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tbh i have crazy trust issues i think

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rereading poems and journals and it’s all good🩷

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essay about pink paintings

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shocking moment of seeing my ex play bass on his instagram story and he looks so beautiful and i desire him more than ever before. i do not think i will ever fall out of love with him. today i feel ugly bc i didn’t shower and currently i’m working a vintage market with stuffed sinuses and i haven’t felt this embarrassed and shameful in a while.

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went to bed 7:30pm woke up 8am❤️

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just found out my dad just got a job as an amazon delivery driver

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saw a video of neil young that made me miss my ex

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had a dream that someone robbed my house and just stole all of my clothes. it was devastating. i fear my stress dreams have now become ones in which i maintain the inability to get dressed

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i weigh 112 pounds

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got a haircut not cut by myself today for the first time in over a decade

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getting over my control problem rn it’s very hard

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keep having very unhappy and unsettling dreams about him not liking me anymore. being mean and ignoring me. i miss him so much today

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i’m awake at 4:30am and i’m sweating. i’m still sleeping next to him and i feel my chest caving in. i hold so much sorrow

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i’m in deep despair right now

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i’m so scared for the future of the earth but try to remain hopeful and it’s so hard. it’s so so very hard.

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ideas are just as necessary as action. to have the the thought planted helps you complete the action.

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just because it’s not happening to you does not mean it could not or will not. to be empathetic is to be alive. remember this.