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OOC: If anyone still following this account wants to go follow my new role-play account it's over here. It's a werewolf!mpreg Kurt! AU rp :)

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He freezes when he hears the remark to their sexual history but finishes up. Kurt stopped, trying to keep from panicking yet again and hoped Blaine didn't act like an asshole in response. Surprisingly he wasn't that bad, and Kurt breathed a sigh of relief. "I-I'm sorry for acting like that, I really am. I guess I'm not handling this very well at all." He listened and thought about throwing up another wall of defense, but honestly he was just tired. Tired of running from the problems instead of fixing them, and the only way he saw that changing was if he stayed honest with Blaine. Sure it may make him more vulnerable to being hurt, but he just needed something stable to hold on to during this. So here he goes, trying. "I want you to want to help us with more than just money Blaine. I want us to be a family. I want you holding my hand during this and reassuring me that I actually can do it. I want us to be able to raise him or her together. I don't want to be a single Dad. I don't want this baby to know the other father as just a 'money supplier'. I know this is a lot to ask of someone, but carrying a baby for nine months and then giving birth isn't exactly the smallest task either. I'm willing to do this...for our baby. I just want you to want the same thing." He sits there for a minute more then adds. "I'll take your money if you're offering it...I just want more from you. I expect more from you." Kurt debated getting up and leaving the office and giving him space, but he knew he had made that move too many times. It was time to wait and see what the next step was, or if Blaine would leave first.

Apologize

"The only person who would be tied down in this relationship would be you, to a bed, possibly with a gag because I know how you like to get loud." He chuckled, listening to what Kurt had to say and understanding a bit more but at the same time not really knowing where he came into play especially with the way Kurt had been treating him lately-even if Blaine had treated Kurt poorly on purpose sometimes. "I know you’ve been freaking out or else you wouldn’t go off berating me and acting like you are the queen. I mean, I could blame hormones but that’s just another excuse." He shrugged, pulling away from Kurt a little. "I told you I would help you and you basically told me no and screamed at me…so I don’t really know what you want from me. You have to actually tell me or I’m going to be completely clueless about this for the next eighteen years and however many months."

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He relaxed a little more when he felt Blaine's arms wrap around him and allowed himself to lean more into him. His breathing hitched slightly at the last thing Blaine spoke. If Blaine could be honest then so could he, so he took a deep breath and admitted it. "Blaine...I want to keep the baby." He waited to see if there would be any response and then continued. "I know I couldn't handle giving the baby away, but I don't want to tie you down to helping me out for the next eighteen years, but I can't do it on my own either. I don't really know what to do and I've been freaking out since I realized this." Kurt took a deep breath and brought his hands up to wrap around Blaine's to feel more stable. 

Apologize

He shrugged, sliding his hand from the door and wrapping them around Kurt’s chest and leaning his head down against his shoulder just for the fact he didn’t want to look at Kurt crying or having Kurt see him in some other light. “I want you to not stress out about this and you can either be grateful for the whole pregnancy thing and live your life the way you want to just a little more cautiously of course or get rid of it and gain a lot of health problems and be completely depressed thinking what would happen if you kept the baby and…” He admitted,”I just want you to be happy, Kurt.”

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Kurt froze when Blaine's body came in between him and his only exit. The tears were already forming and falling down his cheeks so he tried to keep his face from being seen by looking down. He listened to him speak and, as much as he hated to admit it, Blaine was right. Kurt had to grow up and quit running from his problems, including Blaine and this baby. He was about to turn around to sit down when he heard the change in Blaine's voice. It was soft, almost sympathetic...definitely a tone he had never heard directed towards him from his boss. Blaine was actually trying to give him hope. "W-what do you mean having to deal with you? Like...you want me to keep this baby?" He took his chances and looked up at him, hoping to find the truth instead of any facade he might be given.

