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jokes to make after failure that aren’t self-deprecating:

I’m the best to ever do it

Nobody saw that (best if said loudly)

No one’s ever done it like me

I could be President/they should make me President

Behold, a mere fraction of my power!

The public wants to be me soooooo bad

I’m an expert in (thing you just failed at)

How could this have happened to god’s favorite princess?

Nothing ibuprofen and a glass of water cant fix

I’m being sabotaged

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As , the United States, potentially heads into another forever war I can only think of this quote.

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Fun fact: the guys at our college’s geology department prop out the doors with their samples. I totally understand why but as someone whose work with samples is necessarily super delicate and sterile it fucks me up so bad

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let’s hang on mama (of another species)

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The protagonist of Love and Deepspace is the best written character in the game

Until Tumblr bans me for making too many posts about LADS, I will stand by this point. We have a woman who can pick fights with aliens, crime lords, shady corporations, and the government itself because that’s easier than confronting her own trauma 🤡

Caleb was right to call her a coward, and Sylus was right to remind her that she can handle it.

This woman hides behind wordplay and “childish” games, because there is nothing more painful to her than admitting she has another thing to love and lose. She doesn’t think she can survive one of the love interests dying like everyone else in her life seems to…And thus she acts detached. Her love is always indirect and aloof like a cat, but it’s just as earnest.

Fortunately for her, all the LADS men like their ladies a little mean. Even more fortunately, we’re watching the protagonist get a little braver being honest with each card. Proud of her!!! Can’t wait for it to blow up in her face when Ever makes a proper appearance!!!

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When you tell Sylus you’re having a bad day because you fought with your friend and his first reaction is ???

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This is my first ever tumblr blog post. I was planning on just lurking forever.

But I am remarkably autistic about this and need to vomit it SOMEWHERE. So you're getting it.

Now, I originally was planning on banishing Caleb to the shadow realm because I thought that him being basically our brother and then becoming a love interest was WEIRD.

But then he came out, and I read his stories, and now he's one of my favorites.

Caleb is toxic in a way that is so interesting that it makes me want to put him in a jar and study him. What makes me most engaged is that he isn't beyond reason or redemption; he has the potential to correct these unhealthy behaviors given enough time and space.

His obsession with MC is prevalent and deeply concerning; he doesn't trust her to protect herself, he is willing to brutally kill anyone who hurts her, he wants to 'exist in a world where it's just the two of us'... but it comes from a place of such genuine fear and care that it makes one hesitate to call him a bad person. He is not wrong in constantly being worried for MC's safety, she is quite literally being targeted by people who want to experiment on her, but he goes about it in a way that denies her autonomy. Caleb is ruled by his fear and obsessive devotion to her to the point that he is willing to do whatever it takes to keep her safe.

He was willing to stay as far away as possible after the explosion and subsequent his involvement with Ever, because he knew that she would be safest at a distance. But once she found her way in? The only way to ensure her safety is to keep her glued to his side.

Caleb and MC are codependent. They feel like they would lose themselves should they lose the other. Now, I admit that Caleb is definitely the more dependent one and has been for a long time. Caleb has an aggressive need to be needed, specifically by MC. He needs her, so he wants her to need him. I'd argue that's something that comes from the fear; he wants that reassurance that she'll never leave him behind. But since the reunion, MC has definitely been tightening her grip on him in return. She lost him once, she can't lose him again.

However, when it comes to Caleb's controlling tendencies, MC does not up with his bullshit; she will not forced to passively wait until it's safe. No, she will FIGHT. Caleb argues with her on this, but he can and has been swayed to back off.

However, he does relapse. I mean, it's hard not to do when your worst fears are being validated day in and day out. He has a fundamental belief that he must be MC's protector, that she needs his help in order to stay safe. He wants to trust in her, but that nagging voice in the back of his head keeps going 'You have to intervene. You have to keep her out of this. It's the only way you're going to know that she's safe,'. MC is a damsel in distress, and he is the only one who can save her.

The chip that's implanted in him only enhances his toxic traits. During his bond story, he acknowledges his selfishness when MC calls him out, and even states that he's trying to let go of his obsessive tendencies. He wants to have a healthier way to go about things. The chip made him go back on his progress, but he's still able to see reason.

Caleb and MC are going to be in each other's lives no matter what, either as friends or lovers, and their dynamic is on very shaky ground. But there's hope.

It's that hope for a healthier relationship that makes them so utterly devastating to me. Watching their ups and downs happen is an emotional rollercoaster. The conflict also gives the relationship somewhere to go, story wise, that's engaging.

tl;dr, Caleb has toxic behaviors and has done harmful things to MC, but he's not beyond redemption.

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obsessed with this baby hippo from thailand's khao khew zoo.. she has been so utterly betrayed by the world

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Thousands of naked women were dancing upon my grave, there was a deafening howling, and the more they stumped upon the mucky ground, blood began oozing from their feet covering the soil resembling the barrel of grapes, the women having bronze, silver, and gold vases dipping into soil that now look like red wine.

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Why would you do this to me.

This is the worst thing I’ve ever made. It will get 2 or 3 notes at most, but in my heart, I’ve unleashed it on the world.

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im trapped on this bitch of an earth, might as well fag it up while i still can

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