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Be My Favorite and the Perils of Getting What You Think You Want

This show continues to astound me with how smart it is; it truly does get better and better every week. In this episode, Kawi finished fixing everything on his list - saving his dad, growing closer to Pear, repairing friendships with Max and Pisaeng - and headed back to the future to reap the rewards. And once we got there, we realized very quickly that getting what he thought he wanted did not in fact fix his life.

This new Future Kawi is a successful recording artist, he is still friends with Max and Pisaeng, and he got to be in a long-term relationship with Pear. But his dad still died, his relationship with Pear fell apart, and he is now struggling with alcoholism. He is deeply unhappy, and the things he thought he wanted did not actually result in the kind of life he hoped he would have. Connecting with Pisaeng again only seems to reinforce that he’s been looking in the wrong place for what he seeks, and he is not done with the work to get there.

This is a genius turn of events. I am impressed that the show decided to pursue the thread of Kawi’s alcoholism, which they have been seeding the entire time. We have seen him turn to substances to manage his emotions, we have seen him blow well past his own limits, and we have seen him struggle to maintain control. All of these characteristics left unaddressed can easily result in a substance abuse problem, especially in someone who is not doing the necessary work to address their behavior problems and get to the root of what’s causing their issues.

In this episode, Kawi interrupted his own growth arc midstream to go back to the future, thinking that what he had achieved was enough to guarantee a good outcome. But he was not finished doing the necessary work to deal with his underlying issues and become the kind of person who could be a good partner to anyone, and he was denying an important part of himself. He looked away from his growing feelings for Pisaeng and their implications and instead stayed focused on his original goal of being with Pear, even as he wasn’t entirely certain why he wanted it anymore. He stopped thinking about how to be a better person to the people in his life. He stopped putting in the effort to change. And so in this new timeline he made Pear miserable in their relationship and ultimately still ended up alone. 

Another thing this episode showed us is how very much everyone else in this story is affected by Kawi’s choices. Pear spends years in a bad relationship with Kawi and then gets stuck with a cheating asshole of a husband. Kwan ends up used and discarded. Max is still playing the role of frustrated caretaker to Kawi’s emotional mess. Pisaeng alone seems to have found some peace, and it’s interesting that in this timeline, it was getting away from Kawi and moving on from his feelings for him that did it. Despite that kiss at the end, it’s clear that this version of Kawi is not the one who can be the partner Pisaeng deserves. 

Kawi is not done doing the work to accept his true desires and become his best self, and this narrative is not going to let him take shortcuts. Insert jack shepherd.gif here because WE HAVE TO GO BACK.

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"I want to thank you too."

Our Skyy 2 (2023) Episode 2 - dir. Jojo Tichakorn Phukhaotong

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Oh i miss nlmg so much! 😭 Such a beautiful underrated show!

NEVER LET ME GO + PANO by Zack Tabudlo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIOLET! @geminifourth ​

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barbie from my minor mafia family (in/sp)

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Ok but the way neung was so happy and giddy in ep 1/4. He repeated the word boyfriend a dozen times... kissed palm any chance he got

He's such a romantic guy and yet he was starving for love and friendship so damn much😭😭

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Nueng: I know this is just casual for you

Palm, who's never been casual about a single thing in his life, vibrating at a frequency that could shatter glass: Khun Nueng please brace yourself because I'm about to be SO normal about this

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People on twt are like bible and tong look so sad! Omg what if they cry!? We gonna chant his name and hold his banners so that everyone feels uncomfortable and they can cry... idk what tragedy p*rn they're looking for. That man has already caused the ruin of the career of 15 other people(esp bible) who had nothing to do with this nonsense and now his fans are hell bent on making it worse!

His stans are worse than him istg... i may forgive build but never the fans... seems to be a collection of the worst kind of people on internet 😕 I hope they realize that no one is gonna want to work with him again even if he's proven innocent

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I hope this is my last post on this matter

Sorry there is just some things I need to vent & then I’ll shut up for good.

It’s my conclusion that Build & Poi were two toxic people in a toxic relationship. There was a lot of ammunition for both sides to throw & they did. 

The most charitable thing you can say about Build is he made mistakes, at worse…..well I won’t go into that.

A good section of the Build fandom have not helped his cause, making threats of physical violence towards Poi and crossing boundaries by harassing other BOC artists and even their families, begging for support. They then resorted to attacking other fans for not giving that support. 

