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Teach me billie

Billie sub

Y/n dom 

(There both kinda switch idk Really)

Warnings-smut, mommy kink, fingering, eating out. that’s abt it idk

1236 words

Y/n pov 

We were in my room making out (again) the past few weeks billies kisses have been more heated and needier. I know she would never rush me to do anything so that's why she hasn't said anything. I really do want to take things further but I don't know what to do. billies the first woman I've been with so I have absolutely no experience. I know she won't make fun of me but I'm still nervous. 

We kept making out the kiss getting more heated by the second. I was straddling billie her hands gripping my shirt. I decided to make a bold move. I slid my tongue into her mouth. she groaned at the feeling. She pulled away to catch her breath. We both just stared at eachother breathing heavy. She gently grabbed my hand sliding under the waistband of her sweatpants and underwear. She slid my fingers through her slick heat "fuck" she moaned throwing her head back. "See what you do to me princess I'm so fucking wet" I start moving my fingers up and down her heat slowly collecting her juices. I pull my hand out of her pants hesitantly I stare at my two fingers for a second before putting them in my mouth. I suck her juices off my fingers moaning at the taste of her. 

Billie stares at me eyes wide."bab-" I cut her off by kissing her harshly sliding my tongue into her mouth again. I part from the kiss taking my shirt off. "Fuck so pretty" she whispers. I quickly take off my bra unclipping it at the back. I throw it across the room going back to kiss her. I don't know what happened but it's like something took over my body because my nerves had disappeared. I tugged on billies shirt silently for permission our mouths parted from each other once again so we could take off her shirt. Once she had her shirt off I took off her black lace bra. 

"Bills I don't know what I'm doing,  can you teach me how to make you feel good?" I ask her massaging her boobs“fuck” she whispered from the throbbing from her core “have you ever touched yourself before?” She asked. I looked down embarrassed. “Yea” I giggled “okay just start by softly touching my body getting me worked up okay?” She told me. She tapped my thigh so I could get up. She slowly took off her sweatpants off and I did the same. Leaning us both in just our underwear. I straddle her again and slowly start kissing her neck. I search for her sweet spot and when I finally find it she lets out a moan. “fuck please keep going baby” she moans out. I suck more leaving a hickey.I then kiss my  way across her collarbones leaving more marks.

She’s whimpering clearly getting worked up. I then kiss my way down to her boobs and kissing around her nipple until I take into my mouth. I swirl my mouth around it while groping her other boob. She’s a whimpering mess above me. “Fuck baby are you sure u haven’t down this before.” I moan against her sending vibrations through her body. I finally pull my mouth off her nipple and move to her other boob kissing around around it too before taking it into my mouth like the other one. I give this side the same as the other while groping her other boob too. She suddenly lets out a big moan arching her back from the stimulation. “Fuck baby so good” she babbles. I pull off her nipple and she whines from the loss of contact. 

I start kissing down her ribs and down to her stomach. I trace soft touches around her boobs with my hand too. I please soft kisses all around her stomach. “Your so perfect” I mumble against her. I finally place kisses on the waist band of her underwear. She whimpers from sensitivity. My nerves start to creep up on me as I’m getting closer to her core.“Keep going baby you’re doing so good” she says sensing my nerves. “Can I take these off?”I say tracing the waistband of her underwear. “Fuck please do” she whimpered out. 

I slowly pull her underwear down seeing a string of  arousel connected to her underwear. “so pretty” I whisper taking her underwear off fully and throwing it across the room. “Just do what you do when you touch yourself and I’ll guide you okay baby?” I nod. I  slowly reach my fingers towards her core. I spread my two fingers around her core spreading her arousel around. Billie whimpers at the sensation. I slowly make my way up to her clit and trace small circles around it. She lets out a cracked moan at this. I continue tracing her clit with my thumb. I slowly trail my two finger down to her entrance. I slowly slide my two fingers inside her. “Fuck please please fuck” she moans out. 

I continue pushing into her until I’m fully in. I start pumping in and out slowly. “Fuck baby please suck my clit please please” she says desperately lightly pushing my head down. I attach my lips around her clit and start to suck. I moan at the taste of her. I continue pumping In and out of her hitting her g-spot slowly getting faster. I continue to suck at her clit and swirl my tounge around it. She’s a moaning mess above me. She starts to tug at my hair to try ground herself. Her back is arching off the bed. 

