el-oiza

[el-oiza]

Whats the point in trying, or breathing or even existing anymore?

[el-oiza]

Nobody cares until something dramatic happens. It could be an attempt, a hospital stay, a public meltdown. It always takes theatrics to get them to listen. Because if I don't prove how bad it is, they'll just keep assuming I'm faking it.

[el-oiza]

a happy ending was never in my fate

[el-oiza]

"If you watch triggering media to "relax" then you need to ask yourself why you find comfort in trauma."

[el-oiza]

Maybe all the abuse happened because I deserved it. Maybe it was all my fault.

[el-oiza]

Trust issues so bad I don't even trust myself

[el-oiza]

[el-oiza]

my babies

[el-oiza]

[el-oiza]

“Are you okay”

Idk im barley convinced I’m alive

[el-oiza]

[el-oiza]

“You were supposed to be something.”

yeah. yeah i know.

[el-oiza]

I’m gonna crash the fuck out

[el-oiza]

My mind is 50% music and 50% suicidal toughts

[el-oiza]

always either

1. avoiding sleep because it always brings nightmares

or

2. sleeping excessively because reality becomes even worse than nightmares

[el-oiza]

[el-oiza]

Life tip: Don’t get attached.