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Pup 심재윤

Y/n gets used to the life with Jake, they're in her head a perfect couple, but Jake always wants to use his plaything

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Tw: dub-con, perv hyung line, exhibitionist, anal sex, unprotected, inexperienced reader, masturbation, gang bang? But not really, dacryphilia

Jake calls y/n pup and pinkie referring to a baby mouse

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Is nasty I have warned you

It's been two months since she started to live with Jake, they already developed a system that works for them and she's happy with. Everything is fine, he's really good with her, she cut her shifts on the library to only 3 days and Jake usually spend the last hour of the shift waiting for her to walk together home buying groceries in the local market y/n always chose the veggies and Jake the meat, both the cereal and snacks; the internship with Mr Kim is still on but she have to wear his perfume and hoodie, also She has to call him immediately after finishing and on the way home she has to tell him all the details of what she did and if the teacher touched her, even a simple touch of hands so Jake can clean her once at home; he goes out with his friends twice a week while she stays and cleans the apartment.

He wash her every night and put her pajamas, lotion all over her body, brushing her hair and teeth, he removes the collar with the name tag that claimed her as his, if she's been good, y/n sleeps next to him in bed snuggled on his chest, but the days she received a punishment she slept either the floor or the sofa in the living room, thing that it was rare, Jake always praised her for being so good and well behaved.

Today it's Friday night which means Jake is out with friends, usually when she's alone she just eats an instant ramen watching a movie on the living room waiting patiently for his arrival, she makes sure her home garments are alright; that's another thing, she's allowed to use her baggy oversized clothes outside but at home she only wears babydoll dresses or lingerie, that way Jake can be the only one enjoying her body. It's still early when she heard the front door quickly leaving her movie to go kneel beside the door.

-mousey I'm home- he was taking off his coat, looking down at her- there you are such a good girl, wanna a kiss?- she nods taking off his shoes so he can pick her up and kiss her, she wrapped her limps on him and his hands holds her from her bottom

-I missed you Yunie- she talks between the kiss, it was hot and messy

-I missed my little mouse more- she smiles resting her face on his shoulder noticing the three tall figures at their door watching them kiss

-yunie someone is seeing you kiss me- she holds him tighter

-yeah, they're my friends, they wanted to meet you properly- Jake made a sign and the three of them to come in- say hi be a good host-she waved her hand to them

-i'm on my home garments- she whispered on his ear feeling so shy that she's semi naked- they gonna see my body

- they're my best friends I won't mind, I really wanted for you to get to know them… -he pouts knowing that always makes her do anything he wants- but I guess you don't want… is okay they can meet you any other time…- he heavy sighs putting her down- you listened my mousey, she doesn't want to meet my friends I'll see you tomo…

-no, wait…- she pulled Jake, looking at him with still unsure eyes- I won't get punished because someone else saw me, right?

-no pinkie, no if you're a good girl and behave- Jake holds her shoulders putting her in front of him exposing her- well this is Heeseung hyung, Jay and Sunghoon

-hi… is really nice to meet you- she feels the prying eyes all over her, the fabric of what she's wearing is translucent all over so everything is visible

-hey why don't you go to make some snacks?... I'll get everything ready for us to have a Mario kart tournament- she nods and Jake pulls her to make out in front of everyone, making her blush

When they pulled apart she almost run inside the kitchen hiding, making popcorn and putting other things in plates serving sodas and Jake's favorite beer from the fridge, he arrived hugging her from behind kissing her neck, on those sensitive spots of her making her legs tremble his hand ghosted over her pussy making her bite a moan.

-I missed your body, I was only thinking in coming home bend you over and fuck this heavenly pussy- he slipped his hand inside her bottoms to rub her clit- good pinkie already drooling for Yunie- she started to moan forgetting for a second that someone else is there- we haven't done it in a week- she feels his boner pocking her back making her moan a little louder

-Sim we gonna press play now if you don't come here- the yelling from the living room pulled her out of that intoxicating feeling her cheeks hot

They take everything out to the living room, the three pairs of eyes followed her figure, leaving everything on the coffee table, she sits in the corner of the sofa away from everyone they immediately started to eat, Jake gives her a smaller bowl with her favorites making her smile, he manhandled her to sit on his lap straddling him so she can feed him and eat herself, also that way she would only look at him and he can feel her cunt over his pants and prominent boner, she feels it pocking but she likes it getting comfortable feeding him and giving small pecks until is his turn to play, she helps him sip from his beer while his hands roam on her butt cheeks kneading her flesh. They stayed like that, when it's his turn she stays very still but when is not, she rubs herself on his crotch and he touches her not do subtle, she's needy now dripping wet on his sweats.

-can I go to my room now? I'm sticky Yunie- she whispered

-to do what pinkie? Use one of your toys- he kiss her cheek- I'll prefer you coming undone on top of me… why don't you touch yourself here?- he whispered on her ear

-i rather wait for later- she looks at him with her big eyes

-oh okay… just let you know that this is gonna last pass midnight, we bet some money- he gives one last peck on her lips smiling and putting all his attention on the screen

Y/n tried, she really did staying still, but his hands were caressing her butt and when he shifts she feels him rubbing her sensitive spots, whining softly on his neck each time she feels something on her clit.

-Yunie, I can't… - her voice is tiny and desperate making Jake smile

-oh mousey, we're half way the tournament… you can wait or touch yourself whatever you prefer

-but what if they see?- she was seriously thinking about it, wanting some kind of release

-they don't care, look they're so into the game- she looks around all of them so into it, yelling at each other

-okay… but can you please wipe me after so I can sleep comfortably?- Jake smiles showing his teeth

-of course I can… go ahead enjoy yourself pinkie

Her hand slipped into her panties moaning instantly at how wet she is, they heard it but promised not to look until Jake gives them permission, his friends trying so hard to focus on the game and not the beautiful noises she's making, hardly resisting the urge to look at her; y/n was rubbing her clit moaning and squirming on his lap, her pussy throbbing and clenching around nothing, Jake let her enjoy for sometime until he's almost sure she's cumming, he stopped her making her whine loudly.

-shhh pinkie you gonna let the neighbors know how needy you are- he manhandled her to lay her down on the sofa moving his friends out of the way- just wanna see my girl… keep going- she looks at his friends and how now they're paying full attention to her making her shy- don't worry about them, they don't mind you touching yourself

-but… but is embarrassing

-is not pup, everyone here had touched themselves before, nothing to be ashamed of, is natural when you're needy- he started to carefully slip her panties off while she looks at the boners of everyone- also my friends wanted to know why I'm so obsessed with you, they don't understand, so why don't you show them mhm? Show them what a good girl you're for me pup

She's now naked from the waist down looking around, his friends watching her every move, Jake's hands making circles on her hips giving her a comforting feeling, she looks at Jake again and he just gives her a reassuring nod of the head, slowly her hand reach down to her clit again flinching at how sensitive is, collecting some of her arousal she started to rub again moaning immediately.

-put a finger inside pup, you're gonna like it more… do it like I taught you- she does as he says arching her back clenching on her fingers- that's it you're gonna have a reward after this

Jake leaned to suck on her nipples over the lace fabric of her bralette, she moaned harder making him chuckle, his hand slipping down to check how wet she's, smiling when he realized she's dripping down between her butt cheeks he use his thumb to rub some of her arousal on her rim, she's so into her pleasure to notice his hand in that forbidden part of her body.

-can I cum please Yunie?- her voice is so whiny

-yes pup, you earned it, cum- she screamed pumping her fingers in and out, Jake still sucking her nipples, she released slowing down her ministrations- well done, now give me- he opened his mouth and she immediately put her fingers there, Jake cleaned them tasting her and moaning himself- so, so tasty… don't be selfish be a good host and ask if they wanna taste your honey pinkie- she looks at his friends having the same wicked smile as Jake

-do you wanna a taste of my honey?- she whispered with her face hot of embarrassment

-i would love to taste- Heeseung was the first kneeling in front of where she is

-take some on your fingers and give him a little bit- Jake commanded, making her obey Heeseung swirled his tongue on her fingers leaving them clean

-delicious, I see why he talks about you all the time- Sunghoon and Jay kneeled in front of her too while she collected some more arousal

-Give me some princess, can I call you princess?- Jay asked her, she looks at Jake for permission and when he approves she nods, Jay opened his mouth tasting her- mhm princess tastes so good

-I want some too please babygirl- Sunghoon immediately opened his mouth moaning at the taste- just like heaven

-You want some of your honey pinkie?

-yes please Yunie- Jake dipped his finger on her sensitive hole fingering her making her moan, he smiles pulling out to push them inside her mouth

-can I touch her Jake?- Heeseung got closer playing with her hair

-you don't have to ask me, you have to ask my mousey, is her body and you have to know she's really sensitive- Jake takes her in his arms and she wraps him in a hug- do you want them to touch you?

-I'm not… I don't know

-is okay if you want it, I won't be angry in fact I think I would like to see how they touch you

-would you like it?- he nods kissing her neck- okay but no touching my pussy that's only for Yunie- Jake smiles, taking off her bralette leaving her on the sofa alone and naked, he standing there watching how his friends get close to her

Sunghoon quickly picked her up making her straddle his lap so he can dip his face on her breasts sucking on her nipple, Jay placed himself behind touching her bottom, Heeseung sits next to them touching and pinching her other nipple, her body is on fire, biting her lips so she doesn't moan, Jake started to palm himself over his sweats enjoying how she's being used, how easy was to make her do that, he pulled down his pants starting to jerk, she noticed, not taking her eyes from his length, watching how he gets hard finally moaning at the sight.

-Yunie…

-what pinkie you need my cock?- she nods- but you're enjoying yourself, surrounded by men touching you like a dirty little whore pup

-you say you'll like- she pouts

-I do… you look so cute when you're fucked and dumb…- Jake got up standing in the sofa- go on pup suck me off so I can be ready to fuck you- she did it taking him in her mouth

Jake moaned loud, without being inhibited with his friends there, he made the sign, Sunghoon smiles holding her bottom lifting her a little sucking harder on her right nipple, she moaned around Jake's cock, Heeseung holds her arms while he sucks on her other nipple, once she's secured in place Jay opened her butt cheeks dipping his face there to eat her ass, that surprised her she tried to move but they restrained her, Jake pushed his length deeper so she cannot complain either, moaning with her mouth full, Jay's tongue was creating a new wave of sensations something foreign but extremely pleasant the electricity running up her spine, everything is too much and she's still sensitive, Sunghoon and Heeseung sucking her nipples and biting them, Jake making her gag and Jay eating her ass making her eyes roll to the back of her head, she cums without warning and Jay dipped his face more lapping at her cunt groaning at the taste of her release, she squirms trying to stop it, Jay finally stopped and Jake too, both getting off her, Jay holds her, hooking his arms under her legs spreading them apart exposing her wet pussy, Sunghoon and Heeseung quickly went to her, licking her release both his face between her legs both tongues lapping at her.

-you… promised not touch my pussy- she whines

-pinkie they're not touching your cuny just cleaning it, don't be selfish and share your honey… I was bragging about how well behaved you're but now you're acting up like a spoiled rat, do you need a punishment to remember your manners?- she moaned at how they're eating her

-no Yunie, I'm sorry… I'm good… a good mouse- she's squirming from pleasure

-enough… now let's give pinkie what she needs, her little brain needs cock to function properly, am I wrong?- she shakes her head as a no- see? can't even talk just a dumb pup

Jake sits on the sofa, and Jay puts her on his lap, kissing her messy pushing his tongue on her mouth and making her melt on his arms, he wrapped his arms around her his hand sneaking to her bottom to toy with her rim, she squirms when he pushed a finger inside a pathetic whine echoing on the living room, then the second finger scissoring her hole open finally making her moan, he takes his length putting it on her ass making her panic.

-Yunie… not there

-shhh is just another first time for you… and is extra especial because we have our guest watching how good you're, don't you wanna be a good mouse?- she nods with her eyes glossy with tears- them let me claim all your little holes as mine, that way they also gonna know that you're completely mine that all of you belongs only to me… just relax you're gonna like it pup

She holds him tighter, while he lines his length on her rim, pushing slowly, the whine was from pain of being stretched, Jake shushed her while he push slowly bottoming her, staying like that hearing a small sob coming out of her, he sees her tears and he can't help but to twitch inside her.

-ow why is my pinkie crying now?

-it hurts Yunie… - she sniffles

-it's gonna pass I promise, it will feel amazing… it's like when I'm stuffing your cuny and I spank you, it hurts yes but feels good… don't you trust in me?

-I do… but… I feel so open and shy because… they can see me like this- she cried some more feeling his hand caressing her back

-don't feel shy… look what you did to them- she slightly turned her head to see how his friends are jerking- do you wanna see them? Wanna see the effects your hot body has over us?- she nods Jake pulled out manhandling her in a reverse cowgirl position, she blush seeing his three friends jerking watching her, while Jake caress her body pushing his length back in her ass

-are they really enjoying it?- she's distracted watching his friends touch themselves

-i'm definitely enjoying my time here princess couldn't ask for something better to do- Jay was giving long slow strokes on his cock

-I think we all agree that you're intoxicating babygirl- Sunghoon was a little more aggressive jerking himself

-We're obsessed with you too- Heeseung made direct eye contact while rubbing his tip

-do you think I'm pretty?- she looks curious at them, Jake bouncing her softly on his cock

-so pretty, you're breath taking- Heeseung said and she blush when the others agree

She's really enjoying this, having this much attention, before Jake nobody noticed her no one ever found her pretty, but right now four boys are enjoying her, admiring her body, calling her a good girl and pretty… Jake smiles seeing her so shy but also so exposed enjoying how they fuck her with their eyes, he started to move faster bouncing her body, she moaned loud.

-there you go pup, finally enjoying having me in your ass

-is not… I'm not- Jake pushed deeper making her scream of pleasure

-yours body says otherwise, all your holes are made for me to fill and destroy- he kissed her shoulders- why don't you fuck yourself? Show them what a good pup you are, spread your legs wide and play with your clit… go on make me cum

Y/n did as Jake ordered positioning herself better, bouncing on his cock playing with her clit moaning loud, her tits are bouncing and one of his hands started to play with her nipple, she tried her best to keep the rhythm to please him and herself, feeling dizzy with them watching her, the moaning from everyone made her pussy clench around nothing, she pushed two fingers inside her screaming.

-can I cum? Please Yunie- she bounce harder

-no, I'm not close- that made her whimper

-can't my legs hurt… please wanna cum, please please- her tears run down her face

-fuck pup don't cry- her tears make him twitch inside feeling also her rim contract squeezing him- gonna fuck you okay?

He manhandled her pulling out making her complain and whimper, Jake shushed her bending her over the arm rest, pushing his cock inside harshly holding her hips and fucking without any care, she screamed moaning uncontrollably, trying to hold as much as she can her release, she whimpers feeling him erratic.

-go on cum pinkie- he slapped her butt, she finally released, feeling an oddly amount of liquid coming out of her- fuck you squirted pup, you're so nasty- Jake thrust a couple times more stopping and releasing inside her with a groan

-can I cum in her?- the voice of Sunghoon pulled her out of the dazed state

-no… don't like feeling sticky… please no- she looks up, her eyes still glossy with tears, seeing the three of them jerking around her about to cum

-what about they cum on your ass pup, just like I did?... be a good host you know it hurts when you don't cum

-okay… but be careful… I'm sensitive please- she's a little unsure of them using her body but Jake seems eager to let them

They lined up behind her, Jake pulled out letting the space for Sunghoon to push just his tip inside with a low groan he cums inside, he moves to the side letting Heeseung do the same, then Jay, each time they push their cocks inside she moans and when they pull out she complained, when they finished she was feeling so full her asshole gaping trying to get back to the original size, Jake pulled out his phone recording that, biting his lip, slapping her ass one more time.

-pup be good where are your manners?- Jake soothes the skin he slapped

-i sorry Yunie… thank you for giving me cum, for filling my greedy hole…- she keeps looking at his friends then looking at Jake

-good pup, now clean me up- Jake smiles standing in front of her, she gets down from the arm rest kneeling in front of Jake to lick his cock, taking the remains of his cum from the veins, moaning enjoying the cleaning part- well done pinkie now why don't you clean our guest? Just their tips okay pretty mouse, you gonna have kisses after- she nods eagerly taking Jay's cock sucking on his tip and licking the slit tasting his cum, slightly more salty than Jake's, she turns to Heeseung repeating the process tasting a new flavor, lastly Sunghoon

The three of them got closer surrounding her with their cocks on her face while Jake takes pictures and videos of her cleaning them, she gives them a kiss on the tip bating her lashes almost like flirting, wanting to hear praises, the three of them catch up quickly what she's waiting for filling her with endless praises of how pretty she is, how well behaved and how much of a good girl she is. Jake lift her and she wrapped her arms on him while Jake kissed her, making out with her, she contently responded to the kiss.

-was I good Yunie?

-so good… you're such a nasty pup, am I making a whore of you?- she nods happily- I love that of you, my dirty little sluty pinkie

-I love you Yunie- she pecks his lips making Jake smile

-give them a little bit of love too, okay? A peck on the lips pup- she nods while Jake is passing her to the arms of Sunghoon, she wrapped her limps on his body, pecking his lips twice

She was passed around kissing his friends, it lasted longer than a peck, because they started to use their tongue to kiss her, she was unsure at first but Jake pushed her face into the messy with with one of his friends, while Heeseung was kissing her Sunghoon dropped on his knees behind her cleaning her lapping at her ass, she moaned a little between the kisses, Sunghoon pulled her to kiss her and push their cum into her mouth making her moan, Jay was a little more sweet when she was passed into his arms his hands caressed her back, she's like a doll the three of them having her way with her body, kissing even marking her neck or breast, all of them touched her body one more time before she jawns, rubbing her eyes, Jake takes her again on his arms sitting on the couch, fixing her body so she can straddle him, she snuggled on his chest while he pats her bottom, naked used and happy, she drifted off to sleep while they continue to play his tournament.

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Prey 심재윤

Jake is paired with y/n for a project, but he started to get obsessed with how lonely she is wanting her only for him

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Part 2

Tw: dub-con, yandere? Idk but he's an asshole, humiliation, basically a kidnapping occurs, nakedness, punishments and spanks, dry humping, mentions of virginity and taking advantage of it, Stockholm Syndrome? I guess

Jake calls y/n pup and pinkie referring to a baby mouse

Important: I feel like I shouldn't even say this because we're all rational people and we all know this is fiction, that it's not a big deal, know that if you read this is because you wanted to. I would say that you have to be over 18 to read this, I'm not responsible for the things you decide as your media consumption, certainly I don't believe Jake or anyone in Enha is like this because this is just fiction.

How did it happen? It was a regular day of classes, nothing out of the usual, she took her lectures in silence at the back of the classroom, it was the last one for today when her professor paired her with Sim Jaeyun, she waited until everyone else was gone to talk with her professor.

-excuse me Mr Kim- he was picking up his things looking up at her- I think it was a mistake, you said I'll be paired with Sim… you allowed me to work alone all the semester- Mr Kim sighs

-I know I promised you that, but I need your help this time, you're my top student and Sim needs discipline maybe you can help me with that, just this one time I beg you- and like if they summoned the devil himself Jaeyun entered the classroom with a paper on hand

-doctors appointment- he give a devil smirk about to go 

-Sim come back here- the professor saw the paper clearly fake- attendance is key to have the credits for this class, you barely have it, this is fake I cannot accept it- Jaeyun was about to protest but the professor didn't let him- this is the last call or you'll be taking this class next summer, you're paired with miss Y/l/n that be 50% of your grade and your exam the other 50% so it better be good 

-mr Kim please, I- I can work alone I think it be better for me- she stutter in a tiny voice almost like if she didn't want for Sim to listen

-i'm sorry but I really need this favor from you, I'll give you extra credit and the letter for your internship, please just this small favor- she feels split but ended up nodding in affirmation 

Jaeyun was intrigued by her, why he never saw her before? Okay he wasn't often at classes but he was well aware of the girls at school, since it was his main interest. He saw her rush out of the classroom, she was trying to get on time to her job, she holds her bag squeezing herself between the bodies of the other students, once at the door someone pulled her from the wrist, she looks up.

-are you in a hurry?- Jaeyun’s voice startled her, she just nods- okay give me your number so we can get to an agreement around my schedule to work in that thing together- he smirks and she takes her hand off him

-i'll do everything, two days before the final I'll give you a copy and notes so you can study and tell professor Kim anything in case he ask- she quickly turned around to leave but he catches her again this time pulling her close to his chest

-oh little mouse it won't be nice on my side to let you do all by yourself, I'm sure we can have a good time together- he checked her body even with the oversized garments he could tell the shape of her boobs- I have my apartment all alone for us, no distractions- he smirks and she instinctively covered herself like if she was naked, she knew the deal with him and his friends, they were popular because they're the playboys at college, more than half of the campus if the female type had already been involved with one of them and the stories about how good they're always run in the corridors, almost like if they're sex gods or demons

-hi Jakey- a girl pushed her out of her target- I'm gonna have little birthday party on Friday and I'm hoping for you to go, is casual nothing to glam or something- Jaeyun scanned her body shamelessly she smiles 

-yeah? Birthday Girl- he started to flirt right away reaching for a strand of hair to put it behind her ear- what should I wear?

Y/n heard how they flirt and took that opportunity to run away from him, she arrived a minute late to her work smiling like an apology to her boss, she was part time librarian, a perfect place for her peaceful and she can do her homework there, the payment was good for her alone and along with the scholarship she was living comfortably. It was a nice quiet life just like her in general; she arranged books on shelves all afternoon, she did her job and also started with the project, finishing a big part of it.

By ten the public library close and that's the time she normally uses to walk to the mini market to buy her groceries and then walk home, an easy life, she cooks for the next day to have lunch ready, prepared her clothes for tomorrow morning, her bag and everything else, shower, skincare, and bed time, all her life meticulously planned and following her own standards of good and efficiency.

Jake ended up intrigued about his partner for the project, after he was invited to the party on Friday he expected for her to be there waiting for him but y/n was gone, vanished and he didn't have an idea of where she would go. The next day he arrived early to school, something unusual in him trying to get a glimpse of her, the corridors at this hour were almost empty, he looked at the students so calmly walking to get on their future classes but not her, maybe she doesn't have class so early. Why was he so interested in her? She isn't the type of girl he likes and he never saw her before, like if she didn't exist until they were paired together, never heard her talk, or saw her on the corridors or parties, never heard her name… just then, like if Jake was starstruck he froze seeing her rush when clearly there's enough time to get to class without having to run, holding her bag and books tightly against her chest, getting inside, he followed her scanning the room spotting her at the back, last row, seat on the corner doing her homework headphones on, he just watched her from the other side of the classroom admiring her, taking in completely on how she looks.

So on the whole week he pay more attention on the places y/n goes, her classes; she didn't have friends at least what he saw, she always disappears at lunch time or breaks, she never stepped in the cafeteria or the food places around their college, most of her free time she sneaks into the library. She's elusive, sometimes she just disappears before Jake can follow her and know where she's going, always running to classes like if she's going late but always arriving 10 minutes before.

He was so intrigued by her, maybe because she's the complete opposite of what he usually likes, yes, his body count was impressive the same as his friends, so he couldn't say he has a type of girl, but even though, he liked to see their bodies under the clothing, at least the shape to imagine how it will be naked, he loved tight fitted dresses, mini skirts and crop tops, but with her not a single time a garment like that, always baggy pants and oversized t-shirts and hoodies, the rare time he saw her wearing a skirt or a dress was also baggy and long; also her personality was nothing like he was used to, he had hooked up shy girls but y/n was something else, she didn't talk to anyone not even a forced hi on the corridors with acquainted, always with her headphones on, without going to the areas where usually people crowded, she's always on the spots far away from anyone, he often wondered why it was like that she didn't seem rude for people to not like her, maybe it was entirely that she didn't like anyone.

Jake's interest only grew day by day, watching her it was something regular for him, even the girls he often were around him flirting noticed how he was holding them and sometimes making out but his gaze followed someone else, and when he finally spotted that someone the making out was more intense and his hands more touchy; it was true, the moment y/n appears on his line of vision something in him switch, as he can only fantasize in making out with her, in how would it feel her body what type of noises she would make.

After a whole week of only seeing her he decided to approach, not to speak because she wouldn't even listen because of the headphones, but he started to create casual encounters, even some mild touches when the hall was crowded, he would be behind her rubbing his crotch with her butt, or running on an empty hall pushing her just to be able to hold her so she doesn't fall, just one time he was really bolt palming her butt cheek and it was his official downfall because now he knows how it feels, the shape, the size. But what actually made him crazy was the time he “accidentally” spilled water after they crash, he just looked down on her, she was trembling because of the cold spilled all over and Jaeyun's cold glare on her, she mumbled a sorry before running away from that, leaving Jake smiling her white t-shirt let him saw the shape of her body translucent and clinging to her skin, he finally had material to think on her naked, that day the only thing Jake wanted was to know the color of her nipples of her pussy, how would it feel, he called one of the girls he used to fuck with for a night, he couldn't care who she was because his mind was flooded with y/n, he was down bad obsessed with her, he wanted to devour her, to posses her, to keep her only for himself.

The weather was changing and in particular that morning it was foggy and cold, but Jake woke up hot and with a boner, the image of y/n undressing felt too real, he woke up dazed looking at his bedroom and the girl naked next to him, he cursed not even caring if his companion is still sleeping, he just spits on his hand covering his length in saliva, pushing inside, it was rough and desperate searching for release, when she woke up he immediately silenced kissing her, he didn't want his fantasy to break so he didn't let whoever she was to speak, also he moaned on her lips because probably y/n’s name would slip out of them.

After taking a shower and sending his date on her way he went to school, unusually early, he immediately spotted y/n going to their class and he followed her inside, like expected usual seat, he went straight to her and sits really close to her cornering her even more, he removed her headphones startling her, she looks at him like a deer in the headlights.

-morning little mouse- he takes a piece of her hair playing with it between his fingers

-I almost finished with the project, I'll be done by the end of the week- she whispered making him smirk

-I don't care about that, I came to see you- he smiles and she feels a chill running down her spine- I was wondering if you wanna have lunch with me, I know a really good place near here, we can go and we can go somewhere more private after- she blush intensely

-i I… I can't… and please stop that- his beautiful face morph into a frown- I don't appreciate you trying to induce me into having casual sex- she takes her headphones putting them back again

Jake faced for the first time rejection, but instead of making him angry it amused him, she's a nobody yet she didn't want anything from him, he smiles and stayed next to her, touching her hair or clothes making her squeak surprised each time, but he couldn't help it, he's obsessed with the reactions and sounds he gets from her, how each time she corners herself more; when the class started he stayed there even their professor pointed he was on time finally, everyone look at him and her because their bodies were so close to each other, so close, some girls started to whisper about it, when everyone is paying attention, or pretending to do it, she got her sense of calmness again putting all her attention on what her professor was saying she got so into the topic that she didn't noticed how he is looking at her like if she's a prey, is cute for Jake how she pouts or bites her lips, he's hungry and wants to devour her, each second next to her was unbearable without feeling her so he gets close to her wrapping his arm around her waist and pulling her on his side she jolts and squirm trying to get away from him, his other hand is resting on her thigh really up.

-please stop- she said in a whisper not wanting to bother the class

-I wish you were wearing a skirt, a short one- his hand caress her all the way up until she stopped him alarmed- you smell so good, which perfume do you use?- he leaned to bury his nose on her neck making her squeak

-mr Sim and miss y/l/n, please out of my class- her professor talked turning everyone's head to her again she was stunned

-but please… I l didn't do anything- her voice stutter

-miss y/n, I'm very disappointed of you, I'll see you in my office after classes, now you may leave- she just nods collecting her things on her bag holding back her tears

She went out followed by him, once in the hall she let out the sob she was containing, pressing her bag to her chest, Jake frowns, not understanding why she's crying but still he pulled her to his chest hugging her body and she was petrified, his hands on her waist rubbing circles there.

-is your fault- she tried to push him away but he wrapped his arm tighter around not letting pull away

-is not big deal little mouse- he's still smirking seeing her squirm on his embrace

-i can lose my scholarship, is big deal- she sobs harder

-sorry okay- he wasn't sincere- let's go- he didn't even wait for a response lifting her over his shoulder and carrying her to somewhere else- right now I really wish you having a cute skirt

She trashed around trying to get off him and his hands touching her legs inching closer to her bottom, he takes her to an empty classroom in the old building, nobody else ever went there since it was disabled, he put her down and got comfortable in a couch, the only seat there, he holds her waist pulling her to his lap, but she was resisting.

-c’mon mousey not gonna eat you- he smiles devilishly- not unless you want me to

-is everything about sex for you?- she frowns standing between his legs but still refusing to sit on his lap, his hands massaging her sides

-only when I see a hot girl- he more softly was pulling her to his lap- also you're pretty and I'm intrigued… c'mon sit I promise I'm not gonna do anything

-i'm not pretty or hot stop lying to get on my pants- she whispered flushed her cheeks burning in embarrassment- if you touch me inappropriately I have pepper spray and won't hesitate to use it- She sits slowly on one of his legs

-you do look pretty- he smiles getting her legs across his lap- now tell me pretty mouse why are you so tight on your school?- he started to play with her hair

-I need my scholarship… I need to be good I can't get in trouble but now- she pouts about to cry again- it's your fault Jaeyun- she push his shoulder but he takes her hand and kiss her fingers

-Jake, not Jaeyun… I already said I'm sorry

-but you don't mean it- she's whining and Jake feels himself twitch, regretting not noticing her before- you did it on purpose and now I'm in trouble- he cups her face

-i'll talk with the scholarship committee- she was about to protest- I have my contacts. How do you think I'm still enrolled in this place if I don't go to classes… you don't have to worry this pretty head of yours can be sure everything will be fine- he slowly gets close to her face- can you let me kiss you at least?

-you promise everything will be alright?- she looks at him still not sure if believe him

-yes, I'll talk to the professor too, the committee, the dean, anyone so you don't worry- he sounds sincere so she leans to peck his cheek- don't you think I deserve something better?

-I don't- she looks at him ashamed- I don't do that stuff you do with girls in the corridors

-it won't be that… just a kiss please I'm dying for it- he sounds so soft and she feels like if she's attracted to him, like something is pulling her to him, his face was inching closer and when he was about to kiss her she turned her face and his lips landed on her cheek- my little mouse really despises me- instead of stopping he started to kiss her cheek and jaw, it made her feel lightheaded the way his lips feels on her flushed skin- why are you being so cruel to me?- his voice was like honey and the kisses feels so good, so good she was losing her coherent thoughts, he dipped his face on her neck kissing her sensitive skin- so pretty like this- she moaned when he kissed behind her ear, his hands a little more free roaming on her body, one of his hands groping her butt cheeks and that gave her a sense of lucidity

-stop please- she tried to push him but he held her tighter, groping her body, now one of his hands is on her breasts- please Jaeyun I don't want it… I don't like it- she pushes him but he's holding her and pulling her to his chest, is not soft anymore, is rough and it hurts when he squeezes her breasts- please… please stop- she started to feel powerless like a rag doll, the little moans are not of pleasure but of pain, Jaeyun didn't even care he holds her hands so she stops pushing him, holding the back of her neck to pull her in a messy kiss, she gasped and he pushed his tongue inside making her cry, tears streams down her cheeks and the sob she let out is what makes him pull apart

-mousey what's wrong?- he cups her face again wiping the tears from her cheeks

-don't call me that…- she pushed him and got up- don't you ever dare to come near me- she collected her things and ran, Jake went behind her but one of his friends saw him and got on his way not catching her.

Y/n fled and locked herself in a bathroom stall to cry, until it was time to go to her next class, she looked around to not cross paths with Jaeyun, she ran inside her classroom, following her classes as normal trying to erase that feeling he left on her skin. She finished everything and went to the office of her professor, ready for him to tell her that her scholarship will be removed because of her behavior.

-miss y/l/n, take a seat- she nervously did as he said- what happened today certainly I didn't expected from you- he searched on his papers and she feels her heart stop- but probably is my fault for pairing you together, here…- he handed her a letter- I'm sorry for giving you such a workload, you have a bright future ahead I shouldn't be the one putting a bump in the road but the one helping you… the letter for the internship and your extra credit, I'll keep your perfect attendance, you can retake this class tomorrow afternoon- she smiles the weight she felt before completely gone now

-thank you so much, I promise it won't happen again and won't let you down- her professor dismissed her.

Outside was Jaeyun waiting for her, she froze, just when he was about to touch her she pushed him and tried to run away, but Jake caught her, pulling her to his chest.

-let me go- she trashed but he just hold her

-I just wanna talk, what happened? I thought we were on the same page you wanted at first- he cups her face looking at her big surprised eyes- sorry I just couldn't resist you

-is something dumb- y/n tried to go but Jake's voice was sweet again like honey, sticking on her brain

-no, is not dumb… tell me, I wanna know what's wrong- his thumbs were making circles on her cheeks, she feels lightheaded his eyes soft on her making her say the truth

-it was my first kiss… it should be special… but, but treat me like you treat anyone else- her eyes tear up- and you touched me and it hurts, I didn't like it- Jake pouts

-I'm sorry my pretty mouse, I didn't knew… you didn't told me- he gets close to her kissing the corner of her lips- I should have made you feel special… you're my pretty little mouse you're not just anyone you’re my girl

-when you touched me you hurt me, it was so rough- her tears run down her cheeks and Jake kiss them away taking in the salty taste

-sorry for that it wasn't my intention I just lost control, you're so sexy and pretty I couldn't stop myself… I didn't knew you were inexperienced- he gently pecks her lips embracing her body in a hug she let him do that, she leaned to kiss his lips feeling again that magnetism that pulls her to him- we still can do better than that- he cups her face giving her a passionate but still soft kiss that she timidly responded- that's my girl- Jake smiles after pulling apart giving a little pat on her bottom

-I have to go…- she pulled apart- I'll see you tomorrow Jake

-i'll see you tomorrow mousey

She waved a bye before leaving to her job, still feeling butterflies on her tummy after what happened, she did her job but with an unusual smile on her face, a smile that gave away how she's feeling.