“Please keep going mommy please” she babbles not realising what she’s said. I grip her waist possessively. Her eyes widen “shit sorry I didn’t I-I didn’t realise what I said It just slipped out” she says panicked “I’m your mommy huh?, say it again baby. I say lowly against her core pumping faster now. I start rubbing myself from the sight. Her back arches off the bed higher now. “Please mommy please I’m so close” she says through moans. “There we go, good girl.” I say against her clit. The vibrations from my words going straight to her core. “Fuck mommy yes I’m your good girl.” She basically screams out. “Cum for me baby cmon” she lets out a moan and squirts all over me. I help her ride out her high. My high is approaching aswell. I continue rubbing myself while pumping into her too and i reach my high.

 We both collapse breathing heavy. I slowly pull my fingers out of her looking at her juices coating my fingers. I slowly bring my fingers to my mouth while making eye contact with her. I push my fingers past my lips and my eyes roll back at the taste. I suck my fingers clean and wipe the excess on the bed. I push myself up a bit to kiss Billie. “Thank you” Billie whispers. a grin makes it way to my face “mommy huh?” I say teasingly. Her face flushes. “Shut up you liked it getting me to say it again” “never said I didn’t like it was just surprised” I say nuzzling my head into her neck.

A/n- this is a draft idk if I like it gimme suggestions 

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Emetophobia

MAJOR EMETOPHOBIA WARNING*

Words- 1440

A/n I struggle deeply with emetophia so writing this was very difficult but I think it is good to raise awareness for how hard it can be please do not read if you think it will trigger you x

Summary- y/n and Billie have been dating for 6 months y/n hasn't told Billie about her emetophobia as she thinks it's embarrassing and Billie might laugh at her. Y/n is in a college class when she hears there is a stomach bug spreading. She then sees someone throwing up. She runs out and has a panic attack. She is acting weird and Billie is concerned.

Warnings-mentions of throwing up, panic attacks,crying,comfort and fluff

Y/n is sitting in a college class taking notes when she suddenly overhears these two girl's conversation. "I think there's a stomach bug going around I really hope I don't get it before the party next weekend" one girl says. Y/n felt her mind go blank and she froze in her spot. Her breathing started to pick up. She tries using the method her therapist showed her to try and stop her panic attack. She tells herself going to be okay no one she is friends with has thrown up she'll be fine. Her breathing is still going fast. She snaps her head up when she hears someone gagging. She watches as the boy throws up all over the floor. Her hands start shaking and her breathing picks up. She sits there frozen until her brain goes into fight or flight mode. She quickly gets up from her chair and runs out of the lecture. Her breathing still going fast she bolts outside. She runs out to the spot she always sits it's under a tree hidden in the corner. 

She sits under the tree breathing only getting faster. She tucks her knees upwards and her hands are buried in her hair. She grabbed her phone tempted to call Billie but she doesn't Billie will only think her fear is stupid she thinks to herself. She taps on her moms contact and watches it ring still not able to breath properly. Her hands are shaking making it hard for her to hold her phone. Her mom finally picks up. "Hi honey I thought you were in cla-" "m-mom I-I-I can't breathe" her mom immediately knew what had happened y/n had been dealing with panic attacks since she was 9. "Hey honey it's alright your going to be okay take one breath in with me" they both take a breath in " and out well done" they keep doing that until her breathing is normal again. 

"Why were you panicking darling?" Her mom asked her "saw someone throw up and there's a stomach bug going around" y/n said quietly. "Is Billie busy why didn't you call her?" Her mom asked her. Y/n sighed "I still haven't told her mom she's gonna be weirded out" "baby you have to tell her so she can help" her mom tried to reason with her. "Yea,yea whatever you say I have to go now mom thanks for helping me." "Love you hon call me whenever bye." The line went dead. 

Y/n knew she would have to tell Billie eventually she just wasn't ready yet. Y/n grabbed ber stuff Ned headed back to her apartment. She walked fast feeling like she had germs all over her. She quickly unlocked the door threw her clothes into the wash and went for a long shower. When she got out she had a text from Billie 

Billie

Hi baby could I come over later I miss youuuu

Y/n-

Sorry baby nows not a good time I miss you too

Billie- 

oh ok baby love you

Y/n- 

love you

Y/n  felt bad but she couldn't let Billie see her like this. For the next 4 days y/n emailed all her teachers and said she had got the stomach bug and couldn't attend their lectures. She lied straight to their faces. It was like she was a different person when an outbreak happened. She barley ate,drank lots of water and relied on her stash of mint gum to get her through the day. Billie kept asking to come over but y/n just said she was sick and didn't want to get Billie sick. Billie was confused as y/n never refused to let her come over when she was sick. Y/n was in "survival mode" as she would call it because if she got that stomach bug to her it was the same as death. 

