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Birthday

I'm 27 now

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I feel like i am not enough and never will be enough. I never even feel like i'm X trait enough.

I feel like i don't belong or fit in anywhere. Like I don't have somewhere i should be. I feel like i half the time don't even know who or what i am and i just wish i didn't exist. I honestly just rather not be real.

I'm too moderate for my own good and anything i'm passionate about people either don't care about or are so many million times more passionate about that i feel so ostracized.

I want to just give up

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'sup?

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I wish i could be hatsune miku

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Oh shit i missed it

Damn 8 years huh?

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"A cishet person must have made this, no queer person would ever portray queerness in this way."

"This artist must be white."

"No SA victim would ever handle the subject in this way."

"No woman would ever write women like this."

"This creator is obviously neurotypical. Everyone with autism/ADHD/depression understands-"

Nope.

People who make these blanket statements are very frequently proven wrong when the creator comes out as a member of that group. And even when they aren't proven wrong, even in cases where the creator isn't from the group in question, actual members of the group who don't fit whatever arbitrary criteria are being expressed will see these statements and feel excluded and erased.

Not everyone in your group is going to share your experiences. No single individual gets to personally decide what does or doesn't count as a "valid" expression of trauma or being part of a particular group, and creators are also not obligated to out themselves in order to "prove" their validity.

If something doesn't resonate with you, all that means is that it doesn't resonate with you. You don't have to like it. But you don't get to decide what it means to someone else.

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ワンフェス2011冬レポート 高嶺愛花編

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One day i'll stop pushing people away from me

One day i'll stop regretting not trying something different

One day the scars of the past will stop hurting

But until then i'll keep my guard up. I won't let people close until i'm sure they won't hurt me, and when they eventually do i'll push them away and never let them back in.

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Xユーザーのでるたさん: 「やってみたかったおそろ https://t.co/dks5lCQl7a」 / X (twitter.com)

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You're post about being transwhite resonated with me as a Black person still being seen as "too white". I wanted to claim being transwhite when I first gotten in the trace community, but I was internally ashamed. Post like yours reminds me that it's okay to be (trans)white.

-A black presenting mixed person

Yeah I was feeling that too for a long time. When i finally came out and told some of my friends they were very wonderful about it and helped me. And honestly, i've been feeling a lot better about so many things ever since coming out. I've never really realized it but i've felt restricted on everything from fashion choices to food to language and now i've never felt so free and i've really only just now started finding a personal aesthetic i like and not just one i feel i fit the image of and won't get made fun of over it.

Its a nice feeling to finally do it but do wait till you feel more comfortable with it, is the best advice i can give.

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fuck machine

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Figured i'd post this here, i got a new wig, my first nail polish set, and got myself a collar and took some pictures to show off