The next day she still couldn't take off her smile, arriving at school was now sort of a dream, she was excited to see someone for the first time usually she just wants to be away and unnoticed but today she even wear a skirt for Jake not short like he likes but something pretty, she took her bag and waited for Jake sitting on a bench, she waited even if that means she won't be as early as she likes but it was okay, his car was parking now and she got up happily, whatsoever a girl came down from the passenger seat, Jake pulled her to him kissing her messy with a lot of tongue.

-can’t believe it, it's the third time he takes Eunbi to fuck and he even share his bed all night like if they're a couple because she likes it that way- his friends were talking and laughing watching Jake, she stepped back

-I don't know what's wrong with him… it's been acting weird since he started a thing with the creep girl- she knows is wrong to listen to other people's conversations, but still she stayed there behind his friends hiding in the corridor

-yeah I don't know how much Sunghoon paid for Jake to go out with the creep… What's her name?... Y/n- she heard, everything but on her ears the sound of her own heart shattering was making an echo

-must be a good payment to even talk to her I'll never do it… unless it's a grand- they laughed and just when Jake was getting closer she sneaks into the school trying to not be seen.

She took her normal classes, luckily today they don't have any in common, so she can avoid him pretty easy, all day she tried to put her thoughts away from him, but it was impossible, her brain working coming up with a plan to not be around Jaeyun again, it hurts a lot, especially because now it seems obvious what was going on, y/n noticed how he was more often close to her but she thought it was her imagination, but after what happened today she confirmed that those fleeting and accidental touches weren't accidental he meant each one of them, she feels used, why he would want to be with her? It was a bet between him and his friends, she sighed her peaceful quiet life was shaken and stirred but no more, she won't let someone like him get on her peace of mind. Even if she didn't want tears run down her face every time she remembers him, or how her heart beats faster when she thinks he's close, silly things like the smell of his perfume, or a glimpse of him, his voice even if it's far away, she cries and runs away from them.

It's been a week since Jake last saw y/n, he never found her in the corridors or the usual routes she would take, now he felt more like if she's a little mouse sneaking around hiding in the shadows, was she alright? She isn't the type to just miss classes, maybe she's sick or injured…

-hey Jake- his train of thinking stopped when Heeseung called him

-hey are we still up for today?

-yeah, I'll go with one of the Kang twins, her sister will be lonely maybe you or Sunghoon can take her

-that's why you're my best friend

-i know… oh by the way a strange girl gave me this yesterday- Heeseung handed him the project and handmade flash cards with the topics and important points- the creep one, really weird, not so pretty baggy clothes, she told me you'll know who is

-don't talk about her like that- Jake frowns and talks really angry reading the project

-chill out dude is not like she's your girl… just a weirdo I would pay you as a joke to fuck- Heeseung laughs and pat his back leaving Jake alone

So she in fact was here at school, just avoiding him, he arrived early at his class and took her usual seat, she wasn't there yet, he checked the time and it was late on her own standards of punctuality, he was getting impatient when the bell ring and their professor walked in, behind him y/n but not late or rushing instead like if they walked together to here, he took his bag from the seat next to him waiting for her to go there as she always does, but she sit in the front row, first seat, he frowns and didn't even tried to put attention only watching her, how she's on her own little world, at the end of the class he picked everything really fast to catch her but she stayed next to their professor talking about the topic of this class and they went together passing him completely ignoring Jake on the hall, y/n was smiling while speaking about something, they're walking to Mr Kim office while Jake looks at them and he feels rage filling him, why she would want to be with their professor? Was she one of those who liked older men? That's how she kept her scholarship? Jake couldn't bear that though, she looked so innocent, maybe what Heeseung always said was true, the innocent ones are the most nasty, and if the little mouse wants to be nasty she will but for Jake only not some old dude.

The rest of the week Jake watched her all the time and how she spent almost all her free time in the office of their professor, both locked inside, she's so shameless not even trying to hide she is a creep begging for her professor's attention. He was angry and added to this he hasn't had any type of action with any girl, but today he would have a chance since his friends are throwing a party, he went home and got ready, before leaving. It's the usual party for him, loud, busy and full, he was with friends, drinking and kissing strangers, having a good time, feeling weightless now, dizzy and horny, he takes the girl he's with to an empty storage room lifting her skirt and kissing her messy, his pants pulled down and he pushed inside not even caring about her, but she was moaning so he didn't slowed down, it was great until he moaned y/n's name, the girl offended pushed him and slapped his cheek calling him an asshole before leaving him alone, he was now frustrated, what is wrong with him? He didn't even like y/n why is he acting this way? Why he even care?, unable to keep partying he left early, driving to his apartment just when the heavy rain started, he was still a little dazed from the alcohol in his system but it was clear that the girl trapped at the bus stop was y/n already soaked and trembling, he pulled up in front of her rolling down the window.

-looks like my little mouse is in trouble- he smirks- c'mon get in- she shakes her head no- don't be difficult you're wet and the bus don't run at this hour…- but she didn't move hugging herself to keep the slight warm of her body- gonna get you myself little mouse- he smiles when she turns around giving him her back- fine I'll catch my prey- he went down straight to her, she tried to run but Jake quickly took her over the shoulder carrying her

-put me down- she's squirming- don't wanna go with you

-you're a bad girl, first ignoring me, then fucking our teacher, now this- he slapped her butt cheek making her cry- but I'll make you a good girl again- he opened the door putting her on the passenger seat locking her there, he quickly got on the driver's spot- gonna have to tame you- he squeeze her cheeks pulling her for a rough kiss she can feel the taste of the alcohol on his mouth pushing him

-let me go, please- she panics seeing him out of himself, almost violent and driving under the influence of alcohol- please Jaeyun I… I need to go home

-shut up before I make you- he holds tight the steering wheel driving, the car is silent except for her sobbing

He pulled up in the parking lot of the building he lives in, getting off the car to her side picking her again, it was so easy the way he lifts and puts her over his shoulder spanking her bottom every time she tried to get off, on the elevator he was touching her legs touching her butt cheeks so shamelessly making her cry and complain.

-please stop, wanna go home

-oh my little mouse this is your home until you learn how to be my good girl- she cried and sobs harder

When he entered his apartment, he took her directly to his room and she panicked, Jake made sure to lock the door behind him before leaving her standing there, he got close and started to take off her wet clothes, she put up resistance crying harder and begging him to stop.

-please just let me go I won't tell anyone, please I need to go- all went to deaf ears he took off her hoodie, instinctively she covered herself- please Jaeyun… please- she was trying to stop his hands but he just forced her- please no, i dont want it- when she cried harder he had enough

-you're acting like if im hurting you, crying like if im hitting you- he took her to bed leaving her there to force her clothes off her body- look at that… my little mouse covered her body all this time- he hovered over her taking in the way she looks under him naked, his hand caressing her exposed cold skin, she's trembling- you were hiding it from everyone because it's just for me, right?- she couldn't even talk, just crying under him petrified- FUCKING SAY IT… you're for me, mine- the screaming made her whimper

-yours Jaeyun… -her voice was broken and like a whisper but it made Jake happy at least for now

-you're so pretty like this- his hands started to play with her breasts- look at these so beautiful… I'm being careful now because my mousey is inexperienced- he gives a gentle squeeze on her breasts making her moan softly- I need to be careful so you don't run away again… so you don't ignore me again… you don't know how much you hurt me when you weren't close to me- his hand started to go down on her body- how much I suffered thinking in you locked up with Mr Kim at his office- his fingers ghosted over her pussy lips and she holds her breath- how much I wanted to break his fingers because he was touching my little mouse… this cute body is mine that's why I was your first kiss… because I'm gonna be your first everything- he started to rub her clit moaning involuntarily at the feeling of his fingers- you don't have and idea how many girls I fucked thinking they were you

She was only crying feeling him touch her, her sobbings are drowning her, tears non stop, she couldn't talk or move feeling so afraid of Jake, his eyes lust filled and maniac, all the things he's saying, everything is too much and she feels like passing out, her body slowly shutting down until everything was a blackout and she passed on bed.

She woke up several hours later, her head pulsing and hurting so badly, she looks around panicking when she didn't recognize where she's sleeping, then she felt it on her, an arm laying heavy and possessive on her waist Jake's breathing on her nape, she takes conscienes about her surroundings the sensations in her body, maybe if she moves slowly she can get off his embrace, slowly she's making her way out of bed but something was choking her, she touched around her throat and some type of leather was there and a chain linked to the bedpost.

-don't even try little mouse- his groggy morning voice resonate on the darkness- you're mine now and you can't just leave like this- he kissed behind her ear- now go back to sleep mousey before I get angry… you haven't receive your punishment for being such a bad girl last night tossing around and crying like if I was hurting you, so don't make it worse for you when we both start our day- he kiss her neck- go back to sleep

Jake's arm holds her tighter, she rest her head on the pillow feeling tears run down but she didn't make a noise, not sure if she can go back to sleep so she stays there, confused and broken, after she blackout she doesn't know what Jake can possibly had done, she's virgin or at least was before last night, trying to concentrate to check if she feels something unusual or different but no, besides the exhaustion from crying she doesn't feel any pain. She's still naked and she can feel his bare chest, but his legs are covered, maybe if he did something was careful with her, right now y/n doesn't know if she preferred to be awake to know what he did or if it was best to just pass and never know how he took advantage of her.

Maybe it was minutes or hours she doesn't know, her brain is conflicted, but by the time Jake woke up she was still unmoving looking at the corner in the room, he started to kiss her shoulders, caressing her body.

-morning mousey- he unleashed the collar manhandling her so she can now face him- you have to understand that what I'm about to do is because you still don't know how to behave so you have to learn okay?- he kiss her softly getting up bed into his closet taking a leather paddle, he walked to bed sitting on the edge- we'll do just two… come here lay on my lap- she was surprised quickly understanding that he's gonna spank her

-please no, please Jaeyun- he looks angry now extending his hand to guide her

-three… -she nods afraid knowing she doesn't have any other option, she takes his hand he placed her across his lap on her tummy, her legs touching the cold tiles the air freezing on her warm skin- I'll tame you back into a good girl- he gives the first spank, the paddle heavy leaving a hot sting sensation on her skin making her whimper- four it is

-but I didn't…- the second paddle landed harder

-five then love…- his hand gently caresses her hot skin taking away some of the pain- little mouse must like this so much that she's complaining and making noises to receive more- the third spank surprised her and hurt more because of her raw skin- that's better, you're such a fast learner- the fourth leaves a burning sensation but the five was the worst landed heavy on her bottom, it burns and leaves her out of breath her tears run down her face but she bites her tongue to not make noise- see? wasn't so bad if you behave we won't do this again- Jake manhandle her cradling her like a baby seeing her tears, he couldn't help but to feel aroused seeing her like this, naked, broken and crying- my poor little mouse you have to understand that it's for your own good, I didn't enjoy doing this to you- he soothes her bottom, seeing her still trying to hold back the noises, he holds a smile enjoying her like this pouting with faux sympathy- is okay you can cry I won't punish you again… not unless you deserve it but now you have been good

She broke down on his arms, crying and sobbing, Jake is quick to wrap her on his arms comforting her, shushing her to calm down she holds him back finding strange safeness there between his arms and, now, gentle touch, his big hand is soothing her hurt skin, it feels cold and she shrivers, meanwhile he started to kiss her cheeks whispering praises about how pretty and good she is; everything was too much and she was tired, closing her eyes and drifting off, Jake saw her sleeping again, kissing her forehead he lay her body back in bed covering her with a blanket, he left her there locking the door started to prep the place for her making sure each window and door have a security lock, he cleans everything leaving to buy food for them.

Y/n woke up alone and all her body hurting, rubbing the sleep off her eyes she looks confused around the room, getting up bed was painful and walking too, she was slow moving around the space, her clothes nowhere to be found, getting on his wardrobe taking one of his t-shirts and a pair of boxers, she's feeling dirty and probably Jake wouldn't mind if she uses his bathroom, when she got to the door she realized is closed, locked and trapped, panic started to fill her body and desperation too, she knocked on the door.

-Jaeyun please… wanna go out… I've been good…- there's no reply so she started to cry still knocking on the door

When Jake arrived he heard the crying and the desperation , he didn't do anything for some time until there's only sobs echoing in the apartment, no more knocking. He walked there, opening the door seeing her curled up in the corner of the room, wrapped in a blanket trembling and sobbing.

-oh poor thing, my little mouse is crying again. What happened?- she looks at him

-I was alone… I wanted a bath and you were not here- she hiccuped her words

-my mousey was alone tsk tsk I didn't knew you are such a cry baby, so annoying… maybe I need to give you more spanks so you cry with a reason

-please no Yunie- something in her switched, maybe because after the punishment she felt good on his arms, it was a strange feeling that she couldn't describe

-Yunie?... Are you being cute now? My little mousey wants to be cute to me?- a wicked smile grew on Jake's face- you're seriously my favorite plaything…- he went out the room hearing a faint no and a sob, Jake took his time prepping the bathtub for her, coming back picking her shaky form- let's get you all clean okay?

He put her on the warm water, gently he washed and cleaned her skin, massaging her scalp while rubbing shampoo, she wasn't crying anymore neither trying to cover her nakedness, she's just limp there, watching with curious eyes what's he's doing, how soft he's treating her body, she now smells just like him and somehow that's comforting. When the water turned cold he immediately took her out wrapping her in towels and carrying her back to the room, he noticed the clothes on the bed smiling.

-did you pick these to wear?- she just nods- better use words

-sorry… I took them thinking you won't mind… I don't know where's mines- she holds the towel tighter making Jake chuckle

-you’ll look so cute like this- Jake gently dried her body, helping her wear the long sleeve shirt, he pulled her to bend over his knees again and he noticed how she's panicking- not gonna spank you again but I need to put some ointment in this beautiful cheeks, I don't want a permanent mark here- she just nods and Jake started to rub something, it feels so cooling and numbing to the pain, she relaxed snuggling on him but suddenly his fingers started to touch her on her pussy lips

-Yunie… I don't…- she bites a moan trying to find the correct words so he doesn't get angry again- I'm hungry… can we not please

-i know you're hungry but you have to get used to me touching you… since now you're mine you have to know what makes you feel good so I can do it to you- she's a little uncomfortable squirming feeling herself get sticky between her legs- look at it, is already drooling for me, she knows who she belongs to- he collect her arousal putting it in front of her- open… say ah… good girl- he push his fingers on her mouth and she blush tasting herself- tasty right?- she nods- I tasted you last night, you're so sweet and when you cummed I almost lost control, but I wanted you to be awake for your first time… I want to see your tears and how you struggle to fit me inside- he manhandled her, laying her in bed and hovering over- also my mouse wants it to be special because she got so angry because I didn't made special her first kiss… - he leans to kiss her pushing his tongue inside her mouth, she still doesn't know how to respond to this type of kisses he likes so much

He pulled apart helping her to get up, putting on his boxers on her to at least for a brief moment make her feel slightly more comfortable, she was left sitting on the bed watching him roam on his drawer taking things out of it, once he turned around she could see what he's holding, a whip, a muzzle and a leash, she looks at him with fear, his wicked smile grew seeing her trembling.

-Yunie… you said I've been good

-You learn fast, mousey, but I have to make sure, if you want to keep going to school I need you to understand that now you're under my rules and that everything you do will have consequences… open…- she did trembling the muzzle tastes like leather leaving an uncomfortable feeling on the corner of her mouth- on you knees pretty- she slowly went out of bed looking up at him from that position- I knew you'll look so pretty like this I can only imagine you choking on my cock… other day you'll learn- he put the collar and the leash on her pulling a little- now crawl mousey only if you want to eat

He pulled the leash walking and she followed behind, his hand gripping the whip, Jake gave gentle taps with the leather of the whip just to make her crawl faster but without hurting her, he sat on the chair looking down at her on the floor kneeling and sitting on her heels. He started to eat, slowly making satisfied noises watching her drool over the muzzle, he loves to see her like this so malleable, innocent and submissive, he takes off the piece out of her mouth taking the fork and giving her a bite of the waffle and a piece of strawberry, she almost cry at how delicious it was, she was starving but with everything that happened y/n didn't have time to process that.

-what do we say when Yunie treats you well?

-thank you?- she looks at him with her big innocent eyes

-you can do better pup, come on try again

-thank you Yunie… I really like it, is so tasty

-god pup, such a fast learner you deserve a reward we'll go for ice cream later okay?

-yes please… thank you for being so good to me Yunie

-can I have a reward too, right?- she nods- I want to eat you the whole afternoon okay? You're gonna be a good pinkie and sit on my face

-don't wanna hurt you

-ow look at that, my girl is now worried for me… you won't hurt me… open- he keeps feeding her and eating himself- if you keep being this good you won't go to school with your beautiful collar

-wanna be good for you- he leaned to give her a soft kiss on the lips, when he pulled apart she got more comfortable between his legs resting her head on one of his thighs Jake plays with her hair in the meantime he finishes his meal.

He got up leaving her there waiting on her knees while he wash the dishes coming back for her picking her up from the floor, she quickly wrapped her limps on him not wanting to be away again, he walked going to the living room sitting on the couch with her straddling him, he started to kiss her sweetly, holding her waist he started to move her on his lap, getting hard, her pussy rubbing on his length over the fabric, Jake pulled out his cock making her gasp, it was the first time she saw a penis in real life, it was huge and she feels the fear flooding her body.

-not gonna fit- Jake laughs moving to the side the boxers pulling her down again, she gasped feeling him between his pussy lips- please not now Yunie it hurts

-we’ll make it fit… but other day- he cups her face and treats her so soft- now you're just gonna rub on me okay? I haven't cum since last night is hurting Yunie now- he pouted and she feels shame for him- you made me so hard and you don't let me cum you're being a bad pinkie

-I'm sorry… -she says holding back her tears, deeply suffering for causing pain on him, she moves without really knowing what to do

-Lower yourself more and make sure your clit is rubbing on my tip… you're gonna like it too- she did as he said moaning immediately- there you go feels amazing don't you think?

-it does but… not sure if I wanna have sex now… it hurts- she feels her face hot and her bottom

-is not sex pup… not really, is more like masturbating using a toy- he smiles and she's still no sure- let's make a deal, if you don't make me cum I'll give you five spanks… if you don't cum I'll give you three spanks and you'll wear the muzzle to school

-and if I do? What is my price?

-You're so greedy, more like a rat instead of my cute mouse… go ahead be bad so I can teach you to behave- he pushed her off his lap putting his length back into his pants

-no… please I'm good- she quickly gets rid off the boxers she's wearing, approaching him taking out his hard length- sorry Yunie- she placed herself back in position rubbing desperately whining in pain

-dumb rat you're hurting yourself, is a luck I like you- he guides her hips making her finally moan again- you're so lucky I find you pretty because you're not, that I give you attention when everyone else doesn't even know you exist- she started to cry with what he's saying- oh now you cry, don't you like to hear the truth?

-I'm not a rat, I'm a mouse… your mousey- she wrapped her arms on his neck hugging him and crying she moves her hips in the rhythm he set, moaning on his neck- please like me

-don't act like a dirty rat then- he smiles giving a light spank on her already bruised butt cheek, instead of complain she moaned- oh you like that such a nasty pup- it made her blush more because that pain after the slap send a flash through her body that pulses on her clit, her lips are throbbing and his cock is twitching

-i feel funny here Yunie- she signaled her lower abdomen- feels so good

-then cum make a mess pinkie- he helped her to move and angle her hips better hearing a shaky moan and her fluids drip- good mousey… now make me cum- she moves her hips tiredly whimpers of overstimulation, he groaned and stopped her pushing his tip inside her entrance

-no… you promised no sex- he threw his head back cumming hot spurs inside her, she's feeling a little burn of the stretch his tip is causing, he didn't push further

-fuck… take it all- he emptied his ball on her pulling her for a messy kiss, when he pulled apart he smiles softly- you're so pretty pinkie, so good and well behaved pup… I'm so obsess with you that I would kill anyone who tries to snatch you out of my life

-I like you a lot Yunie- she pecks his lips- wanna be a good pup for you, always… don't wanna you to leave me

She lays down on his chest feeling used, yes, but something twisted inside her told her this is the right thing, all her life nobody else developed attraction towards her or romantic interest on her persona, over time she began to believe that she was despicable, repulsive and ugly, that nobody would ever like her, but now with Jake on her life and how maniacally in love he is with her something in her is telling that it was worth it, that all the alone years in the shadows were meant for Jake to claim her completely, to be just for him. It couldn't be wrong if she feels so safe on his arms, if he just makes things for her own good and even if it physically hurts the aftermath is so soft, like honey sticking on her brain, if he fill her ears with praises and makes her do new things with her body, if he's taking the time to make her first times special for her.

For Jake everything feels right too, how she immediately clings on him, how easy it was for her to be this way, of course he doesn't love her but something about her was so intoxicating from the very first time that he had to have her, to own her, hunting down her prey until she was completely trapped and wrapped on his finger.

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So I have something in my drafts but I'm not sure if I should post it because maybe I went a little crazy about it, it is not sweet at all because I made him an asshole, worse than my Sunghoon or Niki type of asshole in my other fics

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Sweets 김선우

Y/n struggles with her body image but Sunoo is always there to tell her how pretty she is

Tw: Chubby Reader, body image struggles, mention about eating and bad relationship with food, mention of AI as a tool to hurt

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Sunoo was searching for her frantically, where was she? Why did she left? He looked around holding their milkshakes, he couldn't believe her message before she disappeared, he was just waiting in line to have their drinks.

“We're over, don't wanna see you again, sorry :(”

He couldn't understand what happened and tried to call but her phone was off.

-please sweetie answer the phone- he looks at her contact, her photo and the emojis she used to save herself when they first got together- please f…- he was desperate now almost cursing not noticing the female approaching him

-Hi Nunu, are you alone?- he turned to the voice, seeing Minji the popular girl of their school

-Hi… is Sunoo and no, I'm with my girlfriend- he didn't pay much attention to her

-that's weird I saw someone that looks exactly like her leaving with someone else- he turned his face looking at her flirty eyes- what's her name? Ah yeah y/n… she was at the parking lot with another guy- Minji is shamelessly flirting twisting her hair

-nice to see you, bye- he didn't want to waste time going directly to the parking lot but Minji followed him

-why don't you come with me? I have tickets for the movie that just…

-listen I don't wanna be rude but I have girlfriend, why don't you find someone else?- he interrupted her, annoyed because Y/n was missing and she was pestering him, he gave a smile trying his best to be polite

-yeah but don't you think that if she was with someone else you could hang out with me?

-no

-but if she's already kissing other guy

-i'm loyal- he keeps walking to the parking lot looking around searching for her

-but she's not good for you, you deserve someone at your level

-in fact I don't deserve her, she's a 100 I'm a 5- he spot a pink sweater hopefully I'll be her he walked quickly in that direction

-why are you dating such a fat slut?- he turned around angry, one thing it was if Minji pestered him but this is beyond his self control he turn around frowning

-I have a lot of patience when it comes to me, but I won't tolerate you talking like that about my sweetpie now leave me the fuck alone before I loose my temper

-oh Nunu you're so funny, dating that thing

-enough…- Minji pressed her lips to his, making him push her furiously, wiping his mouth- the hell is wrong with you?

-sunny…- her sweet voice took him out of the rage he was about to let out

-sweetheart, oh my you worried me to death- he got close to her wrapping his arms around her waist his hands resting on her bottom as usual- I bought our milkshakes and you left what happened?- he looks worried at her

-i'm… did you not get my message?-she tried to push him, but Sunoo was holding her tight

-I did but I don't understand… this morning we talked about moving in together and now you broke up… did I do something wrong?

-you lied to me… you don't like me because… because…- her eyes started to fill with tears, she's squirming on his arms trying to get free from his embrace- please leave me alone

-no… we promise to talk everything, we cannot leave angry because we can solve everything together

-you don't like me because I'm fat- she finally broke down crying

-see? I told you and ugly fat slut- Minji’s voice interrupted them, Sunoo had enough turning to face her

-what's your problem?- Sunoo pushed her shoulder- are you really that miserable that you have to treat my sweetpie bad to feel better about yourself?... you and your fake superficial friends can suck my…

-sunny enough- her small voice make him look at her, her beautiful face pouting

-my sweetpie… did she tell you something?- she nods crying- my beautiful sweetie, do you wanna go home now?-she nods extending her arms and Sunoo like he always do takes her on his arms, she wrapped her legs on his waist while he rest his hands on her thighs and bottom

-let's go home sweetheart… you don't ever get near me or my girl- he looks at Minji with a disgusted face turning around to see y/n- I'm dying to kiss your body, I felt like trash when you left me- he now pouts and she cups his face to kiss him making Sunoo smile

They started to walk to the car directly to Sunoo’s apartment, once there he made sure she's sitting on the couch, he got on his knees in front of her, rubbing her thighs over the fabric of her jeans.

-now tell me what happened sweets

-nothing, it was just a misunderstanding- she tried to avoid this conversation- wanna go to the bathroom

She pushed him and went straight to the bathroom locking herself there Sunoo just sighs ordering her favorite take out and the milkshakes they didn't get to drink, he didn't push her knowing is sometimes difficult for her to actually be open about her feelings, he stayed in the kitchen and living room getting everything ready for them to watch a movie received the food going for her, the bathroom was empty and she was on his bedroom weighing herself taking off her clothes until she's in underwear, looking at the number in the scale and her body on the mirror, she made eye contact through it with Sunoo.

-what's wrong sweets?- he looks at her with that characteristic softness on his eyes getting close but careful

-nothing sunny- her eyes are tearing up

-I don't think so…- he got close helping her down the scale, cupping her face wiping her tears- now truthfully, what happened?- he was so soft with her that she didn't have an escape now crumbling down in front of him

-Minji called me a cow… that I'm just a fat slut because I wear my short skirts all the time…- her lip is trembling holding back her sobs- that it was disgusting to see my chubby legs all the time and my tummy… she said that you date me because you feel pity… that you have to be nuts to be my boyfriend… -she sniffles- and she… she said that you were dating her actually but only were with me as a joke- she signaled her phone on the bed- she sent me pictures of you both together

Sunoo was confused taking the phone and letting her show him the pictures, it was in fact his face in each photo and the video of him kissing Minji, he was confused.

-what the… sweety I swear I don't know what is this

-is okay… I'll just take my things to my apartment, I understand if you wanna date someone like Minji- Sunoo feels his world collapse

-no… I don't want her… please sweetheart I love you I need you to breathe, I don't know how she have those photos but is not me I don't like anyone else believe me, please- he drop to his knees caressing the skin on her bare thighs

-Sunny, you don't have to beg… -she looks with love at her boyfriend- I love you so much… I believe you- Sunoo kiss her tummy making her suck on air and blush ashamed

-thank you sweetpie I promise I'll solve all of this- Sunoo gets up sliding one of his hoodies on her- let's go eat sweets- she shakes her head as a no

-i'm not hungry, wanna just rest a little- all the hurtful comments got the best of her and she was spiraling down and she convinced herself that losing weight would be the best for Sunoo to love her

-how so? You only ate a bowl of oats with a few strawberries in the morning… is way past our lunch time, we don't want to upset your tummy- he tried to hug her and put his hands on her belly as he always does but she slipped without letting him- what's wrong sweets?

- I just don't wanna a hug now- she stepped back away from him making him frown- is okay Sunny, it was just a lot and I'm drained- her voice was still sweet and careful to not say anything about her weight or actual thoughts

-I know what you're thinking and I won't let you

-Sunny is not what you think…

-no, I don't care about Minji, I don't think she's pretty, I didn't even pay attention to her body… I like you, I love your tummy and your plushy thighs, I go crazy whenever you wrap them around me or when I lay down my head on them and you play with my hair… i don't find anyone as pretty as you're, every curve of your body is so perfect- he runs his hands through his hair his voice sounded angry

-Sunny… I…- she didn't like to see him like this angry for something she caused, it wasn't the first time she tried to break up with him because of her weight or eating habits

-I don't know what else I can do to make you believe me… I can't… okay? I can't make you see yourself the way I see you and it breaks me when I see you beating yourself or starving just because someone else told you I like skinny girls… you rather believe everyone else before me- he sighs leaving the room and his apartment

Y/n was left alone and she cried because Sunoo was right, she always caused this arguments between them, their relationship is always perfect except for this moments when she tells him how he would want someone skinny and not her, she cried looking at the mirror her body each thing she dislikes about it but also those faded marks Sunoo made, on her thighs, on her chest, on her bottom, all over, he always covered her with love and reassurance, she reacts really late wanting to stop him when he probably was now far from their soon to be shared home.

Sunoo was angry, walking to clear his mind, but his phone rings constantly that he couldn't ignore it anymore, he saw the horrible images there and tons of messages from his friends asking him what's going on, in all the group chats of their school it was this picture of him and Minji together, everyone calling him a cheater.

-what the f…- he called one of his hyungs, desperate- I don't understand what's happening I don't even know how she have that photo I swear I would never do that to Y/n

His hyungs promised to help him get to the bottom of this mess, he was getting stressed sitting on a bench in the park when Minji appeared.

-Hi Nunu, I was thinking now that you're single we can go out… I'm free right now- he couldn't help it but to yell at her

-did you lose your damn mind? I'm not single certainly and never in a million years I would date such a bitch like you- he signaled her anger running all over his body- my sweet girl is waiting for me at home, OUR home, listen to me I don't give a damn how you got that fake picture but I'll never stop loving Y/n

Sunoo got up but Minji holds his arm trying to stop him, he pushed her away making her cry and scream, her friends run to her holding her and making a fuss about Sunoo being an asshole, one of the frat boys who also saw everything ran to Minji.

-what's your problem? How can you treat a girl like this?- he pushed Sunoco

-listen this is not your problem just…

-he hit me because he cheated on his girlfriend and now is blaming me- Minji fake cried making Sunoo yell again

-that's not true you're a fucking liar

Everything happened so fast, Sunoo didn't had the time to stop the punch on his cheek, his body falling to the concrete, the insults they were screaming at him, he let it all happen accepting the kicks too, but then warm and a little cry of pain, y/n shield his body receiving on of the punches meant for him, Sunoo holds her tightly against him, getting up, worried about her, the frat boy froze seeing y/n realizing that he also hit a girl.

-sweetheart oh my, are you okay?- he tried to check on her but she cups his face seeing the blood on his lips and the cut on his nose bridge

-Sunny… what happened?- she used the sleeve of the hoodie to wipe the blood- let's go home, gonna take care of you

The world around them disappeared, she held his hand walking to his apartment, it was just them.

-You're disgusting, you're a cheater, and you have a fetish for that cow's fat- Minji yelled, her face angry red

-listen this I don't care about you or what you think… I'm not interested and if you haven't taken the hint I would never ever leave my sweet girl for someone like you, for anyone else actually…- he turns around- and if you ever lay a finger on my sweety I'll break that finger- the frat boy nods and they walk away.

He walked like a mad man in love, seeing how she cutely wrapped her hand on his, how she was pouting because he was injured and how she looks with his oversized hoodie like is it was a tiny dress, in their apartment she helped him to clean his wounds, he was pulling her to sit on his lap but she refused going for things to aid him, but his hands were caressing her exposed thighs

-sunny stop, you're hurt

-I know but you're my medicine… I need you wanna a kiss please- he pouted and she leaned to peck him- not like that, come here

-no sunny… you're hurt don't wanna hurt you more- seeing her resistance Sunoo frowned

-you won't, you always sit on my lap

-i know but… but I…- she blush ashamed- but I gained weight and I'm heavier now

-that's not true I carried you this morning

-i know but- he cups her face to look at her eyes

-but nothing… you're beautiful and perfect just like this- he gets up helping her to jump and wrap her legs on his waist- see? Perfect for me to carry

-if I'm heavy would you tell me?

-probably no, I would first go to the gym to make sure I can always carry my sweet princess everywhere

-why are you the best boyfriend?- she wrapped her arms on his neck rubbing their noses together

-maybe because I have the best girlfriend- Sunoo’s phone buzzed, she tried to get down from his arms but he just holds her with one arm taking his phone from his back pocket, reading the message, sighing with relief, answering quickly- this nightmare will be over soon

-when? Don't wanna anyone else hitting you again- she pouts cupping his face to kiss his nose

-my hyungs found out that the pictures Minji posted are generated by AI against my consent so it is illegal because of the use of them to cause damage… she can be expelled since is against the university's code and policies of good conduct- he smiles seeing her smile too- we won't face anything like this again, but I need you to understand that I love you so much, that your body makes me so needy of you… I love every inch of your skin and I don't want it to change unless that's what you want, not what they told you was okay

-yes sunny, I'm sorry I created a misunderstanding- she pecks his lips- can we go tomorrow for my things to move here with you please?

-of course we can sweetpie

Sunoo kisses her with all the love on his body to make sure she feels loved and adored.

I'm not proud of this, I thought it was a cute concept since I struggle with my body image and right now I'm on the bigger size of clothing, but I feel like it's rushed, I tried for over a week to put it on words so this is it, not my best to be honest

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The dream even if this is my hobby I wish for this to be real 💖

my dream as a fanfic writer is for one day, one of my fics to be someones comfort fic. like the fic that they reread when they don't feel good and want to be happy. i want my words to comfort someone one day

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Maybe my fics aren't good enough, or entertaining enough, maybe I miss spelled or wrote something completely off because I'm still struggling with a language that is not mine, but what is mine is everything I post, a reflection of what I wanted to read but couldn't find or just an idea that pop up in my head after watching, listening or reading something, but is mine, is imperfect but all mine for you

NOTICE: As more and more fanfic writers are using generative AI for their works (you uncreative dweebs), I hereby swear on everything I hold dear that I have not and will NEVER use generative AI in ANY of my written work. Everything I post will be organically and creatively my own.

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OMG thanks for the reblog, I hope you liked this

I wrote a part two if you're interested in how their relationship develops, 💞thanks again for reading me

Diamond 박성훈

Sunghoon married y/n because of a contract, so now they try to get along with it, she's in love with him but Sunghoon doesn't feel the same.

