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Grumble grumble…

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liu’s parents must’ve known about the requirements of the sacrifice for building an enclave, and that’s why they got her to use malia. they loved her! they tried to protect her in the one twisted way they could and what was thought to be better, to make her mana only, only managed to endanger her

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The funny thing about El's fury towards Orion's parents is that it is never ever correct, except that one time when she's furious about what they literally physically made him into, that he cannot escape, and which really is basically unforgivable.

At first El's furious because she thinks they treated him like a hero his whole life when he's obviously a person. Only then it turns out he's never actually much acted like a person. And the only reason he became the boy she loves is because his mother taught him to use his mal-murdering impulses in heroic ways - in protection of others.

By the end of the book El finally correctly identifies the human boy Orion as having been shaped enormously POSITIVELY by wanting to be a hero. He DID want to be a hero. Not for the hero-worship, correct, because he doesn't care particularly for being around other humans, and because it doesn't feel right when it's an instinctive hunger, but because he's been shaped his whole life to want to be that, that protective weapon. Because: it allowed him to conceptualise his hunger as protectiveness. A mawmouth isn't a hero, or a protective weapon. Orion is. His mother made him the heroic boy El loves.

El doesn't want to see it, but Ophelia tried to make Orion as human as she possibly could. She offered him other interests, encouraged and even forced him to socialise, provided him love and care and what made him happy (killing mals), and impressed upon him not just basic manners but also the mental concept of 'protector' to apply to himself, AND the basic capacity to respond to El in a human way when she came along and triggered his interest in being a fully social being. She made sure the boy in and around the mawmouth absorbed enough that he really was a developed human.

But I dont think El can ever see it that way. Orion can, however, i think, which is why he forgives her.

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The way the magic works in the Scholomance is that magical people knowing about and believing in constructed magical stuff makes it more solid and real like for example the blueprints they have around the school reinforcing the school artifice. This has interesting implications when you look at how Orion changes around El. She thinks it's because she treats him like an actual person instead of a useful hero. However, he's not truly a person, he's a magical construct pretending to be one. But her belief and her considerable power is reinforcing his personhood!

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so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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"How would you describe most of your favorite shows/books?"

Like this:

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not enough women stabbing each other to symbolize sex in the media actually

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I think I've seen this film before and I didn't like the ending

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Consider me successfully wooed by you holding a knife against my throat.

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i wish i had more time and energy to draw ... right now i only have a miserable sopping wet eve from 1x05

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"you can't ship those characters they tried to kill each other!" sounds like someone can't appreciate the inherent eroticism of violence 🙄

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god i love it when gay people are in evil toxic codependent love with each other

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sorry baby x

commission for @alula

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i wanted to leave the timeframe here rather ambiguous please interpret it as you like.

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Something about the pacing and editing of this bit when he just kept saying 3 really scratched my brain