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Picture means everything to me

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Ginger do u still have the tiktok of the guy going « you’re crazy » and the sexy one who followed his beloved for blocks into the library goes : « I’m fucking stupid » in the sexiest way possible

Always

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In heaven there is no beer that’s why we drink here

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Sid Avery - Rock Hudson at home in Beverly Hills, 1952

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THE ROYAL TENENBAUMS (2001) dir. Wes Anderson

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my partner took this pic of me researching our newly born niece's birthchart lol

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i logged on and saw that I had a new inbox message so i clicked it and there weirdly wasnt any new message so i looked down at the old messages i had on here ready to be mortified but they were actually sweet. I've had a rough time of it the last decade but I really did try to connect with people in the ways I knew how to. It's easier to remember the times I bored people away being too anxious to actually engage. i turn 30 next month.

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all i can think about is baby and perfume, i need a new thing to hyperfocus on.

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i just remembered that i wanted to write this down last night. I was thinking about how long certain objects are with us. bc i bought a tube of weleda skin food hand cream and i thought "will i have this three years from now? what things do i have now that i will still have when i have a baby, and then a child who can play with those objects?" I think about the things my mom had like makeup and perfumed talcum powder that i played with and how long she must have had those things because she wasnt one to buy much stuff like that, but she kept old things for ages. If i was a really committed hand cream user maybe I'd use it up in a year but I don't think I am, i usually forget. But even if I diduse it up, it made me want to buy another weleda skin food hand cream in the future so my baby can have those things to play with, and they will have their own memories of the scent of childhood. lolas also doing a lot better, but clearly i cant stop thinking about having a baby, but I'm trying my best to focus on the here and now, and better myself and life so I can give my baby everything they deserve. also I''m smack dab in my saturn return, i'm having body image issues again, and I really need to find a therapist.

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tumblr is where i come to say my baby fever is currently unbearable i cant say that anywhere else, also now im taking care of my rabbit like shes a baby, feeding her hay formula through an oral syringe 3x a day only its more of a hospice situation which is really hard :( and i know im not ready for a real baby quite yet but ever since my partner said they want to have a baby together in a few years i cant stop thinking about it, i feel like theres a lot i wasnt allowing myself to admit that i want and now i can admit it.

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im unemployed now😳

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unbelievable.

sharon tate went here too so thats cool i guess.

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I grew up the town that produced the plutonium for the bomb dropped on Nagasaki, and the high schools mascot is still the mushroom cloud....

“Since those attacks, the most commonly available images of the bombings have been the familiar mushroom clouds seen from the bombers. In the immediate aftermath, to minimize international criticism of the bombings, a plethora of trivializing aerial photos and maps were released which glorified the power of the atom bombs and justified their use. An aggressive campaign of censorship and confiscation between 1945 and 1951 dramatically limited the circulation of colour and black-and-white ground-level images and newsreel footage taken on the streets of Hiroshima and Nagasaki which showed the terrible human and urban realities of ‘ground zero’.”

— Stephen Graham, Vertical: The City from Satellites to Bunkers

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