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Appreciation Post For My Favourite Host.

I’m supposed to post this 3 weeks ago, but I was so busy with my works and haven’t had enough time to do so. And now it’s 1.05am, I cant sleep so I decided to write and finished everything.

In this post, I want to share my journey about my host. From the start we met until her last day of becoming a host.

Wednesday, 16th December 2020 is the day I found myself the most amazing host ever. I’m so glad that PK happened, or else I wouldn’t have met her. Who would have thought, from that PK, I met my future host.

Friday, 8th January 2021 is the day I join her audio live for the first time ever. I was just scrolling around but then I accidentally entered her live and then she asked me to stay and join her audio.

Tuesday, 2nd February 2021, is the day I joined her Multi-guest and revealed my face to her for the very first time. It was a fun night because We were playing Truth and Dare at that time.

When we were playing Truth and Dare I got Dared to use her picture for 3 straight day. It was weird at first but I have no regrets.

After some times, then I dared her to likes all my post on Instagram. (Although it took her 3 days to liked my post)

Thursday, 4th February 2021, is the day I’ve become her official admin. Not gonna lie, it was the best day ever. Because only few days ago, I was dumped and my admin was removed by my previous Host.

Sunday, 14th February 2021, we’re having our first ever on-call. To be honest, I’ve forgot what were we talking about, so I can’t really describe any further.

Saturday, 20th March 2021, she forced me to do the TikTok dance *facepalm*.

Sunday, 18th April 2021, we went crazy and trying every single filter that we have saved. We’re acting silly like there’s no one watching us.

Friday, 30th April 2021, the saddest day of the year. Her last day of becoming a official host. And it’s her last live as well. It was such an emotional day for me. (Sorry I have to covered her face since I don’t have any proper screenshot lol)

In conclusion,

I just want to say thank you for treating me nicely, thank you for accepting me as your admin after I’m being dumped by previous one.

You may be far from perfect, you may have flaws, you may not like any other girls, but I can assure you, you’re the most amazing girl I’ve ever met.

To be honest you’re the only girl I’ve ever called “Babi”, “Sial”, “Pukik”, “Bodoh”, and many more. I swear, I’ve never said those kind of words to any other girls in my life. Because you know and i know, it was only a jokes.

We may only knew each other for few months only, but I felt comfortable with you. I am proud to have you as my friend, my buddy, and my bff ❤️ the one I can talk to and share my problems.

I just can’t wait to meet you in person and hugs you tightly. and ofcourse spit at your face. Lol.

I love you buddy❤️❤️

P/S:

To any guys out there. I warned you. I won’t let anyone of you breaks her fucking heart. I’m gonna make sure, she won’t waste her tears because of you guys.I will always here to protect her.

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I made up a story, of a great life I thought I wanted to live. Which only made me forget the great life I already had. How I had filled a new home with light and joy and promise. How i met a girl, who felt alone in the world and make get feel ok again.

And now, when I knew I was going to go, I was okay because I'd already gave everything for her. A full life. And she was everything she needed to be, just as she was.

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My Favourite Host.

It’s been a month now since I am officially found myself a new host. She was there for me when I’m no longer needed by my previous one. She’s funny, kind, cheerful, loud, and the strongest women I’ve ever known. She had a unique personality, which is for me is very interesting. Her live broadcast is the only place where I can called my home.

To repay her kindness, I will do my best to make sure she didn’t give up on her live broadcast if she failed to complete her monthly task. And I will always be there for her if she need my help or if she need someone to talk to. Bacause I want to make sure she didn’t feel alone.

Lastly, I am so grateful to have such an amazing friend like her. And I hope she feel the same way too.

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The story of you and me is officially ended. Thank you for everything.

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Maybe you don’t end up with the person your heart chooses. Maybe that’s not how life works. Maybe you don’t get what you want. Maybe you end up finding what you need, and maybe the Universe knows what you need more than you do.

Maybe love changes.

Maybe it goes from “I’ll wait up and call you after work,” to “I’m going to sleep, I’m tired.”

Maybe it goes from “You have nothing to worry about,” to “I really wish you didn’t overthink so much.”

Maybe it goes from “I choose you,” to “I have to choose myself right now.”

Maybe love isn’t one of those things that grows with certain people.

Maybe you become too big for it.

Maybe it becomes too uncomfortable, too small for who you change into. You learn to appreciate it for what it was, but you come to terms with the fact that you have outgrown it. You learn to let it go.

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Perfect human being

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Levitate

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“When I say, “I love you,” it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I’ve seen your kindness and your strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.”

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My Gifts for you. And many more to come. InshaaAllah.

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For my future someone,

Please stay with me forever,

Please accept me for who i am,

I promise to love you with all my heart,

Please don’t break my heart,

I promise to support you as always,

Whenever I get mad, just tell me how much you love me, then I’ll be okay,

I wanna do crazy thing with you,

I wanna make the best memories with you,

You’ll be my buddy, my girlfriend and my future,

You’ll be my one and only,

I promise to love you,

Forever,

And ever.

I promise to end up with you.

Sincerely,

Emy Razak

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Aaaaaaa too cute for me to handle

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Thank you, Allah

Just cried a little bit this morning.

Currently I’m facing several hardship in life. I need to make a big move, again. I’m stressed, afraid, and feeling powerless.

But this morning, when I opened YouTube to play music while working, a “certain” video appeared at my home screen. It didn’t look interesting, the topic is also sounded cliche to be honest. But somehow I clicked it–I don’t know why. It’s like, “Yeah let’s give this video a chance to get my attention”.

I ended up watching the video till the end and I could relate the message to my current situation. The message is, “You may have a plan, but Allah also has a plan, and He is the best of all planner.” Cliche right? But probably that’s exactly what I need in my situation.

Then I something strucked me… “Dear God, are you.. Communicating with me?” I instantly melted…

I felt like a child separated far-far away from my parents, desperated and exhausted, and then they called me and told me that everything is going to be okay; that they will always be protecting me, guiding me. “Do not be afraid, I’m here and always be here watching and guiding you. I never leave you any second.”

Melted.. I miss my tahajjud, talking to Allah, praying, telling everything.

Dear Allah, thank you and I’m sorry. Forgive me, I’ve been far from you. Thank you for bringing me back again and again :’(