Tw: cursing, arrange marriage, description of nudity, one side love, there's an actual description of losing virginity, not romantic at the beginning but gradually is, face fuck, mention of squirting, there's two sex escenarios, Sunghoon is a dick like half of the story, slow burn? Idk he never actually feels in love or reciprocates her feelings. Let me know if I missed something.

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I'M NOT RESPONSIBLE OF YOUR MEDIA CONSUMPTION BE OVER 18 PLEASE

They're the perfect marriage, everyone is jealous about them, how perfect they are, how lovely and openly affectionate they present in every chance they have, when they got married every magazine had their pictures on the cover.

“Mr and Mrs Park the wedding of the year”

That day she received a lot of different congratulations, compliments on her looks but also a lot of dirty looks about how she got to marry him, she heard a lot of the women talking about how little she was and how undeserving she was of Sunghoon, she brushed off that because it was her wedding with the man she was in love since she's 10, no one would ruin that and they didn't, it was perfect.

In the honeymoon she was so excited and nervous about their first night together, she got ready took off her bridal gown and stayed in her lace lingerie waiting for him in the bedroom, when he entered he barely pay any attention to her, holding a glass of liquor and sending messages on his phone, when he finally noticed her all nervous sitting at the edge of the bed his face morph into something similar to hate.

-put your pajamas now, is late and tomorrow we have to leave early, unless you wanna stay, did you pack enough clothes?- she nods timid covering with her hands now feeling so exposed- good, we'll be a week in the Island and probably two or three days sailing, bathing suit or wherever you use if you don't have you can ask my assistant she'll bring you what you need

He took a sip of his glass before starting to remove his garments, he unbuttoned his t-shirt and removed his belt and accessories even his ring, she wasn't sure if he's gonna undress her or if she had to do it, she stayed there looking at him, when Sunghoon glanced at her and noticed that she didn't move he just sighs.

-i'll leave so you can change

-but… we're supposed to- Sunghoon turned around making her stutter- it's our wedding night aren't we supposed to be together?

-you mean sex?- Sunghoon looks at her blushing face- listen this arrangement it's because of our parents, you don't have to do anything of the marital duties, the whole deal is for our family companies stay in the same family so no one can take it from us, but that shouldn't be a problem to us because we know that, it's an arrangement between them but between you and me can be different, no attachment just pretend in front of the people so they don't suspect

-you… I, but it's… we… is our honeymoon

-I mean if you want, we can have sex will be fun for when we don't have anyone else to fuck with- he took his glass to his lips, he looks cold and distant- you want it now?

She was so sad, what does he mean anyone else? They're married now, it should be only them now, he got close starting to take off her garments, she tense closing her eyes waiting for him to just do whatever, it wasn't romantic it wasn't what she hoped for, Sunghoon pushed her to bed with her bralette half there, her breasts exposed and his hand squeezing harshly her nipple making her moan in pain, he pulled apart from her looking at her face of discomfort.

-I'll sleep in the room next to this, I'll come for you tomorrow morning to go, there will be paparazzi on the Island so be prepared to pretend, we're a happy married couple enjoying their honeymoon, not a contract that our parents did, we need to sell the story right, understand?- she nods feeling heartbroken- night rest well

She was left there, she thought that things would be different between them, she developed a crush on him since she was 10, a lot of kids at school picked at her for not being rich enough like their parents, but never Sunghoon he actually stand up for her, facing the kids that used to push her and call her names, she started to feel attraction towards him but with time and how often their families gather she fell in love, Sunghoon was everything educated, polite, good looking, good at sports, rich, a dream come true, everyone was in love with him. When her parents told her about the marriage she felt thrilled, beyond happy to be paired with Sunghoon, she actually didn't understood well the contract part because she wasn't the heirs of the company it was her brother so y/n wasn't involved in the conversations about anything, but Sunghoon was, he basically was the second one on charge of his parents company, he's intelligent for the business so it was no surprise when he was already on charge of everything. As little as her family let her know they got married to help the companies but she didn't know how, apparently the plan was marriage to merge both net worth, she was educated to be a good wife to spend the money her husband makes, to stay perfect for him in every aspect, good skin, perfect nails and hair, ideal weight and body figure, to be refined but always please him, she kept her purity untouched for him, they were promised since a long ago and she wanted to be the perfect bride for Sunghoon. He was perfect and everyone knew and comment about it, she wasn't enough so she tried a lot more to be suitable for him, on her wedding she heard a couple ladies talking about how underweight she was no curves or anything appealing for a handsome toned young man like Sunghoon, she was insecure about their first night together some girls in the members club talked about how good he is in bed she was worried about pleasing him since she never touched a man, y/n knows a couple of the girls that Sunghoon got involved with, she was worried because they were everything she is not, tiny waist big breasts and round big butt, someone said that she looked awfully flat on her bridal gown, when she undressed and stayed on her lingerie she didn't expect that reaction, was he so disappointed of her body that he didn't wanted to touch her? That he probably did it because of compromise but felt so disgusted that it was better to just left her there, she cried and cried for a long time that night, the morning was a blur Sunghoon was already dressed immaculate and when he saw her she can sense that disappointment to see her as his wife.

-it's late and we need to leave in 20 minutes- she was barely covered by the see through pajamas her mother bought for her honeymoon pulling the comforter to her chest- get ready quick I'll ask for the breakfast to be on the plane, anything is good for you?- she nods looking at him on his phone asking for their breakfast. She got out of bed taking off her clothes trying to be dressed quickly, Sunghoon was there she was embarrassed to change in front of him, he was almost like supervising that she's doing the right thing, she slipped her underwear putting a little white dress on top- are you gonna wear that?

-is something wrong?- she looks at herself in the mirror she thought it was cute, maybe a little short but she liked it, that's why she chose it and her mom let her take it to the trip- you don't like it?

-it's okay just that, there will be stairs and I don't want a paparazzi taking photos of my wife's ass, or worse that little thong you're wearing doesn't cover much- she blush pulling her dress down

-all my clothes are already packed in the plane, I don't have anything else to wear- her voice was small and ashamed, even her underwear was chosen by someone else to appeal her husband

- whatever, let's go- he started to walk leaving her inside her hotel room, she trots after him to catch up with him- remember smile, we're a happy couple- he gave her a pair of sunglasses- wear this it's obvious that you cried

She put them on just before the door of the hotel opened, it was so sudden the flash of cameras, the voices yelling, the people pushing her, Sunghoon holding her hand and guiding her to the car, once inside he relaxed all his body.

-it's only for now they'll be tired of us in a week, just now that we're the new they're following us but still just in case you'll have your own security team all the time

And that was it no more conversation, he put on headphones and closed his eyes on the way to the airport when they arrived he helped her to get down the car holding her hand to go to the plane, the stairs were there and she feels hot in her cheeks, Sunghoon removed his suit jacket putting it on her legs so she can go up she smiles at him going slowly covered by him, in the photos they looked like a lovely couple but in the plane was much the same as it was in the car or the hotel, they didn't talk again, he was reading the news on a tablet while eating his breakfast, she did the same in silence without anything to do just looking at the window, the service on the plane was nice she made sure to tell thanks for both since Sunghoon was now sleeping on his seat, she stayed there looking at her ring, beautiful, shiny, probably it cost a fortune but it was obvious being Sunghoon her husband, it was diamond to display.

The crew members informed them that they'll land soon, Sunghoon woke up grumbling fixing himself on the seat, he rubs his eyes before a pretty stewardess came almost running to give him a wet towel to clean his face, Sunghoon placed his hand on her tight pulling her closer to him, making her giggle, y/n was there watching him feeling jealousy how his hand sneak under her skirt touching her toned legs, once she was out of sight she feels the urge to tell him not to do that again.

-Shouldn't we pretend here too? There's people who can see us- she tried her best to not let her voice sound angry

-nah, my little diamond is my favorite in the crew. She knows the deal about you and me, also that we'll only have our time together when you're not here don't worry about that, not gonna do anything when you're near me or my girls- girls? More than one? Was he seriously talking about having an affair with someone when they're married

-but we're… what if someone tells the paparazzi?

-they won't, all my employees sign a confidential arrange they can't talk or sell anything about me, they'll be in jail in automatic, my girls have a especial contract themselves so no need to worry I recommend you do the same for your future partners

She was furious, how dare he have affairs but most importantly, does he think she's a slut to have affairs herself? The voice of the captain interrupted her internal rambling. They're landing now. Once the plane wasn't moving he quickly took her hand, she was confused.

-it’s a private island and the paparazzi will be hiding, it won't be obvious like in the hotel so we can only be ourselves inside the house or the ship, even if we're in the pool or gardens we have to pretend okay- he fix his sunglasses staff- will be only the necessary inside the house we want to appear like a couple who wants time alone, now smile and wear your sunglasses

The door was open and again the flash of the cameras hit her, Sunghoon took his jacket to cover her legs helping her down, she pulled down the dress to cover her bottom, he helped her until the very last step and then into the golf cart that take them to the dock, Sunghoon helped her like if he really cares about her and for a moment she let herself believe that fantasy, her childhood crush is her husband now, she wanted to enjoy this moments even if it's fake, on the yacht he didn't stop being attentive, staying on the deck holding her waist while they sail, he asked for drinks for both taking a sip of his liquor it smelled strong and she took a sip of her mocktail, Sunghoon looks at her giving her a kiss on her forehead patting her bottom softly and playfully, y/n wasn't sure why he was doing it maybe he wants to actually enjoy being married she felt happy.

When they arrived to the island he carried her bridal style making her giggle, when she looks over his shoulder she noticed a boat next to the yacht, with someone else there, someone followed them, the camera to big to not notice, she understood why Sunghoon acted like that feeling that pinch of disappointed on her, the security team quickly took them down to avoid them go deeper into the place while Sunghoon easily walks carrying his bride, now sad she pretend to smile at him in case someone else followed them. Inside the house it was like if they're strangers, Sunghoon parted his own way, choosing his room and not coming out of it all day, she explored the house, took a shower, she ate alone, only having the company of her bodyguard, she had a nap and by the afternoon when the sun sets she wanted to be outside, looking at the sky, she sits on the edge of the pool just putting her feet inside the cold water, shivering she was feeling so alone and it shouldn't be a surprise by now, in this type of life she learned that it's rare to actually have someone to care for you, except for her nannies she feels like nobody cares or loves her. Sunghoon was watching her from his window, she looked completely sad, he feels tired now to go for her, so he just asked for their dinner to be taken to her room so they can eat and have a talk.

When she arrived at her room she was surprised to see him there sitting in the divan while a maid was serving him food.

-take a seat before it gets cold

She obeyed, sitting down and thanking for the food; she started to eat, surprised it was her favorite meal, it tasted almost like her nanny’s recipe, Sunghoon observed her reaction, eating in silence, she didn't know what to talk about or even if she should, once they finished and the maid picked everything cleaning the space.

-the schedule for tomorrow is simple, we'll be by the pool most of the day, did you bring sunblock?- she nods- good do you have bikinis?- she nods again blushing this time- I hope they're pretty… now change while I tell you some things you'll have to do now that you're my wife- she looks at him ashamed

-change like in front of you?- her voice is small and trembling

-yes, do you have a problem with that? I already saw you naked there's no need to act all shy around me- Sunghoon took the bottle of expensive whiskey pouring some on a glass- start, I'll give you a card every week I'll put money on it enough for your expenses and basic needs, anything like luxury items or places out of the budget you have to inform me so I can give you the money and know on what you spent it- she was just standing there- change now I don't wanna lose my good mood- he looks at her frowning- from now on until I'm satisfied I will check your outfits, if I see something not suitable for your new standard you have to have, we're going to get rid of it, when you go to buy new clothes I'll pick them out to make sure my wife looks like a lady and not like those prostitutes at the club hunting men

She feels intimidated by the tone on his voice, she knows he's been drinking since they arrived, she saw the new bottle that now is half empty, his breath smells like liquor and his voice sounds intimidating because is hoarse, she took off her dress while he looks at her burning holes with his eyes on her, she took off her bralette covering her breasts with her arm while trying to put on the pajama top, it was translucent and she probably would have to use a robe on top so he can't look at her, hesitant she slipped her panties off quickly putting the short shorts, she's so exposed even with the fabric on her body.

-now that you're done come sit here- she obeys sitting on the divan putting her legs to her chest trying to cover as much as possible- do you sleep like this always? No underwear?

-feels uncomfortable, my undies sometimes leave marks on me

-all your garments to sleep are thin or in this fabric?

-no, this… someone else chose them for me- his hand was touching the material making her feel hot

-who and why did someone else choose your clothes?

-it's… because… it's my bridal garments, to be sexy and appealing for you… our wedding night needs to be right… everyone… my mom… my mother in law… the ladies at the club… everyone talks about how unattractive I am so I needed to at least try be sexy for you- she rambled feeling her cheeks burn in embarrassment and her eyes about to spill her tears- I know the type of girls you like and I know I'm not even a little like them but everyone told me my job was to keep you satisfied and happy… you spent a lot of money on me so I can marry you so I need to be a good wife- he was amused by how sensitive she was how she was almost crying telling him all of that, how basically she admitted that him and his family bought her from a family with less money

-you think you're a good wife?

-it doesn't matter… it only matters what you think of me, I can't afford a divorce neither my family… I promise I'm well educated on being a good wife

-well I'll judge that these days, but you don't have to cry- he got close to her softly taking her on his arms carrying her to bed- pretty wifes don't cry for silly things, especially because your husband can buy anything you want- seeing her like that switched something in Sunghoon, he noticed with simple tasks how she obeyed without complaining, how she bites her tongue to not say anything about the things she doesn't agree, it was obvious how she was giving him something that he always loved, power, he holds all the power on her just like he does with all the girls he sleeps with- just tell me what you want, I'll check if it's suitable for you and your status and if it's I'll make it come true- she looks at him standing next to bed, her eyes still sparkling with tears

- can you be more affectionate in private with me? That's what I want please?- he was caught off guard, she was vulnerable, in every aspect the money of her family she doesn't have access to, love or affection? she's alone and will be on his house- I don't care about money you can buy me as much or as little as you want just wanna some affection

-little wife is so clingy- she's about to protest when his lips touched hers, it was soft at first until he started to get intense pulling a part- my wife wants to have our first night?- she nods looking like a deer in the headlights- undress

It was a clear order, he didn't even tried to sugarcoat the request, Sunghoon stand up tall and imponent next to her bed, she quickly started to take off her shorts a little unsure to remove her top, her trembling hands finished undressing instinctively she covered her naked body, he pulled her to him taking her hands off her breasts leaving her exposed to him, he cups her face pulling her for a kiss, messy with tongue and hot, it was the first time someone kissed her like that she feels hot, getting wet moaning on his mouth, when he pulled apart his eyes darkened.

-get on your knees- she quickly obeyed looking up at him, he felt himself twitch- go ahead be a good wife and suck me- her trembling hands opened his pants and pulled down just enough to free his member, she looks afraid because it's so big without being hard- have you ever suck a dick?- she shakes her head as no- I'll teach you, open- she did as he said, he smirks taking his length on his hand- tongue out- Sunghoon taps his tip on her tongue- you have to suck, no teeth, use your tongue, like when you're having a lollipop

She did, letting him push his length inside, he grunt and she sloppily sucks making him moan, he makeshifts a ponytail guiding her up and down groaning, he started to thrust inside each time deeper until she gags around him, he smirks pushing her again making her gag and her eyes water, he was testing if she'll tell him to stop at any point but she never did so he started to fuck her face he moaned looking at her face, she looks so innocent, her eyes sparkling with tears, drool on her chin, so helpless totally at his mercy, Sunghoon increased the speed of his thrusts, he was so rough and she feels like crying, why isn't him treating him with care?, Sunghoon didn't stop his member completely hard on her mouth and on the edge of his release, she was holding his thighs trying to push him a little, tears running down her face, her jaw sore and her knees hurting, he cums on her mouth with a deep guttural moan.

-well done, my wife is so good- he smirks pulling her hair to take her mouth off him- swallow everything and show me- she did opening her mouth- get on the bed, on the edge legs hanging from it- she got up doing as he said while Sunghoon took off the rest of his clothes.

She was feeling unsure to keep going, sensing that it's not going to be a romantic first night as a couple, he placed himself between her legs, he popping her legs on his shoulders looking down at her, how she was wet, he chuckled, running a finger up and down her folds.

-what a good wife already wet for me, is all this for me?- he teasingly pinch her clit making her moan and blush- I didn't bring any condoms but you don't mind right?- she shakes her head and he's about to push inside

-wait… - she really wanted to stop but she just reminded herself that she has no choice but to be good for him- can you kiss me please?

-ugh so clingy, we'll work on that later- he holds her hands putting it above her head, pushing inside without any care making her scream in pain- so noisy too- he rolled his eyes leaning to kiss her only to make her shut up.

Sunghoon pushed harshly dragging his hips, feeling how tight she was, he grunt on her lips kissing down her cheek to her neck leaving marks in every inch exposed, he took one of her nipples on his mouth sucking roughly biting making her whimper, her tears run down her cheeks. He was so rough and it hurts so much, she bites her lips trying to stop the noises coming out from her, y/n expected something completely different from her husband, that sweet boy who used to defend her from her bullies at school, the one who always offered her favorite things during dinners and the one who always looked for an excuse to let her leave early at the boring get together between their families, was not here, she closed her eyes just accepting this. Sunghoon thrust inside fast and rough, she was clenching still her body trying to fit him comfortably to minimize the pain, he left her hands free holding her hips so hard it was bruising her skin, he roughly rubbed her clit feeling her spam before cum inside her.

-tiny pussy took me so well, I have a really good wife- he smiles while he pulls out taking whatever is close to wipe himself, dressing only his lower half- night, tomorrow 8 am for breakfast in the garden be ready it might be a photographer near- his voice was so cold it made her shiver, she looks from the spot where he left her sweaty and sticky, the door closed and he not coming back.

Sunghoon left her used and broken, that was it? No kisses, no cuddles or reassuring words, her body hurts but what's worse she feels so dirty now like if she's just one of the girls he sleeps with and not his wife, with the barely strength she still have she took the same handkerchief he used to wipe herself, she noticed his cum mixed with blood feeling more tears streaming down her face, trying to be quiet she dress herself again getting inside the blankets, crying until she couldn't be awake anymore.

Sunghoon looks at his watch, 8:05 am, was he not clear on the time? He takes a sip of his coffee and looks at the maid.

-where 's my wife?

-i'll go for her Mr Park, she must be finishing getting ready- the maid gave a subtle smile leaving immediately

The maid rushed through the house knocking on her door, but she didn't answered, the door opened and she just complained because of the light burying herself on her blanket, the maid got close to the bed seeing the dirty handkerchief and Sunghoon’s forgotten garments.

-Mrs Park, breakfast is ready and Mr Park is waiting for you- her body couldn't move even if she wanted- want me to help you dress I'll go quickly to inform that you'll be ready in just a few more minutes

-no, please- her voice sounds broken- I'm not feeling good, can you tell him that I'm sorry, I don't know what I have

-let me check on you Mrs Park- the maid removed the comforter from her face seeing her swollen eyes and red cheeks, she placed a hand on her forehead feeling how hot is her skin- you have fever, let me go get more people, I'll run you a bath and bring you medicine don't worry Mrs Park

Y/n was thankful that they didn't forced her to be downstairs, especially because added to the pain in between her legs she wasn't sure if she wants to be around Sunghoon today, the maid arrived with a thermometer, a wet cold cloth that she put on her forehead, she rushed inside the bathroom to prepare the tub for her, going into her closet to find something comfortable, finding an oversized maxi dress meant for the beach, getting it ready for y/n, she looks how the maid does everything trying to stop her.

-i'm okay, I just need to rest a little you don't have to do all of this

-oh Mrs Park you're too good for this life, can't you see you're sick?- the maid came quickly taking the comforter off her body, helping her to stand up and walk to the bathroom when she noticed how y/n's legs didn't have the strength to do it- I already asked for your breakfast Mrs Park

-y/n, my name is y/n- the maid smiles with a sweetness she haven't felt in a long time

-I know, Mr Park gave us a list of everything you like, you don't, favorite things, allergies, everything about you, also your nanny sent the recipe of your favorite food so you don't miss home now that you live with Mr Park- she blushed once again the service people were more affectionate with her than her own family including now her husband

-thank you… I'm sorry I don't know your name

-Jinri or Mrs Min it's okay my darling

Y/n let Mrs Min help her, getting in the tub, even helping her to wash her hair, she felt pampered like she haven't felt in a long time, she stayed for a little just enjoying the water while the maids got her bed ready again. Sunghoon on the other hand was furious, looking at his watch seeing how the time just goes but neither his wife or the maid had the decency to show, he got up clearly pissed finding everyone in the house in a rush, all his employees doing something, he stopped one of the younger maids who was carrying bed sheets.

-what is going on? Why the hell all MY employees are doing anything but what I asked?- his voice was stern

-mrs Park is not feeling well- Sunghoon looks at her like if he just insulted him- I'll go wash the sheets so I can remove the blood stain

-what blood?- he very rudely snatched the fabric seeing the red spot on the white- what happened? Is she hurt?

-it's normal Mr Park, sometimes after the first time a woman can bleed, Mrs Park just got a little fever but the blood is nothing to worry about, with your permission, I'll leave.

Sunghoon feels rage, why didn't she say anything last night? He got to the bedroom, the cooker was there leaving her breakfast, the maids making the bed, when they noticed him everyone bowed.

-everyone out- his jaw was tense, everyone rushed out of the room he sits on the bed next to her freshly ironed dress, waiting for her, when y/n came out of the bathroom she froze seeing him there- why didn't you tell me you were a virgin?

-it was something obvious- she holds the towel around her body harder

-why is that something obvious? Care to explain- she can sense how he's containing all the rage he's experimenting

-good wife needs to be pure and untouched for her husband… I kept myself like this for you, so you don't feel ashamed to have a bride that someone else touched… your mother insisted in a clinical exam before all the arrangements of the wedding, they took me to the doctor to certify I was pure for you, it was part of the clauses that I had to fulfill to be your wife- Sunghoon feels more rage on him wanting to break something

-dress now and come sit to eat- his tone was hard so she obeyed, he got out of the room just for a second coming back surprising her- why are you taking so long?

Y/n started to dress putting only panties, her body was hurting and Sunghoon examined every inch exposed, seeing all the bruises he left, she put on the dress, slowly walking to the divan, in that moment the employees came in knocking to serve his breakfast too, the maids smiled at her and she did the same, starting to eat, he was just watching her putting his cold hand on her cheek feeling how hot it is, making her stiffen.

-why you're not wearing a bra? Do you want everyone else to see your tits?- she covered her breasts with her hands even if she's completely dressed

-they only packed one bralette to give you easy access to my body- she said embarrassed- now it's dirty so I don't have anything to wear on my chest… I'll put something after breakfast

-no, I like it, leave it that way- Sunghoon takes a bite of his food- wanna a copy of the clauses you had, and from now on you have to talk about anything about you, if you don't want or like something- he holds her chin to make her look at him- you have a dumb husband you have to explain everything- she hesitates before talk

-i don't like that you left me last night- she looks down to her plate avoiding his face, he still looks and sounds angry- you used me and left me, you called me clingy and noisy… you treated me like a prostitute- she feels like crying again

-you're not a prostitute

-no but you make me feel like one… I was hoping for us to be together and it made me so angry that you have your girls, like the crew member on the plane- she frowns feeling jealous, she didn't even know why if he haven't treated her right- I wanted to be just you and me, for you to not have affairs or cheat on me… but after last night I don't want you to touch me again- she hugs herself putting some distance between them on the divan

-you're my diamond, I married you

-don't call me that… that's how you called the girl on the plane- she feels angry now, but also so deeply sad- you can cheat on me just don't let anyone see you, everyone already think I'm a failure as a wife I'll never hear the end of it if they know you cheated on me

-they’ll talk about me not you, I'll be the one with other woman- he got close to her trapping her between his body and the cushion

-You don't know what it's like? They're gonna blame me for not being enough for you, for being such a terrible wife that you had to find someone else… everyone is gonna talk about me- Sunghoon looked at her and how her face morph to deeply sadness- they already think I'm so unworthy of you it's just gonna be worse

Sunghoon didn't know what to do because deep down he knows she's right, he takes her chin gently pulling her for a kiss, soft how she likes it remembering that she wanted for him to be more affectionate, he gently wrapped his arms around her hugging all her body feeling her body relax and melt on his arms, when he pulled apart he smiles seeing her more now like she was at the wedding easy going even happy.

-I won't do that again- he smiles seeing her only nod- let's get you ready, I wanna swim with my wife

Sunghoon went to the closet choosing a bikini, red, really small and he could imagine her wearing it or packing it thinking in pleasing him, he helped her to take off the dress to put on the bikini, he tied up the strings on her back, getting on his knees so he can slide up the bottom part, adjusting everything around her body, he kiss her tummy on the bruises he left, looking up at her.

-i'll go change, finish your breakfast okay?- she nodded and Sunghoon left her in the room. She did as he said, eating the rest of her breakfast.

Even if Sunghoon didn't properly apologize she was feeling slightly better with him, she waited for him not sure if she needed to be only in her bikini so she covered with a towel, when he came back Mrs Min was following her.

-you feeling better?- Sunghoon looks directly at her

-yes, just that my legs still hurt a little- she mentioned ashamed

-don't worry we’ll just be by the pool all day nothing to extreme- he gave some items to Mrs Min, including her towel and dress leaving her only in her bikini she tried to cover herself with her hands- let's go my little diamond- she frowns hearing him call her like that again

-don't call me that- she cross her arms on her chest offended

-I forgot okay? C’mon let's go- she didn't move making him roll his eyes- c’mon don't be angry for a tiny mistake

-i'm not a prostitute I'm your wife- she was pouting turning her back on him

-I know I won't call you diamond again… what do you wanna be my pearl? my gold ingot?… you want traditional like honey, sweetheart

-nothing- Sunghoon never did something like this, usually everyone only accepted what he called them being completely at his mercy

-don't be like this with me- she was about to protest when his arms wrapped around her waist and his mouth was giving kisses on her neck, making her feel timid- my love, I told you, you have a dumb husband- she moaned at the pet name and his kisses- you like that?- he caress her body kissing with devotion her shoulders and back- you like being my love?- she nods- then that's what you're, my little love- she relaxed letting him touch her and kiss her moaning when he kiss on a sensitive spot- we should stop, or else I'm gonna undress you and make you all mine again.

He turn her around to kiss her on the lips, not so soft this time, a little hungry, he lifts her wrapping her legs on his waist, she hugs him hiding her face on his neck even giving him a kiss there, he walks with her on his arms until they got to the pool sitting with her on a lounge chair, he fixed her legs so she can straddle him comfortably, he lays down watching her, holding her waist so she cannot move, the maid arrived with drinks leaving them next to them, she feels shy because is kinda intimate the position she is in, his hand reach for the sunblock passing it to her.

-Can you put some on me? Please my love- she blush doing as he says rubbing the sunblock on his chest, neck taking his arms to do the same, then she leaned to put on his face- kiss me- she pecks his lips- that's not a proper kiss you can do better- she leaned giving him a proper kiss this time, she feels him hungry, starting to get hard making her pull apart

-don't wanna do it again, still hurts on my… down there- Sunghoon smiles taking the bottle of sunblock on his arms to start putting some on her

-it's okay, besides we're outside I don't want anyone to see my wife in a way I only can see- he rubs her body completely putting it everywhere, legs, arms, breasts, bottom, her back, pulling her to lay on top of him rubbing her bottom and playing with the strings of the bikini- did you pack this bikini thinking in me?- she nods- what were you thinking when you decided to bring it?

-I thought that you may like how it fits in me… but after seeing your diamond I'm not sure if I look good- she mentioned frowning

-i saw her in a bikini it doesn't compare with you right now

-don't lie to me only to make me feel better

-it's true, she's… you know average girl with plastic surgery, nothing impressive but you my love… -she blush hiding her face on his chest- you have this cute little butt- he squeeze her butt cheeks making her moan- and your tits, those perky nipples are so pretty I like to see you naked and with this I can only imagine you like last night, I see you with your red bikini and it's tempting me to take it off

-don't say things like that someone is gonna hear you

-i can't love my wife out loud?- she didn't know what to say, she just looks around trying to spot a paparazzi to justify why he's saying that he loves her, Sunghoon noticed how she's looking for someone around, getting up walking to the pool, she holds onto him afraid that he can throw her in the water

-i'm not good at swimming- he wrapped his arms tighter on her

-well if you're not good at swimming you'll have to hold onto me all the time- he slowly gets inside the water holding her- gonna keep you here safe with me- the water was below his collar bones and he started to undone the strings of her bikini in the back making her gasp

-what are doing?- she's squirming on his arms- someone can see me naked

-that’s exactly why I'm taking it off so you don't slip from my arms- he smirks- you won't let anyone see what's mine, will you?

-no… but - Sunghoon kiss her to distract her removing completely the top part of her bikini, he threw the garment outside the pool she gasped holding him tighter so he doesn't pull apart to expose her

-i like you clinging to me

-it's not fair… what if I wanna go out? everyone is gonna see me

-i'll take you out

-but if you wanna go out and left me here

-i won't, I won't want to be a part from you when you're looking this good- she was about to talk again when he kissed her making her blush embarrassed- you're worrying too much when it's supposed to be our time to relax is our honeymoon- she frowns it was their honeymoon but only feeling like one when he's in the mood

Y/n was overthinking while Sunghoon was just examining her, he playfully started to kiss her cheeks going down her neck, her arms wrapped on his neck while his hands traveled all over her body, touching and feeling her, slowly she let herself go, enjoying how he seems like a man in love of his wife, she holds him melting on his arms sighing with pleasure Sunghoon seems to know her sensitive spots kissing them making her moan.

-can you let me make you mine again? I'll be gentle this time- she was so drunk on him, that all her body said yes but her mind was saying no

-don't wanna be just another girl- Sunghoon kissed her with devotion

-you're my wife not another girl

-but you have all your girls to spend the night with, don't wanna you to touch me after you had sex with other people- he pulled apart from her looking at her eyes- I don't wanna feel like I did last night ever again… and it hurt a lot, not just that part but later it hurt my heart- she's pouting wanting to cry making Sunghoon mimic her pouting too

-but wasn't my intention to make you feel like that, I didn't knew it was something important for you

-it's because you don't love me, you don't see me as your wife just the contract they made you sign

-no, that's not true

-if they let you choose… would you marry me?- Sunghoon didn't want to lie so he just stayed quiet- would I even be an option?

-would you marry me if the contract didn't exist?

-I would- she said without a doubt, making Sunghoon frown since he didn't expect that- I have been in love with you for a long time now, I was so happy when they told me… since we were at school I dreamed that you'll be the one rescuing me, you did it a lot of times when people uses to bully me… now that we're married I like to believe that you like me back sometimes, but at the end of the day I know you were forced to be with me, I'm okay with that… with you liking me a little everyday, giving me affection and love even if it's fake… I just don't want you to use me again, because it hurts when I realize that you don't love me but it's worse when I know you take advantage of that love I have for you

-I don't know what to say to make you feel better

-you don't have to make me feel better, it's not part of your contract… it's only in mine though… Park Sunghoon would take possession of the inheritance lot assigned to the heiress y/l/n y/n, fulfilling his duties within the company, always being her main provider to cover her needs, ensuring that if he's not longer here she'll have a fulfilling sufficient part of the money to live comfortably for the rest of her life- She recited the part of the contract that talks about his duties as a husband- that's the only part of your contract where they mentioned my name or me in general, the rest it's the company or my parents

-yours must be the same we sign the same thing- she shakes her head as a no

-I'm aware that my parents sold me to save their company I'm just glad at least they sold me to someone good… don't wanna keep talking about it, can you do that again?- she got visibly sad, her eyes reflect all the miserable treatment she's been through

-do what?

-kiss me and call me your love… don't wanna keep thinking in this

-oh my little love is needy of affection, such a clingy wife I have

Sunghoon said but there was no tease on his tone, instead was pity underlaying with sweetness, it did made her feel slightly better hearing that and he did as she asked kissing her neck, her cheeks and her lips, caressing her body like if she's gonna break in any moment, he didn't mention anything related to them or the contract, he even made her laugh a couple times, swimming with her on his arms, by lunchtime the maids started to set the table for them, one of them got close to hand them the top part of her bikini she blush while Sunghoon helped her to put it on going out to sit and eat, they talked a very lighthearted conversation about the things she likes, Sunghoon listened carefully smiling softly at her, she felt so complete in that moment.

She didn't wanted to keep swimming so after eating they just lay down on the lounge chairs, he reapplyed the sunblock on her staying there caressing her hair.

-can I have a nap?

-do you wanna a nap love?- she just humms- wanna go inside?

-no, I'm comfortable here

-then sleep, I'll be here waiting for you to wake up, maybe you'll be up before the sunset and we can walk on the beach

She closed her eyes after receiving the permission from him, sleeping laying on her tummy, once like that he started to call his lawyers to have a copy of both contracts and the clauses for her, they sent it to him almost immediately he compared both contracts spending a lot of time writing and signaling everything that was different for both, even he took his laptop to work on it, using his specks and putting all his attention there, he spent a lot of time doing it not noticing when she woke up.

-are you working today?- he stopped frowning seeing her awake looking at him

-no my love, I'm just reading something, entertaining myself while you were napping- he closed the laptop getting close to her giving her a kiss on the head- do you wanna go for a walk? The beach is really pretty here and we can see the sunset

-i would like to go

Sunghoon helped her to put her dress on top of her bikini, kneeling in front of her to put on her sandals, he slipped his t-shirt taking her hand walking to the beach, hugging her from behind seeing the beautiful place, she was marveled, melting on his arms, enjoying this time.