Billie decided to come over to y/ns apartment as she missed her so much and she didn't really care if she got whatever sickness she had. She used her key to open the door. When she opened the door and looked into her girlfriends eyes her face dropped. Her face was pale she was skinnier than usual ad her eyelids were drooping. Billie immediately rushed over to her girlfriend holding her face. "Baby what happened are you okay?" Billie said concerned. "Billie you can't be here" y/n said rushing to her bedroom and locking her door. Billie knocked on the door. "Baby what sickness do you have?" Billie asked though this didn't look like an illness this looked like a starving person. She got no reply Billie slowly got up and went to the kitchen opening the fridge. There was a lot more food in their than there usually was on a Friday and most of the food was gone off. 

Billie became more concerned her girlfriend definitely hadn't been eating "does she have an eating disorder?" Billie thought to herself. She made her way back to her girlfriends bedroom. "Please open the door baby I want to help whatever it is I won't judge you" Billie said. She heard the door slowly unlock and open. She immediately embraced her girlfriend in a hug. "I'm sorry bil" y/n whispered against Billie. Billie pulled back "it's okay baby but can you please tell me what's wrong my love" Billie said softly. Y/n sighed "alright but it's a lot and I haven't been completely honest with you. As she led Billie to sit on the edge of her bed Billie saw all the empty water bottles in the corner and all the chewing gum packets in the bin. 

"So I'm going to talk and you just listen okay?" Y/n said. Billie nodded "okay my love" "so I admit I should've told you this quite a while ago as it affects my daily life and you deserve to know as my girlfriend"y/n took a breath. "I have this thing called emetophobia it's the fear of throwing up or just throw up In general. On Tuesday I was sitting in my lecture when I overheard two girls saying that there was a stomach bug going around I immediately started panicking I did the exercises my therapist told me to do when something like this happens." Billie held her girlfriends hands "It didn't really help much. But then I heard someone gag I pulled my head up from my desk and saw some guy throw up I froze and my breathing got quicker and I started shaking and quickly got up and ran out of the building and out to my favourite place,the garden. 

I sat under the tree I showed you a few months ago and my panic attack only got worse i thought about calling you but I didn't. I called my mom and she helped me calm down. I then headed back to my apartment went for a shower and spiralled even more overthinking everything I did, anytime I passed someone who was rummored to have the stomach bug. 

I stopped eating as I was too scared to be sick" Billie held squeezed y/ns hand. "I drank lots of cold water and chewed lots of gum it's one of my coping mechanisms. It hasn't been this bad in a while and I didn't want you seeing me like this so I'm sorry." Billie hugged her girlfriend who now has tears streaming down her face. "I'm sorry you had to go through that baby please stop apologising it's not your fault" Billie Billie mumbled against her girlfriend "thank you" y/n whispered against Billie. "Let's clean up your room together and you can tell me your triggers so I can understand more." Billie told her "thank you again Billie" y/n said to Billie "your welcome my love"

A/n- this was hard for me to write but I could attempt to write a part two where y/n talks to Billie more about her past and how she grained the fear lmk I'd you want part two

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Noises from Billies room….

a/n- this is a chapter from my wattpad book it is mine and I did not steal it! First story on here kinda nervous but wtv hope u like it lyyy!

Contains- sub!billie x dom!reader, smut, fluff, use of mommy, (only twice tho) fingering, scissoring, masturbation, thigh riding, groping, (lmk if I missed something)

2158 words

Y/n pov

It was just a normal Saturday evening me and my roommate and best friend Billie both had the day off. I decided to text her even though she's just down the hall.

Y/n

Hey you wanna cook dinner together since we've both been in bed all day?

Billie 

Yeah sure, now that I think about it I haven't even seen you today 😭

Y/n

I was thinking the same girl we need to get up off our asses fr

Billie 

So when do you wanna make dinner? It's like 6:00 already 

Y/n 

Uhhh we can start it now ig I'll be down in a few mins

Billie

Alrrr I'll be down gimme a sec

Y/n pov

I didn't really care how I looked around billie because we've been friends since we were 14 and been there for eachother during our worst parts of our life's. I lost all my friends when I came out as gay when I was 15 billie was the only one that stayed though. She was the reason I realised I was gay she doesn't know that though. She also likes women and men which means I have sort of a chance but she's way out of my league and I don't have the guts to admit my feelings. 

