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I DID IT AGAIN TODAY!!!!!!

And yes you bet I cried again! Today is my win 👏

For the first time in 14 months, I wrote these two special little words today. Two words I thought I would never write again. Two words I didn't believe I had the right to write again. Because that's what depression does. It takes away every light and speck of colour in your life, it takes away all your belief in yourself, and it takes away all the things you love.

A few months ago, I went to a place of inexplicable darkness. That place took everything from me. Over the past 5 months, I have been slowly reclaiming my life from that black hole. Slowly fighting every day. My health, my colour, my laugh, my passion, my love, and my words.

My words.

These words.

Today, I finished a book.

I reclaimed my words. My passion. My love. My magic.

And today, depression, I won. I fucking won.

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"Life updates for anyone who cares:"

I care!! 🙋🏼‍♀️

Congrats on the accomplishments on the different aspects of your life!! Jealous about the 50 lbs and the second shower. I'm only halfway there on both fronts. The struggle is real. Happy to hear you're doing better!!

The struggle is real, and comparison is the thief of joy.

Wherever you are in your journey is further than where you started. I celebrate getting out of bed every morning because THAT is still a huge achievement! Sometimes, the only good thing I have to write in my journal that day is, 'I survived,' but that's enough.

Wherever you are on your path, I'm proud of you ♥

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Hi tumblr, it's been a while! ❤️

Life updates for anyone who cares:

- my dr upped my meds and the increase seems to be working. Hopefully that stays the case!

- I am officially down 50lbs as of this morning!

- Today also marks 7 months sober from alcohol, and it's honestly one of the best choices I've ever made for so many reasons.

- I hit 90k in my manuscript and my characters are finally going to bang.

All in all, today is a good day. 🙌😂

And not to brag but I just had my second shower of the week AND I remembered to eat lunch today. These are things that could only excite a chronically depressed person 😂😂

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I don't ride rollercoasters because I'm an England fan and that's stressful enough for me 😭😂

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Just read 11yo's last primary school report and started crying. His teacher said such lovely things about my boy. I can't believe my baby is leaving this week 😭😭

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She's also even more attached to me than ever and I can't say I'm mad about it

How's your kitty cat?

She's back to her usual dickhead self. Climbing walls to catch flies, invading personal space, zooming back and forth through the house with no regard for her own safety 😌

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How's your kitty cat?

She's back to her usual dickhead self. Climbing walls to catch flies, invading personal space, zooming back and forth through the house with no regard for her own safety 😌

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No pharmacy update?

They had them ready first thing on Monday morning! Thankfully.

Our health board just switched to electronic prescriptions and it's the first time mine has gone there so I think it might have just been a miscommunication. I hope so. I'm tired of hunting it down every month 😂

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Hang in there, Emma! Monday will come soon enough and the pharmacy will get their act together and have your meds ready.

Your velcro cat is a very cute and adorable antidepressant! I hope her pain goes away. I'm glad you were able to notice her discomfort ... cats can be so stoic.

Hugs to you and your cat!

My husband is going to swing by in the morning and refuse to leave without them 😅

Indeed! She has to have been sore before but hid it well. The first clue was her hissing at me. She's five and a half and has never done that in her life 😂 she just had another dose of anti-inflammatories... mixed with lick-e-lix on a spoon because I'm a genius.

Maine Coons can be predisposed to hip dysplasia so we're going to request an xray at our regular vet when she's in better shape. It can cause arthritis so we'd rather be sure. Either way, we've already got some fish oil to add to their food daily for joint support!

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My velcro cat had an emergency trip to the vet today because she was ~off~ and in pain at her rear - I had a panic attack because my anxiety told me she was dying. £230 later we find out the cause of all her issues comes down to an inflamed hip. We left with the good stuff (metacam) and a promise that she is absolutely 100% healthy apart from this. Please send my baby some love. I hate that she's in pain 😭 she's the sweetest girl in the world. She rubbed her head under my chin and purred when I was curled over her having my panic attack even though she was in pain. She's truly my whole heart and grounds me when the darkness gets the best of me. I feel very dramatic but I'm out of antidepressants so sorry there's no serotonin today 🤷‍♀️🤣

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Spoiler: it's at the pharmacy that couldn't find it and it wasn't ready in time and they aren't open tomorrow which means I have one happy pill to get me until Monday afternoon

Me and my anxiety pills are gonna be proper bffs this weekend 😅

three things in life are certain: death, taxes, and me having to make seventy billion phone calls each month to find out where in the NHS netherworld my prescription is

it causes me more anxiety than the meds treat tbh

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three things in life are certain: death, taxes, and me having to make seventy billion phone calls each month to find out where in the NHS netherworld my prescription is

it causes me more anxiety than the meds treat tbh

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hey tumblr... i need palace inspiration for my next book!! fictional country, so not set on an architecture style. all i seem to find on pinterest is too ai-ish.

helppp!

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i have remembered how to do the writing part of the authoring, but i have forgotten all the business parts

pls send best wishes to my best friends as they navigate this trying time with a needy girl who lives in a timezone 6 hours in the future

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For the first time in 14 months, I wrote these two special little words today. Two words I thought I would never write again. Two words I didn't believe I had the right to write again. Because that's what depression does. It takes away every light and speck of colour in your life, it takes away all your belief in yourself, and it takes away all the things you love.

A few months ago, I went to a place of inexplicable darkness. That place took everything from me. Over the past 5 months, I have been slowly reclaiming my life from that black hole. Slowly fighting every day. My health, my colour, my laugh, my passion, my love, and my words.

My words.

These words.

Today, I finished a book.

I reclaimed my words. My passion. My love. My magic.

And today, depression, I won. I fucking won.

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Well I obviously need this to join my Duke of Edinburgh and Queen Elizabeth II roses

❥ 9 MAY 2025 | Kensington Palace released a statement of support for the Royal Horticultural Society, which announced 'Catherine's Rose', named after the Princess of Wales. Proceeds from the flower will go to The Royal Marsden Cancer Charity, which supports patients during and after cancer treatment.

The statement released via KP socials said :

Spending time in nature has always been a source of comfort and strength. Gardens and green spaces provide not only beauty and joy, but also vital support for our mental, physical and spiritual wellbeing.

Today the Royal Horticultural Society are announcing a new Rose, “Catherine’s Rose”, grown by Harkness Roses. The proceeds from this rose will support The Royal Marsden Cancer Charity, helping patients across the country live well with, and beyond, cancer 🌹

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Busy writing?

Busy trying to stay alive 😂

I joke, but it is true. My dr prescribed me antidepressants and anxiety meds 10 weeks ago because I was in a very dark place, so I've been spending the better part of 2025 making big changes to my habits and routine and spending more time caring for myself. Unfortunately it's not the kind of thing that cures itself overnight, and for every good day, there are 2 bad ones - but there never used to be any good days, so that's a win in my books 😉

But yes... I am writing again. Finally. I'm just quiet because I only have a few spoons to go around right now. I am posting more frequently on Instagram if you're over there. You can find me here (and I think it autoposts to Threads sometimes, but don't quote me on that.)