Apologize

"I’m pretty sure you’re going to get a shit storm of press whether I’m the father or not but that’s more because you’re a man who is going to have a child." He sighed, shaking his head at Kurt’s reaction. "I’m not blaming you or telling you it was your fault but you don’t have to overreact to every little thing I say." He pursed his lips, getting up when he noticed Kurt trying to flee off again. Cornering him and keeping his hand against the door so kurt wouldn’t be able to get out. "You can’t just runaway from me everytime you get upset or angry. That’s not going to work anymore with me." He lowered his eyes, sighing again as he searched for some sort of comforting thing to tell him. "Lots of people have kids and still live out their dreams, right? Niki Taylor became a model at thirteen, she had twins at nineteen and continued a very successful career, Elizabeth Taylor, Reese Witherspoon, Aretha Franklin. Besides having to deal with me nothing should stop you from actually keeping the kid."

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"When I'm eight months pregnant I assumed you would make me start my leave early." Kurt's not sure if it's still called maternity leave when it's a male present. Everything is still pretty new to him now. "I don't have a problem with telling people at work i'm pregnant once it gets to that point. I just don't want a shit storm of press in my face from finding out YOU'RE the other father. That's what I would prefer to keep hidden." He listened to Blaine continuously degrade their...relationship? friendship? working partnership? That's what it is. "Right. I see where you stand with me now. I didn't know you thought of me that way. Someone who let his life spiral out of control." Kurt wasn't angry at Blaine. He was upset, more at himself. Blaine was right. His life wasn't going to get any better now. All of his dreams are gone, at least if he decides to keep the baby. He nodded at Blaine's last words and started to feel the burning sensation of tears building behind his eyes. A few fell down his cheek before he decided to retreat to his desk so Blaine wouldn't see how he affected him. How did his life get like this?

Apologize

"So when you’re eight months pregnant you’re going to tell people what? That you’re keeping a basketball under there or something?" He rolled his eyes, not expecting Kurt to do anything but get angry at him for anything he said. He wasn’t sure if it was just hormones or the fact Kurt was naturally like this and he would always assume the latter. "I’m not going to sit around and get all lovey-dovey and fucking mushy with you. I’m not a romantic and even if I did care for you which I’m not saying I do I wouldn’t just outright say it because the moment you start caring for someone is the moment your life kind of spirals out of control and you end up basically…" He cleared his throat, not wanting to say the word pregnant and not wanting Kurt to be any more upset than he already was. "I’m not going to fire you I’m just trying to protect you…"

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Despite the measures Kurt took to protect his feelings it still stung when Blaine denied anything more between them. It's not like he expected anything, but he had some hope that Blaine would've softened his appearance after finding out they were having a baby together. No such luck. He remained as hard nosed and unburdened as the man he started working for. He knew Blaine was genuinely wanting to help Kurt keep his reputation, but it was mostly benefitting himself. "You're just trying to save your own ass here, so why don't you make the decision what to do with me. I will say this though- I'm not going to sit at home and do work all day. I need to be out doing things, seeing people, interacting and exercising. My job is to assist you, I can't do that at home. So if you really don't want people finding out about me then you can fire me. Now if that's all you have to say then i'm going back to my desk." He made the move to stand up and leave.

Apologize

"What…no…" Blaine shifted in the chair, clearing his throat. "What gave you that idea?" He changed the topic, not wanting to admit to it again and not realizing he had done so in the first place. Especially now that Kurt knew he didn’t want to talk about how he felt. "I just don’t want to put any unnecessary pressure on you when you start showing or something and I don’t want to fire you or something but if you want to work from home and set something up…I don’t think the world needs to know and I don’t think you want the gossip around here or for it to spread to the news? I mean, it is a little rare for a man to be pregnant and in nine months when you pop out a baby and people ask where it came from I don’t know what you’re going to say especially when they ask who the mother is." 

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Kurt sat, staring at his hands in his lap, and listened to the words coming out of Blaine's mouth. He knew he had over reacted slightly the other night but his underlying reasons still stood true. "I want you to WANT to be apart of this Blaine. Getting pregnant and trapping you into this situation wasn't my plan." He stayed quiet, trying to keep some civilness between them. His heart wrenched at the mention of their relationship, a relationship that he desperately wanted but knew Blaine didn't. He was broken out of his thoughts at the mention of him caring. "Y-you care about me? Like-", he broke himself off from saying something more that could lead him down a road of heartache, "-more than an employee?"