The rest of the week there was more like what she expected, he didn't mention anything about the contract again, since he only find out that she was taken out of the family business like if she's not a daughter of his family, giving him all the power over her finances and overall life, he didn't dig more on the exclusive clauses for her since his lawyer told him only his mom and his family lawyer had the copy of it. On her side she learned more things about him, Sunghoon is extremely organized, he schedule everything from breakfast to going out, he checked her outfits every single day just to make sure she looks appropriate to be next to him, he even match the color of his clothing to look better together, he wasn't much a talker but a listener, and she was glad to tell him about her dreams of the night, what was her hobbies before getting married, things she noticed on the island, things she learned there too, the current book she's reading; she was happy that it feels cozy and domestic being with him like this, and she felt even better when Sunghoon ignored the crew member on the flight back home paying attention only to her.

-I know you're probably tired but today at night it's the annual charity dinner, it's supposed that we go together- he takes her hand kissing the back of it- it will be the first public appearance as a married couple, but if you're tired I'm not gonna make you go

-it's okay I got to rest a lot on our honeymoon

-i'll ask my assistant for a dress that you can wear and something to eat while they do your hair and makeup

He kissed her cheek making her smile, the rest of the flight they just stayed sitting next to each other reading, he was checking some things of work and she was reading a novel, when they land they parted separate ways so they can both get ready, she was in a salon where they did her makeup and hair, her nails, everything assuring she was perfect for him, his assistant arrived with the dress for her to change, she was nervous on the way to the dinner Sunghoon's assistant was telling her the protocol and schedule for the night, when they arrived Sunghoon was waiting for her at the entrance, holding her hand to go inside, he said hi to everyone there, everyone bowed to him.

-you look stunning my love- he whispered on her ear

-thank you, you have a really good taste choosing my clothes and hair

-it doesn't matter what matters is the model, in this case you

He pulled her inside, taking her hand and guiding her to their table, it was a regular dinner where they talked with everyone who got close to congratulate them, Sunghoon entertained himself by talking with one of his partners about business. She excused herself to go to the bathroom to wash her hands while they served the dinner. From there everything happened so fast, her usual bullies and the ones that talk about her in the most harmful ways were there waiting for her, making fun of her little dress and pointing on how she looks cheap even with the money of her husband, then the wine cold on her skin, her dress ruines and she crying running to hide, her bodyguard followed her informing the others what happened following her, his bodyguards got close to him to tell him about his wife.

-i'm sorry to interrupt Mr Park but Mrs Park was attack by miss Lim and her daughters, she's crying now

Sunghoon frantically got up going to search for her, their bodyguards telling him where to go, he found her in one of the empty ball rooms, crying sitting on the floor her dress ruined and her makeup too, the bodyguard waiting for them outside, Sunghoon kneeled in front of her.

-my love what happened?- he cups his face taking his handkerchief softly wiping her tears

-it was an accident

-don't lie to me, I can't do anything about it if... I know who did it and what she said to you... please tell me what happened- she pouts crying more, hugging him, he cradles her shushing to calm her

-they called me a gold digger, that I'm just a broke bitch and my family sold me like the whore that I am- she looks at Sunghoon with her eyes sparkling with tears he pouts looking at her- they treated me wrong and spilled their drink on me, I promise I didn't do anything to embarass you, they approached me and started to call me ugly names

-my poor wife, I know you're my good girl, you're a good wife too... my assistant is waiting for you with a change of clothes so you're comfortable on the way back, go change I'll wait for you to go, okay?

She nodded, they got up from the floor and she followed his assistant to the bathroom, Sunghoon saw her go, going back to the main dinning room, asking his bodyguards to block the entrance so no one can go out, taking a glass of the champagne and getting up the podium taking the mic.

-good night distinguishes people, as you may know I'm newly wed and this is the first time my wife and I come to one of these important events- y/n arrived to the hall seeing him there- you already know my wife, Park y/n, she's the pretty girl by the door waiting for me to go home- the heads turn to her seeing her sad face making her blush- it's really early and I know there's still a long way into the event, this marvelous event about empathy, charity and to provide selfless help to the ones in need, the Park family is deeply rooted to those values as a person, my wife too that's why we're together, along with so many great qualities as a person it's what made me marry her, I adore my wife I'll kiss the ground where she stepped because is holy to me- he takes a sip of his glass making eye contact with her smiling- whatsoever were leaving early on this important night because some people don't know how to behave, some of the guest here have money but non a bit of class or good taste, that why this distinguish ladies on the front seat, miss Lim, and daughters decided to talk down on my wife and not just that with the decency of a monkey they threw wine in her gorgeous dress, they hurt my love and tried to ridicule her, but as a civilized man I'm gonna do things right, so just wait for my lawyer to pay a visit to you, I'm gonna make sure you end up in the ruin after the lawsuit I'm gonna put against you- he smile devilishly- and this be a warning to all of you, if someone dare to even look down on my wife I'm gonna make sure you go to ruin suffering the consequences

He left going straight to her, she was still astonished when he pulled her to kiss her in front of everyone, he wrapped his arm on her waist and she like always did melted on his arms feeling safe, a sense of peace but overall love grew on her chest making her heart feel warm, Sunghoon pull apart taking her hand and leaving the event. On the ride home he talked with his lawyer to start with the lawsuit against the Lim family, setting the details to also buy a big part of their company, when he ended the call she looks at him.

-why did you do that?

-you're my wife I won't let anyone treat you bad for any reason

-it's gonna be worse for me... I'm their trash bin

He was about to deny her but his phone rings, it was his mom scolding him for what he did.

-I remind you that she is my wife, not just anyone, she is a Park and will be treated as such, good night mother I'm tired, I haven't rest since I came back today, I'll see you next week- he hangs on his mom taking her hand to kiss it- go directly to shower I'll be in your room for my goodnight kiss okay? I'll go shower too

She just nodded, when they arrived she was escorted by maids, since it was the first time she was there on her new house, in her room all her things from the house she used to live with her parents were already there, her clothes, her makeup, books, her electronic devices, the maid told her where is her closet the bathroom, the brand new products for her to use, she thanked her before she was alone, she took her time showering when she went out Sunghoon was on her closet picking up her pajamas, he didn't have to tell her since is something he does every morning and night, choose her clothes and check her while she gets dressed, even if she was getting used to him seeing her naked all the time, today it felt different, maybe because he did the same as when they were at school, he defended her from those who hurt her, like that her heart felt more love for him, Sunghoon didn't talk much when he was about to sleep, pulling her for a kiss when she finished getting dress pushing her to bed and hovering over her she responded to his kisses, he pulled apart before it was too much and he couldn't stop himself, he got comfortable next to her holding her on his arms.

-now tell me... How's that you're a trash bin?- she looks at his chest only playing with the fabric of his pajama- who told you that?

-no one... It's just the truth

-how?

-i'm not someone important, I'm just the girl that exists in the background, nobody notice if I'm there or not, only when they want to throw their shit on me, I'm used already everyone always told me I was a beggar because my family didn't have as much money as others, since they know I was gonna marry you they haven't stopped calling me a gold digger, everyone thinks I don't deserve to even breath near you... the wedding day everyone talked about how bad I looked in my dress- she's tearing up- I have always been too ugly, too skinny, no curves, no grace, nothing special... boring and dumb, that's how the ladies at the club call me that's why I stopped going, my parents told me people asked about me sometimes but I'm sure it was only to have someone to talk about... also it's not the first time it's physical, one time at the tennis court they hit me with a racket and throw the balls at me, they cut my hair badly at the salon because Mrs Lim was there and payed for that... the scar on my forearm was because they locked me in the gardeners warehouse and the grass shears fall on me cutting me

-why did you never stop them?

-my family is not that powerful they have more money than us it wasn't an option, I could only accept it, besides nobody believed me when I told them... I'm their trash bin since I'm like six, they used to hit me at school too

-my love- he kissed her softly- never again I'm gonna let something like that happen to you, no one would ever do something to hurt you, like I told my mom you're a Park now and you'll be treated as such- he pecks her lips getting comfortable with her in bed- now sleep

-are you gonna stay with me?

-yes, unless you want me to go to my room

-no, I like you here, I don't wanna feel disposable tonight... Is it too much if I ask to be held all night?

-not at all my love- he pulled her to his chest holding her to sleep together.

It was the first time they shared a bed, but most important, the first time he ever shared a bed with anyone, it felt different, magical even, the feeling of her warmth her body visibly smaller than him, how she snuggled on his arms finding the best position to sleep, it didn't felt suffocating like all the times girls asked him to stay with them, it feels right like if he's meant to be there.

In the morning she woke up, the weight of his arm around her waist was the first thing she noticed, they did sleep together, she heard the maids talking outside her room.

-mr Park is not in his room, what do I do? He made clear the morning routine, the breakfast is on the making, nobody knows where he is, the bodyguards said he hasn't left the house but I searched on his office he's not there

-maybe Mrs Park knows where to find him- the subtle knock on the door and then the slight gap- Mrs Park are you awake? Can I come in?

-yes- her voice was tiny and she felt nervous that they will see her sleeping with him- good morning- she said first seeing the maid astonished looking at the sleeping figure of Sunghoon holding her

-good morning Mrs Park, sorry we didn't know Mr Park was here still sleeping... he asked for your breakfast to be ready by 8, it's almost done

-oh, would you be so kind to bring everything here please?

-no problem the table hasn't been set, we'll bring everything here

-thank you- she smiles from her spot in bed, seeing the maid leave happily

She heard how the maids whispered about Mr Park sharing a bed, one of the maids asking if he was naked, she blushed because apparently it was something big to find them together, it wasn't a long time when everyone was back in the room setting a table and chairs there for them to eat, she moved him a little while he stirred awake.

-breakfast is ready- he just growled holding her tighter- is gonna be cold if you don't wake up, also I'm hungry

-i'm hungry too but hungry for you, wanna eat you- he said in his morning voice finally looking at her, red in embarrassment, he smiles and kiss her hungrily, she pushed him

-behave a little- the maids were trying their best to not look at them doing their work- don't say stuff like that

-why not? You get shy?

-yes because everyone can hear you and see you- Sunghoon finally looked around the room finding the service putting on the table

-good morning Mr Park, breakfast is ready Mrs Park changed it to her room, call us if you need anything- they bowed and leave running

-why didn't you tell me I had public?

-because you didn't let me, and besides you never say things like that just today

-it's because I dreamed about you, it was a nice dream with you making me feel good- he sits with her kissing her cheek- good morning love, now let's go eat before it gets harder to leave bed

They shared this peaceful morning until it was time for him to go get ready, he kissed her goodbye while leaving.

-i'll be here for dinner okay? Can you wait for me till then?- he kissed her at the door

-yes, have a nice day… -she saw him go, a little doubtful and still unsure she said the words she wanted to say to him out loud- I love you - Sunghoon listened before getting on his car, surprised he looks at her blowing her a kiss

She giggled, even if he didn't reply he did something affectionate, she went inside again, getting ready on the outfit he choose for her, she was just on her room spending most of the day there until the maids called for her.

-mrs Park, Mrs Park your mother in law is waiting for you downstairs

She sighed knowing exactly why she's there, she just went not asking questions or talking at all, her mother in law was talking but she didn't pay much attention getting in the car to the doctor.

Sunghoon was at his office solving some things related to her inheritance and how he's supposed to manage her part of the business that legally belongs to him only, he was deeply in thought when his assistant came in.

-mr Park, your lawyer send this document, about your wife's prenuptial arrangement- he looked up from his specks, taking the document- also doctor Lee send this bill related to your wife's surgery consultation

-a surgery? Put doctor Lee on line with me and ask in my house when and with who she left to the doctor?

-yes Mr Park

To say that Sunghoon was furious was so little compared to what he was actually feeling, he talked to the driver that was with her wife and mother to immediately come to his office, he read all over the prenuptial agreement along with his lawyer, when they arrived his mother directly went to kiss his cheek.

-you look good, it was good for you to go on vacation- she sits in front of him on his desk, y/n was still standing behind her not talking at all

-i wasn't on vacation only, was my honeymoon- his mother scoffed

-sure baby, you did a good job making the paparazzi believe that you are a real couple… you go get me a glass of water- her mother in law asked her, she was about to do as she said

-my love come here- Sunghoon extended his hand and she immediately obeyed- he pulled her to sit on his lap kissing her cheek- did you not miss me?

-i did, a lot- her voice was tiny

-why didn't you kissed me hello then?- she pecks his lips making him smile- did you have a nice day?- she nods- are you sure? There wasn't anything you didn't want?- she looks unsure and with fear to her mother in law

-i'm sure it was nice I read a lot today

-why didn't you tell me you wanted breasts implants?

-i probably forgot to mention- she looks down, avoiding his eyes, Sunghoon cradle her like a baby

-I see, so this prenup has nothing to do with it… let's see, point number two body image, subsection b, to accomplish a suitable look to be at the same level as Park Sunghoon the interested will have to undergo all the surgeries that the doctor, choose by Park Ayun, my mother, suggest… the surgeries must be in benefit of the interest of Sunghoon to achive the perfect look for him… anything to say love?

-i want them, all the surgeries so you can like me- she closed her eyes hiding her face on his chest

-i see, haven't you thought that I already like your body?- she looks up at him with hopeful eyes

-please baby don't say non sense

-i wasn't talking to you mother, I'm discussing this ridiculous arrangement my wife was involved without me knowing, what's worse is that this stupid thing mentions me like if it was something I asked

-I know what's better for you

-yeah so let's see… point eleven obedience, subsection a, the interested is obliged to comply with the orders that any member of the Park family can ask for, from housework or personal task and she must accomplish every single one of them with a smile and good attitude since now she's part of a bloodline that will dignify her as a person… what type of bullshit is that? She's my wife not a maid, and even if it was for my service I would never ask for something so stupid like that

-you have to understand that we did a favor buying her and her miserable family business

- enough, we didn't buy her, certainly, she's my wife not an object

-baby we basically picked her up because of that

-no you thought you did, but I chose to marry her, because I like how she is as a person, I don't give a fuck if I gain a company, if I want I can sell it to her dad again

-watch your language I'm your mother

-looks like you're just a stranger, especially because you made this thing without asking me… how can we undone this?-he asked his lawyer who fixed his glasses

-well since is an prenuptial arrangement in which only one of the parts was aware of it can easily be resolved as inadmissible due to lack of mutual agreement, also, since it affects the interests of Mr. and Mrs. Park, who are my clients, I can proceed for perjury with aggravating circumstances to mental and physical health

-you won't sue me baby, I'm your mother

-try me and you'll see

- I don't recognize you Sunghoon, I'm so disappointed of you, your father will know why you did to me

-please escort my mother out- his personal assistant did as he said- now why didn't you tell me about it?- he looks down at y/n snuggle on his chest

-I did… when I told you when we had our first night together, they made me do a clinic exam to check I was virgin, I did it twice first when they wrote this and the day before the wedding

-yeah you told me that but not all the horrible things you sign up for, extreme diet, surgeries, obedience, all of that… listen it's true that I like orden and control but not like that, I will make sure you have a proper diet but based in yummy things just like the ones I ask the cookers to make for us, I'll take you to the doctor if you need it and for regular check ups just like I do for myself… and the thing about your image and me controlling how you look is just because I don't want people to talk about it or look down on you ever again, not because I think you are below me

-thank you- she pecks his lips- for being good with me

-it was true what I said, I didn't buy a wife if it was someone else, I would never ever have agreed to get married, I do like to be with you since school… I think you're really pretty and cute, smart too, you're kind and sweet- she wraps her arms on his neck and he helped her to straddle him

-that means you can fall in love with me? Do I have a chance?- she looks at him with her sparkly eyes

-a big chance- he smiles making her squeak leaning to kiss him, passionately

-i can wait for that to happen, I'm gonna be a super really good wife so you love me back

-you're already a good wife- he caress her bottom giving her gentle pats on it- can we have our marital duties back?

-i still don't want you to touch me after your other girls- she pouts at him

-I'm ending my contract with them… just so you know it's only the one of the plane I don't have more or a lot… I won't see her again, I'm asking people to respect my wife and it would be hypocritical of me to not do the same- she smiles kissing him again

-can you be soft with me? I didn't like it rough, and I want aftercare like kisses or just you staying with me…

-I promise, I'll be better, I'm sorry for being an asshole with you when we first got together… I just don't know how to be committed, I never had anything like a relationship I was free to do anything and when girls asked me to commit I just left

-it hurt a lot when you to left me like that after you took my virginity

-i'm sorry my love, I'll be good for you- he dips his face on her neck kissing her there unbuttoning her blouse- you still wear this lingerie? I think I like this so that's something we'll be keeping- he kiss down her chest- it's appealing to me- he kissed her nipples sucking it even with the fabric there

-what if someone comes in?- her voice sounds more like a moan

-i'll fire them

-but that's cruel… we can just go to our house, I don't wanna our first real time together to be in your desk

-that's a better idea- he smiles while closing her blouse again getting up with her in his arms- let's go my love… do you want me to ask everyone to move your things to my bedroom? We can share and sleep together every night

-i would love too

Sunghoon left his office telling his assistant to cancel everything left for the day, to not call him until he's back at the office next day, he got into his car not taking his hands off her, touching every inch, kissing her with desperation, in the house was the same he asked to no one be allowed inside his room unless he called for them, he left her softly in bed.

-now my love undress- he smiles seeing her happily removing her garments.

This time he took his time with her making sure she was enjoying every second of it, rubbing her clit and kissing her, swallowing her moans, he made sure she was wet and when he pushed inside he just stayed there waiting for her to get used to the stretch.

-are you feeling alright love?- she just nods- I need words

-yes… Can you do that thing on my clit? Feels good- Sunghoon rub gentle circles on her sensitive bud, hearing her moan and clench around him- move please

He started softly, dragging his length in and out, he leaned to suck on her nipples making her scream in pleasure this time, everything was completely different she was feeling like it's the right thing, not like she was forced to, gradually he thrust inside her faster and harder, kissing every inch of skin he could reach leaving marks just that this time it didn't hurt her it made her feel really good.

-i feel like I'm gonna pee- he chuckled seeing her red of embarrassment

-let it go it will feel good- she squeeze his biceps holding as much as she can- it's not pee, cum my love let go you're gonna feel good

She did all her body spam, the feeling washing over her she moaned loud he didn't stopped chasing his own release, she clenched harder around him the sensations flooding her body, he grunt cumming inside her, leaning to kiss her riding their orgasm.

-was it good my love?- he smiles seeing her nod

-i like it so much how it felt- he was still settled deep inside her kissing her cheeks

-i'm glad you like it because now I'm not gonna leave you until you can't anymore- he started to move again not so soft like the first round

-feels funny… I feel really tingly here- she signaled her lower abdomen

-it's your body telling you that it wants more, but no worries I got you love- he smiles devilishly before increasing his pace.

She moaned, screamed and scratched him. Sunghoon put her in every possible position, making her cum so many times she lost count, a white ring already formed around his length and that squelching sound echoing in his room. Her last orgasm surprised them, she squirts without a warning making her red in embarrassment.

-I'm sorry… I didn't knew- but Sunghoon only felt proud on his chest- I didn't knew I can do that- she screamed feeling him thrust harder cumming inside her, she was already crying

-fuck that's the hottest thing I've ever seen, you think you can do it again?- he looks at her, cheeks covered in tears- what happened love? You didn't like it?

-no… I just…- she wipes her tears- I just felt really good it made me cry- he smiles leaning to kiss her, really messy starting to move again, she whimpers making him frown- no more please… I can't… it hurts

-i'm sorry- he cups her face giving her soft kisses and wiping her tears- gonna pull out okay?- he carefully pulled out seeing her spend pussy glistening with her arousal and his cum dripping out of her- fuck… you look so hot my love… gonna clean you okay?

He got up from bed, going into the bathroom taking a wet cloth, he first wipes himself putting on his pajama pants only, going out to her, he softly wipes her cleaning her crotch, she was feeling relaxed and so tired, her eyes barely open, he wipes all over her body giving her kisses in all the marks and hickeys he left.

-wanna a nap please- her voice sounds so tired but happy

-then sleep, I'll be here waiting for when you wake up- he makes sure she's laying comfortably, she's snuggling in a pillow hugging it, he kneels besides bed kissing her nose- sweet dreams love

She fell asleep almost immediately, he covered her with a blanket, leaving momentarily to ask for her things to be move into his room, tomorrow while he works, he asked for the dinner too and to bring her snacks for when she wakes up, he stayed there on his room working in something on his laptop trying to be really quiet he was like that for almost an hour.

-thank you, can you make some more for when Mrs Park wakes up?- Sunghoon was holding his cup of tea while one of his maids was serving him the last drop in the little pot

-of course, would you like me to bring cookies or pastries too?

-that would be so nice, the list says she likes strawberry flavored cake

-with ice cream- her sleepy voice made them look at her

-you heard her, strawberry cake with ice cream please

-right away- their maid smiles at them loving how affectionate they're, going immediately for what she asked

-did you rest well, my love?- Sunghoon just got up opening his arms, she got up quickly running with trembling legs to hug him

-really well… I'm still feeling like jelly-he kiss her forehead wrapping his arms around her- and my pussy hurts

-ow my love is all sore… I'm sorry I think I may just made my way for all those days you denied me- he kiss her touching her still naked body

-i think I should put on clothes before someone else sees me like this

-maybe…- Sunghoon started to kiss her neck pulling her body to his- maybe I don't want to put clothes on you- touching her all over

-no more please…- She gives little sighs of pleasure- I'm still too tired to do it again- he pulled apart

-only because your snack is about to come- he goes to his closet and takes an oversized t shirt coming back to put it on her frame sitting back on his chair taking his tea and offering her a sip- is it good?- she nods, blowing on his cup to sip it again

-May I come in?- the soft gentle voice of the maid resonate on the room

-yes- her tiny voice still sounds a little sleepy, the maid came in leaving her dessert there and pouring some tea on a cup- thank you

They were left alone again and she contently eats a little of her cake, doing a little dance of happiness, giving him a little too, enjoying the proximity and how intimate they got, not just passionate sex but this, moments covered with a certain sweetness that neither one of them thought possible at the beginning.

Maybe Sunghoon didn't love her yet but she felt close to that feeling, to have him for eternity because he would want that not because of a piece of paper. Maybe y/n loved him too much that he had a new sense of comfort with her, it wasn't power over her, it was different, something he couldn't name yet, but at least the feeling made him want to stay like this, like if after all this was the right and only thing to do.

Fin.

I hope you like this, it's my longest fic and finally my bias, I have a lot of ideas for him but idk I'm not sure if y'all would like it.

So this may be new but if you have an idea I would love to hear it, my ask box is open, not sure if I would call request open but I'll try my best to write if you want.

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Forget me not 박성훈

Sunghoon and Y/n are a happy married couple, everything is going fine between them, at least that's what she thinks, everything crumble down and now she needs to start again.

12.4k words

Tw: mention of a real drug, mention of rape it doesn't happen but is mentioned, talks about cheating, Sunghoon hit her once, heartbroken Sunghoon, hospital and health struggles caused by a heartbreak.

Is part 2 of this but I feel like you can read it alone too

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Their marriage visibly got better, beyond the contract that put them together now it feels more like something natural, each day she fell harder for him, they already developed a routine, in the morning he would wake her with a kiss, spending a couple minutes in bed just kissing or hugging each other until his alarm rings and it's time to get ready, he would sent her to take a shower while he picks their clothes, most of the days is in matching colors, others in matching garments, when he's satisfied with the outfits he would go inside the shower with her finishing together, they would put on their skincare together and he would dress himself and supervise she looks the way he imagined, the breakfast usually they take it on the dinning room, only when she's feeling lazy he let her stay in bed for longer, taking their breakfast in the room and leaving her clothes ready for when she gets up.

By the time Sunghoon needs to go she goes with him to the door giving him a goodbye kiss, each day when he's about to go inside his car she yells a little ‘i love you’ and he will respond blowing her a kiss like if it's his way to say I love you back, the rest of the day for him is work, meetings, contracts, stuff that she doesn't get involved, on her side, she has classes in the afternoon since Sunghoon insists in her to learn something that can help her in case she wants to do something, develop a career or a business herself. It depends on his schedule, if he can he would return to their house to eat and spend the night making what she called love, even if it was one sided love she likes that he's more openly affectionate with her and treats her good, she likes to believe that he loves her back and is just shy to confess out loud. On days when he's stressed he would immediately go to her undressing her body and fuck her brains out, later in bed after he calms down he would complain about everything that went wrong on his day, and that in particular was one of her favorite days since is one of the few he actually vents about what's bothering him asking for advice or mere company.

Once a week he would take her on a date, once a month they do a little trip, everything was perfect, what she expected and wanted from the beginning a loving husband and finally a life she can enjoy.

Today it marked a year since they got married, and she planned a lot of things he was on a business trip since two days ago but he promised he'll be here in time, he always kept his promises, so she planned a perfect night, she bought a dress, lingerie and made a reservation at his favorite restaurant, she spent hours getting herself ready for him messaging him while he was doing his own thing she only told him it was a dinner because she expected for him to remember it's their anniversary he messaged her that he was gonna start his flight that he won't be available until he lands, she made the finishing touches feeling nervous of the night y/n double check that everything is just how he likes it, she arrived first at the restaurant her bodyguards always close to her, she was sipping on her glass of water, the waitress arrived to offer her appetizers but she denied telling him her husband would be here in any moment, she waited and waited, and waited, sending him messages that never delivered, he was disconnected, she was getting worried what if something happened to him?

-i'm sorry miss, we'll be closing soon. Do you want something to take out?

-yes, I talked before to ask for the dinner menu, it's for Mr and Mrs Park, please- she smiles as best as she can while holding her tears, the waitress gave an apologetic smile leaving her.

She stayed there, her bodyguard received the food escorting her to the car, she cried a little on the way home her mascara ruined, Mr Min opened the door seeing her defeated.

-i bring food you can have it for dinner Mr Min

-mrs Park you also need to eat- she holds her hand

-i'm not hungry, I just wanna go to my room and sleep

y/n started to walk to their shared bedroom, but his laugh coming through his office made her turn on her heels, then a female voice laced with a little flirt, she opened the door finding Sunghoon sitting on his desk with a blonde girl on his lap, his shirt was unbuttoned and his face covered in kiss marks, her heart shattered and a loud sob echoed in the room, that's when he looked at the door, trying to focus on who it was.

-love? Is that you?- he got up, pushing the blonde off his lap, he stumbled through the room to the door- why don't you join me?- she looked at the blonde who was clearly furious- I'm with… what? What was your name again?

He was so drunk, he smelled from meters away, he was so wasted and confused and she didn't have words, he tried to lean and kiss her but y/n pushed him off

-love please, I missed you… did you not miss me? don't I deserve my hello kiss?- he tried to force her, but she put resistance until Sunghoon slapped her making her freeze, their maid arrived seeing the scene unfold- miss Min my wife doesn't want to kiss me- he pouted like a little kid crying to her nanny

Mrs Min holds his hands since he was fussing and babbling nonsense, she runs away from that, going to their room taking a suitcase packing her things, clothes he didn't buy her, she wipes her tears with her hand. Downstairs the blonde was furiously yelling at Sunghoon, on why he was so rude to her now, Mrs Min called security on her to take her out of the house, in the middle of the commotion Sunghoon puked on the floor of his office, all the service on his house put hands on do something about it, he was taken to the nearest bathroom to put him in shower and help him regain some lucidity, some cleaned the office and his cooks making him something to eat, the guest room was the closest one to his office to help him so everyone was there including him.

Mrs Min went to their bedroom searching for his clothes, seeing her there crying her heart out taking off her makeup, her cheek red because of the slap, she got close.

-i'm sorry… he arrived hours ago… it's been so long since we saw him drunk, but I never saw him like that, we weren't sure about telling you Mrs Park

-Did he arrive with her?

-yes… I'm sorry again I should have told you before all of this happened

-how is he?

-we’re still working on it, probably he will sleep on the guest room, he's not at his best tomorrow probably he will be suffering the consequences of the hangover but he'll live- she tried to make it lighter

-okay, can you leave me alone tonight please? I'm not feeling well either

-Yes Mr Park, do you need something before you sleep?- she shakes her head as a no

Y/n was left alone, the commotion on the house left the perfect opportunity for her to go out without being noticed, while the staff available in the house was helping him, and the bodyguards and security were guarding the front door preventing the blonde from entering again, she went out through the backdoor usually where the employees of the house left, she walked, not sure where or what to do now, it was a long way down the street, all the mansions and she felt so out of place, probably she walked for over an hour until she finally made it out her neighborhood, then she walked some more until she reached an avenue and saw an hotel, she went there to have a place where she can can sleep, it feels foreign being in a room without him now, her brain didn't let her stop thinking, he promised her to not have affairs that she'll be the only one that he'll love her back with time, all those business trip, were his excuse to sleep with other people?, he promised so many things and yet broke each one of them, she wiped her tears not wanting to cry again for him, she got ready for bed turning on the tv just for background noise she felt like trash now and she couldn't think in anything else just him and the blond kissing in their home.

In the morning when he woke up first thing he noticed was that she wasn't next to him, he went out of the guest room confused walking with difficulty to their room, the bed was made and she was not there, he checked the bathroom noticing her skincare is not there, their closet only the things he bought was there, he was confused going to her old room.

-my love… Why are you angry with me? Your things are not in our room- he knocked on the door but no one answered- love please let me see you- he opened the door finding the room just like she left it a year ago, since they started to share the bedroom

Sunghoon felt something on his chest, this is not normal, the worry started to get him, frantically searching for her each room, each place and corner of their house and she was no where to be found, the maids were also hiding from him and the inevitable rage he's gonna let out, one of the newest ones happened to be passing near him.

-you, come here NOW- the maid scared of the warnings everyone else gave her got close to him trembling- where is my wife?

-I really don't know… I just barely started my shift… I I I'm… sorry- she basically run away from him

Sunghoon went into the kitchen were all the staff of his home was hiding, he went to Mrs Min immediately.

-good morning Mr Park, do you want your breakfast now?

-no I want to know where is my wife?- he was clearly angry and Mrs Min was the only one who can actually deal with him

-we don't know, last time I saw her was last night almost midnight when she came from your anniversary dinner- Sunghoon stopped frowning- we were taking care of you Mr Park and how drunk you were, also we did have to take care of your companion because she wouldn't leave

-I… what are you talking? I don't like this sick joke, where is my wife?

-I already told you Mr Park, security is checking the cameras now trying to pin point what happened

He went to the security right away, leaving the rest of the staff to finally breath some peace and do their work, security made a chronologic of the events, everyone knew that eventually when he would woke up and find out her missing this would happen, they expected him to break something as it was usual when angry, but they didn't expect him to cry. Security showed him the videos when he arrived with the blonde, how they kissed and touched each other on his office, how he keeps drinking and drinking, then y/n her sobbings breaking his heart, how she saw them and the reply he gave, he felt awful, then the slap, he couldn't believe himself if someone would told him he wouldn't believe he did that, he was astonished and embarrassed. Each corner of the house had a camera expect for the rooms and bathrooms, so he saw how Mrs Min went to check on her, how everyone was trying to help him, the blonde trying to get back inside, lastly y/n going out through the service door with her suitcase, crying and heartbroken, Sunghoon didn't recognized himself on the videos, now he's crying after seeing all the pain on her face, why did he do that? Why can't he remember? His head hurts a lot and he just faints.

He opened his eyes finding himself on his room, thank God was only a dream, he reached to the opposite side of bed finding the empty cold spot next to him, he sits in bed his head spinning and the feeling that he's about to puke in any moment, Mr Min arrived to the bedroom followed by his usual doctor, this one checked on him noticing his blown out pupils.

-did you take any kind of substance?

-are you implying I'm a drug addict?- he was so offended

-i'm implying that if you didn't take anything willingly some else gave you without your consent- Sunghoon was surprised while his doctor was taking a blood sample- I will prescript an IV drip to help you detoxify your blood, I'm going to do lab tests to find out exactly what they gave you… I'll recommend that if you didn't take it or if you don't know who gave you, you call your lawyer you were in real danger- the doctor put in the IV to leave

-did I fucked up real good this time?- Mrs Min only saw her with eyes of disappointment

-you did, I have been the one taking care of you since you were born, I thought that now that you are a grown disciplined man I wouldn't have to worry, but last night that person who was here wasn't my Sunghoon, I didn't raise you like that- she wiped a lonely tear on her cheek- I've been working so many years for your family and I know the type of people with money who are mean to us because we clean their mess, but Mrs Park is one of the kindest souls we ever met and now I'm afraid I won't see her again… did you know that she refused to eat alone and each day she goes to the kitchen to eat with us, that on Christmas she gave us presents and an extra money so we can celebrate with our family… I know you don't know half of the things she does for us and how much everyone in this house loves Mrs Park, but we know that you're our boss and we own you our respect and loyalty, yet even when you still see her like the girl your parents forced you to marry, and it's such a shame for us see her every day try so hard to listen an I love you back… but you only slapped her back, she only talked about you and the dinner the whole week, she poured her heart into planning something nice for you… just so you know in case you don't remember last night was your anniversary and you missed and broke Mrs Park heart… I'm so disappointed on you, now if you excuse me I have a lot of work to do.

Mrs Min left him alone and crying, the remorse on his chest was killing him, the image of him slapping her was replaying on his head over and over again.

She took as much money as she could from the ATM, almost emptying her card, knowing Sunghoon can track where she withdrawal the money, also the hotel since she used the credit card he gave her, she just needed to get to the bus station and everything will be alright, she took some more money in the ATM there before going to her bus, she left feeling tired just wanting to be far away from that stupid city, the trip was 3 hours away so she decided to take a nap there.

When she arrived to the small town she took a taxi straight to the small house she bought a long time ago she saw the mess since she never lived there; first thing to do was to clean, she checked her phone not even a call or a message from him, surely he was busy with the blonde and even if she felt heartbroken she couldn't stop to think about him so she started to sweep the floor, dust the few pieces of furniture and clean in general at the end of the day she was exhausted and hungry so she went out to search for something to eat, the town was really small, quiet and lovely, the business there were nothing compared to the places Sunghoon took her but that's exactly what she wanted some peace of mind, she ate contently looking at the scenery turning off completely her cellphone not wanting to actually deal with anyone anymore, she took a deep breath accepting this new life and the changes it may have.

