raining blood boil

- someone woke up flies

- fit as a cats and dogs

- time heals a fiddle

- cute as will tell

This makes cliches sound so bad, I never want to use them again haha. 

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Try this 1.2

Things people have said to me

- “ you’re too pretty to be gay “

- “ you’re hard to love “

- “ I want her “

- “ why don't you do more “

- “ leave her “

- “ you are worth more than that “

- “ i love you “ ( lie )

The false i love yous gather and gather in my brain. I store them away in a box and pull them back out every once in awhile. I keep them for memories of who I used to be. Every single person who has said it to me and din’t mean it is no longer a significant part of my life. I move on, I grow, and I become someone bigger. I dig deeper into myself to truly find who I want to be. I keep those words stored in my head as a reminder of who I am and who I may become. Thank you for every lie that has been told. Every false whisper. 

“ you're too pretty to be gay “ -  I don't believe there is a standard for what a LGBTQ person should look like.

“ you’re hard to love “ - honestly, this one hurt.  

“ I want her  “ - I ultimately knew it wasn’t my fault things didn’t work

“ why don’t you do more “ - I dont have the energy for destructive people

“ leave her “ - you don’t leave when things get rough pal

“ you are worth more than that “ - are we valuing my worth on your view of me or on mine?