Apologize

"Please, I haven’t been ignoring you…It’s everytime I see you though you look ready to bite my head off. I know you’re angry and I know you have a lot going on but yelling at me and ignoring me and basically doing what you want isn’t going to help you at all. I offer to help and you blame me for something." He shook his head, looking over Kurt for a second to gauge any sort of reaction he was getting. "Do you want me to be apart of this because I can if you want me to…" He sighed, "I’m not going to force myself into whatever our relationship is or let the entire world know but I do care about you and it isn’t just because we had sex or you’re pregnant. I just don’t want you to worry about anything even if you’re going to reply by complaining."

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Kurt turns around at the sound of Blaine's asking him to stay. "I don't really have anything to say to you, besides, you've been ignoring me just as much!" He locks the door and goes to take a seat near him. "I am angry, but nothing is going to change your mind or attitude towards me and this baby so what's the point of even trying?" 

Kurt sat quietly, giving Blaine the chance to lead the conversation in whatever direction he wanted. He wasn't going to sit there and freely let his emotions flow; he wouldn't give Blaine the satisfaction of seeing how upset he still is at all of this. So instead he just waited.

Apologize

Blaine’s eyes had moved over to Kurt when he had begun to leave the room, watching the other employees leave as well and calling out to the man when he had seen Kurt beginning to leave. Knowing Kurt was still avoiding him but Blaine had been doing the same. “Are you going to keep giving me the silent treatment or…?” Blaine had known this wasn’t really the place to talk about it but they were alone now with the other employees leaving. “Lock the door and come here, this is honestly the first time we have been alone in the same room because you’re avoiding me or something.” He rolled his eyes, sitting back down on a chair and putting his feet up on the desk. Knowing he was lying and it was the other way around. Blaine kept avoiding Kurt so he wouldn’t be berated again for something so stupid.  ”I know you’re angry at me but we can’t just pussy-foot around this for the next nine months.”

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Kurt barely made it through the meeting without the morning sickness getting him. As soon as the meeting ended he darted out to throw up and then returned to the room unnoticed to wait for further instruction from Blaine. He didn't want to talk about this at the work place. The last thing he needed was to deal with nosy coworkers. He vowed to keep the pregnancy and baby off the topic list unless Blaine brought it up in the privacy of his office.

Until then he would only be there to do his job, only speaking if spoken to. He sat at the table awaiting the removal of the last few people, notes laid out in front of him. Seeing one more employee left talking to Blaine, he stood and gathered his stuff and began to make his way to the door to leave for his office. If Mr. Anderson wanted him, he could come to him.

Apologize

Blaine sighed as he went off into the room, grabbing some coffee from his assistant and keeping calm as he met with some of the new partners within the company. Trying not to look at Kurt because he wasn’t even sure how he was going to make it through the meeting with him in the room. He let out a reluctant smile as he sipped from his coffee and focused on speaking to the other members of the team to introduce the new members and stepping down to let a new seller of their clothing line begin to speak. Explaining modeling shows and things of that nature that were going to go on within the coming year. Blaine was already taking notes on what to say to Kurt but he still couldn’t think of anything that wouldn’t make him angry.

When the meeting was over he watched some of the others leave the room, speaking to someone rather frankly about meeting in his office in a few minutes and then staying to look at Kurt on the other side. He had the power to keep him there and to talk to him but it was honestly the one moment in his life where he wouldn’t know what to say, and simply waited for Kurt to say something.

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To say that Kurt was stressed out was putting it lightly. He had no idea how to take care of the baby that was currently inhabiting his insides. He knew he couldn't do this alone, and it was becoming painfully obvious that he couldn't rely on Blaine for anything but money. Trying to decide whether he should return to Ohio was taking up the majority of his brain and not much else. Of course he remembered his and Blaine's fight, how could he not. Work was a constant reminder as was the child that constantly had him running for the bathroom every twenty minutes like clock work (that Blaine put there). He was relieved that Blaine was avoiding him because he honestly didn't have the patience or energy to handle him and this situation right now. 

