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ermmm so my country just won the esc…

and my family will try to get tickets gor next year….

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this is an appreciation post for anyone who has ever tolerated me

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Tits out playing videogames

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“Romantic prongsfoot” this, “platonic prongsfoot” that

I raise you “co-dependent, cannot be separate for more than a day, secret third thing” prongsfoot

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Some more Robbies ft. the monke

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why does cooking takes like six hours and eating like three seconds and washing dishes like seven days and seven nights

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jegulus as Mal and Ben from Descendants <33

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erm so i was just doom scrolling and like a bunch if posts on here, until i realised that i was on the profile of sb and was just spam liking their posts…

so umm hi new moot, sorry for those notifs!

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ao3 turns 15 today

reblog if youre older than ao3

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"summer is the worst" "no winter is!!!" actually both are. down with Big Temperature. spring and autumn for the win

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ive been having chronic migraines (a couple of times a month) since i was in primary school.

When i was 14 my migraines caused a stroke and while i was in the ER actively having a stroke the doctors told me its “just a migraine” and it took them 3 days and multiple MRIs to recognise my stroke, since then I have gotten multiple migraines a week most of them severe.

I have been hospitalised more than 10 times in the last 3 years. Every time i get multiple MRIs and CTs, bevause they think its a stroke, every time they dont find anything. Pain meds dont work for me, i lose the ability to talk in some i cant feel my body in some, still i have “just migraines”. that nobody can treat or see, and therefore doesnt take seriously.

Chronic pain is real and torture.

the hardest thing about chronic pain to me is how it makes me doubt my own brain.

I have chronic pain. specifically chronic migraines. and the hard thing about that, or neurological pain in general, or really just so fucking many different chronic pain conditions, is there is no proof.

there's no scan a doctor can do to show my pain level or symptoms. you can't look at my head and go "huh, looks fucked up, probably a 8/10 pain." absolutely everything I experience, in order to be understood by a medical professional or even just anyone really, has to be self-recognized and self reported.

and that requires so many steps and levels of trust. like just to fucking start, I have to be aware that the invisible thing I am experiencing is not a thing everyone feels! which again, fucking invisible! Then I have to be aware it's happening at all, which sounds basic but with chronic shit is not. I had to explain to a doctor this week that I do not know if I ever experience "normal" or low-level headaches, because I'm so used to severe migraines that anything below that doesn't register. Sometimes it even takes hours for me to notice I'm having a migraine!

and then I have to be able to assess my own pain, judge how bad it really is, when after nine fucking years my scale is goddamn broken. and the longer I've had a migraine, the further out of whack it goes. I have to recognize and categorize my symptoms, one of which is fucking brain fog, and I have to communicate these very nebulous and abstract concepts to other people.

And then. And then they have to actually believe me. I have to convince them I'm not lying, I'm not looking for attention or drugs or pity or excuses. with zero hard proof, just my words. and then it cycles, because if people doubt my pain, I start to doubt my own experiences. I start to think I'm being a wimp, I'm faking it, I can try harder. so then I downplay it, so then I think it's fine, so I push through it, and this works great until I am fully fucking incapacitated.

and then people are shocked and surprised because I "look healthy."

it has taken fucking years for me to accept that what I am experiencing is real and people who doubt me can go fuck themselves. and it's still very much a work in progress. every single day.

but my pain is real. and so is yours. and people who doubt us can, to reiterate, go fuck themselves.

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“surely this will not cause my chronic illness to flare up,” i say, actively doing something that has never failed to flare my chronic illness

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It'll be over for everyone when i learn to spell basic words trust me

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mama if im talking to her, mum if im talking abt her in english and mother if im talking abt her in a diff language

How do yall refer to your mother? I was just informed that the term “ma” is not a widespread thing

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do you ever want to go infront of someone and yell “you’re not the main character” in their face?