I can tell you as a Bible fan, the so called Bubble fandom had a bullying double standard. If someone mention shipping Build with another cast member; it was funny and cute, but when BibleJeff trended, you were disrespectful to the established couples & their fans (just a small example). So I guess I felt no loyalty to Build because of the constant discounting of Bible, but believe me, if the shoe had been on the other foot, then Build fans would have dumped Bible pretty quick and would probably have suggested Noted for the other role in 4Minutes, well, within 4Minutes.

There were genuine BibleBuild fans, & I don’t include them in this observation.

I am foremost a Bible fan, and now I want him to thrive and grow free of any controversy. I think he deserves that chance.

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I'm just going to go ahead and let myself be emotional for a moment about Bible's current situation. Yes, I'm going to mention Build Jakapan so feel free to scroll past or ignore this post.

Context: The above screenshot is of Build's reply to a video showing Bible being a bit awkward at an event without Build back in August. And seeing this again is just making me grieve what Bible is going through and what he has just lost.

Yes, I'm aware that Bible is a grown adult. You know what I'm also aware of? That he himself has referred to Build as his 'safe space' and his comfort level around Build has been visible. He relaxes around Build and the two of them had a natural chemistry together. There are interactions on camera of Build pulling Bible's focus back to what they are doing or reassuring him, etc. These are simple facts about their relationship with one another.

Now that is gone and I can only imagine the impact that it is going to have on Bible not just for his career but also on a personal level. Regardless of his personal feelings about the situation, which I will say we do not know, the fact is that he's now facing moving forward without his acting partner and also largely without someone who he obviously considers or considered a very dear friend. Previously at most events he would always be paired with someone to play off of, who knew him well. And yes, again: I *know* he is an adult, but being an adult doesn't mean that it can't be hard to do that on your own. I hope that his exposure over the last six months will set him up well and that maybe they'll send others with him sometimes.

Not only that, but now as a newcomer to the industry he has to go forward without an established pairing going into his next project, likely with a lot of uncertainty about who he will be paired with, whether they will have chemistry, how it will be received, etc.

And all this while being aware of what Build is going through because I can assure you that regardless of Build's guilt or innocence, this whole situation is HURTING those who love him, people who have done *nothing wrong*. It's why I have little to no patience for the glee that I have seen from some people because this is not the time or place. There are humans hurting due to all of this. I can support the idea of justice but also be concerned for those around Build who are innocent in this situation.

I am just so incredibly sad for him and I really hope that his friends and family are able to offer him support right now. The D7 event and the World Tour are going to be extremely hard for some members of the cast, I think.

So, yeah. That's what's on my mind. I'm going to do my best to pull myself out of my feels but I really hope Bible, Tong and Us in particular are surrounded by love right now.

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// Mentions of abuse and toxic relationship.

It's in the past now alright, I'm not gonna sit here and force my opinions about who is right and who is wrong on you guys. I will be honest, I literally don't even care about what anybody thinks about that build boy, I have very much been neutral about him from the beginning, no shade but he had nothing to offer, bible carried their ship. But, I do not enjoy reading tweets about people being happy while seeing someone at his lowest, and neither do I enjoy seeing edits being made about literally a shit human being. Basically, I don't fuck with any of yall. I have never wished for anyone's downfall, I enjoyed him being around with the whole cast while it lasted, but this whole situation is consequences of his own actions.

It is not anybody else's fault but his. No matter how hard you try to deny it, or blame it on someone else, BOC "mismanaging" him or KP writers being horrible people (oh, which they very much are) have nothing to do with the way he himself, as a grown adult, lived his life for 4 past years.

You saw the texts with your own eyes, the evidence is right there. The way he arrogantly talks, shamelessly asks for money, uses a woman and her feelings for personal gain, laughs it off when the girl mentions her bruised body, tries to change the subject instead of at least apologizing or acting like he feels bad.

Yes, what actually happened between them, how it went down, how much of what they both said are true, will be decided in court. However, none of the things I mentioned above, are things the version of Build that you have created in your head, would do.

Because he is not real, it's you making shit up and hoping the person you reprogrammed in your mind will act exactly the way you want them to. You are angry that it's not true, but you find it hard to blame it on him, because you already manipulated yourself into believing your own lies about him.

You are not mad at the author for lying, she clearly isn't, you are mad that she came out and exposed Build, she ruined his perfect image for you. You wish she would just shut up, you wish she would just watch Build live his life, being loved and adored, after being used and abused by him. Now you have to sit there, desperate to find anyone or anything that will make him look less of a bad guy:

Constantly bringing up authors behavior towards the cast, like that somehow justifies any of Build's actions. Two people can be horrible at the same time, maybe that's exactly how they connected.

Bringing up his other ex-girlfriend, saying "oh but he didn't do any of that to that other girl." That's not how life works, that's not how anything works.