He walked into work and breathed a sigh of relief that the coast was clear. He put his stuff away at his desk and was going to grab a water when he was stopped by Blaine's assistant. He cringed at the thought of trying to keep his morning sickness at bay to make it through a meeting, Blaine being present furthest from his mind. He grabbed a pack of crackers and water to help with the nausea and headed for the board room. He immediately made eye contact with Blaine once he opened the door. Dammit, forgot he was going to be here.He sat in the seat farthest from him.

Apologize

Over the next few days Blaine had not heard or seen Kurt since he basically stormed out of the loft. Blaine knew Kurt had been angry and emotional but Blaine refused to bark up that tree at work and the few days he took off were mostly to avoid Kurt. Today however, Blaine came into the building a few hours earlier than normal. Wanting to eat breakfast and do some work on his office computer that he couldn’t’ access at home. He knew it wouldn’t take long but he hurried it up so he wouldn’t have to run into Kurt. So Kurt and him wouldn’t get into another conflict and stir up their relationship any more. He didn’t want to know what Kurt would say to him or if he would apologize but he was worried the stress was going to harm Kurt more than help him and Blaine did not want to add to that.

He tried to ignore his thoughts as he finished up his flat bread sandwich, checking the time and realizing Kurt was going to come in any second and he had already starting putting his briefcase together to jolt out of there. He didn’t have the time however. The moment he was about to leave he was suddenly notified over the speaker of his office phone of a meeting that was schedule a week in advanced and now he needed Kurt to do it with him. Especially since he was the one who was wearing the prototype clothing to see the reaction of people around them. He sighed, telling his assistant to get Kurt to come into his office once he had arrived for the morning and then jotted down subjects to avoid. One being the pregnancy and the other being what had happened only two days earlier even if he wanted to apologize.

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Happy Thanksgiving!

It’s the perfect holiday to be pregnant! I finally found a perk!

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Kurt sat beside the trash can listening to Blaine drone on and on. "God you are such an asshole. I don't know why I even thought you would be capable of helping me through this." Kurt got up and washed his mouth and hands trying to calm down because he knew Blaine was right about the baby being upset. He just couldn't help it after all that stuff he just said to him. "How dare you act like you know what it's like to be pregnant. You don't have a damn clue what i'm going through right now! You just sit there with your perfect career and throwing money at me and thinking everything is fine, but you know what? I'm dealing with shit! My body is changing, my life is changing! You're just being a complete asshole! You're not even trying to understand my point of view! You know what? I can't deal with this AND you right now." He walked back to the living room to grab his stuff and head for the door. "See you at work tomorrow. Bye!" He walks out and slams the door.

Decisions

"Yes you do. I didn’t know bringing doughnuts to office meetings and eating like twelve of them was healthy. He shrugged, "you don’t need to complain, you need to lay down and relax and drink some water because you’re overreacting to nothing and yes, I am going to call you out on it. I dont’ care if you’re pregnant or not. You can’t blame your hormones on it. I won’t let you because it’s annoying. I can’t tell you everything is going to be perfect…" He sighed, watching Kurt head off to vomit and he rolled his eyes as he leaned back into the chair. "See, you’re getting all worked up over nothing and the baby is upset."

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"I do NOT pig out thank you very much! I'm a very healthy eater! Well I was before this happened." Kurt went quiet after that, just listening to Blaine justify everything. He knows he should let the words make him feel better, but he honestly was just getting angrier that Blaine wasn't letting him have a pity party. At the mention of a nutritionist he had had it. He jumped off of his lap and turned around with a scowl on his face. "WHY WANT YOU LET ME JUST COMPLAIN THIS ONCE!? I'm scared out of my mind and all I want is you to comfort me and tell me everything will be perfect and you're not!" The sudden shift in positions must've sent a message to his stomach because there it was again. That sick feeling creeping up his throat. He had just enough time to make it to the kitchen trash can and empty the cake he had just ate. 

