emmahada

[emmahada]

i wish i was better at alluding you to lovely things the way you do but i havent really seen the world like dew drops n seafoam mornin frost moss n fog have

[emmahada]

so much sweet stuff is always happenin i get a little ahead of myself like a sugar rush n then i crash n get upset n want more n more n more and i dont learn

[emmahada]

i feel a little feral

[emmahada]

baby i think i short circuited again 🥹

[emmahada]

im gonna explode into dust wait wait i wanna make sure youre able to find all the little pieces

[emmahada]

i feel like an exhibitionist whenever i do anything baby its so embarrassin n humiliatin 🥹

[emmahada]

I don't want to be eloquent --

not that I have much luck being flowery in my prose, when it comes to you, but --

in the only way that I can say, and still pretend that this is a poem --

I want to be so close that I can't tell where I end and you begin.

I want to feel and touch and taste you, and for you to taste and touch and feel me,

until we both forget who, and where we are --

I want mindless, carnal bliss, and I want dumb, thoughtless pleasure,

want to know every inch of your body, and every dark corner of your desire --

so, please, take me, and heaven ever will I take you --

hoping to get lost, between your legs, and then, within your lust --

until I get so comfortable there that I'll never want to leave --

"Let's fuck." V. Rue, 2025.

[emmahada]

you really wanna feel owned dont you baby? im startin to get a little embarrassed cus im a lil bit of a pillow prince n that it feels like we keep bouncin off eachother wantin the same thing but maybe we'll figure it out

[emmahada]

always longing n yearning for you gloomily

[emmahada]

alone in never being left alone is scary baby but at least its the one feeling i can be alone in, right?

[emmahada]

gimme a little, sugar todays been brutal whiplash but i was happy for a little

[emmahada]

my computer gets really hot too which is part of the problem beyond the sun which is freakin me out cus i need my stuff near me i need my noises that are gentle with me in my bed cus silence gets to me and makes me feel empty and alone and ive never gotten used to it

[emmahada]

despair day, i had to leave my room because its so blisteringly hot and muggy in there and i keep checking to make sure the door is closed even though i know it is cus it means the world to me more than the world will ever and i got kicked out of it and dont want anything but me to enter cus im scared of summer ruining things for me again its going to be the longest 3 months of my life again im sittin in the livin room under the ac and a fan still sweating wishin i wasnt staring into emptiness every day and letting it enter me when i should be entering it and its been one of those days again where i blank out and almost faint while tryin to take a nap i need so badly so it all leaves me alone but it scares me awake cus i dont want to die i know i wont if i do but it feels like death when it happens and and and and and

[emmahada]

several hour delay of each heartbeat between your fingertips

[emmahada]

i wanna knead n bake you into a tasty little fruit pastry

[emmahada]

he made me cry earlier n i liked it

[emmahada]

i cant think straight and i love it i hope thats okay