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xdinary heroes personality/vibe check reading & channeled songs

disclaimer: all of my readings are for entertainment purposes only and should be taken with a grain of salt, as these idols are strangers.

this reading was done on jan. 17th, 2022. i used the ‘tarot of a moon garden’ deck for this reading. i also pulled up their birth charts as extra guidance

GROUP VIBES seven of swords, judgment, high priestess REV, two of cups, ace of staffs, empress REV

- vinta - crumb i stay inside of this pale white room / i feel trapped, my mind, the impending doom - we looked like giants - death cab for cutie and i held you closer than anyone would ever guess - love song for the haters - fleece something 'bout today / makes me feel okay / that you're gone

Xdinary Heroes is a very fresh-faced and bright-eyed group - understandable because they literally just debuted. They are being very closely watched at this time and it’s likely to be a positive outcome if they are working hard, and it really seems that they are working their asses off behind the scenes. Evaluation to make sure they are doing well - trial period. They’re all incredibly enthusiastic and creative - if they are allowed to work together and create their own music, it will point them in a great direction, careerwise. They are all more than capable of doing so.

The dynamic within the group, overall, is one that is very close, almost Stray Kids close - everyone gets along, despite occasional conflicts of interest. Everything they do is out of love for each other and because they really want each other to succeed. They have all found a group of people that they can lean on - there’s a real give and take, they all support each other through their hardships, and they have all been through a lot.

I believe they have already been made aware of how corrupt the kpop scene really is and didn’t exactly realize just how bad it really is. I picked up on a lot of dishonesty and manipulation - “get-rich-quick” schemes - I wonder if that is how they see their debut song and have seen exactly what netizens have been saying about it. I think Studio J might have already screwed them over as well. Some members desperately want to say something about it, but because of contract and whatnot, they can’t. They are in a state of figuring out if this is really what they want to do. They have been so busy and neglecting their own needs and it almost feels for naught - XH wants to perform and showcase just what they have, they’re giving their all on one song, and I think it irks the shit out of a lot of the members.

GUNIL ace of swords REV, nine of swords (side), five of swords, the world, six of cups REV, temperance, queen of cups, seven of staffs what is the conflict he is so stressed about? justice, three of swords. betrayal? ten of swords

- my year in lists - los campesinos!! my year in lists / stomping on your fingers as you're clinging on to the abyss - you wouldnt know - zac crook i got mad but i didn’t tell you / i’ve gotten real good at that - different state of mind - kid bloom i'm swimming in my head / mouth so dry, I could crack my tongue / jaw hanging like an accordion / let's hope nobody stares

Gunil is super cut out to be a leader - he’s incredibly caring and nurturing and wants what’s best for his members, a really great team player. Very likely to put others before him and make everyone feel at home. The members, in return, make him feel like he belongs, it’s a real nice give-and-take. Very sensitive to others needs - you know that meme where there’s a couple at McDonald’s and one of the orders are wrong? And the boyfriend is like “it’s fine, I’ll still eat it” and the girlfriend is like “HE SAID NO PICKLES.” Anyway, that’s any of his loved ones and Gunil. He’s good at getting people out of their shells and is very patient.

He’s dealt with a lot in his life, a lot more than he has already mentioned, I believe. It’s made him grow up considerably, he’s very mature about most things. It’s also made him almost hyper-independent, some feel that’s a fault, but I think it’s what’s most comfortable for him at times.

Already, Gunil is so stressed, it’s kind of crushing him. I think he is the most pissed off about what he has already witnessed and he fears confrontation, but it also kills him to not say anything about it. He also has a hard time with communicating his feelings and I think it’s because he’s very blunt and leans towards “tough love,” but it comes off as being a bully. It doesn’t help that he has a very strong presence and can be intimidating without even trying. He’s more likely to stand up for others than himself - he’s incredibly protective of those he cares about, but is afraid to rock the boat for himself and will then kick himself because he didn’t advocate for his own needs. He also tends to take on others' emotions as his own - he’s very sensitive to a fault and needs to learn how to differentiate between what he feels vs. what others feel.

I believe he mentioned that he is very self conscious and that is super apparent here - he really is his own worst critic, which comes up often in people who are very creative and talented. He overthinks to the point where he misses out on opportunities, self-sabotage is a huge theme here. He’s a little too self aware and it gets him in trouble. Gunil is also nostalgic, but to a fault - the type to ruminate on past problems or on when times were “better” and it makes him spiral at times. He can really benefit from cutting himself some slack and also advocating for himself.

I picked up on some of the stress being related to feeling betrayed and someone not being honest. I elaborate on this in one of the other readings, but right now he is really heartbroken over something and is hoping no one notices.