She went to the local market and the flower shop, buying her favorites to decorate her new house, everything was new to her, the cooking, the cleaning, the whole arrangement of do things on her own for herself, she missed Mrs Min because probably she would have teach her how to do everything with patience and love, the night arrived sooner than she expected and she didn't knew how safe it will be for her to be alone, so she locked every door and window getting on bed reading a book she bought in an antique store. It felt strange knowing she was completely alone and at her mercy, no maids, no bodyguards, no gardeners but overall no Sunghoon, she looked at her ring, the diamond still chosen to be displayed but as an empty promise of eternal love.

Early in the morning someone arrived to Sunghoon's house, he excited went downstairs hopping it was y/n, but he was so disappointed seeing his doctor there.

-let's go to my office- Sunghoon's face changed completely, frowning angry that she hasn't come back- so?

-I have your test results from the blood sample, It's Gamma hydroxybutyrate, or GBH... It's a drug usually I see it a lot in sexual assault victims- he sighed- it makes you euphoric, increases the sex drive sometimes, it relaxes the body because is a nervous system depressant, I'm sorry this happened to you, as I tell everyone this could happen to anyone

-I wasn't raped

-i'm not saying you were, I'm saying you were drugged with no good intentions, and if I was you I would have already called my lawyer- the doctor got up- the dosis they gave you was small so there's no risk now, probably is already almost completely out of your system- he gave a file with documents- this is my declaration the test results and you can call me again if you need someone to corroborate what happened to you, this record can help tho.

The doctor left him and his thoughts alone, he spaced out for a while until he decided to follow the advice calling his lawyer telling him everything that happened last night, the few things he can remember and overall what he saw on the security videos, his lawyer started to make everything to proceed against the girl and get to the bottom of this mess.

Once alone he took his phone, sending her a message that never got delivered, then another, and another until it piled up with no answer; he tried to call but it never connected it was directly to miss call, that put him in a bad mood, he expected for her to be mad but not to do something like this, he never thought that she would run away from him, he messed up real good and for the first time he didn't knew how to solve this.

-sorry Mr Park we still don't know where she is, her phone doesn't have any type of signal we're still working on it but it's impossible for us to do things this fast, we need time and patience- the responsible of the technology team told Sunghoon with his trembling voice

-it's been a month… A FUCKING MONTH SINCE MY WIFE IS MISSING AND YOU ASKE ME FOR TIME- Sunghoon throws his glass of liquor to the wall frustrated

-we understand your worry but…

-you don't understand anything, I fucking pay you thousands more than I should and you can't do your job, what did you do? The only fucking clue you got was where she stayed one night, how much money she took from my card and nothing else… you're fired

-but Mr Park won't you be rational?

-i'm being rational my wife is missing and the one that is supposed to find where she is, is doing nothing, I don't wanna see you ever again

Mrs Min appears at the door, all the yelling alerts her, the poor guy runs away from his office, she only looks at Sunghoon, her eyes reflect all the pain she feels for him, to see him this way, she gets close to him putting a hand on his shoulder.

-yelling at your employees won't bring her back

-I know… but I don't know what else to do, it's like she vanished into thin air, like I only imagined her but was never real… I need her I feel like I'm going crazy- she was surprised to hear him like that

-we all miss her, the house is not the same without her

-nobody ever made me feel this way- he looks up at his nanny with his eyes sparkling with tears

-i know, I never saw you like this I know you like my own hand - Sunghoon finally cried hugging his nanny like a child finding comfort with her

-I think she's the love of my life- she hugged him a little more tight

-oh my poor boy I never thought I'll live enough to experience your first heartbreak

-i know I ruined everything and that it's my fault that she decided to go, but I'm gonna die if I don't see her again

-we’ll be alright I promise, Mrs Park loves you a lot that's why it hurt her more than anything what you did to her, but only the time will be the one that would help you heal your heart

Sunghoon cried for a long time until he ran out of tears and his nanny pulled apart from him, taking him to his room to rest, since she went missing he haven't left his house hoping that she'll be back one of these days, he barely slept or eat, he just worked from home and talked with everyone he could trying to find her.

She was at her little job, not a proper one she just helped the lady of the flower shop to make bouquets on the weekends and she'll have a little payment, enough to buy groceries for the week, she lives now without luxury as Sunghoon accustomed her to, she was happy this way too but she missed him so much, y/n couldn't help but to expect him in the afternoon asking for his kiss after he came from work, she missed to feel him at night to cuddle him and feel safe and loved, she was daydreaming about him that he once loved her before having an affair.

-what 's his name?- she looked up at miss Kim- the boy you like

-oh Sunghoon- she keeps working on his bouquet

-why you miss him?

-I don't, I just remembered him but it's nothing especial

-I have lived twice as long as you to know when someone is in love, so tell me…

-he's my husband but he doesn't love me, we got married because our families but it's okay I accepted that, now we parted separate ways- she shrugs her shoulders- we're better this way

-if you were better this way you wouldn't talk about him with so much regret, you love him and miss him

-I do, but things are complicated, I do love him but he never loved me back, he treated me good but it's not what I want- the lady takes her hands

-my child everyone falls in love with you, I don't know a single soul in this town who doesn't love you already- she takes a pot with flowers- I bet that Sunghoon is just dumb but it's okay, as long as he's good, if you ever decide to try again I bet he'll fall for you… take this it's forget me not, love and loyalty, eternal love but also deep longing, mother nature will heard your prayers and will bring your true love back to you- she takes the pot smiling

-thank you,for everything since I came here

-thank you for helping this old bones

They both laughed and kept working, until the late afternoon, talking about anything and everything.

Another month passed in a blink of an eye, Sunghoon have loss a significant amount of weight, the dark circles made him look almost dead, he didn't even took off his pajamas now, walking around his house like a man sentenced to death the maids tried so hard to convince him to eat or take showers, but only Mrs Min managed to convince him sometimes, it hurt everyone in the house to see him like that, he didn't allowed them to open the curtains so everything was always in a dim light erasing for him the time, he was working almost like a robot, just doing what he's supposed to do without much thinking, everyday at the same hour he would try to call only to find the same voice message “line cannot be connected”, Mrs Min entered with his food.

-my beautiful boy it's meal time- she started to call him again his usual nickname from when he was little

-i'm not hungry- he pouted knowing he can't scape this- I'll just finish this and go to sleep

-no you can't- she takes the bowl and the spoon to hand feed him- I personally made your favorite, so now open- it was like if Sunghoon was 5 again and his nanny was struggling to give him veggies- you need to be strong and healthy- he eats still looking at her- when Mrs Park come back you need to be my strong handsome boy for her

-you think she's gonna ever come back?- he looks at his nanny with his sparkling eyes, taking another bite of his food

-i think she loves you way to much to be angry at you forever… only time will give you the peace in your heart

She keeps fedding him until the bowl is empty giving him his kiss on the forehead before leaving him alone, he sighs starting to get going into his room to lay in bed when one of his bodyguards came in to the house running, screaming for Mr Park, he almost tackled Sunghoon when he saw him on the hall to his room.

-I saw Mrs Park I know where she is- Sunghoon's face light up immediately

-we have to go now tell them to take my car out I need you and y/n’s bodyguards too- Mrs Min saw them walking to the front door

- where do you think you're going?

-for my wife nanny, they found her

-wait a minute- she gets in his way- you can't do that, number one you're a mess right now, you haven't showered in days, number two what's your plan? Just take her and force her to comeback?, number three you're not even sure if she wants to see you

-but nanny…

-no but my beautiful boy, I love you but I'm not gonna let you hurt Mrs Park just because you decided that at the end of the day you actually love her… go shower now- Sunghoon was about to cry and protest- go and don't throw a tantrum I'm old to deal with that… I'll think in something so we go for her with a plan- Sunghoon's eyes lit up, kissing his nanny’s cheek and running to his bedroom to get ready.

Y/n was finishing some things in the flower shop wiping the dirt on his apron, leaving it on the shed.

-i'm done, I'll see you tomorrow

-bye darling don't forget to bring me one of those cookies you make

-I won't forget, bye

She went out saying hi to the people on the street, she went to the small market to buy everything for the week and to make the cookies she promised; on the other side of the street a group of people is watching her from the small cafe.

-i'll go now- Sunghoon tried to go for her but Mrs Min holds him

-no, you'll wait for the right moment… now you big guy go to buy a beautiful bouquet- she took her wallet giving the bodyguard money- we'll wait here for her to come out you'll tell her the truth about what you feel and you have to promise me if she tells you no you won't force her again

-but nanny, I want to be with her… I love her

-I know, my beautiful boy, but you can't just force her to still love you back- she takes the bouquet from the bodyguard handing it to Sunghoon- I'll wait for you at home… I trust you'll do the right thing… big guy it's time to go- she also handed him the keys to his car, she waved goodbye leaving him alone to deal with his feelings.

He followed her quietly and a certain distance, waiting for her to actually get to her house he waited outside unsure to ring the doorbell; she was putting everything away on her pantry and fridge starting to cut the veggies for her dinner when the doorbell rings, she quickly goes to the door opening freezing on her spot to see him there.

-my love, oh my how much I missed you- he cups her face to kiss her but she pushed him- love, please I… - her hand landed hard and heavy on his cheek taking him by surprise, then the door slamming and he locked up outside- my love please I can explain, just let me see you please

-go away, I don't wanna see you ever again in my life- her voice cracks at the end and her tears run down her face

-please let me in just a moment to explain you everything

-no, I know what happened I don't need explanations, just go… stop hurting me and go- her sobbings broke his heart even more, crying himself on the other side of the door

He didn't try again staying outside the house with the bouquet there, he sat on the sidewalk giving her space but still not giving up. The hours went by until it was dark outside and he felt so cold, he started to sing outside her door hoping for her to listen.

-I've never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight… I've never seen you shine so bright, mhm hmm- she heard his voice outside thinking that he would be already gone by now- I've never seen so many men ask you if you wanted to dance- she got close to her window seeing him just standing there singing- They're looking for a little romance, given half a chance… And I have never seen that dress you're wearing- he made eye contact with her- Or the highlights in your hair that catch your eyes- singing his heart out for her- I have been blind… please my love open the door

-if I do that would you stop singing?

-only if that's what you want- she slowly went to her door to open

-The lady in red- he was unsure but he pulled her close to him finally holding her again- Is dancing with me, cheek to cheek… There's nobody here, it's just you and me- he started to swing softly dancing with her- It's where I want to be… But I hardly know this beauty by my side- she started to cry again- I'll never forget the way you look tonight… please forgive me

-no… you liar- she hugs him tighter crying finally letting out everything she feels since the day she left

-I have missed you like crazy, I can't live without you my love, do you want me dead? I can do that if you ask me- she whimpers- or I can come here every day until you forgive me even if it takes an eternity for you to love me again

-don't say nonsense- she pulled apart seeing him, noticing how he looks his dark circles, pale skin and how much weight he's missing

-can I come in?- she nods moving so he can come, he finally gave her flowers she takes them to put them on a vase

Sunghoon looked around the house, how tiny but cozy it was, it smelled sweet like vanilla and sugar but overall like her, he looks at her pot and the forgive me not flowers alongside with a photo frame with a cutout from the newspaper, it was his photo the one there and he felt happy that she still thinks on him at least enough to have him there all this time.

-I read about what happened to you, I'm sorry you went through that, Mrs Lim was really evil for doing that to you

-i don't care… I prefer it was me the one they drug to ruin and not you, I would never have forgive myself if they have done that to you my love

-do you want water or something before you go?- his smile faded

-i'm okay… do you know a place where I can stay here?

-the nearest hotel is in the next town, 40 minutes est

-oh, okay… do you have plans for tomorrow?-she nods

- I work at the flower shop

-can I pick you up to go somewhere? We missed 8 dates and 1 trip

-I would rather not… I'm sorry, I don't know if I can still pretend I'm okay with that arrangement. I loved you so much it hurt a lot seeing you with someone else… and you hit me too

-i know I was a dick and I regret every single minute of it, I'm still trying to remember everything but I want you to know how sorry I'm… not just that, I'm sorry for everything for slapping you, for being a terrible husband, for missing our anniversary, for not answering my phone that night… for acting that way, for taking another woman into our home… I can live with all of that if you don't forgive me but I would never let myself live if I don't tell you how much I regret not telling you how much I love you- her eyes went big in surprise- how in love I am with everything you do, every inch of your body, each piece of your soul… I was a fool trying to deny what I felt since long ago… I have loved you since our honeymoon when you hugged me so tight I thought that was the only place in the world I wanted to be… I have loved you since your beautiful laugh made me feel happy- she was crying now with her arms crossed on her chest

- Sunghoon please don't…

-no I won't shut up now… because I wasted a whole year not telling you how much you mean to me, how much I love you… how your kisses makes me the happiest man on earth, how I rather be dead than without you because my life doesn't have meaning without the love of my life… and I'm sorry I realized that too late- he was crying too turning around to leave

-wait… you're missing something- he turned around immediately feeling her run to his arms to hug him he wrapped his arms around her body she was whimpering as he finally held her- I love you- and then she kissed him and he responded immediately.

She tangled her arms around his neck while he held her legs up wrapping them on his waist, holding her body as tight as he could, walking with her on arms until he reached the sofa laying her softly on it pulling apart to start to kiss every inch of her exposed.

-i love you so much Mrs Park, there's no a future without you at least not for me

-i love you too Mr Park, even if you're terrible at expressing feelings… Do you want to stay the night here?

-I would love too

Sunghoon wipes her tears, staying just there seeing her again like it's just a dream, still afraid that he's imagining her right now, he just cups her face caressing her cheek she pecks his lips before pushing him off, he frowns but she have already slipped from his arms running into the kitchen to take the cookies out of the oven, he followed her seeing her bake.

-i'll make you something for dinner, you can go to my room to wash and maybe find something to wear… I have t-shirts and boxers in one of my drawers- Sunghoon wrapped his arms around her waist kissing her neck

-i'll be quick

He explored the tiny house finding cute how she still have glimpses of him, their wedding photo was on her night stand, one of his shirts was on the closet, the magazine with the photos of their honeymoon, all the cutouts of the newspapers about the drug incident and the lawsuit against the Lim family, he smiles because deep down he was getting ready for her to never forgive him for her to hate him, but she still loves him. He washed himself and changed clothes going to the kitchen smelling the food she made.

-smells delicious… who taught you how to cook?- he back hugged her

-i learned watching Mrs Min, it's not as tasty as hers but is good enough- she served him a bowl of the soup and one for her

He helped her to set the table, sitting and waiting for her to come with him. Once she's close he pulled her to his lap, not wanting to take his hands off her, feeling her body.

-stop… it's gonna get cold- she takes her bowl starting to eat but his hands were inching closer to her breasts and she slapped them away- Sunghoon stop now

-my love I'm a man and I'm weak I haven't seen my wife in two months and now she denied me touch her gorgeous body- he pouts but still opened his mouth for her to feed him

-I haven't forgive you completely, I'm not even sure how long you're gonna stay here before you leave

-you mean we leave right?- she shakes her head

-I don't wanna be back to that type of life- she looks down- you can have any blonde big boobs girl you want now- she mentioned frowning taking a spoonful for her herself

-did you not listened to what I said? You're the love of my life, I realized that I love you more than my own life…

-i like this house

-then let's run away from our life, I'll leave everything my company, my family, everything… I don't care I wanna grow old with you… I'll learn how to cook, to clean… please don't leave me I'll do anything you ask me too- he feels desperation flooding his body- I'll kill myself just to make you happy

-don't say stuff like that- she tried her best to turn around and see him, he looked so sad- I don't want you to die, I just want you to be happy to do what you like to have your life again exactly like before we got married

-but what about what I want? I want you and nothing else, just you please my love, let me love you I'll kiss the floor where you step I'll make you an altar just let me adore you, you don't have to love me back anymore I just wanna be with you- he holds her tighter feeling like she's slipping away from his arms, like if this nightmare without her is never gonna end

-Hoonie please don't make it harder for me

-but it's okay for you to make me suffer…- he sighs- I know I fucked everything up but if you leave me I'm gonna…

-don't say that again… I think is better this way we never fitted together everyone said that

He silently did as she said, eating in silence but without letting her go, he was feeling so sad, and when they finished he helped her on her feet getting up and taking the dirty dishes to the sink, he started to wash them and she just stared at him and how depressed he looks right now.

-I'm sorry I don't wanna go back together

-no, it's okay… you have all the right to hate me yet you still told me you love me… I feel happy… I guess I'll go now, 40 minutes is a long way for an hotel and I want to come here early hoping I can take you to work- he gets close to kiss her forehead- I'll bring you breakfast too my love

-but… are you not gonna stay?- she didn't meant to sound so disappointed

-i don't wanna make you feel uncomfortable- he pulled her a little unsure cupping her face to kiss her waiting for her to push him but she pulled him too, they kissed with sweetness pulling a part shortly after- good night my love, please at least dream about me just like I do with you every night

-please stay… only for today- her voice was almost a whisper

-i'll sleep on your sofa

She wanted to protest but she knows Sunghoon is doing that because she asked basically for him to not being around, for them not being together. Sunghoon takes her on his arms carrying her to her room leaving her softly on her bed kissing one last time before going to her living room and getting as comfortable as he could on the couch, he closed his eyes trying to sleep, he did it for a couple hours only but he couldn't get himself to sleep knowing she was there so close to him but so far away, he got up to make himself a coffee he felt so out of place pouring his cup and walking back to the living room.

-Hoonie? Is that you?- he looks at her on the entrance of her bedroom

-yes my love- she went to the living room to him- I'm sorry did I woke you?- she nods going straight to hug him sitting on his lap straddling him- I didn't mean to do it

-Is okay I don't mind it- she snuggled on his chest closing her eyes

-were you sleeping well?- he softly pats her back

- so good I dreamed about you- she started to kiss his neck- about our first time together… not the ugly one… the one you made me feel so good and loved

-i'm sorry I made have an ugly first time

-don't feel sorry I wouldn't want anyone else to be my first time- he takes a sip of his coffee swinging softly to make her relax and sleep again- I feel like I want you inside but I don't have the energy to make love- she whispered hiding on his neck

-oh we can actually do that… if you want… you can just warm me while you sleep

-i don't know how to do that

-you don't have to do anything just look pretty and relax

-I want you please Hoonie

He kiss her cheek getting up with her on his arms going to her bedroom leaving her in bed to undress her lower half, he kneels in front of her staying eye level with her crotch, getting close to taste her she immediately covered herself with her hand.

-i need to prep you baby, to not hurt you

-i… it's just… I haven't shaved my… my pussy- she blushed and he finds her adorable under the soft light on her nightstand

-me neither- he say with a soft chuckle- haven't shave in a long time

-but you're gonna… gonna eat me… and I haven't

-my love I couldn't care less- he takes her hand off leaning to give her soft kisses on her clit- i missed this pussy so much and she missed me too… it's already drooling for me- he gives a long lick from her entrance to her clit making her moan.

He was slowly making out with her pussy, until she was dripping wet, she was moaning, he takes her on his arms again going to sit on bed with her on top he takes his already hard length, kissing her neck helping her to put it inside her, she holds onto him moaning feeling the stretch he was all inside now groaning feeling her walls squeezing him, her pussy fluttering to fit him comfortably.

-feels good love?

-so good Hoonie- she jawns- really can we sleep like this?- she looks at him with her tired eyes feeling so sleepy

-if you feel comfortable enough we can

-I like how it feels… Am I making you feel good too?- she shifts fixing her position making him twitch and bite a moan

-so good… feels like heaven- he pats her back making sure she's back to sleep, shifting slowly to get comfortable- sweet dreams my love- he holds her tight on top of him.

Finally closing his eyes to get his much desired rest after so many sleepless nights thinking about her, she was finally with him even if it's only for a while. She opened her eyes when the light from the window hit her face, she stirred awake feeling his length heavy inside of her, she moaned snuggling on his chest, y/n stayed there just admiring him how insanely beautiful he is, she really loves him but she doesn't know why she feels so afraid to go back to him, to their usual life, maybe because of that because she loves him too much that it hurts more when something happens, she tried not to think about it and just enjoy him feeling safe and happy like this the stretch was comfortable until Sunghoon stirred making her bite a moan, feeling him push deeper, he groaned and opened his eyes looking straight to her and smiling.

-good morning my love- he carefully sits with her on his lap- did you had a good sleep?- he started to kiss all over her face

-so good- she jawns enjoying all his kisses

-let's get you ready for work okay?- she just stays still while he pulls out, she bites a moan- are you feeling alright?

-yes… just that I feel empty now- she blush and Sunghoon chuckle kissing her forehead.

He got up and out of habit he went straight to her closet to pick her clothes, choosing from her limited wardrobe what he liked the best, he handed the clothes to her, going to the shower to get the water ready, she looked at him smiling as if it's just as it used to be before she left. She showered and changed, as promised he took her to the cafe in front of the flower shop, she told him about everything she did there, how much she loves the town even if it's small, her favorite stores, how people always greeted her with a smile and the time she caught a cold they helped her making chicken soup and teas, Sunghoon listened feeling happy that she found the place where she's truly happy, once it was time to let her go he kiss her forehead the sadness flooding again his body hugging her.

-can I come to see you?- she was all happy and giggly

-yes anytime Hoonie

-i'll try my best to come again before the end of the week, I have a lot of work to do but I'll tell my assistant to make space for you my love- her smile faded she thought that he was talking about coming over while she's at work

-oh are you… are you leaving now?- he nods

-I have a lot of work to do… it's been messy since you been gone everyone would be surprised to see me at the office again, my nanny probably would feel happy that I finally left the house for good- he smiles but there's only sadness all over his face- now go inside- she did turning around when he was about to get in his car- I love you… now you blow me a kiss

She did as he said, feeling immense happiness, she went inside to work, her brain repeating the I love you all day.

-what it is now?- her boss was on the counter looking her lovestruck eyes

-nothing, my husband… he came to apologize and see me… he told me that he loves me

-so that means you're not gonna work here anymore?

-are you firing me?- she looks surprised at her

-no, but if you finally got what you desired for so long I would expect for you to go back to your home with him

-I told him I didn't want to be back together- her face immediately reflects sadness she's feeling

-I'm not understanding… he came here only to tell you how much he loves you, that he misses you and yet even if that's what you wanted you turned him down?

-it's complicated…

-how? Life is never that complicated, especially in this because if you're dying for him and he does too… one plus one is two, you get back together

-I don't want for him to hurt me again

-right, so you're gonna stay for the rest of your life here, doing what? This?- her boss takes a bouquet from her hands- I just hope you take this decision because is what you want not because you're afraid to get hurt, I'm old enough to give you advice and to know that this is the type of things you'll talk about with regret when you're my age- she gives her flowers to finish a bouquet.

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The week already ended and Sunghoon didn't come back to the town, then another week, and she felt like he abandoned her. She went to work feeling defeated.

-I don't wanna be that type but I told you… what it is now?

-he hasn't come back, it's been two weeks- she lays her face in the counter completely sad and defeated

-so you told him you didn't want for you to be back together and now you're crying and complaining because he did as you asked… seems reasonable to be angry for that

-I know it is my fault… I just… I don't… I expected for him to be here as he said

-don't wanna be the bad boss that doesn't care about you but darling you need to get to work we have orders- y/n got up to start with the floral arrangements- it will be better with time I promise

She got to work, most of the day she was busy since it will be the fair of flowers, she was left alone in the store since Miss Kim was out all day doing her earrings, it was already closed and she was finishing putting things away when the bell in the front door rings.

-i'm sorry is already closed, come back tomorrow- she was giving her back to the door finishing the set up of some flowers, the bell didn't ring again- I'm sorry but I already told you we're close

-i just want to pick an order I made this morning- she turned around seeing Sunghoon with his work suit she smiles and runs to him wrapping her limps on him to hug him

-Why did you take so long to come?- she started to softly cry when Sunghoon wrapped his arms around her

-I'm sorry I was busy with work, I needed to finish a lot of things if I want to spend the weekend with my little love- he kiss her forehead cupping her face to wipe her tears- oh it was true that I ordered a bouquet this morning, is under the name of my nanny

She quickly searched for the forget me not bouquet, and he paid for it, handing the flowers to her making her blush and smile like a fool, knowing what it means to receive them.

-let's go, I have your favorite takeout in my car, we can go to your place and eat while you tell me about your week.

She contently nods taking the flowers and closing the shop, getting on his car, she started to tell him about the fair of the flowers and all the things she did today, Sunghoon listened attentively opening the door for her when they arrived, she keeps talking while he plates everything, he made sure to give her bites while she's telling him about her days without him, the new things she found in the vintage store, the newborn of a couple down the street, the market and her new obsession to go there to eat.

-what about you?- she ask with her cheeks full

-I haven't done much love, just work I have a lot to do still

-but we're going to spend the weekend together, right?

-yes my love we'll do whatever you want and spend time together

-I know where I want to take you, you are going to love it, did you bring a swimsuit by any chance?

-actually… yes I do

-great because there's a beautiful lake where we can swim, there's flowers all over and really close to here there's a sanctuary for wildlife, we can go too

-I would love to do that, sounds amazing

She happily keeps talking about the new bird drinker and the seeds she left for them, Sunghoon was so happy hearing her talk about the things she makes, with deep sadness he accepted that she was more happy here and not with him, he wasn't ready to let her go yet but he'll have to eventually.

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Monday morning arrived sooner than he wanted, she was tangled with him in bed, snuggled against his chest and sleeping peacefully, in any moment he needs to leave even if he doesn't feel ready, Sunghoon still needs to work since the Company is a chaos right now, his assistant called him to tell him all the appointments and meetings from the week, even if he tried to talk lowly she woke up, looking at him with her sleepy face, he made sure to get everything before ending the call.

-good morning love, did you sleep well?- he kiss her forehead

-so good- she snuggled more on him, and that made harder for him to go

-I'm glad… I need to get ready, I need to go to work and I'm kinda far away from my office- she just giggles getting up bed

-you can shower and dress while I make your breakfast- she pecks his lips before leaving

Sunghoon took a shower and put on his suit, he gathered his things going to the kitchen, she served them sitting next to him, he eats with a heavy heart knowing is just minutes away their goodbye, when they finished she got up to clean the dishes, he looks at her doing this, so domestic and happy, she seems more distant from the life he offered in the beginning and she looks so happy here.

When she finished quickly and giggling she straddle him, cupping his face and giving him kisses all over, he smiles but soon he frowns.

-what's wrong?

-i've have been talking with my lawyer and my nanny a lot… about you… me… us

-oh really? What about us?- she said so happy fluttering her lashes

- I love you so much, in fact you're my first love I never got to experience this feeling before you… I think you're the love of my life- she feels her tummy revolve with butterflies, blushing at what he's saying- and it kills me when I'm not with you, but I have seen how happy you're here… how much you like this life and not the one I can offer you… -he extended his arm to his bag taking a file leaving it in the table- it hurts my heart but I just wanna make you happy…- she saw the divorce papers and freeze, her eyes immediately tearing- I will take care of you, will send money as my contract with you says, I'll provide for you for the rest of my life and beyond… this is just for you to be free, to have what you want and hopefully you'll find someone else that it's good for you, I know you love babies maybe one day you can be a mother… just promise me that even if you find someone else you'll call me if you need help- she couldn't understand why… why if he said he loves her why he came with the divorce papers

-i don't wanna

-my love… it's the best for you

-no, I want you… I love you why haven't you understand that?- she was feeling angry

-you're the one that told me you didn't want to be back together- she felt guilty because it was true, she got angry with what he is doing but she asked for it

-i hate you- she pushed him getting off his lap and going to her room, he followed her only to receive the door slammed on his face

-my love… please talk to me, what's wrong? What do you want from me?- she was sobbing

-go away leave me alone you liar… you don't love me… don't wanna see you in my life I hope you die- she let out all her rage on him

-i'll be back on Friday to pick up the papers… I love you with all my life- he heard her sobbing- I'm sorry my love…-

Sunghoon left driving directly to his office feeling like trash, but in the end he knows it is the best to let her be happy and finally have a choice in her life.

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Friday arrived and she was currently working, treating everyone with fake sympathy, she was still angry with Sunghoon, she hates him for not trying, because he didn't fight for them he just put the divorce papers there not caring about her.

-what it is now that you want to stab anyone coming through that door?- her boss asked her taking the scissors from her hand

-my soon to be ex husband came last week only to bring divorce papers

-and why are you angry?- she looks at her condescendingly

-because he wants a divorce he's a liar that only told me that he loved me to laugh at how naive I am- her boss let out a sarcastic laugh

-You're not serious… oh you are- miss Kim rubbed the sides of her head- let me check I got it right, your husband was drugged to damage his reputation, that's when you thought he was cheating on you but it was all set up to destroy him, you of course ran away from your home and came here, two months later he found you came all the way here to confess his undeniable love for you but you told him you didn't want to be back together, you told him you didn't want the life he was offering… and for what you have told me he told you he would leave everything he knows his life as it is now including his millionaire company to be with you here in this life you want, but you again told him no, last week he was here he arrived here to give you what you asked for and now you're angry with him?

-it's not like that, it's… I didn't asked him to divorce I want him to fight for us to show me that he loves me- miss Kim cups her face talking with all the softness she can

-darling he loves you so much he's giving you the greatest proof of love, letting you go to be happy even if it breaks his heart

-but I don't wanna divorce I love him- she cried frustrated because she knows that she's the one in the wrong

-so what? You expect him to come here everyday or every week just because you don't want any real commitment anymore? To spend the rest of your marriage making him split between his life and the one you want that's only meant for you?- she cried harder- when the storm season arrives do you want him driving for hours on a lonely dangerous highway? In winter with the snow and the slippery roads?... for what you have told me he would definitely take those roads without a second thought only to see you even if it risks his life

-what do I do?

-you have to chose, but more important you have to tell him what you want, what you really want not this push and pull between you both

Her phone rings, it's him, she takes a deep breath, because it's probably Sunghoon asking when to pick up the papers she hasn't signed, she answered the phone, but it wasn't his voice, it was a woman.

-hello Mrs Park, I'm miss Lee, Mr Park personal assistant, I have scheduled for him to go pick up the papers today, whatsoever he's not in condition to go so I'll be the one picking them, I'll let you know when I'm leaving from here to your home, approximately 5 pm.

-why he can't come?

-it's delicate, something came up, like I was telling you once we submit the papers, it will take 7 business days for the first hearing. Mr. Park asked me to get you a lawyer just for formality, not to fight something. He is willing to give you anything you ask him for- this was to much for her

-tell your boss I'm not giving you the papers… he hates me that much that cannot see me again?

-I understand your concern but he's unwilling now- she feels that rage again flooding her body- I'm gonna lose my job for this but I can't bear it anymore, Mr Park is at hospital, he haven't feeling any good since months ago and everything pile up, he threatened to fire anyone who would tell you about his health- her breath was caught on her throat

-but he was fine last week… -her voice sounds small and hurt

-i'll send you the hospital and the information about his staying here, I hope you're good Mr Park, have a great day

The call ended and she stayed there just spacing out, why didn't he mention anything?, miss Kim was closing the store and taking her keys.

-well let's go… I warn you that I am not a good driver, but at least I am better than you, who can't drive

-what? But…

-your husband is at hospital… sorry soon to be ex husband, but you're still married and he needs you now, now get going is long way to where you used to live

She just nodded while getting inside the car, indicating to her boss where to go, the waiting was killing her and she felt so anxious, the road felt like it was eternal and she was holding back her tears, reading the diagnosis.

“Underweight risk of anemia, burnout resulting from stress and anxiety disorders, sleep cycle disturbances”

When she finally got there she basically run inside the hospital yelling a thanks to her boss, in the front desk she asked for Sunghoon, his personal assistant was there and she was the one taking her to his room, when she saw him she broke to cry, with oxygen mask, fragile and connected to a lot of machines.

-he was sedated because he refused to sleep, doctors don't allow visits inside the room when he's like this

-how long has he been here?

-two days, he collapsed at his office

-but he was alright when I saw him

- I'm really gonna lose my job but part of it is make sure that Mr Park is alright, and the only dumb person who didn't realize that you was the one making feel alright was him… since you left he stopped eating, his nanny used to force him but it was so little compared to what he actually needed, he stopped going to the office, he didn't even showered sometimes, he used to send me messages in the early morning or after midnight asking me if you by any chance called, he fired a lot of private investigators that couldn't find you, everyone felt relief when someone knew where you were- she didn't knew all of that and now she feels bad for him- it got better after he saw you and spend some time with you, we all thought that things would be back to normal… he didn't told me anything about the divorce, he didn't told anyone only the lawyer, he got back on Monday and went directly to work, he locked himself on his office and didn't let anyone inside, he didn't sleep or eat at all until thursday… he had a meeting and wasn't there so I went for him and he was laying on the floor unconscious… I called emergency services and even here he refused to eat or sleep insisting he had a lot to do, he was babbling that he needed more money to left a good amount of inheritance to his wife… he said that his wife wanted him to die- ha assistant took a handkerchief to wipe her tears

-he didn't told me anything- she felt guilty it was because of her that he was here- he seemed alright when he left I don't understand how this happened- his personal assistant looked at her with some resentment and she's aware that she's the problem here the reason he is like this

-when he was already here he asked me to pick the papers get you a lawyer and also asked me that if something happens to him that you're his only heir- there's some hate on the voice miss Lee wipes her tears- if you excuse me I have work to do, Mr Park was clear on his desires

Y/n stayed there crying outside his room curled up in a chair just looking at the empty chair in front of her, her boss was still around finding her to give her food.

-I had some useful things in my car, I have a blanket, a travel pillow, I bought you some food, this fancy drink they have in the cafeteria… and for your husband flowers- she handed everything to y/n including the forget me not bouquet- he'll be okay… you ask mother nature for your true love to be back with you, don't mess it up this time okay- she kiss her forehead- I should leave, way back home is long

-i'll pay you back I promise

-just promise me if you remarry with him you'll buy your flowers with me

-i promise, but you have to be there too

-I promise too, now take the right choice okay darling?-she just nodded before she was left alone.