I quickly tied my hair up messily and just wore the same thing I wore to bed a tank to and sleep shorts. Once I tied up my hair I walked out my room.

Billies pov

I always get so nervous around y/n I have a huge crush on her but I don't wanna fall in love again or confess my feelings. Last time I fell in love I got my heart broken so now I'm scared. I've always had a crush on y/n but I got with this guy to distract myself but I ended up falling in love with him. She comforted me when we broke up she never left my side. I came out as bi to her a few years back and most people know I'm bi. When she came out as gay she lost all her friends so I stuck with her. I've had a crush on her since I was 14 and I'm 17 now but I think I always had a crush on her I was just too stupid to realise.

I put on a hoodie and tied up my hair I was wearing sweatpants and a tank top under my hoodie I opened the door to my room and saw y/n walking down the hall at the same time. My jaw nearly dropped when I saw her outfit her small sleep shorts were hugging her ass so well and her tank top oh my god her tank top, her boobs were spilling out the front of it. I stood there dazed. "You okay bils?" She asked. I finally snapped out of my trance. "O-Oh yeah I'm good" I replied shakily trying to keep my composure.

Y/n pov

As I was walking down the hall Billie opened her door at the same time I turned and smiled at her but she was frozen. I was confused and concerned "you okay bils?" I asked. It was like she snapped out of some trance. "O-Oh yeah I'm good" she stuttered out. What's up with her I wondered

"Let's start shall we. what we making?" I asked her. I caught her staring at my tits. nothing new I thought. "Billie are you gonna answer my question or keep staring and my boobs" I chuckled. her face immediately went red and she looked down "O-oh sor-sorry what was your q-question." She asked clearing her throat. "I asked what we're making" "ummm how about pasta?" She answered. "Sure!" I replied. 

we made the pasta and while making it she kept getting distracted. she was stuck in her thoughts. We were sitting at the counter eating our pasta. "Hey bils you okay you seemed distracted while making the pasta" I asked her casually "oh I-I'm just tired I'm fine" "okay bils" I replied rubbing her hand 

Billies pov 

Holy fucking shit I'm so fucking wet. I can't stop looking at her. She's so pretty and her body is perfect. She caught me staring at her boobs and it was so embarrassing but could you blame me? God she's so hot. "Hey bils you okay you seemed distracted while making the pasta" 

Shit.

Yea I'm distracted cuz I want you to bend me ov-  stop billie she's your best  friend. I scolded myself for my thoughts

"oh I-I'm just tired I'm fine" I stuttered out. Fuck why am I stuttering so much I'm so pathetic."Okay bils" she replied rubbing her hand over mine. Fuck she's so caring. when she rubbed my hand it was like fireworks were going off inside me. I clenched my thighs even harder together.

We finished our pasta and started cleaning up. "Okay I think that's everything cleaned up" she said tiredly "I'm gonna head to bed now" she said "okay me too" I answered a bit quickly "night bils" "night baby" I let the pet name slip. fuck. She took no notice of it and went to her bedroom 

Y/n pov

Ok so Billie just called me baby holy fucking shit. I pretended not to care but oh my god. Get yourself together y/n she's you best friend. I thought to myself. I didn't think about it much more I just went straight to sleep.

Billies Pov

As soon as I got in my room I took off my jumper and sweatpantsI wasn't wearing any underwear so I was quite literally dripping down my legs. I sat on my bed with my legs spread I started slowly rubbing circles on my clit. I whimpered wishing it was her hands. What am I doing this is so wrong I thought to myself. I put back on my sweatpants and tried to distract myself

I really did try to distract my self I really did. I scrolled on TikTok I played games on my xbox but I kept getting more and more wet because I kept thinking about y/n. "Oh fuck it" I whispered to myself. I wasn't sleeping anytime soon if I didn't get off. 

I pulled down my sweatpants once again  sighing in relief as my fingers started slowly tracing circles on my clit. I'm sure she was alseep by now so I didn't have to be too quiet because she's a deep sleeper. I closed my eyes imagining it was y/n doing this to me. "Mmm fuck baby" I whimpered. I kept tracing circles around my clit until I pushed two fingers in my hole. "Uhh fuck y/n" I moaned pretty loudly. I pumped my fingers in and out of my heat while my thumb circled my clit. I felt the knot forming in my stomach. "Fuck y/n I'm so close" "fuck don't stop mommy" I kept pumping my fingers in and out of my heat whimpering until I hear my door open. I freeze. Shit.

