emersonwinterss

[emersonwinterss]

everandrews​:

“ it’s just depressing lately , “ he admits , a certain dullness to the words and lack of anything really in his eyes . this was the feeling he hated , the one that he always craved to drown out because it offered the sad realisation of everything his life was and wasn’t . “ dunno what i’ve been doing my entire life but i keep on fucking it all up . it’s like , did i just get put on the planet to make a mess of things ? “

that much she could relate to at least, that feeling she had come to know like the back of her hand. “yea.” she’d run every scenario through her head when this had all played out, and even if only selfishly, this was one she hadn’t wanted to deal with. “if it helps, i don’t think you managed to fuck this one up on your own, this was a real join effort.” what could she say that would make it better? they were going to be divorced at twenty-four and...however old he was he still hadn’t told her. 

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reesepce​:

             a  simple  nod,  no  change  in  expression.  reese  thought  she  was  being  clear  enough,  but  vocalising  her  thoughts  was  never  a  strong  suit  of  hers,  even  if  she  did  use  a  lot  of  words.  after  mulling  it  over,  she  responds,  ❝  the  ease  in  which  you  exist.  the  lack  of  shame  and  guilt  you  feel  for  existing.  you  fit  in  anywhere  and  everyone  just  sort  of  ..  accepts  you.  ❞  she  doesn’t  make  an  attempt  to  move,  save  for  the  crossing  of  her  arms,  ❝  you’re  awfully  free,  emerson,  and  you’re  always  able  to  do  whatever  you  want  without  overthinking  consequences  —  what’s  that  feel  like?  ❞

“reese.” the name on her tongue felt exasperated because she couldn’t understand how that was the image of her that the other had some how managed to come up with. “i care, i care so much about what people think of me, of what i’m doing, of who i let down when i do things. i am back and forth constantly and what i should and i shouldn’t do and i pick dumb things all of the time and then i deal with the consequence because it’s right there.” closing her laptop she set it to the side. “you might not see it, but i change, i change who i am depending on who im with and it’s all i’ve done for as long as i can remember, one kid at home with dad, one kid at school and always a new school to, just as i settled i was moved again, i’m easy to accept because i made sure that it was that way.” 

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marianomxdrigal​:

𝐒𝐍𝐀𝐏𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐓   ───   𝑬𝑴 🔥

mxdriigal  :  you’re more than welcome to,  mxdriigal : though i’m sure a body shot isn’t too far from my mind  mxdriigal : i’m pretty good with my hands, maybe a little sneak peek! 

emswinters: i think i just might tequila from the bottle sounds fun  emswinters: not as fun as body shots though, you got the limes too?  emswinters: a little sneak peak of what? 0:) 

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marianomxdrigal​:

mxdriigal : you could drink ? i need some more excitement, mamacita !  mxdriigal  :  that sounds better :)  mxdriigal : bring a mug, i broke all the shot glasses last night &. a bikini  mxdriigal : or no bikini, i’m fine either way. 

emswinters: oh we’re not just drinking from the bottle? emswinters: i can bring a mug  emswinters: a bikini that’s easy to take off? 

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everandrews​:

“ yeah , i know . “ he did know that , both of those things . it wasn’t really what he meant though . he meant what were they doing in general ? what had they ever been thinking ? everett knew what he was thinking … nothing . at the time at least . now he was thinking a whole bunch of things that were fucking annoying . “ i mean like , what the fuck are we doing ? how did we end up in this stupid situation ? “

“oh.” emerson found herself pausing again as they thought about it. “i’m an idiot? a hopeless romantic who for some reason didn’t think well enough to say no when you said let’s get married and i’m a hot girl in a taxi that you wanted to sleep with and you got your way you just really put in the work for it i guess.” that was the long and short of it wasn’t it. “i was just...whimsical enough to think the movies were real and you were in a bad place.”

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everandrews​:

it was unusual for him to have nothing to say but he doesn’t really want an apology , it falls on deaf ears in that sense . “ you don’t have to leave , “ it’s a blanket statement , empirically true and not laced with any emotion as he shifts away and takes a box of frosted flakes out of the cupboard and pauses , “ what are we doing then ? “

keeping herself seated emerson placed the now thawed pizza on the table in front of her as she watched him move around the kitchen area. it was like every house they moved to just got better and better. “we’re getting a divorce like you asked me to.” she stated as if she had maybe just messed up the first explanation. “it’s just...hard.” 