Y/n waited outside his room until late night when he woke up, she heard him groan and complain, she peeks through the door seeing him there, she went directly to the nurses telling them that he's conscious and they immediately entered to check on him, she watched from the glass in the door, she cried seeing him like that, so fragile when he used to be imposing, his physique demanded respect, his aura put anyone at his disposal, but now this side of him broke her heart in a way she didn't knew it was possible.

-you can come now if you want, Mr Park is a little dazed but it's normal because of the medicine

She went inside after everyone else left the room, Sunghoon was looking at the window barely noticing her presence, they already removed the oxygen mask but there's still a lot of cables on his arms and chest.

-I don't wanna eat I already told the previous nurses I'm not hungry and yes I don't care if they put a feeding tube on me

-you must be hungry after not eating for days- he quickly turned his face to see her, his face lit up- your assistant called me to tell me about this, were you planning just to divorce me? To get rid of me? For what? To auto destroy yourself?... didn't you think for a moment what I felt when they told me everything how careless you're acting?- he frowns while she cries- are you not going to offer me a hello kiss after how much I missed you, did you not miss me?- Sunghoon smiles weakly

-did you not miss me, my love?- he said with a tint of nostalgia for those words he used to say to her every day when he came home from work

-I did, a lot

-why didn't you kissed me hello then?- she got close to bed still a little unsure leaning to kiss his lips, softly, she was still crying she felt his hands on her cheeks wiping the tears- why is my wife crying so much?

-because my husband told me he loves me but wants to divorce me and abandon me, he's a liar

-that's not true, your husband loves you a lot that's why he's willing to let you go and be happy

-Haven't he thought that he's the reason I'm happy? That I love how he blows me a kiss every day before leaving for work, that he sometimes escapes from work just to go eat with me, that I look forward to our date every Saturday, that I love how much effort he puts on dressing us in matching clothes… - she cried harder- Haven't he thought how much I missed him? How cold and empty the bed is when I don't share it with him, how much I miss our goodnight kiss, or when he stays in bed with me just to cuddle together, how loved and safe I feel when he holds me, hasn't he thought about any of that? That no one makes me happy the way he does

-then why did you leave me?- his voice was broken, holding his own tears- why didn't you call? Or told me you were alright?... Why did you told me you didn't want to be together anymore?

-because I was afraid… -she cups his face wiping his tears- I love you so much it hurts sometimes when I felt that you didn't love me back, that night I saw you and my biggest fear was there, I was losing you, when you asked me to come back I was afraid to feel like that again without realizing I was really going to lose you because of me- she leans to kiss him again, both of them crying and their tears mixing- you have a dumb wife so you have to explain everything to her- she smiles remembering how he calls himself dumb so she can explain everything

-i have a really smart wife, so smart that she's the one explaining me things all the time, telling me fun facts she reads during the day- he pulled her to him, making her lay down with him in bed wrapping his arms around her -are we coming back together?

-yes, I didn't sign the divorce so you have wife until death tear us apart Mr Park

-nah I don't think so, not gonna let you run away so easily again, gonna chase you in every single life after this and make you mine again and again for eternity- he smiles making her smile too

She lays down with him, her head on his chest, careful with the cables and where her hand is.

-can we go from time to time to my little house? Now that I'll be back in our home I don't wanna left completely my house

-of course we can, maybe a romantic getaway a whole weekend just you and me, how's that sound?

-i would love to do that… are you not angry with me for leaving?

-no, I could never be angry at you

-your assistant told me you fired a lot of people and yelled at everyone because of me

-not because of you, because they couldn't do anything right, I was angry, yes but not with you, with me because I was the one responsible for you to leave

-i'm sorry I ran away and caused a mess

-don't be sorry… you needed to be away from me and everything… not gonna lie I prefer you attached to me, I like that my wife is clingy and so needy of love, makes me feel like I'm doing something good and that's why she likes to be with me- she gasped almost offended

-you're the clingy one you always ask for kisses an naked cuddles and stuff like that

-you're right but you can't blame me, have you seen how pretty my wife is, how perfect? I just can't get enough of her- he let our a deep laugh squeezing her butt cheek shamelessly making her Yelp

-stop… we're at hospital

-I would buy it if I need to just to get a taste of you

-stop saying nonsense- she gently smack his chest making him smile, leaning to kiss her passionately

She melts on the kiss, finally everything feels correct, that every piece is finally in place, that she came back home after a long time, feeling that warmth and love she always desired but now was real and it was here, on his arms.

Fin.

I didn't know you had a 10 pic limit, but anyways I hope you like this, I feel like I need it the opposite of the first story I made of Sunghoon.

I wanted a more soft Hoonie because if I'm down bad for him I want the same from him.

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Diamond 박성훈

Sunghoon married y/n because of a contract, so now they try to get along with it, she's in love with him but Sunghoon doesn't feel the same.

Tw: cursing, arrange marriage, description of nudity, one side love, there's an actual description of losing virginity, not romantic at the beginning but gradually is, face fuck, mention of squirting, there's two sex escenarios, Sunghoon is a dick like half of the story, slow burn? Idk he never actually feels in love or reciprocates her feelings. Let me know if I missed something.

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They're the perfect marriage, everyone is jealous about them, how perfect they are, how lovely and openly affectionate they present in every chance they have, when they got married every magazine had their pictures on the cover.

“Mr and Mrs Park the wedding of the year”

That day she received a lot of different congratulations, compliments on her looks but also a lot of dirty looks about how she got to marry him, she heard a lot of the women talking about how little she was and how undeserving she was of Sunghoon, she brushed off that because it was her wedding with the man she was in love since she's 10, no one would ruin that and they didn't, it was perfect.

In the honeymoon she was so excited and nervous about their first night together, she got ready took off her bridal gown and stayed in her lace lingerie waiting for him in the bedroom, when he entered he barely pay any attention to her, holding a glass of liquor and sending messages on his phone, when he finally noticed her all nervous sitting at the edge of the bed his face morph into something similar to hate.

-put your pajamas now, is late and tomorrow we have to leave early, unless you wanna stay, did you pack enough clothes?- she nods timid covering with her hands now feeling so exposed- good, we'll be a week in the Island and probably two or three days sailing, bathing suit or wherever you use if you don't have you can ask my assistant she'll bring you what you need

He took a sip of his glass before starting to remove his garments, he unbuttoned his t-shirt and removed his belt and accessories even his ring, she wasn't sure if he's gonna undress her or if she had to do it, she stayed there looking at him, when Sunghoon glanced at her and noticed that she didn't move he just sighs.

-i'll leave so you can change

-but… we're supposed to- Sunghoon turned around making her stutter- it's our wedding night aren't we supposed to be together?

-you mean sex?- Sunghoon looks at her blushing face- listen this arrangement it's because of our parents, you don't have to do anything of the marital duties, the whole deal is for our family companies stay in the same family so no one can take it from us, but that shouldn't be a problem to us because we know that, it's an arrangement between them but between you and me can be different, no attachment just pretend in front of the people so they don't suspect

-you… I, but it's… we… is our honeymoon

-I mean if you want, we can have sex will be fun for when we don't have anyone else to fuck with- he took his glass to his lips, he looks cold and distant- you want it now?

She was so sad, what does he mean anyone else? They're married now, it should be only them now, he got close starting to take off her garments, she tense closing her eyes waiting for him to just do whatever, it wasn't romantic it wasn't what she hoped for, Sunghoon pushed her to bed with her bralette half there, her breasts exposed and his hand squeezing harshly her nipple making her moan in pain, he pulled apart from her looking at her face of discomfort.

-I'll sleep in the room next to this, I'll come for you tomorrow morning to go, there will be paparazzi on the Island so be prepared to pretend, we're a happy married couple enjoying their honeymoon, not a contract that our parents did, we need to sell the story right, understand?- she nods feeling heartbroken- night rest well

She was left there, she thought that things would be different between them, she developed a crush on him since she was 10, a lot of kids at school picked at her for not being rich enough like their parents, but never Sunghoon he actually stand up for her, facing the kids that used to push her and call her names, she started to feel attraction towards him but with time and how often their families gather she fell in love, Sunghoon was everything educated, polite, good looking, good at sports, rich, a dream come true, everyone was in love with him. When her parents told her about the marriage she felt thrilled, beyond happy to be paired with Sunghoon, she actually didn't understood well the contract part because she wasn't the heirs of the company it was her brother so y/n wasn't involved in the conversations about anything, but Sunghoon was, he basically was the second one on charge of his parents company, he's intelligent for the business so it was no surprise when he was already on charge of everything. As little as her family let her know they got married to help the companies but she didn't know how, apparently the plan was marriage to merge both net worth, she was educated to be a good wife to spend the money her husband makes, to stay perfect for him in every aspect, good skin, perfect nails and hair, ideal weight and body figure, to be refined but always please him, she kept her purity untouched for him, they were promised since a long ago and she wanted to be the perfect bride for Sunghoon. He was perfect and everyone knew and comment about it, she wasn't enough so she tried a lot more to be suitable for him, on her wedding she heard a couple ladies talking about how underweight she was no curves or anything appealing for a handsome toned young man like Sunghoon, she was insecure about their first night together some girls in the members club talked about how good he is in bed she was worried about pleasing him since she never touched a man, y/n knows a couple of the girls that Sunghoon got involved with, she was worried because they were everything she is not, tiny waist big breasts and round big butt, someone said that she looked awfully flat on her bridal gown, when she undressed and stayed on her lingerie she didn't expect that reaction, was he so disappointed of her body that he didn't wanted to touch her? That he probably did it because of compromise but felt so disgusted that it was better to just left her there, she cried and cried for a long time that night, the morning was a blur Sunghoon was already dressed immaculate and when he saw her she can sense that disappointment to see her as his wife.

-it's late and we need to leave in 20 minutes- she was barely covered by the see through pajamas her mother bought for her honeymoon pulling the comforter to her chest- get ready quick I'll ask for the breakfast to be on the plane, anything is good for you?- she nods looking at him on his phone asking for their breakfast. She got out of bed taking off her clothes trying to be dressed quickly, Sunghoon was there she was embarrassed to change in front of him, he was almost like supervising that she's doing the right thing, she slipped her underwear putting a little white dress on top- are you gonna wear that?

-is something wrong?- she looks at herself in the mirror she thought it was cute, maybe a little short but she liked it, that's why she chose it and her mom let her take it to the trip- you don't like it?

-it's okay just that, there will be stairs and I don't want a paparazzi taking photos of my wife's ass, or worse that little thong you're wearing doesn't cover much- she blush pulling her dress down

-all my clothes are already packed in the plane, I don't have anything else to wear- her voice was small and ashamed, even her underwear was chosen by someone else to appeal her husband

- whatever, let's go- he started to walk leaving her inside her hotel room, she trots after him to catch up with him- remember smile, we're a happy couple- he gave her a pair of sunglasses- wear this it's obvious that you cried

She put them on just before the door of the hotel opened, it was so sudden the flash of cameras, the voices yelling, the people pushing her, Sunghoon holding her hand and guiding her to the car, once inside he relaxed all his body.

-it's only for now they'll be tired of us in a week, just now that we're the new they're following us but still just in case you'll have your own security team all the time

And that was it no more conversation, he put on headphones and closed his eyes on the way to the airport when they arrived he helped her to get down the car holding her hand to go to the plane, the stairs were there and she feels hot in her cheeks, Sunghoon removed his suit jacket putting it on her legs so she can go up she smiles at him going slowly covered by him, in the photos they looked like a lovely couple but in the plane was much the same as it was in the car or the hotel, they didn't talk again, he was reading the news on a tablet while eating his breakfast, she did the same in silence without anything to do just looking at the window, the service on the plane was nice she made sure to tell thanks for both since Sunghoon was now sleeping on his seat, she stayed there looking at her ring, beautiful, shiny, probably it cost a fortune but it was obvious being Sunghoon her husband, it was diamond to display.

The crew members informed them that they'll land soon, Sunghoon woke up grumbling fixing himself on the seat, he rubs his eyes before a pretty stewardess came almost running to give him a wet towel to clean his face, Sunghoon placed his hand on her tight pulling her closer to him, making her giggle, y/n was there watching him feeling jealousy how his hand sneak under her skirt touching her toned legs, once she was out of sight she feels the urge to tell him not to do that again.

-Shouldn't we pretend here too? There's people who can see us- she tried her best to not let her voice sound angry

-nah, my little diamond is my favorite in the crew. She knows the deal about you and me, also that we'll only have our time together when you're not here don't worry about that, not gonna do anything when you're near me or my girls- girls? More than one? Was he seriously talking about having an affair with someone when they're married

-but we're… what if someone tells the paparazzi?

-they won't, all my employees sign a confidential arrange they can't talk or sell anything about me, they'll be in jail in automatic, my girls have a especial contract themselves so no need to worry I recommend you do the same for your future partners

She was furious, how dare he have affairs but most importantly, does he think she's a slut to have affairs herself? The voice of the captain interrupted her internal rambling. They're landing now. Once the plane wasn't moving he quickly took her hand, she was confused.

-it’s a private island and the paparazzi will be hiding, it won't be obvious like in the hotel so we can only be ourselves inside the house or the ship, even if we're in the pool or gardens we have to pretend okay- he fix his sunglasses staff- will be only the necessary inside the house we want to appear like a couple who wants time alone, now smile and wear your sunglasses

The door was open and again the flash of the cameras hit her, Sunghoon took his jacket to cover her legs helping her down, she pulled down the dress to cover her bottom, he helped her until the very last step and then into the golf cart that take them to the dock, Sunghoon helped her like if he really cares about her and for a moment she let herself believe that fantasy, her childhood crush is her husband now, she wanted to enjoy this moments even if it's fake, on the yacht he didn't stop being attentive, staying on the deck holding her waist while they sail, he asked for drinks for both taking a sip of his liquor it smelled strong and she took a sip of her mocktail, Sunghoon looks at her giving her a kiss on her forehead patting her bottom softly and playfully, y/n wasn't sure why he was doing it maybe he wants to actually enjoy being married she felt happy.

When they arrived to the island he carried her bridal style making her giggle, when she looks over his shoulder she noticed a boat next to the yacht, with someone else there, someone followed them, the camera to big to not notice, she understood why Sunghoon acted like that feeling that pinch of disappointed on her, the security team quickly took them down to avoid them go deeper into the place while Sunghoon easily walks carrying his bride, now sad she pretend to smile at him in case someone else followed them. Inside the house it was like if they're strangers, Sunghoon parted his own way, choosing his room and not coming out of it all day, she explored the house, took a shower, she ate alone, only having the company of her bodyguard, she had a nap and by the afternoon when the sun sets she wanted to be outside, looking at the sky, she sits on the edge of the pool just putting her feet inside the cold water, shivering she was feeling so alone and it shouldn't be a surprise by now, in this type of life she learned that it's rare to actually have someone to care for you, except for her nannies she feels like nobody cares or loves her. Sunghoon was watching her from his window, she looked completely sad, he feels tired now to go for her, so he just asked for their dinner to be taken to her room so they can eat and have a talk.

When she arrived at her room she was surprised to see him there sitting in the divan while a maid was serving him food.

-take a seat before it gets cold

She obeyed, sitting down and thanking for the food; she started to eat, surprised it was her favorite meal, it tasted almost like her nanny’s recipe, Sunghoon observed her reaction, eating in silence, she didn't know what to talk about or even if she should, once they finished and the maid picked everything cleaning the space.

-the schedule for tomorrow is simple, we'll be by the pool most of the day, did you bring sunblock?- she nods- good do you have bikinis?- she nods again blushing this time- I hope they're pretty… now change while I tell you some things you'll have to do now that you're my wife- she looks at him ashamed

-change like in front of you?- her voice is small and trembling

-yes, do you have a problem with that? I already saw you naked there's no need to act all shy around me- Sunghoon took the bottle of expensive whiskey pouring some on a glass- start, I'll give you a card every week I'll put money on it enough for your expenses and basic needs, anything like luxury items or places out of the budget you have to inform me so I can give you the money and know on what you spent it- she was just standing there- change now I don't wanna lose my good mood- he looks at her frowning- from now on until I'm satisfied I will check your outfits, if I see something not suitable for your new standard you have to have, we're going to get rid of it, when you go to buy new clothes I'll pick them out to make sure my wife looks like a lady and not like those prostitutes at the club hunting men

She feels intimidated by the tone on his voice, she knows he's been drinking since they arrived, she saw the new bottle that now is half empty, his breath smells like liquor and his voice sounds intimidating because is hoarse, she took off her dress while he looks at her burning holes with his eyes on her, she took off her bralette covering her breasts with her arm while trying to put on the pajama top, it was translucent and she probably would have to use a robe on top so he can't look at her, hesitant she slipped her panties off quickly putting the short shorts, she's so exposed even with the fabric on her body.

-now that you're done come sit here- she obeys sitting on the divan putting her legs to her chest trying to cover as much as possible- do you sleep like this always? No underwear?

-feels uncomfortable, my undies sometimes leave marks on me

-all your garments to sleep are thin or in this fabric?

-no, this… someone else chose them for me- his hand was touching the material making her feel hot

-who and why did someone else choose your clothes?

-it's… because… it's my bridal garments, to be sexy and appealing for you… our wedding night needs to be right… everyone… my mom… my mother in law… the ladies at the club… everyone talks about how unattractive I am so I needed to at least try be sexy for you- she rambled feeling her cheeks burn in embarrassment and her eyes about to spill her tears- I know the type of girls you like and I know I'm not even a little like them but everyone told me my job was to keep you satisfied and happy… you spent a lot of money on me so I can marry you so I need to be a good wife- he was amused by how sensitive she was how she was almost crying telling him all of that, how basically she admitted that him and his family bought her from a family with less money

-you think you're a good wife?

-it doesn't matter… it only matters what you think of me, I can't afford a divorce neither my family… I promise I'm well educated on being a good wife

-well I'll judge that these days, but you don't have to cry- he got close to her softly taking her on his arms carrying her to bed- pretty wifes don't cry for silly things, especially because your husband can buy anything you want- seeing her like that switched something in Sunghoon, he noticed with simple tasks how she obeyed without complaining, how she bites her tongue to not say anything about the things she doesn't agree, it was obvious how she was giving him something that he always loved, power, he holds all the power on her just like he does with all the girls he sleeps with- just tell me what you want, I'll check if it's suitable for you and your status and if it's I'll make it come true- she looks at him standing next to bed, her eyes still sparkling with tears

- can you be more affectionate in private with me? That's what I want please?- he was caught off guard, she was vulnerable, in every aspect the money of her family she doesn't have access to, love or affection? she's alone and will be on his house- I don't care about money you can buy me as much or as little as you want just wanna some affection

-little wife is so clingy- she's about to protest when his lips touched hers, it was soft at first until he started to get intense pulling a part- my wife wants to have our first night?- she nods looking like a deer in the headlights- undress

It was a clear order, he didn't even tried to sugarcoat the request, Sunghoon stand up tall and imponent next to her bed, she quickly started to take off her shorts a little unsure to remove her top, her trembling hands finished undressing instinctively she covered her naked body, he pulled her to him taking her hands off her breasts leaving her exposed to him, he cups her face pulling her for a kiss, messy with tongue and hot, it was the first time someone kissed her like that she feels hot, getting wet moaning on his mouth, when he pulled apart his eyes darkened.

-get on your knees- she quickly obeyed looking up at him, he felt himself twitch- go ahead be a good wife and suck me- her trembling hands opened his pants and pulled down just enough to free his member, she looks afraid because it's so big without being hard- have you ever suck a dick?- she shakes her head as no- I'll teach you, open- she did as he said, he smirks taking his length on his hand- tongue out- Sunghoon taps his tip on her tongue- you have to suck, no teeth, use your tongue, like when you're having a lollipop

She did, letting him push his length inside, he grunt and she sloppily sucks making him moan, he makeshifts a ponytail guiding her up and down groaning, he started to thrust inside each time deeper until she gags around him, he smirks pushing her again making her gag and her eyes water, he was testing if she'll tell him to stop at any point but she never did so he started to fuck her face he moaned looking at her face, she looks so innocent, her eyes sparkling with tears, drool on her chin, so helpless totally at his mercy, Sunghoon increased the speed of his thrusts, he was so rough and she feels like crying, why isn't him treating him with care?, Sunghoon didn't stop his member completely hard on her mouth and on the edge of his release, she was holding his thighs trying to push him a little, tears running down her face, her jaw sore and her knees hurting, he cums on her mouth with a deep guttural moan.

-well done, my wife is so good- he smirks pulling her hair to take her mouth off him- swallow everything and show me- she did opening her mouth- get on the bed, on the edge legs hanging from it- she got up doing as he said while Sunghoon took off the rest of his clothes.

She was feeling unsure to keep going, sensing that it's not going to be a romantic first night as a couple, he placed himself between her legs, he popping her legs on his shoulders looking down at her, how she was wet, he chuckled, running a finger up and down her folds.

-what a good wife already wet for me, is all this for me?- he teasingly pinch her clit making her moan and blush- I didn't bring any condoms but you don't mind right?- she shakes her head and he's about to push inside

-wait… - she really wanted to stop but she just reminded herself that she has no choice but to be good for him- can you kiss me please?

-ugh so clingy, we'll work on that later- he holds her hands putting it above her head, pushing inside without any care making her scream in pain- so noisy too- he rolled his eyes leaning to kiss her only to make her shut up.

Sunghoon pushed harshly dragging his hips, feeling how tight she was, he grunt on her lips kissing down her cheek to her neck leaving marks in every inch exposed, he took one of her nipples on his mouth sucking roughly biting making her whimper, her tears run down her cheeks. He was so rough and it hurts so much, she bites her lips trying to stop the noises coming out from her, y/n expected something completely different from her husband, that sweet boy who used to defend her from her bullies at school, the one who always offered her favorite things during dinners and the one who always looked for an excuse to let her leave early at the boring get together between their families, was not here, she closed her eyes just accepting this. Sunghoon thrust inside fast and rough, she was clenching still her body trying to fit him comfortably to minimize the pain, he left her hands free holding her hips so hard it was bruising her skin, he roughly rubbed her clit feeling her spam before cum inside her.

-tiny pussy took me so well, I have a really good wife- he smiles while he pulls out taking whatever is close to wipe himself, dressing only his lower half- night, tomorrow 8 am for breakfast in the garden be ready it might be a photographer near- his voice was so cold it made her shiver, she looks from the spot where he left her sweaty and sticky, the door closed and he not coming back.

Sunghoon left her used and broken, that was it? No kisses, no cuddles or reassuring words, her body hurts but what's worse she feels so dirty now like if she's just one of the girls he sleeps with and not his wife, with the barely strength she still have she took the same handkerchief he used to wipe herself, she noticed his cum mixed with blood feeling more tears streaming down her face, trying to be quiet she dress herself again getting inside the blankets, crying until she couldn't be awake anymore.

Sunghoon looks at his watch, 8:05 am, was he not clear on the time? He takes a sip of his coffee and looks at the maid.

-where 's my wife?

-i'll go for her Mr Park, she must be finishing getting ready- the maid gave a subtle smile leaving immediately

The maid rushed through the house knocking on her door, but she didn't answered, the door opened and she just complained because of the light burying herself on her blanket, the maid got close to the bed seeing the dirty handkerchief and Sunghoon’s forgotten garments.

-Mrs Park, breakfast is ready and Mr Park is waiting for you- her body couldn't move even if she wanted- want me to help you dress I'll go quickly to inform that you'll be ready in just a few more minutes

-no, please- her voice sounds broken- I'm not feeling good, can you tell him that I'm sorry, I don't know what I have

-let me check on you Mrs Park- the maid removed the comforter from her face seeing her swollen eyes and red cheeks, she placed a hand on her forehead feeling how hot is her skin- you have fever, let me go get more people, I'll run you a bath and bring you medicine don't worry Mrs Park

Y/n was thankful that they didn't forced her to be downstairs, especially because added to the pain in between her legs she wasn't sure if she wants to be around Sunghoon today, the maid arrived with a thermometer, a wet cold cloth that she put on her forehead, she rushed inside the bathroom to prepare the tub for her, going into her closet to find something comfortable, finding an oversized maxi dress meant for the beach, getting it ready for y/n, she looks how the maid does everything trying to stop her.

-i'm okay, I just need to rest a little you don't have to do all of this

-oh Mrs Park you're too good for this life, can't you see you're sick?- the maid came quickly taking the comforter off her body, helping her to stand up and walk to the bathroom when she noticed how y/n's legs didn't have the strength to do it- I already asked for your breakfast Mrs Park

-y/n, my name is y/n- the maid smiles with a sweetness she haven't felt in a long time

-I know, Mr Park gave us a list of everything you like, you don't, favorite things, allergies, everything about you, also your nanny sent the recipe of your favorite food so you don't miss home now that you live with Mr Park- she blushed once again the service people were more affectionate with her than her own family including now her husband

-thank you… I'm sorry I don't know your name

-Jinri or Mrs Min it's okay my darling

Y/n let Mrs Min help her, getting in the tub, even helping her to wash her hair, she felt pampered like she haven't felt in a long time, she stayed for a little just enjoying the water while the maids got her bed ready again. Sunghoon on the other hand was furious, looking at his watch seeing how the time just goes but neither his wife or the maid had the decency to show, he got up clearly pissed finding everyone in the house in a rush, all his employees doing something, he stopped one of the younger maids who was carrying bed sheets.

-what is going on? Why the hell all MY employees are doing anything but what I asked?- his voice was stern

-mrs Park is not feeling well- Sunghoon looks at her like if he just insulted him- I'll go wash the sheets so I can remove the blood stain

-what blood?- he very rudely snatched the fabric seeing the red spot on the white- what happened? Is she hurt?

-it's normal Mr Park, sometimes after the first time a woman can bleed, Mrs Park just got a little fever but the blood is nothing to worry about, with your permission, I'll leave.

Sunghoon feels rage, why didn't she say anything last night? He got to the bedroom, the cooker was there leaving her breakfast, the maids making the bed, when they noticed him everyone bowed.

-everyone out- his jaw was tense, everyone rushed out of the room he sits on the bed next to her freshly ironed dress, waiting for her, when y/n came out of the bathroom she froze seeing him there- why didn't you tell me you were a virgin?

-it was something obvious- she holds the towel around her body harder

-why is that something obvious? Care to explain- she can sense how he's containing all the rage he's experimenting

-good wife needs to be pure and untouched for her husband… I kept myself like this for you, so you don't feel ashamed to have a bride that someone else touched… your mother insisted in a clinical exam before all the arrangements of the wedding, they took me to the doctor to certify I was pure for you, it was part of the clauses that I had to fulfill to be your wife- Sunghoon feels more rage on him wanting to break something

-dress now and come sit to eat- his tone was hard so she obeyed, he got out of the room just for a second coming back surprising her- why are you taking so long?

Y/n started to dress putting only panties, her body was hurting and Sunghoon examined every inch exposed, seeing all the bruises he left, she put on the dress, slowly walking to the divan, in that moment the employees came in knocking to serve his breakfast too, the maids smiled at her and she did the same, starting to eat, he was just watching her putting his cold hand on her cheek feeling how hot it is, making her stiffen.

-why you're not wearing a bra? Do you want everyone else to see your tits?- she covered her breasts with her hands even if she's completely dressed

-they only packed one bralette to give you easy access to my body- she said embarrassed- now it's dirty so I don't have anything to wear on my chest… I'll put something after breakfast

-no, I like it, leave it that way- Sunghoon takes a bite of his food- wanna a copy of the clauses you had, and from now on you have to talk about anything about you, if you don't want or like something- he holds her chin to make her look at him- you have a dumb husband you have to explain everything- she hesitates before talk

-i don't like that you left me last night- she looks down to her plate avoiding his face, he still looks and sounds angry- you used me and left me, you called me clingy and noisy… you treated me like a prostitute- she feels like crying again

-you're not a prostitute

-no but you make me feel like one… I was hoping for us to be together and it made me so angry that you have your girls, like the crew member on the plane- she frowns feeling jealous, she didn't even know why if he haven't treated her right- I wanted to be just you and me, for you to not have affairs or cheat on me… but after last night I don't want you to touch me again- she hugs herself putting some distance between them on the divan

-you're my diamond, I married you

-don't call me that… that's how you called the girl on the plane- she feels angry now, but also so deeply sad- you can cheat on me just don't let anyone see you, everyone already think I'm a failure as a wife I'll never hear the end of it if they know you cheated on me

-they’ll talk about me not you, I'll be the one with other woman- he got close to her trapping her between his body and the cushion

-You don't know what it's like? They're gonna blame me for not being enough for you, for being such a terrible wife that you had to find someone else… everyone is gonna talk about me- Sunghoon looked at her and how her face morph to deeply sadness- they already think I'm so unworthy of you it's just gonna be worse

Sunghoon didn't know what to do because deep down he knows she's right, he takes her chin gently pulling her for a kiss, soft how she likes it remembering that she wanted for him to be more affectionate, he gently wrapped his arms around her hugging all her body feeling her body relax and melt on his arms, when he pulled apart he smiles seeing her more now like she was at the wedding easy going even happy.

-I won't do that again- he smiles seeing her only nod- let's get you ready, I wanna swim with my wife

Sunghoon went to the closet choosing a bikini, red, really small and he could imagine her wearing it or packing it thinking in pleasing him, he helped her to take off the dress to put on the bikini, he tied up the strings on her back, getting on his knees so he can slide up the bottom part, adjusting everything around her body, he kiss her tummy on the bruises he left, looking up at her.

-i'll go change, finish your breakfast okay?- she nodded and Sunghoon left her in the room. She did as he said, eating the rest of her breakfast.

Even if Sunghoon didn't properly apologize she was feeling slightly better with him, she waited for him not sure if she needed to be only in her bikini so she covered with a towel, when he came back Mrs Min was following her.

-you feeling better?- Sunghoon looks directly at her

-yes, just that my legs still hurt a little- she mentioned ashamed

-don't worry we’ll just be by the pool all day nothing to extreme- he gave some items to Mrs Min, including her towel and dress leaving her only in her bikini she tried to cover herself with her hands- let's go my little diamond- she frowns hearing him call her like that again

-don't call me that- she cross her arms on her chest offended

-I forgot okay? C’mon let's go- she didn't move making him roll his eyes- c’mon don't be angry for a tiny mistake

-i'm not a prostitute I'm your wife- she was pouting turning her back on him

-I know I won't call you diamond again… what do you wanna be my pearl? my gold ingot?… you want traditional like honey, sweetheart

-nothing- Sunghoon never did something like this, usually everyone only accepted what he called them being completely at his mercy

-don't be like this with me- she was about to protest when his arms wrapped around her waist and his mouth was giving kisses on her neck, making her feel timid- my love, I told you, you have a dumb husband- she moaned at the pet name and his kisses- you like that?- he caress her body kissing with devotion her shoulders and back- you like being my love?- she nods- then that's what you're, my little love- she relaxed letting him touch her and kiss her moaning when he kiss on a sensitive spot- we should stop, or else I'm gonna undress you and make you all mine again.

He turn her around to kiss her on the lips, not so soft this time, a little hungry, he lifts her wrapping her legs on his waist, she hugs him hiding her face on his neck even giving him a kiss there, he walks with her on his arms until they got to the pool sitting with her on a lounge chair, he fixed her legs so she can straddle him comfortably, he lays down watching her, holding her waist so she cannot move, the maid arrived with drinks leaving them next to them, she feels shy because is kinda intimate the position she is in, his hand reach for the sunblock passing it to her.

-Can you put some on me? Please my love- she blush doing as he says rubbing the sunblock on his chest, neck taking his arms to do the same, then she leaned to put on his face- kiss me- she pecks his lips- that's not a proper kiss you can do better- she leaned giving him a proper kiss this time, she feels him hungry, starting to get hard making her pull apart

-don't wanna do it again, still hurts on my… down there- Sunghoon smiles taking the bottle of sunblock on his arms to start putting some on her

-it's okay, besides we're outside I don't want anyone to see my wife in a way I only can see- he rubs her body completely putting it everywhere, legs, arms, breasts, bottom, her back, pulling her to lay on top of him rubbing her bottom and playing with the strings of the bikini- did you pack this bikini thinking in me?- she nods- what were you thinking when you decided to bring it?

-I thought that you may like how it fits in me… but after seeing your diamond I'm not sure if I look good- she mentioned frowning

-i saw her in a bikini it doesn't compare with you right now

-don't lie to me only to make me feel better

-it's true, she's… you know average girl with plastic surgery, nothing impressive but you my love… -she blush hiding her face on his chest- you have this cute little butt- he squeeze her butt cheeks making her moan- and your tits, those perky nipples are so pretty I like to see you naked and with this I can only imagine you like last night, I see you with your red bikini and it's tempting me to take it off

-don't say things like that someone is gonna hear you

-i can't love my wife out loud?- she didn't know what to say, she just looks around trying to spot a paparazzi to justify why he's saying that he loves her, Sunghoon noticed how she's looking for someone around, getting up walking to the pool, she holds onto him afraid that he can throw her in the water

-i'm not good at swimming- he wrapped his arms tighter on her

-well if you're not good at swimming you'll have to hold onto me all the time- he slowly gets inside the water holding her- gonna keep you here safe with me- the water was below his collar bones and he started to undone the strings of her bikini in the back making her gasp

-what are doing?- she's squirming on his arms- someone can see me naked

-that’s exactly why I'm taking it off so you don't slip from my arms- he smirks- you won't let anyone see what's mine, will you?

-no… but - Sunghoon kiss her to distract her removing completely the top part of her bikini, he threw the garment outside the pool she gasped holding him tighter so he doesn't pull apart to expose her

-i like you clinging to me

-it's not fair… what if I wanna go out? everyone is gonna see me

-i'll take you out

-but if you wanna go out and left me here

-i won't, I won't want to be a part from you when you're looking this good- she was about to talk again when he kissed her making her blush embarrassed- you're worrying too much when it's supposed to be our time to relax is our honeymoon- she frowns it was their honeymoon but only feeling like one when he's in the mood

Y/n was overthinking while Sunghoon was just examining her, he playfully started to kiss her cheeks going down her neck, her arms wrapped on his neck while his hands traveled all over her body, touching and feeling her, slowly she let herself go, enjoying how he seems like a man in love of his wife, she holds him melting on his arms sighing with pleasure Sunghoon seems to know her sensitive spots kissing them making her moan.

