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Hate that I can’t just push a button to turn my brain off for a bit because I’m so tired of constantly dealing with these shitty dark thoughts 24/7

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Pls let me die, I honestly dont wanna be here any more, I just wanna be at peace.

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when the relapse is so bad it hurts to walk

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Why the fuck am I the way I am

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There’s this weird dichotomy of not wanting anyone to know you’re suffering and also desperately wanting someone to acknowledge your pain

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Life has been rough lately

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is it bad to wanna talk to someone all the time?

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does anyone else ever just wanna delete themselves?

like, you don’t wanna die, you just wanna become invisible

i’ve never felt like that before and i don’t know what’s worse

like, is there something wrong with me? am i broken?

i can’t stop crying but it’s not like usual

it’s like, the tears are there, but i don’t feel it

i don’t feel the pain or the hurt that comes with them

i just feel

idk

dead

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Goddammit why is killing yourself so hard to do? Why the hesitation... it should be so much easier to let go

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kinda wanna scream. kinda wanna cry. kinda wanna sleep. kinda just wanna disappear

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I fucking hate my life so much there are no words to describe how much I hate my life.

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Why am I so fucking useless man I want to jump off a building

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I will always hate who I am down to the core and sadly it will never change

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I’m sorry for all the times my mental health made me a bad friend

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i just wanna cut everyone off and rot away in my bed

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