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reesepce​:

💌  (1)  𝙽𝙴𝚆  𝙼𝙴𝚂𝚂𝙰𝙶𝙴  !     ↳  delivered  to  @emersonwinterss​​​

             a  knock  on  the  opened  door  is  her  only  warning  before  she  speaks,  her  words  monotone,  ❝  i’m  jealous  of  you,  y’know.  ❞  the  admission  comes  as  she  leans  against  the  frame.  ❝  despite  being  pissed  about  the  shit  that’s  not  even  worth  mentioning  anymore,  the  majority  of  my  problem  with  you  isn’t  your  fault.  it’s  mine,  but  i  don’t  know  how  to  let  it  go.  ❞  a  smile,  though  it  doesn’t  reach  her  eyes,  ❝  figured  it  was  time  for  me  to  come  clean  about  that,  i  guess.  ❞

lifting her head from her laptop emerson frowned as she looked back at the other, opening her mouth and then closing it again as she looked up at reese from where she was sat cross legged on her bed. once the other was done emerson paused for a moment. “you;re jealous of me?” the very sentiment of it confused her to no end. “you’re going to have to explain that one to be because that’s the most insane thing you’ve said since i’ve known you...what the hell do you have to be jealous about?” 

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everandrews​:​

there were few things that could make everett put his head back and sigh in despair but it seemed that his marriage was one of them . the rather unattractive glare of being sober combined with the disaster his life was turning out to be wore him thin . maybe it was a good sign that he cared enough to be annoyed by the whole thing … that meant he was still somewhat there . “ not really in a pizza mood . “

“i’m sorry.” she mused quietly as she looked back at him sinking back in her chair, she wasn’t sure why she was sorry, it wasn’t like she could change the legal system or do anything to change the shitty situation they were in. “i can make pasta...or i can just leave?” when they weren’t arguing or being dumb was uncommon and the serious moments felt odd. “you tell me.” 

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marianomxdrigal​:

𝐒𝐍𝐀𝐏𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐓   ───    𝐓𝐎 𝐀𝐋𝐋 !

mxdriigal : who wants to do shots ?  mxdriigal  :  i have a bottle of tequila &. no one to drink it with ?  mxdriigal : you game ? 

emswinters: i could drink  emswinters: in fact i could reallly drink  emswinters: i’m in! 

[emersonwinterss]

Hailee Steinfeld in Let Me Go music video (from Spotify Today’s Top Hits)

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[emersonwinterss]

you like attention

"true."

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exhalcdvibes​:

“ way to be covert love. ” he laughed jumping a little as her hands reached his ass. “ that’s alright you’re here now. ” since he couldn’t swat her hands away he decided to play it up pushing himself back into her grasp so distracted by their overt display of affection that he barely noticed the other girl seething, “ keep playing these games and you’ll get fucked in the bathroom. ” 

“around you? why would i need too?” emerson hummed gently, from where she had greeted him she had the added vantage of being in clear eye line with the girl that she had saved the male from and she didn’t for a second miss the way that the two of them were being looked at. “oh baby, always making promises you won’t keep.” lips pressed to his jaw gently as she smirked before pulling back gently, letting her attention fall on the bystander. “i’m sorry honey did you need something from me or my boyfriend? or are you going to cough up because you don’t get to see this for free.” 

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“turns out it’s like a legal nightmare to get a divorce before 12 months of marriage even if you were ready to bleed coke and vodka when you said i do.” emerson informed as she found her husband in the kitchen. “you can apply for a legal separation first though, that helps, gotta both sign it obviously i’ll let you know when it comes.” holding the pizza on her head she frowned. “you wanna cook this pizza? it’s totally done it’s job after the beans fell on my head but i can’t re-freeze it.” 

@everandrews​

[emersonwinterss]

you're angry with everett.

"i...true - no, false."

[emersonwinterss]

You would sleep with Everett’a brother to hurt him

"false."