-can you let me make you mine again? I'll be gentle this time- she was so drunk on him, that all her body said yes but her mind was saying no

-don't wanna be just another girl- Sunghoon kissed her with devotion

-you're my wife not another girl

-but you have all your girls to spend the night with, don't wanna you to touch me after you had sex with other people- he pulled apart from her looking at her eyes- I don't wanna feel like I did last night ever again… and it hurt a lot, not just that part but later it hurt my heart- she's pouting wanting to cry making Sunghoon mimic her pouting too

-but wasn't my intention to make you feel like that, I didn't knew it was something important for you

-it's because you don't love me, you don't see me as your wife just the contract they made you sign

-no, that's not true

-if they let you choose… would you marry me?- Sunghoon didn't want to lie so he just stayed quiet- would I even be an option?

-would you marry me if the contract didn't exist?

-I would- she said without a doubt, making Sunghoon frown since he didn't expect that- I have been in love with you for a long time now, I was so happy when they told me… since we were at school I dreamed that you'll be the one rescuing me, you did it a lot of times when people uses to bully me… now that we're married I like to believe that you like me back sometimes, but at the end of the day I know you were forced to be with me, I'm okay with that… with you liking me a little everyday, giving me affection and love even if it's fake… I just don't want you to use me again, because it hurts when I realize that you don't love me but it's worse when I know you take advantage of that love I have for you

-I don't know what to say to make you feel better

-you don't have to make me feel better, it's not part of your contract… it's only in mine though… Park Sunghoon would take possession of the inheritance lot assigned to the heiress y/l/n y/n, fulfilling his duties within the company, always being her main provider to cover her needs, ensuring that if he's not longer here she'll have a fulfilling sufficient part of the money to live comfortably for the rest of her life- She recited the part of the contract that talks about his duties as a husband- that's the only part of your contract where they mentioned my name or me in general, the rest it's the company or my parents

-yours must be the same we sign the same thing- she shakes her head as a no

-I'm aware that my parents sold me to save their company I'm just glad at least they sold me to someone good… don't wanna keep talking about it, can you do that again?- she got visibly sad, her eyes reflect all the miserable treatment she's been through

-do what?

-kiss me and call me your love… don't wanna keep thinking in this

-oh my little love is needy of affection, such a clingy wife I have

Sunghoon said but there was no tease on his tone, instead was pity underlaying with sweetness, it did made her feel slightly better hearing that and he did as she asked kissing her neck, her cheeks and her lips, caressing her body like if she's gonna break in any moment, he didn't mention anything related to them or the contract, he even made her laugh a couple times, swimming with her on his arms, by lunchtime the maids started to set the table for them, one of them got close to hand them the top part of her bikini she blush while Sunghoon helped her to put it on going out to sit and eat, they talked a very lighthearted conversation about the things she likes, Sunghoon listened carefully smiling softly at her, she felt so complete in that moment.

She didn't wanted to keep swimming so after eating they just lay down on the lounge chairs, he reapplyed the sunblock on her staying there caressing her hair.

-can I have a nap?

-do you wanna a nap love?- she just humms- wanna go inside?

-no, I'm comfortable here

-then sleep, I'll be here waiting for you to wake up, maybe you'll be up before the sunset and we can walk on the beach

She closed her eyes after receiving the permission from him, sleeping laying on her tummy, once like that he started to call his lawyers to have a copy of both contracts and the clauses for her, they sent it to him almost immediately he compared both contracts spending a lot of time writing and signaling everything that was different for both, even he took his laptop to work on it, using his specks and putting all his attention there, he spent a lot of time doing it not noticing when she woke up.

-are you working today?- he stopped frowning seeing her awake looking at him

-no my love, I'm just reading something, entertaining myself while you were napping- he closed the laptop getting close to her giving her a kiss on the head- do you wanna go for a walk? The beach is really pretty here and we can see the sunset

-i would like to go

Sunghoon helped her to put her dress on top of her bikini, kneeling in front of her to put on her sandals, he slipped his t-shirt taking her hand walking to the beach, hugging her from behind seeing the beautiful place, she was marveled, melting on his arms, enjoying this time.

The rest of the week there was more like what she expected, he didn't mention anything about the contract again, since he only find out that she was taken out of the family business like if she's not a daughter of his family, giving him all the power over her finances and overall life, he didn't dig more on the exclusive clauses for her since his lawyer told him only his mom and his family lawyer had the copy of it. On her side she learned more things about him, Sunghoon is extremely organized, he schedule everything from breakfast to going out, he checked her outfits every single day just to make sure she looks appropriate to be next to him, he even match the color of his clothing to look better together, he wasn't much a talker but a listener, and she was glad to tell him about her dreams of the night, what was her hobbies before getting married, things she noticed on the island, things she learned there too, the current book she's reading; she was happy that it feels cozy and domestic being with him like this, and she felt even better when Sunghoon ignored the crew member on the flight back home paying attention only to her.

-I know you're probably tired but today at night it's the annual charity dinner, it's supposed that we go together- he takes her hand kissing the back of it- it will be the first public appearance as a married couple, but if you're tired I'm not gonna make you go

-it's okay I got to rest a lot on our honeymoon

-i'll ask my assistant for a dress that you can wear and something to eat while they do your hair and makeup

He kissed her cheek making her smile, the rest of the flight they just stayed sitting next to each other reading, he was checking some things of work and she was reading a novel, when they land they parted separate ways so they can both get ready, she was in a salon where they did her makeup and hair, her nails, everything assuring she was perfect for him, his assistant arrived with the dress for her to change, she was nervous on the way to the dinner Sunghoon's assistant was telling her the protocol and schedule for the night, when they arrived Sunghoon was waiting for her at the entrance, holding her hand to go inside, he said hi to everyone there, everyone bowed to him.

-you look stunning my love- he whispered on her ear

-thank you, you have a really good taste choosing my clothes and hair

-it doesn't matter what matters is the model, in this case you

He pulled her inside, taking her hand and guiding her to their table, it was a regular dinner where they talked with everyone who got close to congratulate them, Sunghoon entertained himself by talking with one of his partners about business. She excused herself to go to the bathroom to wash her hands while they served the dinner. From there everything happened so fast, her usual bullies and the ones that talk about her in the most harmful ways were there waiting for her, making fun of her little dress and pointing on how she looks cheap even with the money of her husband, then the wine cold on her skin, her dress ruines and she crying running to hide, her bodyguard followed her informing the others what happened following her, his bodyguards got close to him to tell him about his wife.

-i'm sorry to interrupt Mr Park but Mrs Park was attack by miss Lim and her daughters, she's crying now

Sunghoon frantically got up going to search for her, their bodyguards telling him where to go, he found her in one of the empty ball rooms, crying sitting on the floor her dress ruined and her makeup too, the bodyguard waiting for them outside, Sunghoon kneeled in front of her.

-my love what happened?- he cups his face taking his handkerchief softly wiping her tears

-it was an accident

-don't lie to me, I can't do anything about it if... I know who did it and what she said to you... please tell me what happened- she pouts crying more, hugging him, he cradles her shushing to calm her

-they called me a gold digger, that I'm just a broke bitch and my family sold me like the whore that I am- she looks at Sunghoon with her eyes sparkling with tears he pouts looking at her- they treated me wrong and spilled their drink on me, I promise I didn't do anything to embarass you, they approached me and started to call me ugly names

-my poor wife, I know you're my good girl, you're a good wife too... my assistant is waiting for you with a change of clothes so you're comfortable on the way back, go change I'll wait for you to go, okay?

She nodded, they got up from the floor and she followed his assistant to the bathroom, Sunghoon saw her go, going back to the main dinning room, asking his bodyguards to block the entrance so no one can go out, taking a glass of the champagne and getting up the podium taking the mic.

-good night distinguishes people, as you may know I'm newly wed and this is the first time my wife and I come to one of these important events- y/n arrived to the hall seeing him there- you already know my wife, Park y/n, she's the pretty girl by the door waiting for me to go home- the heads turn to her seeing her sad face making her blush- it's really early and I know there's still a long way into the event, this marvelous event about empathy, charity and to provide selfless help to the ones in need, the Park family is deeply rooted to those values as a person, my wife too that's why we're together, along with so many great qualities as a person it's what made me marry her, I adore my wife I'll kiss the ground where she stepped because is holy to me- he takes a sip of his glass making eye contact with her smiling- whatsoever were leaving early on this important night because some people don't know how to behave, some of the guest here have money but non a bit of class or good taste, that why this distinguish ladies on the front seat, miss Lim, and daughters decided to talk down on my wife and not just that with the decency of a monkey they threw wine in her gorgeous dress, they hurt my love and tried to ridicule her, but as a civilized man I'm gonna do things right, so just wait for my lawyer to pay a visit to you, I'm gonna make sure you end up in the ruin after the lawsuit I'm gonna put against you- he smile devilishly- and this be a warning to all of you, if someone dare to even look down on my wife I'm gonna make sure you go to ruin suffering the consequences

He left going straight to her, she was still astonished when he pulled her to kiss her in front of everyone, he wrapped his arm on her waist and she like always did melted on his arms feeling safe, a sense of peace but overall love grew on her chest making her heart feel warm, Sunghoon pull apart taking her hand and leaving the event. On the ride home he talked with his lawyer to start with the lawsuit against the Lim family, setting the details to also buy a big part of their company, when he ended the call she looks at him.

-why did you do that?

-you're my wife I won't let anyone treat you bad for any reason

-it's gonna be worse for me... I'm their trash bin

He was about to deny her but his phone rings, it was his mom scolding him for what he did.

-I remind you that she is my wife, not just anyone, she is a Park and will be treated as such, good night mother I'm tired, I haven't rest since I came back today, I'll see you next week- he hangs on his mom taking her hand to kiss it- go directly to shower I'll be in your room for my goodnight kiss okay? I'll go shower too

She just nodded, when they arrived she was escorted by maids, since it was the first time she was there on her new house, in her room all her things from the house she used to live with her parents were already there, her clothes, her makeup, books, her electronic devices, the maid told her where is her closet the bathroom, the brand new products for her to use, she thanked her before she was alone, she took her time showering when she went out Sunghoon was on her closet picking up her pajamas, he didn't have to tell her since is something he does every morning and night, choose her clothes and check her while she gets dressed, even if she was getting used to him seeing her naked all the time, today it felt different, maybe because he did the same as when they were at school, he defended her from those who hurt her, like that her heart felt more love for him, Sunghoon didn't talk much when he was about to sleep, pulling her for a kiss when she finished getting dress pushing her to bed and hovering over her she responded to his kisses, he pulled apart before it was too much and he couldn't stop himself, he got comfortable next to her holding her on his arms.

-now tell me... How's that you're a trash bin?- she looks at his chest only playing with the fabric of his pajama- who told you that?

-no one... It's just the truth

-how?

-i'm not someone important, I'm just the girl that exists in the background, nobody notice if I'm there or not, only when they want to throw their shit on me, I'm used already everyone always told me I was a beggar because my family didn't have as much money as others, since they know I was gonna marry you they haven't stopped calling me a gold digger, everyone thinks I don't deserve to even breath near you... the wedding day everyone talked about how bad I looked in my dress- she's tearing up- I have always been too ugly, too skinny, no curves, no grace, nothing special... boring and dumb, that's how the ladies at the club call me that's why I stopped going, my parents told me people asked about me sometimes but I'm sure it was only to have someone to talk about... also it's not the first time it's physical, one time at the tennis court they hit me with a racket and throw the balls at me, they cut my hair badly at the salon because Mrs Lim was there and payed for that... the scar on my forearm was because they locked me in the gardeners warehouse and the grass shears fall on me cutting me

-why did you never stop them?

-my family is not that powerful they have more money than us it wasn't an option, I could only accept it, besides nobody believed me when I told them... I'm their trash bin since I'm like six, they used to hit me at school too

-my love- he kissed her softly- never again I'm gonna let something like that happen to you, no one would ever do something to hurt you, like I told my mom you're a Park now and you'll be treated as such- he pecks her lips getting comfortable with her in bed- now sleep

-are you gonna stay with me?

-yes, unless you want me to go to my room

-no, I like you here, I don't wanna feel disposable tonight... Is it too much if I ask to be held all night?

-not at all my love- he pulled her to his chest holding her to sleep together.

It was the first time they shared a bed, but most important, the first time he ever shared a bed with anyone, it felt different, magical even, the feeling of her warmth her body visibly smaller than him, how she snuggled on his arms finding the best position to sleep, it didn't felt suffocating like all the times girls asked him to stay with them, it feels right like if he's meant to be there.

In the morning she woke up, the weight of his arm around her waist was the first thing she noticed, they did sleep together, she heard the maids talking outside her room.

-mr Park is not in his room, what do I do? He made clear the morning routine, the breakfast is on the making, nobody knows where he is, the bodyguards said he hasn't left the house but I searched on his office he's not there

-maybe Mrs Park knows where to find him- the subtle knock on the door and then the slight gap- Mrs Park are you awake? Can I come in?

-yes- her voice was tiny and she felt nervous that they will see her sleeping with him- good morning- she said first seeing the maid astonished looking at the sleeping figure of Sunghoon holding her

-good morning Mrs Park, sorry we didn't know Mr Park was here still sleeping... he asked for your breakfast to be ready by 8, it's almost done

-oh, would you be so kind to bring everything here please?

-no problem the table hasn't been set, we'll bring everything here

-thank you- she smiles from her spot in bed, seeing the maid leave happily

She heard how the maids whispered about Mr Park sharing a bed, one of the maids asking if he was naked, she blushed because apparently it was something big to find them together, it wasn't a long time when everyone was back in the room setting a table and chairs there for them to eat, she moved him a little while he stirred awake.

-breakfast is ready- he just growled holding her tighter- is gonna be cold if you don't wake up, also I'm hungry

-i'm hungry too but hungry for you, wanna eat you- he said in his morning voice finally looking at her, red in embarrassment, he smiles and kiss her hungrily, she pushed him

-behave a little- the maids were trying their best to not look at them doing their work- don't say stuff like that

-why not? You get shy?

-yes because everyone can hear you and see you- Sunghoon finally looked around the room finding the service putting on the table

-good morning Mr Park, breakfast is ready Mrs Park changed it to her room, call us if you need anything- they bowed and leave running

-why didn't you tell me I had public?

-because you didn't let me, and besides you never say things like that just today

-it's because I dreamed about you, it was a nice dream with you making me feel good- he sits with her kissing her cheek- good morning love, now let's go eat before it gets harder to leave bed

They shared this peaceful morning until it was time for him to go get ready, he kissed her goodbye while leaving.

-i'll be here for dinner okay? Can you wait for me till then?- he kissed her at the door

-yes, have a nice day… -she saw him go, a little doubtful and still unsure she said the words she wanted to say to him out loud- I love you - Sunghoon listened before getting on his car, surprised he looks at her blowing her a kiss

She giggled, even if he didn't reply he did something affectionate, she went inside again, getting ready on the outfit he choose for her, she was just on her room spending most of the day there until the maids called for her.

-mrs Park, Mrs Park your mother in law is waiting for you downstairs

She sighed knowing exactly why she's there, she just went not asking questions or talking at all, her mother in law was talking but she didn't pay much attention getting in the car to the doctor.

Sunghoon was at his office solving some things related to her inheritance and how he's supposed to manage her part of the business that legally belongs to him only, he was deeply in thought when his assistant came in.

-mr Park, your lawyer send this document, about your wife's prenuptial arrangement- he looked up from his specks, taking the document- also doctor Lee send this bill related to your wife's surgery consultation

-a surgery? Put doctor Lee on line with me and ask in my house when and with who she left to the doctor?

-yes Mr Park

To say that Sunghoon was furious was so little compared to what he was actually feeling, he talked to the driver that was with her wife and mother to immediately come to his office, he read all over the prenuptial agreement along with his lawyer, when they arrived his mother directly went to kiss his cheek.

-you look good, it was good for you to go on vacation- she sits in front of him on his desk, y/n was still standing behind her not talking at all

-i wasn't on vacation only, was my honeymoon- his mother scoffed

-sure baby, you did a good job making the paparazzi believe that you are a real couple… you go get me a glass of water- her mother in law asked her, she was about to do as she said

-my love come here- Sunghoon extended his hand and she immediately obeyed- he pulled her to sit on his lap kissing her cheek- did you not miss me?

-i did, a lot- her voice was tiny

-why didn't you kissed me hello then?- she pecks his lips making him smile- did you have a nice day?- she nods- are you sure? There wasn't anything you didn't want?- she looks unsure and with fear to her mother in law

-i'm sure it was nice I read a lot today

-why didn't you tell me you wanted breasts implants?

-i probably forgot to mention- she looks down, avoiding his eyes, Sunghoon cradle her like a baby

-I see, so this prenup has nothing to do with it… let's see, point number two body image, subsection b, to accomplish a suitable look to be at the same level as Park Sunghoon the interested will have to undergo all the surgeries that the doctor, choose by Park Ayun, my mother, suggest… the surgeries must be in benefit of the interest of Sunghoon to achive the perfect look for him… anything to say love?

-i want them, all the surgeries so you can like me- she closed her eyes hiding her face on his chest

-i see, haven't you thought that I already like your body?- she looks up at him with hopeful eyes

-please baby don't say non sense

-i wasn't talking to you mother, I'm discussing this ridiculous arrangement my wife was involved without me knowing, what's worse is that this stupid thing mentions me like if it was something I asked

-I know what's better for you

-yeah so let's see… point eleven obedience, subsection a, the interested is obliged to comply with the orders that any member of the Park family can ask for, from housework or personal task and she must accomplish every single one of them with a smile and good attitude since now she's part of a bloodline that will dignify her as a person… what type of bullshit is that? She's my wife not a maid, and even if it was for my service I would never ask for something so stupid like that

-you have to understand that we did a favor buying her and her miserable family business

- enough, we didn't buy her, certainly, she's my wife not an object

-baby we basically picked her up because of that

-no you thought you did, but I chose to marry her, because I like how she is as a person, I don't give a fuck if I gain a company, if I want I can sell it to her dad again

-watch your language I'm your mother

-looks like you're just a stranger, especially because you made this thing without asking me… how can we undone this?-he asked his lawyer who fixed his glasses

-well since is an prenuptial arrangement in which only one of the parts was aware of it can easily be resolved as inadmissible due to lack of mutual agreement, also, since it affects the interests of Mr. and Mrs. Park, who are my clients, I can proceed for perjury with aggravating circumstances to mental and physical health

-you won't sue me baby, I'm your mother

-try me and you'll see

- I don't recognize you Sunghoon, I'm so disappointed of you, your father will know why you did to me

-please escort my mother out- his personal assistant did as he said- now why didn't you tell me about it?- he looks down at y/n snuggle on his chest

-I did… when I told you when we had our first night together, they made me do a clinic exam to check I was virgin, I did it twice first when they wrote this and the day before the wedding

-yeah you told me that but not all the horrible things you sign up for, extreme diet, surgeries, obedience, all of that… listen it's true that I like orden and control but not like that, I will make sure you have a proper diet but based in yummy things just like the ones I ask the cookers to make for us, I'll take you to the doctor if you need it and for regular check ups just like I do for myself… and the thing about your image and me controlling how you look is just because I don't want people to talk about it or look down on you ever again, not because I think you are below me

-thank you- she pecks his lips- for being good with me

-it was true what I said, I didn't buy a wife if it was someone else, I would never ever have agreed to get married, I do like to be with you since school… I think you're really pretty and cute, smart too, you're kind and sweet- she wraps her arms on his neck and he helped her to straddle him

-that means you can fall in love with me? Do I have a chance?- she looks at him with her sparkly eyes

-a big chance- he smiles making her squeak leaning to kiss him, passionately

-i can wait for that to happen, I'm gonna be a super really good wife so you love me back

-you're already a good wife- he caress her bottom giving her gentle pats on it- can we have our marital duties back?

-i still don't want you to touch me after your other girls- she pouts at him

-I'm ending my contract with them… just so you know it's only the one of the plane I don't have more or a lot… I won't see her again, I'm asking people to respect my wife and it would be hypocritical of me to not do the same- she smiles kissing him again

-can you be soft with me? I didn't like it rough, and I want aftercare like kisses or just you staying with me…

-I promise, I'll be better, I'm sorry for being an asshole with you when we first got together… I just don't know how to be committed, I never had anything like a relationship I was free to do anything and when girls asked me to commit I just left

-it hurt a lot when you to left me like that after you took my virginity

-i'm sorry my love, I'll be good for you- he dips his face on her neck kissing her there unbuttoning her blouse- you still wear this lingerie? I think I like this so that's something we'll be keeping- he kiss down her chest- it's appealing to me- he kissed her nipples sucking it even with the fabric there

-what if someone comes in?- her voice sounds more like a moan

-i'll fire them

-but that's cruel… we can just go to our house, I don't wanna our first real time together to be in your desk

-that's a better idea- he smiles while closing her blouse again getting up with her in his arms- let's go my love… do you want me to ask everyone to move your things to my bedroom? We can share and sleep together every night

-i would love too

Sunghoon left his office telling his assistant to cancel everything left for the day, to not call him until he's back at the office next day, he got into his car not taking his hands off her, touching every inch, kissing her with desperation, in the house was the same he asked to no one be allowed inside his room unless he called for them, he left her softly in bed.

-now my love undress- he smiles seeing her happily removing her garments.

This time he took his time with her making sure she was enjoying every second of it, rubbing her clit and kissing her, swallowing her moans, he made sure she was wet and when he pushed inside he just stayed there waiting for her to get used to the stretch.

-are you feeling alright love?- she just nods- I need words

-yes… Can you do that thing on my clit? Feels good- Sunghoon rub gentle circles on her sensitive bud, hearing her moan and clench around him- move please

He started softly, dragging his length in and out, he leaned to suck on her nipples making her scream in pleasure this time, everything was completely different she was feeling like it's the right thing, not like she was forced to, gradually he thrust inside her faster and harder, kissing every inch of skin he could reach leaving marks just that this time it didn't hurt her it made her feel really good.

-i feel like I'm gonna pee- he chuckled seeing her red of embarrassment

-let it go it will feel good- she squeeze his biceps holding as much as she can- it's not pee, cum my love let go you're gonna feel good

She did all her body spam, the feeling washing over her she moaned loud he didn't stopped chasing his own release, she clenched harder around him the sensations flooding her body, he grunt cumming inside her, leaning to kiss her riding their orgasm.

-was it good my love?- he smiles seeing her nod

-i like it so much how it felt- he was still settled deep inside her kissing her cheeks

-i'm glad you like it because now I'm not gonna leave you until you can't anymore- he started to move again not so soft like the first round

-feels funny… I feel really tingly here- she signaled her lower abdomen

-it's your body telling you that it wants more, but no worries I got you love- he smiles devilishly before increasing his pace.

She moaned, screamed and scratched him. Sunghoon put her in every possible position, making her cum so many times she lost count, a white ring already formed around his length and that squelching sound echoing in his room. Her last orgasm surprised them, she squirts without a warning making her red in embarrassment.

-I'm sorry… I didn't knew- but Sunghoon only felt proud on his chest- I didn't knew I can do that- she screamed feeling him thrust harder cumming inside her, she was already crying

-fuck that's the hottest thing I've ever seen, you think you can do it again?- he looks at her, cheeks covered in tears- what happened love? You didn't like it?

-no… I just…- she wipes her tears- I just felt really good it made me cry- he smiles leaning to kiss her, really messy starting to move again, she whimpers making him frown- no more please… I can't… it hurts

-i'm sorry- he cups her face giving her soft kisses and wiping her tears- gonna pull out okay?- he carefully pulled out seeing her spend pussy glistening with her arousal and his cum dripping out of her- fuck… you look so hot my love… gonna clean you okay?

He got up from bed, going into the bathroom taking a wet cloth, he first wipes himself putting on his pajama pants only, going out to her, he softly wipes her cleaning her crotch, she was feeling relaxed and so tired, her eyes barely open, he wipes all over her body giving her kisses in all the marks and hickeys he left.

-wanna a nap please- her voice sounds so tired but happy

-then sleep, I'll be here waiting for when you wake up- he makes sure she's laying comfortably, she's snuggling in a pillow hugging it, he kneels besides bed kissing her nose- sweet dreams love

She fell asleep almost immediately, he covered her with a blanket, leaving momentarily to ask for her things to be move into his room, tomorrow while he works, he asked for the dinner too and to bring her snacks for when she wakes up, he stayed there on his room working in something on his laptop trying to be really quiet he was like that for almost an hour.

-thank you, can you make some more for when Mrs Park wakes up?- Sunghoon was holding his cup of tea while one of his maids was serving him the last drop in the little pot

-of course, would you like me to bring cookies or pastries too?

-that would be so nice, the list says she likes strawberry flavored cake

-with ice cream- her sleepy voice made them look at her

-you heard her, strawberry cake with ice cream please

-right away- their maid smiles at them loving how affectionate they're, going immediately for what she asked

-did you rest well, my love?- Sunghoon just got up opening his arms, she got up quickly running with trembling legs to hug him

-really well… I'm still feeling like jelly-he kiss her forehead wrapping his arms around her- and my pussy hurts

-ow my love is all sore… I'm sorry I think I may just made my way for all those days you denied me- he kiss her touching her still naked body

-i think I should put on clothes before someone else sees me like this

-maybe…- Sunghoon started to kiss her neck pulling her body to his- maybe I don't want to put clothes on you- touching her all over

-no more please…- She gives little sighs of pleasure- I'm still too tired to do it again- he pulled apart

-only because your snack is about to come- he goes to his closet and takes an oversized t shirt coming back to put it on her frame sitting back on his chair taking his tea and offering her a sip- is it good?- she nods, blowing on his cup to sip it again

-May I come in?- the soft gentle voice of the maid resonate on the room

-yes- her tiny voice still sounds a little sleepy, the maid came in leaving her dessert there and pouring some tea on a cup- thank you

They were left alone again and she contently eats a little of her cake, doing a little dance of happiness, giving him a little too, enjoying the proximity and how intimate they got, not just passionate sex but this, moments covered with a certain sweetness that neither one of them thought possible at the beginning.

Maybe Sunghoon didn't love her yet but she felt close to that feeling, to have him for eternity because he would want that not because of a piece of paper. Maybe y/n loved him too much that he had a new sense of comfort with her, it wasn't power over her, it was different, something he couldn't name yet, but at least the feeling made him want to stay like this, like if after all this was the right and only thing to do.

Fin.

I hope you like this, it's my longest fic and finally my bias, I have a lot of ideas for him but idk I'm not sure if y'all would like it.

So this may be new but if you have an idea I would love to hear it, my ask box is open, not sure if I would call request open but I'll try my best to write if you want.

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Oh wow I never thought I'll get 100 notes on anything I'll write, thanks to all of you for liking this 💖💖💖

Little love

Heeseung takes care of his baby alone, after some struggle his wife needs time away and he takes charge of everything.

Tw: slight suggestive almost nothing, fluff daddy Heeseung pure comfort in my opinion

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It was never easy, it started without planning anything, back then Heeseung only felt how she drifted away from him, how she stopped answering or wanting to see him he waited until he couldn't take it anymore going to her apartment waiting in the rain for her to open she was coming back from the convenience store down the street when she saw him soaking wet and with an apologetic face, she quickly put her umbrella over both of them.

-I’m sorry- she looks at him confused not understanding why he was saying this- I'm sorry, I know I'm sometimes don't know when I fucked up, that I work until late night when you need me but I swear that I love you and nothing is more important to me than you're

-Hee I'm not angry with you- Heeseung always apologized for things that he even sometimes didn't knew made her upset, always wanting for her to feel loved and appreciated- let's go inside you're gonna catch cold, you left clothes here from last time

He just smiles following her letting her prepare a warm bath for both, undressing himself before help her do the same and getting both inside, his gentle hands started to caress her body, he was smiling giving kisses on her neck and shoulders so happy that she wasn't angry with him, but that relief lasted only a few minutes when she started to cry, he was petrified.

-did I hurt you? Sweetie, what's wrong?- her sobbing broke his heart and he thought only in the worst, what if someone harassed her, hurt her, what if it was him? He could never forget himself- I think I'm pregnant- Heeseung’s hands stopped completely shocked by the news, but then extreme happiness rushed all over his body.

-i'm gonna be a dad, we should definitely move together now for our baby- Heeseung back hugged her spilling some water kissing her neck with more passion- maybe we need a bigger space so he or her can grow happily and have their own room- he was blinded by the happiness that he almost didn't noticed how she cried more- what's wrong? You don't want the baby?- he felt a pinch of pain on his heart thinking about that possible escenario where she have an abortion, he could never push her to do something against her desires and even if he really wants this baby he won't pressure her to feel the same as him.

-you're not angry?

-why would I be? You want me to be angry?

-i I don't know… your career your dreams… I ruined things I should have take better care to avoid this- she cried harder scared of the future

-no, don't ever say that- he manhandled her to make her straddle him cupping her face and looking straight into her eyes- listen this and listen well… nothing in this world is more important to me than you, you're my dream, I can change career, job, house, the car, I can replace anything in this world but you, there's not a single person in the entire universe that can replace you, I don't love anyone else you're my true love I want you for the rest of my days- she was pouting looking at him Hee kissed her softly- and to be fair probably it's my fault that you're pregnant because I can't never have enough of you- he squeeze her butt shamelessly, pulling her closer to his body, feeling her naked breast on his chest making her squeak surprised

-stop now… this is serious I need you to think with your head not with your little friend

-we both know is anything but little- he wriggle his eyebrows

-you're impossible- she finally let out a sincere laugh, but soon enough her brows knit with worry- are you sure you want this baby?

- I want what you want princess, if you wanna keep the baby I'll be more than happy to be a dad, but if you don't I'll take you to a clinic- Heeseung kiss her forehead taking the body wash to help her clean her skin- since the first day we started to date I told you I was your slave that didn't change

- I don't know what I want yet

- we can figure it out together- Heeseung finished bathing both of them taking her out.

In the bedroom he started to dry her, playfully he started to touch an kiss her naked body until they ended up making love, he was so enchanted by her, reassuring her that everything will be alright, and she did believe that, how can it be wrong when everything feels safe inside his arms? The morning after that Heeseung woke up early to make breakfast for her putting extra effort to the best his cooking skills allowed him to, by the time she woke up the apartment smells like pancakes she could hear him cursing putting only a long t-shirt to cover herself, in the kitchen he was struggling flipping things in the pan making her laugh, seeing her genuine smile made him happy himself.

-good morning baby mama- he kissed her passionately

-good morning baby daddy- Heeseung blush hearing her- I just suspect that I'm pregnant the test is still on my purse ready to be done just that I'm afraid

-you want to do it together- she just nods and Heeseung takes her hand following her to the bathroom, waiting for her outside until he heard the gasp, he opened the door and found the pregnancy test with the two lines confirming his new dream come true- oh fuck we need to buy a crib a house, diapers, I'm gonna schedule an appointment for the doctor- Heeseung takes her face on his hands kissing her so passionately

- are we sure? I mean… you really want a baby?

-did you notice that I almost go out to yell everyone on the street that I'm gonna be a dad? - he said playfully and she let the worries go for now, he dropped to his knees pulling her close to him giving kisses on her belly- hi honey, it's your daddy, I found today that you're here and I can't wait to meet you, I love you, I love you so much you can't even imagine, please grow healthy mommy and I will wait for you

That melted her heart, hearing his usually carefree boyfriend to be so soft for a human being they both created, she felt safe and for the first time in the last couple days she didn't feel afraid of the future, Heeseung was there and will be for the rest of her life, she didn't have to worry.

The following months were a rollercoaster of emotions, Heeseung change completely his dream of being a singer, he left his group and was now dedicated to be a producer and songwriter for the same company, he move out of the dorms to buy a small house were they moved together, the appointments to the doctor, how she left her job as a barista when her bump was so prominent she couldn't do anything and had no other option but to take a break until the baby was born, the remodeling of the house the build up of the baby's room the small wedding they had, along with Heeseung's needy persona she didn't have a break, everything was pure happiness with small episodes of sadness, worries, emotional meltdowns, morning sickness, sore feet and back pain, but overall a constant feeling of safety, she felt it on her chest that warm every time Heeseung did something for the baby and her; then the actual labor, Heeseung cried for half an hour holding their new born, a beautiful baby boy, it was the most perfect human being Hee has ever seen.

-we made him- his tears didn't seem to stop while he carried the fragile body on his chest- can you believe that we did the most perfect little being

-don't cry Hee, he's gonna think you don't want him- she said extending her arm to wipe his tears, tearing herself seeing the scene in front of her

-never in life… daddy is so happy to finally be able to hold you my little Junghee

Things were smooth for as long as Heeseung had the paternity leave, when he have to be back at work she started to crumble down, little by little she started to feel bad about this whole thing, she didn't feel capable of taking care of herself much less another human, slowly her capacity to take care of them deteriorated, Heeseung was working extra hours because of a comeback of his ex members he was on recordings until late night sometimes coming home to find her crying while carrying their sleeping baby, he noticed how the dark circles under her eyes where prominent and noticeable, how her voice was strained of the constant crying, he knew it wasn't alright, trying to find another way to actually manage his work and family life. It was when Junghee turned 3 months old that he arrived around five in the afternoon only to find his wife curled up in a ball in bed

-sweetheart I'm home now, where's the baby- he looks around the room only seeing her, his thoughts always searching for the worst escenario

-I don't know, I can't anymore- he felt his body run cold, desperate to find his baby, but in that moment Junghee cried on his crib he ran to the baby's room quickly took him on his arms, bouncing him to pacify him, he quickly noticed the state of his son, he sighed preparing the bath for his baby cleaning him and removing his dirty diaper, he peaks at the room seeing his wife crying.

He started simple, bathing his son, changing his clothes and giving him a bottle until Junghee fell asleep he put his baby back in bed to go attend his wife, he prepared the tub for her too, making sure it's the way she likes it, back in the room he gently took her on his arms undressing her.