JUNGSU death, the moon REV, temperance, chariot REV, the world, five of cups REV. why lacking motivation? queen of swords REV

- what you know - two door cinema club and I can taste it / it's my sweet beginning - i follow you - melody’s echo chamber i need someone / to be close remember / my own demons / sneak under my pillow - soft sounds from another planet - japanese breakfast that's not the way to hurt me / i'll show you the way to hurt me

Everything Jungsu does has a purpose - he has a lot of gentle power within the group. Truly lives up to the mom nickname. He’s really kind and nurturing, an incredibly good team player - really enjoys being a part of a group and thrives when he can work with others. Jungsu feels like he really belongs in this group - they help him figure himself out and he does the exact same in return. I pulled the World for Gunil as well - I believe the two of them help each other the most, but both of them make others feel like they truly belong and really bring the group together.

It feels like he’s been through a lot and he was not lying about being anxious LOL. He relies way too much on the opinion of others and he’s well aware of it, but it’s hard for him to break out of it because he seems to have been dealing with it for a long time. It’s getting to the point where he is avoiding basically living his life because of everyone else’s opinion - he has no motivation and is losing the determination he once had. He needs to be a bit more assertive and remember that everyone is going to have an opinion, doesn’t mean he has to take it to heart. Jungsu has a lot of opportunities ahead, regardless of what people say about him - keep looking forward and the anxiety will continue to dwindle with time.

GAON queen of cups, seven of swords, hermit REV (why? five of swords REV, two of swords REV), knight of staffs, eight of staffs REV, four of staffs REV

- c u girl - steve lacy i wanna please you girl - lebanese blonde - thievery corporation a half a million thoughts / are flowing through my mind - art school crush - nnamdii - i love a girl who doesn't care for me / i'll still tell the world that we were meant to be

Gaon has such a big heart and is very romantic - if I remember correctly, he has a Pisces mars and it is so apparent. The type to romanticize the shit out of his life LOL. He has a lot of warmth and compassion for those around him, very sympathetic. Another one who will patiently wait and encourage someone to open up when they’re ready. He’s also quite the go-getter, very charming and self-confident, he knows how to get what he wants.

Needs to be really careful with being manipulative and using his charms in a not good way - he’s very capable of doing so. The type to exaggerate how great things are when he feels really poorly about it, in order to avoid rocking the boat, so manipulative without necessarily realizing it. I picked up on him feeling lonely and isolated as of right now - he is holding a grudge over something because he had to compromise. I feel like this is another Day6 sitch where a member was told to learn a new instrument because someone else is playing the instrument he already knows. I don’t think it was decided until their debut that he would play rhythm guitar vs. lead and he was quite pissed about it, but simply didn’t mention it, everyone thought he was fine with it. This came to a head recently and everyone found out just how upset he was over it (maybe he went over everyone’s heads and complained) and they’re all like “ok literally why didn’t you say anything we could have worked this out.” And now there’s a bit of a rift within the group, more so between him and Gunil - Gunil feels he should’ve just come to him and spoken to him, especially since it has been made clear among all of them that they can do that.

Now, he’s very frustrated because his complaining created a lot of delays and at this point, he needs to just get over it and learn to work with his team. I don’t believe he has ill-intentions towards the members and if anything, he feels pretty bad about it, especially since no one’s really angry with him, just disappointed. This was a moment of being a bit self centered and jumping the gun. He’s feeling super unwelcome - in the future, he needs to communicate and trust that his members only have his best interest in mind.

O.DE ace of cups, six of pentacles REV, seven of staffs REV, hanged man REV, queen of staffs REV, five of cups, four of swords, queen of swords

- the body is a blade - japanese breakfast the body is a blade that moves while your brain is writhing / knuckled under pain you mourn but your blood is flowing - venus as a boy - bjork he's Venus as a boy / he believes in a beauty and gentle - cult of dionysus - the orion experience yesterday I heard you say / your lust for life has gone away / it got me thinking, I think I feel a similar way / and that's sad

Currently, he is definitely basking in their debut, he’s really excited and in good spirits about it, looking forward to what’s to come for them in the future. O.de is very much a free spirit and has grown to be very much the way that he is - he won’t allow anyone to change that. He’s very encouraging to those he cares about, I feel like he’s the second mother of the group LOL, or maybe the wild aunt. Very gentle and considerate, super good listener, he tries his best to boost the morale of those around him who are sad. He can be a bit hot-headed and has a tendency towards jealousy, specifically towards people who seem to get things handed to them - he feels like he has to work extra hard to get what he wants.

I get this feeling that O.de is an incredibly complex person, more so than he will ever let on. On the surface, he can appear really aloof, but when you get to know him he’s incredibly warm and caring to those around him. I think he can be really obvious about how he’s feeling deep down if you look close enough. Has a tendency to give way too much of himself without meaning to - people take advantage of his kindness and he’s in a cycle where that keeps happening. He’s a mediator kind of character, I think others rely on him to make peace in group situations and it gets exhausting. O.de has gotten to a point where he stalls and just won’t make a move to help out because he’s kind of sick of being the mediator.