Y/n pov

I wake up suddenly really thirsty. I sigh and look at the time 2:00am I groan. I get out of bed quietly trying not to wake Billie if she was asleep. I walked down the hall hearing strange noise from billies room. she must be playing Xbox or something I thought. I entered the kitchen and just as i was about to reach for a glass I froze. I heard billie whimpering and moaning "Fuck y/n I'm so close" "fuck don't stop mommy".  I was soaked. 

I nearly sprinted to her bedroom door busting it open. She froze. I also froze my mouth open at the sight of her fingers in her tight cunt. She tried covering herself but it was too late I already saw everything. "What were you doing bils" I asked coming closer and whispering in her ear. She whined. "n-n-nothing" she replied breathing heavy. I could tell her fingers were still inside her as her hand was under the blanket near her pussy. "I heard everything sweet girl theres no point in lying tell me want you want and I'll give it to you" I whispered in her ear once again. Teasing her. She whined again. I saw her hand slightly moving under the blanket "Are you still touching yourself under the blanket billie?" I teased. Her hand stilled. "I didn't say stop my sweet girl." After hearing that she continued her actions "can I take this off you" I said pointing at the blanket. She nodded. "Words baby" "y-yes". I took off the blanket. "Good girl" "being so good for mommy" she whined again at my words. "You like when I call you a good girl huh?""Mmm y-yes" she said moaning. Her breathing started to pick up so I knew she was getting closer. I grabbed her wrist and pulled out her fingers. "Why I was so close" " shh baby it's okay" I said kissing her.

 I pulled away from the kiss and started to take off my tank top. I took off my sleep shorts too. I wasn't wearing underwear or a bra so I was completely naked infront of Billie. Billie groaned at the sight. "Holy fuck, so pretty"she whispered. "Thank you baby. can I take this off?"I asked tugging at her tank top. I could see her already hard nipples through it "yes you can take it off" she answered. I took shirt off and her boobs spilled out. I stared at her plump boobs. "Fuck" I whispered under my breath. She was more gorgeous than I dreamed about.

 I got on top of her pushing her down onto her back. I started sucking on her left nipple while groping her right boob. "Mmm fuck" billie moaned out. I hummed against her skin. I then switched doing the same thing to the other nipple while groping her left boob. I left love bites all over her boobs. "Mmm fuck baby" she groaned bucking her hips subconsciously. I held her hips down "be patient baby" I left hickeys all over her neck slowly kissing up to her lips. I kissed her and the kiss got heated quickly. I bit her bottom lip and she moaned as I slipped my tongue in her mouth. We made out for a little while longer until I flipped us so she was on top. 

"Ride my thigh sweet girl" she blushed at the idea but rocked her hips back and forth. She started moaning louder and louder I knew she was close "cmon baby I know you can do it" I said while groping her boob and stroking her hair. With one last rock of her hips she reached her high. I held her hips rocking her back and forth while she rode out her orgasm. She collapsed onto me trying to catch her breathe 

i stroked her hair letting her catch her breath "I've always dreamed of doing this" she spoke quietly. "Me too" I admitted "I've been in love with you since we were 14" I confessed. She pulled her head up from my shoulder "really?" She asked "yeah sorry it's a bit creepy I know" I said giggling "no it's not baby I've been in love with you since 14 too maybe longer you always caught my eye before we were even friends" I hugged her tight inhaling her scent "billie?" "Yeah?" "Do you want to be my girlfriend?" She shot her head up "really? Omg yes Ofc yes" I kissed her with so much love 

"can I try something bils." I asked pulling away from the kiss "sure" I took her off my lap and facing her interlinking our legs so that our centres would touch. we both groaned at the new sensation. I started grinding against her core while she did the same. It didn't take us long to get close again. "Are you close" I breathed "yeah" she replied in a breathy moan. "Cmon let go sweet girl I'm right here with you" I stroked her cheek kissing her softly. With one last push we both came "fuck" I whispered. We both rode out our highs. We layed back down cuddling and catching our breath. "Okay cmon let's shower" I said "okay" she said sleep catching up to her 

 we both made our way to the bathroom we both got in the shower and washed eachothers bodies and hair. We stepped out the shower drying off and heading back to billies room we changed into clothes and changed the sheets. "We gotta go on a date soon" I say "definitely" she replies "billie can I put on some of your perfume I like the smell it reminds me of you" "of course come here" she said spraying her perfume on the large shirt I stole from her "can we sleep now I'm tired" "Ofc bils" we get in bed and cuddle into eachother for warmth. Billie is cuddling into my chest as I hear her breathing slow and we both fall asleep