Dragging BOC and Pond into this, like this man wasn't begging yall 2 days ago to give him a chance and listen to the last thing he had to say on that live, risking the reputation of his company. Like he didn't forgive him his past scandal literally a couple weeks ago. Like he would let this one guy let everything he and the cast worked for, go down the drain.

Closing eyes on the whole conversation, where Build's actual personality is showing, and only focusing on pinterest pictures she posted on her INSTAGRAM STORY, outside of twitter thread exposing build.

Feeling bad for him, after he deleted all his social media, as if he didn't do it AFTER he got called out for trying to shame her and make her look as if she was crazy for being mad at him. + Accidentally including his own text, proving that it was indeed him in her screenshots.

Mentioning Bible & Build, and how the main couple, whose names are literally the title of the show, are getting booked more frequently than a side couple. Like as if, that's what your buildy was sad about and decided to act like an idiot.

Saying timing is suspicious, no it's not? She kept trying to talk to him, he kept ignoring her, she got fed up, was hurt, and went on a rant. Like if y'all would want your abuser to live his dreams and have his own show.

I understand that he was your safe place, but you also have to understand that "he" wasn't real. None of these men are pure, fragile babies that need to be protected. You are coming out here shaming a woman for daring to speak out, making edits praising her toxic ex-boyfriend, feeling bad for him, blaming everyone but him. Please, be for fucking real.

Let him go, let him be, let him take care of his shit, it has nothing to do with you. It's not you and him against the world, he has no idea that you're sitting there trying to trend a hashtag for him like it's gonna take you back in time and let u raise him into a better human being.

There is no coming back from this, even if it somehow gets confirmed that bruises weren't created by him (even tho his texts and reactions say otherwise), his pure boy image has already been shattered by just his shit personality.

Nothing can save him from being disliked by people with common sense, it's just you and your little bubble of people with no education about real life, unhealthy relationships with outside world, and chronically online people.

I'm sorry, I really am. But some of y'all need a wake up call. There are millions of others who could create that space for you again, you don't have to stick to one and act like a military wife, that will take you nowhere. The state you are in, literally keeps you away from growing and learning. You are contributing to unhealthy fan & idol dynamic, as well as entering the community of people who for centuries shamed women for standing up against men. Please, miss me with that "we are waiting for court" shit, you are defending him, trending hashtags, making sad edits, without knowing a damn thing. That is not how you wait, that is you hoping there is still a chance to save his face in your own eyes.

This is not meant to be a hate post of Build, I genuinely do not care, he means absolutely nothing to me. Neither is this me saying he either did or didn't do certain things, that is not for me to judge. I just felt like gagging after going through his tags and seeing the absolute bullcrap y'all pull out of your ass to defend a man you do not know.

Please wake up, and wait for the court or whatever in a correct manner.

Stay safe and sane.

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neungdiao’s top 5 dramatic gay moments:

gets sloshed while absolutely allergic to alcohol because he has a crush and needs to make it everyone’s problem

refreshes his instagram feed every ten seconds for signs of palm instead of outright asking where he is

concocts intricate rituals (mandarin assignment) just to touch the skin of other men (palm) 

casually drops the most scathing bdsm implications in regular conversation. does NOT realize the effect they have on palm

the yearning. the sheer amount of pining. pining from the window. pining from the side of the basketball court. pining from the elderly club bar. get, and i cannot stress this enough, help.

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utter betrayal & helplessness.

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I am trying to be neutral but at this point build/boc behavior is making it very hard. Like I thought he deactivated instantly due to lawyer recommendations or something... as poi word vomiting and going insane on twt will only damage her case.

Because honestly cheating and manipulation for monetary/personal gains are not crimes per se... but defamation(especially of this level) is!! If poi is lying it should be way easier for build to sue her! Why is he not doing anything? The onus lies on poi to prove she was abused and not the other way round. If build is innocent he can easily win in the legal proceedings and end this. His silence at this point is really weird. And on top of that this random conference! Like wtf is boc thinking🙄 this is not a reality show! Why do you want a judgment from the society and not in the court of law? Is build relying on his rabid fandom's blind support to come back?

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The way that confession/kiss scene was shot was so amazing though. The close-up made it feel so intimate... like we were intruding upon a private moment

Also side note: the kiss! Was so good! Pond.. sir ..what 👀🔥

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Palm looking at Nuengdiao

Pond Naravit as PALM & Phuwin Tangsakyuen as NUENGDIAO NEVER LET ME GO THE SERIES (2022) dir. Jojo Tichakorn Phukhaotong

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pond really just bulldozed the competition for best bl kiss 2023