He deals a lot with chronic stress and anxiety - he focuses on the negative a lot, another one who is their own worst critic. He’s fiercely independent and withdraws into himself when he’s upset, which leads to him feeling lonely. I think at times he can feel like a machine, where he feels so upset but has to keep going for whatever reason, without dealing with how he feels. He can really benefit from letting others in when he’s overwhelmed and allowing himself to actually feel as optimistic as he lets on.

JUNHAN strength, seven of pentacles, queen of cups, knight of cups REV, knight of swords, nine of staffs, eight of swords REV (flew out, saw it upright but landed in REV)

- get up - sleater-kinney (bunch of sleater kinney songs played) and when the body finally starts to let go / let it all go at once / not piece by piece / but like a whole bucket of stars / dumped into the universe - little miss - bôa she's gonna scare you with her passion - recently played - crumb try to relate, predict your fate / now is the time, passing you by

4/6 cards all relate to perseverance - I get this feeling Jun Han has been through a lot, but has learned to believe in himself and simply keep going, it’s really admirable. I think he’s well aware of just how much he has grown and he’s reaping the benefits of all the hard work he’s put into himself. I don’t think anyone really expected him to open up as much as he has, but he realized that sitting and doing nothing and staying in the background wasn’t really going to get him anywhere. He seems rather “all or nothing,” so slowly opening up just wasn’t an option.

A lot of inner, quiet strength from this kid, he works hard and well under pressure. Team-player, very open minded and compassionate, the type to bring others up when they’re down, a really, super warm energy. I think it’s hard to shake his optimism these days. Jun Han has a big heart and it doesn’t seem like others take advantage of that, mostly because he doesn’t always let people in. He just seems to have an understanding of what everyone is going through, whether he’s experienced it firsthand or not. Very focused on what he wants and will stop at literally nothing in order to get it.

He‘s very sensitive and caring, almost to a fault - can be a little moody and will avoid conflict heavily when he’s in a bad mood. Generally, he has no issue with being assertive and can sometimes be a bit overkill, but if he’s upset, he just shuts down. Jumps to conclusions a lot, which also adds to his moodiness, can really benefit from healthy confrontation if something really bothers him. Has a tendency to romanticize life a little too much and can seem very disconnected - living in daydreams.

I also picked up on the feeling of betrayal here, but he has a lot of hope that things will get fixed. Very forgiving.

JOOYEON knight of staffs, three of cups, page of pentacles REV, five of pentacles, knight of cups REV, sun REV (first three cards came out in rapid succession)

- i feel fantastic - riovaz and it's awful / you're not the samе like you were - cat & dog - txt (THIS MAN IS GOOFY) feels like Cinderella i change / from a kitty I turn into your own Jindo dog - end of the road - noga erez i did it for the PR, i did it for the fear i did it knowing there's a D'animal pack in the back of the fridge - sensitive - dreamer isioma i'd never sell out for a check, you stupid motherfucker

Jooyeon is very much who he is and is unwilling to let anyone change his mind. Others might view him as reckless or impulsive, but he sees himself as someone who just keeps moving and grabs the bull by the horns. Very cut out for being in the public eye, incredibly charming and self-confident, a lot of how he acts on camera is just a played-up version of how he is. He’s very creative and capable of doing whatever he puts his mind to. He’s really enjoying working with the group and they return the sentiment - they give him a chance to really be himself and share his ideas and all in all, it’s a lot of fun for him. Jooyeon feels like he has found a group of ride or dies, essentially.

He is probably the least mature out of the entire group in most aspects - he’s quite vain, very aware of just how attractive he is and will use that to his advantage. Another one who tends to overly romanticize life, head in the clouds. Procrastinates a lot, believes he can pull it together at the last second and usually he does, but that’s not a good way to function, especially within a group setting. I think it irritates the people around him. Also a bit lazy, which leads to him procrastinating so much. He needs to strike while the iron is hot and take advantage of the opportunities that are presented to him.

I get this impression that the excess enthusiasm he exudes is how he copes with heavy emotions. Underneath everything, he is struggling with something akin to a blanket of snow, heavy and suffocating, but incredibly quiet - he keeps it under wraps well. He has a Scorpio moon and based on what I believe his rising sign is, he also has Pluto in the 1st house; his emotions are huge and it makes both him (and certain people around him) rather uncomfortable, and he can be quite moody. At times, he feels alienated and it’s really just his own feelings - the members do nothing but include him and he enjoys their company, but I don’t think he’s ever quite felt like he belongs anywhere. He could really benefit from not making himself smaller (or in this case, larger than life) to make everyone comfortable - the more you give to others without doing for yourself, the more you will suffer.

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