Decisions

He rose an eyebrow at Kurt’s break down about the food cravings. “Don’t you pig out like all of the time though? You really shouldn’t care about gaining weight because you can always lose it. Don’t worry so much about something so stupid. It’s only going to be like thirty pounds and when you have the kid you lose like ten? I don’t know, my aunt had a baby last year, she complained too and she’s smaller than she was before she got pregnant.” He shrugged, rubbing Kurt’s side as he kept his hand there, not really comforting him. “First of all, a mini donut is not that many calories. it’s like sixty. Second you can get a nutritionist to help you eat right during this.”

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He raised an eyebrow at Blaine's explanation. "Yes Blaine, I could do all that but I would still be pregnant. I was saying you can get away from it but I can't. This baby will be with me wherever I go until it's out." He was a little deflated from thinking about the weight gain. "Yeah I guess you're right. I just don't want to gain anything or get a tummy or anything. Why can't I just stay like I am, little and flat! It's not fair Blaine." Kurt laid his head on his shoulder. "I can't even ignore these stupid cravings because they literally make me crazy. Like now! I'm cravings those little chocolate mini-donuts that are like 500 calories per donut!"

Decisions

"I understand you’re pregnant and emotional but that is not what I meant. I meant you can do a lot of things since it’s early in your pregnancy like fly on an airplane or go fucking bungee jumping or something." he shrugged a little, not knowing anymore ideas. "It’s healthy to gain weight during pregnancy and some people only gain five or ten pounds during their pregnancy so you won’t get fat. You’ll just be pregnant. It’s normal and you have to live with it and can always workout during it or eat a lot of cake. Which I will get for you."

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"I told you I'm not getting an abortion Blaine Anderson!" Kurt snipped. It wasn't the baby's fault Blaine forgot a condom and Kurt had been reckless so why should it be the one to suffer. It wasn't fair to him. It was slowly becoming more evident that their was no way he could keep the baby. He was interrupted from his thoughts by the feeling of a hand on his still flat tummy. Kurt looked down to see Blaine's hand brushing over it. The warmth that sent to his heart should've been alarming, but it was sweet. "Yeah that's a joke...about how big I will get! There's no maybe in that. I'll get heavier and fatter."

Decisions

He looked away, knowing deep down he wanted to walk away but not knowing what Kurt would do about it. Even if he promised he wouldn’t tell anyone or get the public involved Blaine wasn’t sure Kurt was honest about it. “Not true, there’s a lot of things you can still do since you’re not that far along.” He brushed a hand over Kurt’s stomach, “is that like a joke about how heavy you might get or?”

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"I'm trying not to think of that", Kurt said as he was pulled down into Blaine's lap. "Yeah but I mean you can still walk away from all of this, from us. I can't", looking down to his stomach "I'm stuck doing this until the baby comes out no matter what I decide." He took a deep breath trying to stave off the thoughts that were bound to invade his memory at any moment. "You know I won't be able to do this before long, sitting in your lap that is."

Decisions

"I got you pregnant but I’m the best boss ever?" He rose an eyebrow and wrapped his arms around Kurt’s waist to pull him down into his lap. "Well, if you’re going to wake me up for pasta and pringles at three in the morning, I think I’ll be there as well. A ltitle annoyed and tired but…I’ll be here if you need me." He made sure he didn’t add the words, please don’t need to me. Not wanting to take away from his work just for a mistake. "Well you do have time to think about it. Even if you decide the day you have the thing."

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Kurt frowned up at the thought that Blaine could ship him off for work just to get away from him. The words that came next had him smiling again. He got up off the couch and walked over to Blaine. "You are seriously the best boss ever!" He chuckled a little and leaned in pressing a kiss to his lips. "I don't know what i'm going to do yet. I don't want to rush this decision. We know we're in this for the next 34 weeks...I am at least."

Decisions

"If I wanted to get you out of my hair and shut up I could ship you off to Paris for a year but if you’re in Paris than I can’t help you and actually be apart of whatever decisions you’re going to make. Well, if I want to be. I don’t know…" He sighed, rubbing his temples and trying to focus more. "But even after you go to sleep you can bother me for anything. Whenever you want, even if it’s at three in the morning for ice cream and pickles. Okay? I promise I won’t get mad if you do."