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Hi

Idk if you're still on here but I just wanted to talk to you...

Today really sucked I had a really bad day. The car broke down at the office and I had to leave the car infront of the office. I was there for quite awhile I felt so shitty.

Then I came back to try and present the takaful products to my parents and all I got was hate. Yes I wanted them to get it but I never expected them to knock everything I said.

It's at times like these I need you. I really wish you were back in my arms so I could feel loved but all I'm getting from everyone is pure hate. I feel defeated and all I can think of is ending it.

I'm honestly praying for better days ahead and for you to feel happy to come back. Amin

I miss you caki 🥺

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I miss you 😕

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As pathetic as I am right now

I still wish u the best

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I just need a sign 😔

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Idk how to say it but I miss you

I'm glad you're happy

Beyond thrilled that you think you found the one because that's what you've been searching for

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough to make you stay and it'll forever be my biggest regret

I wish I could just talk to you like we use to but I see that I'm not worthy

I wish we were still friends

I miss that piece of my soul

Ur the missing piece

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This took awhile to write but I finally found the words to express how I feel.

I'm beyond grateful for the time we had together and if we were meant to have some more time with each other I wouldn't even give it a second thought, I'd just jump straight into it. Waiting for the next ride on that roller coaster but I'm being patient. Thank you for all the smiles, thank you for all the laughs, thank you for all your comforting embrace.

As of now I'm just glad seeing u happy even if it's not with me. This may be a pause or even a full stop but I'm content knowing you brought so much joy to my life. You thought me so many lessons I'll never forget.

I feel the same way about you and eventually if it is meant to be we'll be ijo and caki once again. When the time comes I'll be right here waiting for you. Therefore this journey that we're on is a stepping stone of what's to come in the future. I'm happy as long as you're happy

Till we find ourselves and each other again

Thank you so much for an amazing ride 🤟🏽

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a thank you letter.

thanks for all the adventures that we had, it was one great roller coaster ride but as of now it is under maintenance so we'd had to take a breather before any of us puke hahaha

do know that im always around the theme park, i know how theres alot of fishes in the sea but babe we're in a theme park and most people would leave the park by the end of the day but me? imma hang around everyday in the candy shop or the small game booths aha

if we're meant to be, i mean if the ride gets to work again, we'll ride it again alright? dont be sad, im not gonna exit the park and not come back cmon, id love to ride the rollercoaster again just to be high up on the ride and see the sceneries with you but just this time around maybe its time to slow down the dizziness for awhile.

i still do hv feelings for you but really, if us against the world is really it then we'll end up facing each other until we're bored

for now, walk around the theme park and be yourself !

thank you again 😊

wouldnt be a nice ride without you <3

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I'm really sorry but I was never playing you. All I gave was honest and from the heart if ur angry w me about the person I was texting that's literally no one. You know ur the only person I've been working so hard to persue. I'm sorry I wanted to be friends but I just feel like we rushed I know my apologies won't mean anything rn but I'm telling the truth. I'm sorry ur going through all this and I'm making it harder. I wanna be w u but I don't feel like ur giving me time to grieve at the fact that I spoiled our relationship by wanting to be friends the first time

I don't hv much to say, I just see that u wanna remove me from your life outright and if that's ur decision I respect it but I'm sorry for losing u

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im losing it all just so you know. no more next times no more soon no more the right time.

im gonna live my life n see where it leads me but at this point there's no more hope for us.

the hope is gone n god is trying to show it all. i see it so very clearly now aha

i made a fool of myself for having hope. thanks tho for everything

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i like you but sometimes just dont play me like that aite.

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dear ijo, i may not know what title we're wearing but that's surely something that's not as important. i just want you to know how grateful i am to have you by my side and im not only like like you like you but im inlove with you. i still suck at showing my affections but do know that i meant all of my i miss yous and i love yous. but if youve given up on me, do let me know and if you hate me, high five me first cuz i hate me too but just tell me every little thing on how you feel okay? i love you, i truly do. ans whatever is best for us, i'll follow it. thank you again and again for being there for me. i appreciate you so very much. i love you bubs.

-caki

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hey baby 🥰

its been awhile since i wrote to you so here i am in an okay mood vibing to musics while youre on the other line sleeping soundly.

its crazy how its the last month of the year already and we went through a whole lot of ups and downs and look at us still looking at each other with puppy eyes 💜

its been a tough ride for the both of us but in the future its all gonna be worth it :)

i may not be my 100% rn and i may take time to heal and recover but just keep in mind that im a 100% whenever im w you.

youre the only person i cry to, i rant to, i go to when i feel a little too much. maybe its a weight to you that youre the only person i rely on rn but baby youre my comfort place and i hv no other places to go to so im sorry if im weighing you down :(

being the rawest version of myself to you is something that i wouldn't imagine of doing but look at me now being all vulnerable and opening up to you ☺️

youve help me through so much baby and i see you i promise i see you

i may not be able to repay the same amount but im trying and in a way our love languages are different, we're slowly accepting how we flow within our lives and its amazing 💖

we'll get through this all and walk towards our end goal together sayang ❤️

ijo and caki against the world ✨

xo Caki

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im sorry

ive been too tired these past few days, crying is hard bc i hv someone in the room w me.

knowinh tmr is the day of my results, scares me

i know you kept telling me to not worry but its hard it really is

these few days ive been feeling like im not myself, ive been fakinh who i am

ive plastered a smile for everyone and it seem to be working fine but im torn

im sorry ive been cancelling plans and declining calls but i just couldn't put out or push my energy anymore

sometimes when you call, i feel like i have to communicate and its hard, its hard to talk. id rather clench my jaw for the whole day

sometimes meeting people is a weight, and im not saying that its hard seeing you but i would just want to breakdown and cry if i were to see you.

the last time we met, i held back my tears.

i am a mess baby, im sorry

idk how my head would react to my results tmr

ive been overthinking alot today and it scares me that my suicidal yhoughts are back

its telling me if i dont get the perfect mark, i'll do something insane.

im scared im tired

i just want to live like you told me to but

its hard sayang

sayang please

bring me out of this place im stuck in

i want to be back to normal

i wanna be happy again and not care of perfection

im sorry if im hard.

ive been avoiding you so that i wouldnt let my energy eat you up

i wouldnt want my happy baby to turn sad just bc of my vibe

im sorry sayang

i really am

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Henlo, its like 2am right now and i cant seem to sleep but im getting pretty bored which will prolly lead me to sleep soon.

ive been scrolling through tiktok and all it did was tell me that i hv a childhood trauma hshsh

anyways, i miss you so very much, im not as romantic rn but i just want you to know that i love you and thank you for still being around.

it means alot🤍

xo Caki

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Sayang

I love you

I understand it's hard to be you rn and I'm trying my best to be supportive, I'm even happy to help, be there for you, give you anything you want or need.

I want to cherish the time we have because life is not forever, we're all gonna die and either we go to hell or heaven that's on us. I wish you could see what I see and from where I'm standing you have so much more life to live than me. It's not about how living makes you feel or feeling alive it's about living life as full as we can to feel alive, that's what matters.

By far I'm not undermining what's in your thoughts but even you know it's all you and no one else so live life not by making yourself feel alive but to live life to ur fullest to make you feel alive. Help me help you to get you out of a situation your subconscious created for you. Leave your past sins behind and learn from them. No one is gonna love you more than you *I do actually* but like you said my love is not gonna be enough if you don't love yourself.

LUV IJO ❤️