-let’s go sweetheart you're gonna take a bath and we'll go to the doctor

Y/n was unresponsive, letting him do anything to her crying some more feeling the lovin hands of Heeseung helping her to wash her hair, it's been days since the last time she did it, when he took her out Heeseung made sure to wrap her in the softest towel, combing her hair and dressing her up like a doll, he even put on her skincare and she couldn't help but to feel disgusted with herself, since Junghee was born she haven't take care of herself. Heeseung got her ready the diaper bag for them to go out, taking his son on his arms and his wife's hand to go to the car, he secured their baby on his chair in the back seat and also secured y/n on the passenger seat, he drives singing softly for both of them smiling at them until he parked outside the doctor, he made an emergency appointment knowing it wasn't normal the way she feels, he knows that motherhood is hard but not the point she's reaching now.

Doctor Min was a really kind and patience human, that's why he liked him and trusted him to take care of both his treasures, the doctor first examineded Junghee prescribing an ointment for the diaper rash he develop due the lack of constant changing, then y/n when she started to explain what she felt Heeseung feels his world crumbling down too, how he couldn't notice? Was that horrible as a husband and dad that he failed to notice?

-I truly love Junghee I'll never do something to hurt him on purpose…just that I can't…I don't know… I'm not ready… I'm a bad mom don't wanna be one- and she broke down there crying her soul in the doctor's office- I feel like he hates me because he knows I'm the worst can't even take care of myself much less him

The doctor listened and gave her a tissue to wipe her nose, Heeseung was bouncing Junghee to not wake him holding her hand to reassure her, he gave the prescription in bold letters on top it reads “postpartum depression” he indicated for her to take a break from taking care of the baby and pills to regulate her hormones and help her get through this, Hee stopped at the pharmacy on the way to their home buying what she needs, also stopping at her favorite place to have dinner, when Junghee woke up in the restaurant and started to complain her eyes immediately teared, Heeseung was fast and took a baby bottle from the bag feeding him.

-is okay princess see?, he just was hungry… you must be too choose whatever you like- he leans to kiss her temple

She let him love her and take care of both, even if she felt that pinch of guilty leaving all the responsibility on him, she ordered and took a few bites of her food, Heeseung started to hand feed her while eating himself and holding Junghee, smiling brightly and making silly conversation about something that happened on his work, even making her laugh a little.

-I think it would be beneficial for you to go on a break… your cousin Youngseo lives in Jeju and you haven't saw her in years, maybe you can go for a few days to clear your mind and your heart- he proposed still smiling

-but what about you? you don't wanna come?

-I have to work darling, also some alone time will help for your mental health

-Youngseo doesn't know how to take care of babies how am I going to make it alone if you stay here?- she started to panic but he hold her hand

-Junghee will stay with me, I'll take care of him

-but your work you have… you can't… I have to take care of my baby- he cups her cheek making her look at him

-princess you need to rest, what's happening to you is not something easy… I'll sort myself and work, besides I'm sure the members will be so happy to help me while I'm at the company… I haven't been fair with you I promised you that will be together to solve everything but I haven't been around that much… I can take care of my little boy while you take care of that beautiful brain of yours- he pulled her to kiss her lips softly

-what did I do to have you? To even deserve you?

-I don't know maybe being the most beautiful girl ever to lay your eyes on me even when I was a pathetic looser

-you were never pathetic

-but yes a loser… and now I look hot as a dad, don't you think little Hee?- he baby talked to their son- little Hee said yes very much- she looks at both with love on her eyes, she truly loves them just couldn't understand why she couldn't take care of her baby or herself

-i love you… just a couple days okay? And I promise I'll be fine- she leaned to kiss him

-take all the time you need, just come back to me

The next day in the afternoon he dropped her at the airport, saying their goodbyes, she was holding her baby hugging his tiny body and kissing the top of his head.

-I'm sorry I promise I love you… I'll be back to be the mommy you deserve- she gives her little son to Heeseung- please take care of him

-you offend me, you sound like I can't take care of my son- she looks at him judging her husband

-you didn't shower for three days because of a videogame I have reasons to doubt

-it was one time and before I even knew you were pregnant I changed, I'm a new man and this one is responsible of himself, his hot wife and his cute son- she giggles pulling him for a kiss

-please forgive me… I'll do things right when I come back… I love you

-you don't have to be sorry and I have nothing to forgive, I love you you're the only one that I care about… oh sorry no, the second one I care about- he looks at Junghee who is giving one of those baby smiles and babbling- he says that he loves you that he'll wait for you to be ready… now go or you gonna loose your flight

He kissed her one last time seeing her go, he hates the idea of letting her go, or be apart for longer than a work day, but he knows is the best for y/n and for Junghee, he stayed in the airport until he was sure the plane took off.

-just you and me now, I hope you trust daddy to take care of you- he got in the car securing his baby on his chair- listen you may think or be confused about why mommy left, well she wasn't at her best, but is not because she doesn't love you… in fact she loves you a lot sometimes I'm jealous because I meet her before you and I think she loves you more than me- Junghee giggle and Heeseung acted surprised- what? My own child laughing at me

He kept talking to Junghee when they arrived home, his baby was already sleeping, he took him to his crib, putting the baby monitor to start cleaning the house. How couldn't he notice the state of everything in their home? The big loads of undone laundry piling on the washing machine room, the almost empty pantry, the dirty dishes, he did everything he could accomplish before Junghee wakes up he almost finished with the laundry and vacuuming the house when the baby complained he quickly got there to hold him making him stop crying.

-oh so you like daddy's arms, well I still need to clean so you'll come with me

Heeseung searched for a video tutorial on how to use a baby carrier, to make sure Junghee will be safe while he does the housework, while his baby was in bed he was crying.

-i'm sorry, I'm doing my best okay? Just give me a second, are you hungry?- he checked twice that everything was secure before even putting Junghee on the carrier or take a step, once his baby was flushed to his chest the crying stopped- so you really like daddy's arms, do I have a little spoiled baby?- Junghee giggle and Heeseung couldn't help but to smile feeling warm all over his chest- so this is what love feels like? I felt it with your mom the first time I saw her, the same I feel with you right now- he looks at his son with deep love enchanted by him and how tiny and fragile he is, he does have the same Bambie eyes as him- so that's why your mommy tells me no to do those eyes I feel like I can do anything you ask me for

Heeseung spend solid 30 minutes just looking at his baby, caressing his soft hair and kissing his head, even hugging him and rocking him to soothe his complaining, it was until he realized about the time that he started to do the chores again hearing the babbling and baby talk even answering like if they're having a proper conversation, he was completely exhausted sitting on the couch with his baby drinking his bottle.

-my beautiful boy… are you enjoying being only with daddy? I'm enjoying very much being with you, don't let mommy hear me but I think you're the love of my life- he traced his little features with one finger, enjoying how soft his skin was looking at his Bambie eyes attentive of every move Heeseung makes

Heeseung was like an expert taking care of his little son, even if he relayed on his phone and YouTube tutorials to do things for Junghee, like washing his clothes on a separate laundry load how to apply lotion and make a baby massage to relax him and put him to sleep, he took the bassinet installing it on his room next to his bed.

-You'll be daddy's roommate until mommy comes back, to keep each other company even tho you have your own room… but I'm not used to be this lonely- he changed his onesie and rocked him to sleep before laying him down, only watching him with love eyes, Heeseung couldn't believe how eye-catching his son was.

He got himself comfortable sending y/n a message, wishing her good night and telling her how much he loves and misses her. The next morning he got up really early checking on his sleeping baby, grateful that he only woke up once hungry and for a diaper change, he showered with the baby monitor on the bathroom afraid that he might wake up and cry for being alone, as he learned yesterday he likes to be held, he got dress and even made quick breakfast and prepared a bag for the day, counting diapers and bottles when Junghee cried, but this time different more heartfelt, Hee quickly picked him up looking with worry at his son rocking him and patting his bottom, hearing his little sobs slowly changing to his regular breathing.

-what happen? Did you get scared? I'm sorry daddy didn't want to make you afraid, I was making my breakfast and yours too- his baby was cradle in his arms and he was swinging him softly he leaned to give him kisses on his hair.

Hee went to the baby's room to choose his clothes, Heeseung was so happy taking a shirt similar to one he owns looking for a matching outfit, he started to fill the baby tub to bath him, doing it with so much care making sure to hold Junghee tight enough, he never put that much of an effort to be soft with someone, he wrapped him on a towel only taping his body to dry his skin, Hee put him on the changer talking to him so he doesn't cry, once he was done he place him on the carrier to go take breakfast he gave a bottle for Junghee helping him burp after before even thinking in eat himself, he checked the time hurrying up to get on time for work.

-I didn't think that much what I'm gonna do with you, but I just know you're really well behaved you just like to be held all the time which is inconvenienti if I need to do something, but you also stay pretty well in your chair or whatever if I talk to you… guess you don't like to feel alone but I know you love daddy so much and that's why you're gonna be a good boy and behave at my office

He kissed his forehead starting to put things on his car, toys, the baby gym, the stroller everything just in case he needs something to entertain Junghee, he secured him on the car seat driving to his office, in the parking lot he found his ex members who came to say hi but we're astonished seeing his baby there too, the last time they saw Junghee was in hospital after he was born, surprised by how much he grow and overall how much he looks like Heeseung in a mini version.

-it’s definitely yours… don't miss understand I'll never put in doubt y/n but he's your copy… just much cuter- Jay said- can I hold him?- Heeseung nods giving authorization, he'll need a lot of help to take everything out from the car if he doesn't want to come up and down all those floors to the parking and to his studio.

Everyone took something to help, Jay was holding the baby careful with his head all of them went up and everything was smooth they helped put together the baby gym while Heeseung went to the cafeteria to ask for hot water to have in case his baby is hungry, when he came back he found everyone panicking giving toys to his crying son, he immediately frown.

-what did you do to my baby?

-nothing he just started cry- Sunoo said with embarrassment, Heeseung got close seeing his little son extend his tiny arms to him, he understood what happened, holding him to his chest and giving him a kiss on his hair

-you don't like your uncle's either only daddy… what am I gonna do with you?- Junghee stopped crying immediately like all those times when Hee holds him

-so he's a daddy's boy- Sunghoon looks at them with fondness

-also a mommy's boy, he just loves us way to much I like to think

-where’s y/n by the way?- Jungwon asked

-she's in Jeju, with her cousin it was a family matter and I'll be taking care of Junghee alone until she's back

The day was easy even with Junghee on the studio, his ex members went for periods of time to watch and play with the baby, even the staff, everyone was enamoured by how easy it was to be with him, how well behaved he was even when he was this tiny, by the time of his naps Heeseung improvised a bed on his sofa, putting the cushions so he can't roll and fall, he watches him sleep for sometime feeling inspired to write a song about this love he feels everytime he looks at his son, he worked on it for most of the afternoon until it was almost time to leave, Y/n called him, he answered happy to see her through the screen, she looked better, relaxed and at peace.

-hi gorgeous, how is everything going?

-hi… good I think I went to an spa today and for a walk at the beach… but- she stopped herself having this unsure feeling of share what's on her mind

-but… is okay you know you can tell me everything

-it's just I felt guilty that I'm enjoying here alone but I don't feel like this with my baby- her eyes fill out with tears

-no, don't do that to yourself… I know is not easy, but this is what you need, to relax to be alright for you and Junghee… also it's my fault too I left all the responsibility only to you- she shakes her head denying him

-you work so hard for us, I should be able to take care of him

-you work hard too… all the house work, Junghee, you… dealing with me is a lot sweetheart

-but…

-no more but… is okay to need time and space, we'll wait for you at home, besides we're also having a good time, he's a super star here at hybe, everyone come to see him do nothing just like now- he focused their little baby sleeping peacefully- I understand why they do I also just stare at him… I still can't believe we made the most perfect human

-you're not angry with me?

-no, why would I be?

-for everything I did

-what being hot? No darling that's not something to be angry for… giving me the most perfect little being? That's actually the best thing someone ever did for me… try so hard to do everything even when you weren't feeling well? That's something to admire… I'm so lucky to have you I could never be angry with you- she finally cried on the phone, but she was smiling

-i love you so much

-i love you too, keep having fun I'll see you in a couple days

The week pass, everyday with the same routine, Heeseung got so used to take care of Junghee that he couldn't imagine going to his studio without him, everyone else also was so used to see him carrying his baby that now people asked how's Junghee not him, he smiles knowing that his son stole everyone's heart with his calm demeanor and how he asked always for his dad, almost like if he wants to only be glued to Heeseung, his ex members constantly went to the studio to see his baby even taking gifts with them, from toys to baby clothes, he was spoiled there; even in the meetings Heeseung had to attend Junghee was there with his pacifier looking with Bambie eyes at everyone in the room, they made sure to not talk so harsh or yell to not upset him, everything seems to revolve around this tiny human and Heeseung feels so proud that it's his son the one everybody loves.

-what type of sorcery did your mom and I used to make you? Everyone is in love with you- he baby talked after the CEO went to check on his son, not him and the song he was producing- even my boss comes to see you and admire how cute you're

Heeseung took a break from his work to lay on the floor next to Junghee who is on his baby gym, he likes to play with him watching the new movements and sounds he makes, smiling when he babbles almost like replaying to the previous conversation. He took him on his arms and lay down with Junghee on top patting softly his back putting him to sleep, Hee did the same dozing off holding his baby and feeling complete like nothing in this world is important only this little moment, minutes later Jake arrived to see the baby but seeing the scene unfold he just snapped a pic and sent it to Heeseung with the caption I'll come back later, sweet dreams mini Hee.

When he woke up his baby was still sleeping he looks down at him kissing his head sitting carefully to not wake him, he saw the photo Jake sent putting it as his lock screen, he sent it also to y/n telling her how much he loves her, he got to work again holding Junghee in one arm cradling his body and using the other one to finish the sending of some files, he works in silence until the little complain made him look down, Junghee was slowly opening his eyes and when he focused properly first thing he saw was Heeseung smiling immediately melting complete his dad's heart.

-did you like it more to sleep with daddy?- the baby babbling came immediately- you did? You're so spoiled by daddy and you know that- the little giggle makes Heeseung smile wider- you enjoy having daddy wrap around your little finger don't you?- and like if he knew his tiny hand closed around Heeseung's finger making both giggle- yes you know and you enjoy every bit of it… guess what? mommy comes back tomorrow- the little scream of excitement melted him more- yes, she missed you so much

He video called his wife to let her see Junghee, since she haven't saw him everytime she calls he's already sleeping or playing with someone else, when she answered the strong wind of the beach and her telling them to wait makes Heeseung laugh, she went inside the cafe looking at his baby.

-hi my love- Junghee looks at the phone seeing his mom, trying to grab de screen babbling happily- you miss me? I miss you too- he babbles smiling and moving his feet excited- I wanna hold you and kiss you too… he looks so happy Hee, like he really loves me- she started to tear up

-he does loves you just like daddy does

-i miss you so much, both of you… being away only helped me to reaffirm how much you meant to me, how much I love having a family with you… that it was the right thing to keep the baby he makes me happy I was just afraid of hurting him or not being enough

-sweetheart if something I learned taking care of him is that he doesn't care he just likes to be with us, he already thinks you're the best- the happy babbling made her cry happy tears- see? He just said I love you mommy, you're the best- he focused his tiny face and just by seeing her he smiles and giggles melting her heart too

-i love you too my love, you're the most important being in my life, your dad is second

-i heard that but I'm not offended

-i talked with a psychologist here I think I wanna go to one regularly

-I’ll help you find one

-you don't think I'm overreacting right?

-you offend me again, I'll never think something like that

-you're the best that why I married you

-I though it was because of my looks and how good I'm in bed

-don't say stuff like that in front of Junghee- she blushed

-I was thinking that I wanna make another one, or just have the practice of making one- he wriggle his eyebrows

-you're like a horny teenager

-can you blame me, I haven't seen or feel my wife in days

-you still find me attractive? I saw my cousins in a bikini and she's just wow… I have tummy now and stretch marks

-yeah because you carried my baby there, you look so hot because your boobs did grew and now they're bigger… I'm imagining it and God I'm gonna have a problem in my pants- she blushed so intensely hearing how much he still desires her body, the one she sees with a lot of imperfections

-thank you

-for what? For loving my wife?- he huffs- no thank you for being this hot- she giggles like a teenager hearing her first love confess

- I love you

-I love you too sweetie… I was thinking that maybe you can go back to work at the café, maybe take a part time in the morning, I can bring Junghee here and take care while you work then you can come pick him up and I'll see you at home

-really? Can I?

-of course, you loved your job… this way we both take care of him, we both work, we have more money and weekends to go out like a family

-i'll consider it thank you… for being the best husband someone can ask for and for choosing me to be your wife and help me get through everything

-nothing to say thanks for I do it because I love you and my mini Hee

The next day he was waiting at the airport for her, with the Junghee on the carrier and he holding a sign “Heeseung's wife Junghee’s mommy” when she came down and spots them she ran to hug both of them, Heeseung holds her by the waist pulling her on his side to kiss her passionately, he didn't care who can see them or what they can think, he was so into the kiss that he only pulled apart when the babbling became little yells of excitement.

-Envious you don't want to share mommy with daddy- he laughed taking him out of the carrier so y/n can hold him

-my love how much I missed you- she kiss his head hearing his little giggle- I did missed you a lot- she hugs her tiny body crying

-don't cry he's gonna think you don't want him- he repeat the words she said when he crying when Junghee was born, wiping her tears

-never if he's the most precious thing that I have… then it's you- she smiles seeing him leaning to kiss her temple and Junghee's head

-let's go home you have to tell how your vacation went and I have to really bury my face on those titties- she gives him a smack on his shoulder, laughing

Heeseung wrapped his arm on her shoulders guiding her to their car happy to see her being herself again, to hear their baby happily reply to them and be so attached to them only, this was truly his dream come true.

Fin.

So there's baby fever in my family now, and I just couldn't help but to imagine Heeseung like this.

Also I activated my anon messages if you by any chance want to talk, thank you again little stranger for reading me.

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Every breath you take 박종성

Jay becomes obsessed claiming he's in love, pure sick love, he finds always the way to be there

Tw: obsessed Jay, he's a pervert doing not good stuff, panty sniffing and stealing, stalking, mention of making someone disappear but there's not a proper description of it, yandere if you squint (yes I like to read yandere) this is my first of this type so in my opinion it's not so heavy or dark

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Important: I feel like I shouldn't even say this because we're all rational people and we all know this is fiction, that it's not a big deal, but I have been witness of how so many dark fic writers received hate for it and how many of them deactivate, but I know that if you read this is because you wanted to. I would say that you have to be over 18 to read this, and that I'm not responsible for the things you decide to read, certainly I don't believe Jay or anyone in Enha is like this because this is just fiction.

🎶Every breath you take

And every move you make

Every bond you break, every step you take

I'll be watchin' you🎶

Her life was so simple, y/n was just a college student with friends, a part time job and a small apartment, everything she needed, boring not anything out of normal, nothing exciting or out of the common; it was like that until he lays his eyes on her, it was simply attraction, he saw her just walking down the street one time catching his eye immediately, she was carrying her bag from college holding a pile of books on her hands, he went to that campus because his family was a benefactor there, he went to set the details for the plaque with the name of his family at the entrance of the university, as well as the event that will be held in celebration, he stopped listening when she appears, the dean noticed his lack of attention silencing himself until Jay turned again just confirming that he will be there on Friday in the name of his dad and grandpa.

By Friday he got ready hoping to see her again, he gave a little speech thanking for the recognition searching in the crowd for her, it was the last part of the ceremony he was taking the photo when she walked past them not giving two seconds of her time to whatever was happening there she was rushing holding her books to her chest watching how she gets in a café in front of the University, he finished his things and followed her looking at the tables finding her in a corner buried in books and a cup, she was studying probably and he was fascinated by her, he ordered something to not look like the creep he was in that moment when she left he followed her, Jay didn't know what got him but he feels so attracted to her, he followed her until he saw her entering a store, he waited outside all day looking at her working seeing her leave at night, he followed her again watching her go inside the apartment complex.

Jay didn't know how or why but he found himself doing it again the next day, then again, until he knew which places she often likes to go, he was frequenting the store where she worked, he never went inside just outside looking at her. His world was the opposite of hers, polished with money, composed, serious and frigid, Jay had that old money thanks to his grandparents, he wasn't just rich he was basically the owner of the city where they live, of course the clothing store where she works was too cheap for him and she noticed the first time they meet.

Jay was unsure to go in, just looking at her from outside the window-shop, he took a deep breath stepping inside smelling the new clothes and cherry perfume, there is barely anyone inside since they just opened, the store lacked of customers and it was only her and another two employees, she got close to him and his heart pounded hard on his ears.

-Hi, welcome, how can I help you?- he was paralyzed, was he so obvious watching her? She was taken a little back intimidated by his strong gaze- are you looking for something in particular?- she examined his clothes, how his suit was perfectly tailored and it fits him like it's just made for him, he smelled expensive and looked like a million dollars she couldn't understand why he was there- well if you need help with something you can let me know, my name is y/n and I'm here to help you- she signaled her employee tag smiling and going back to fold clothes 

Y/n felt that intimidating gaze on her following her movements, she went inside the storage on the back to take out the new clothing in the huge boxes, carrying it herself struggling to do so, suddenly the weight of the box was removed from her arms and Jay was standing holding the box.

-I need help with something… where you want me to put this?- his voice was stern and cold

-over here is okay- she pointed to the exhibition in the middle of the store- thank you… how can I help you? 

-I’m not really sure about my size you think this would fit me?- he was carrying a basic cotton t-shirt, making her laugh, he frowns 

-Probably would fit you like a crop top, it's for women- she smiles while taking the garment- follow me- she gracefully moves through the store until the loungewear for men- we have different fits, how do you like your clothing?

-I’m not sure, what is your recommendation?- he looks at her making her feel so small

-well it depends on what you like, for example I like to be comfortable and I always choose baggy fit for the options I use at home, always cotton too… but you seem the opposite to a relaxed fit so probably a slim or even regular- she smiles showing him the options 

-no, I'll take the one you like, to try something new… just don't know the size

-don't worry I got you- she takes one extending it putting it in from of him, taking the next size to compare- I think this will be great for you

-I'll take two in every color please- she helped to take everything he asked for lending him the garments, he stayed there waiting for her to guide him to pay

-this way… there my coworker will help you with the payment, it was so nice to help you, come back soon- he didn't want someone else to attend him, he wanted her- oh and thanks again for helping me with the box- she smiles just leaving him there continuing to do her job.

Jay moved on an automatic like movements, cold and calculated, the relaxed him that was around her disappeared, he was nonchalantly with the other employee, taking his black card paying, he didn't thanked her snatching the bag and his card from the employee’s hand, he went out to his car the driver waiting for Jay, he went to work but couldn't take her out of his mind. Y/n her name, her smile, her hair in a messy bun, those eyes, her laugh, everything about her was running on his mind.

It didn't get better for Jay, it was actually worse each day thinking about her, after that small polite talking he couldn't help himself, one of those days while she was out at school he sent workers to her house to install hidden cameras everywhere he could, he slowly started to learn about her in a non conventional way, following in the dark on the way home, he knows what time and what days she goes to work, the time of her lunch and which road she takes home or school, her classes, places she often go, her friends, oh how much he hates all her friends, he knew her morning routine which product she uses in shower how her body looks like, he even bought the perfume she wears to know what it's like to actually be around her, spraying some on the wrist of his suit, he convinced himself that everything he did was because he was in love, he loved to see her, even putting on escenarios to accidentally cross paths with her, even if it was just a little bump, helping her pick a pen, a polite smile on the corridors, he was pretending at her college talking about some renovations and stuff like that, he used the money of his family to actually make it happen and be more casual about him being on her space so often.

He loved to see her doing mundane things until jealousy rotted him, on her free day she went out dressed pretty, he saw on the cameras how much of an effort she put on her image, parked outside her apartment he saw someone at the door and she coming down happy, a date? She went on a date? On the regular he hates when any male got near her, but this was different, it was intentional she was on a date, he of course followed her watching how miserable he was he couldn't even bother to open the doors for her, not even asking if the movie was alright or if she wanted something from the candy section, probably those sour candies she loves, nothing he was a completely asshole, Jay wanted nothing more but to punch him on the face, all that anger and bitterness inside him was clouding his rational thoughts, he decided to actually move on from her, if she wanted to be with a moron he won't interfere.

The next day Jay parked near the store only to see her through the window shop, today in particular he wanted more of her not just stare from afar, he was still angry about her going on a date, she is his, or it will be; he went inside immediately putting his eyes on her like a predator on his innocent prey, he walks imponent next to her.

-can you help me?- his tone made her jolt, it sounded angry and she didn't like to deal with this type of customers

-sorry I'm actually going on my break now, but I can get you someone else- Jay checks his watch knowing is a lie he knows what time she does everything

-it be just a minute, you helped me last time I was here and I think you'll be as helpful like you were back then- Jay’s jaw tensed and she felt intimidated by him and his presence

-okay… what can I do for you then?- she almost whispered

-I bought shirts last time, I need some loungewear bottoms now, just again I don't know my size for that- she walked in silence making the motion for him to follow her, taking sweatpants and cotton basketball shorts

-I highly recommend both, pants for winter and shorts for spring… the weather will change soon so better to have both- she gave a forced practiced smile and Jay felt angry at that, she wasn't acting like herself why she smiles so naturally at other clients and not him?

-i'll take them, in every color… you recommended baggy fit last time I want the same now- she nods taking one she thinks it will fit, getting close to put it next to him checking the length

-this is it… here you have it sir, my coworker will help you with the pay…-her voice die on her throat seeing her coworker go to the employee's bathroom and leaving her spot alone there wasn't anyone else near available to take her out of this- come with me I'll help you with the payment- she feels afraid of him and she doesn't know why exactly

Y/n scanned everything, folding the garments and putting it in two bags, Jay took his card to pay, handling it trying not to be so harsh this time, he stayed there in silence just looking at her making her uncomfortable.

-do you wanna go for a drink after your shift?- that took her for surprise

-I'm sorry I can't- she gave another fake smile- here you have your items, you have 30 days from now to make any return, may be in the original packaging and tag with your receipt, thank you for shopping with us sir, have a nice day- that makes him furious he knows that today after work she just go home, he swallowed his anger, trying to soften his voice

-thank you… can I have your number?- she was feeling more uncomfortable each second wanting to say no but she couldn't bring herself to say anything at all- or here, you can have mine, please call me soon I really would love to go out with you- he takes his wallet taking a presentation card with his number and name leaving it on her hand, taking his bags and credit card- thank you for your help, have a nice day y/n

She stayed there petrified putting the card on her pocket trying to keep with her day as usual, but she couldn't help but to feel a chill running down her spine remembering his intense eyes on her following her movements, she asked to be move that week to the warehouse in the back to make inventory of the store.

All week Jay parked outside as usual seeing her at the beginning of her shift and at the end but not through the window-shop not once, the five days she works there not a single time he got a glimpse of her, the only thing keeping him sane was the cameras, he was so done because she also never once tried to call him or text, he was so done waiting for her to go out of her classes looking how she seems so happy and easy going around everyone, y/n looks stunning, wearing a little sparkling dress and heels something unusual in her, Jay had never saw her like that, along with her friends she went inside a taxi he followed her until they got to a bar, one of the exclusive ones where you need to be either important or willing to wait in hold for months to have a reservation. She went to the door with her friends going inside giggling since they do have a table inside for them, it was much more easy for Jay just standing at the door and the guard called for someone to guide him to the VIP area it was only him in there watching all over the place searching for her, he found her in the middle of her spot with a Birthday Girl tiara and one of the waiters holding the tray of birthday shots for her and her friends, his waiter arrived.

-whiskey on the rocks for me… and you see that girl there?- she signaled on her direction, the waiter nods- your best champagne bottle for her, everything she asks for is on me

-Yes Mr Park, you want me to tell her it is from you or want it to be anonymous?

-Is the same, ask her and her friends if they want to be on VIP, if they agree move them here with me

The waiter nods, fulfilling his demands, Y/N was surprised to say the least and her friends were astonished.

-we didn't ask for for it, must be a mistake- she smiles not wanting to be rude with someone that is just doing his job

-Mr Park sent it for you, also he wants to let you know that you can be move to VIP if you want- she didn't knew who Mr Park was and was about to decline when her friends agreed for her the waiter smiles- follow me this way please- they take her glasses following the waiter

-I don't know who sent it or why he offered a VIP- she whispered worried

-me neither but c’mon aren't you excited to be in VIP? We waited literally 5 months to be here and now we can have a better experience

-yeah and how are we supposed to pay?

-credit card, you worry too much just enjoy is your birthday

When they arrived there taking their seats, her friends were overjoyed to be in such a place, she took a sip of her glass feeling the taste of champagne for the first time, moaning of how delicious it was, her friends laughing at her.

-see it's not so bad… it's tasty and once in a lifetime chance, how many boys do you know that invite you a drink? Much less offering you VIP in anything?

-he said Mr Park must be a old man

-you can get yourself a sugar daddy- all her friends laugh and she does too

-yeah I would love to be involved with an old man because of money my dream come true

-that would be a shame for me if you prefer old men- a low dark voice erupted from the deepest barely illuminated corner of the space, all the girls turned their heads surprised- sorry to inform but I'm not old- Jay stand next to their table towering over her, his eyes lingering on her body on that skimpy outfit she's wearing

-are you Mr Park?- she looks at him trying to cover her chest with her arm sipping on her champagne

-no, Mr Park is my father and my grandpa, I'm Jay…- his gaze was intense only on her erasing everyone else from the space- so it's your birthday today y/n?- she nods- well congrats let's have a real celebration- he called for a waiter asking for several things for them

-you liar bitch, you told us you didn't know the person- her best friend gave a playful smack on her shoulder

-I don't… he just went to the store once and asked me out

-and you said yes of course?

-no… I don't know him- her friends smack their foreheads in unison- it's weird why would someone like him even go to the store I work at? Why would he want to go out with me?

-listen y/n I Love you to the bone, but you're wasting a gold opportunity here… those things that happen only in your books are happening now to you… don't you wish for something good in life? Please just this time live the real life not the one in books

-I didn't knew what type of cake you like so I asked for everything available, and I see you liked the champagne- Jay smiles to them, trying to be nice to her friends he overheard their whispered conversation seeing his opportunity with y/n thanks to her noisy group of friends

-Jay so what do you do here alone?- the flirting tone made him want to punch her in the face as if it wasn't obvious that he likes y/n

-just hanging out after work- he answered very politely

-do you have a girlfriend? Or a wife maybe?

-no, neither of them

-so you don't have your Mrs Park?- her friend obviously was throwing herself to Jay pulling discreetly her top to show her cleavage and her noticeable big breasts

-I don't but I really like someone, I'm hoping for her to accept going out with me someday- y/n blushed at that

-but you can still have fun with other girls until she accepts, don't you?

-I rather not, when I like something is pretty difficult to actually take my interest in something else- Jay rejected her so politely that her friend didn't have a real reason to rant staying silence, the waiters arrived putting everything he asked for on the table, holding his glass for a refill of his whiskey- well birthday girl, what you wanna try first? I'm sorry they didn't have actual cake but you may find something you like here- y/n didn't know how to react,all the pastries and fine bakery probably he was used to was to much for her

-I don't know… I'm not sure what is everything here

-well since you're the expert in helping me with my lounge wear I'll be the expert in this- he took a plate with a small pie on top taking a little spoon to hand feed her- lime and pistachio pie with swiss meringue on top… my favorite- he looks directly to her eyes making her blush- please eat I ordered for everyone, is on me don't worry- Jay said with a soft smile to her friends, turning his attention to her again, putting a strand of her hair behind the ear

Her friends giggling taking each one a piece of what he asked for them, he keeps looking at her embellished by her eyes, giving small bites of the pie, taking the last bite for him, smiling fondly at her, her friends started to make their way to the dancefloor leaving them alone.

-you didn't call

-I lost the card- she said embarrassed for lying, feeling his strong gaze on her

-I can give you my phone now and you can just save yourself- he gave his phone so she can type, trembling y/n put on her number there he called her immediately hearing hers ring on her purse- now you can save me

-okay- she does as he said, feeling so small on her sit, Jay's arm around the back of the chair- I think is my time to go, my friends already left me here alone and I didn't want to be here in the first place- she's tried to stand up but he holds her pulling her back in place

-you're not alone- he's pouty- you don't like the place, wanna go somewhere else?

-I just wanna go home, my friends insisted it was the best for me to find a boyfriend coming to this type of place, is not what I usually like to go- he felt a tinge of jealousy, was she really looking for a boyfriend? Why did she reject him?

-what type of place do you like?

-more quiet, less crowded… my home in general

-I can take you home now, I'm about to leave too

-my friends, they're probably waiting for me- she looks at the dancefloor where of course they didn't mind if she was there alone or with anyone- just… let me send a message and leave my part of the check

-No, never… birthday girl shouldn't be paying for her things on a special date, just text them I already pay for yours- she was shocked clicking on her phone, having her Best friend’s voice on her head telling her to live out of her fantasy books.

She saw how her friends just enjoy on the dancefloor and she was so tense around Jay, seeing him slide his card like is nothing, he wrapped his arm around her waist guiding her out, the cold weather makes her tremble the dress was not helping either, Jay took off his jacket putting it on her shoulders almost immediately his hand was on her waist pulling her closer to his body, she blush while he smiles and died at how pretty she is, the valet parking gave him his car and he opened the door for her going to his spot and giving his phone so she can put her address on the GPS, even tho he perfectly knows where her apartment is, all those days following her, his little videos watching from afar, from outside her window, it was a luck he actually found the perfect time to install the cameras, he knew everything about her how perfect she is, everything from the way she is to the way she look, his favorite videos being the ones of her on the shower, Jay erased those images driving in silence, only with the radio as the background noise, when he parked outside he ran to open the door and letting her out, once on her entrance door she stayed there not sure what to do.

-thank you… for everything, I really liked everything

-it's a pleasure, I really hope we can have a date soon, anytime you're available- she blush unsure of tell him this

-do you… would you like to come inside?... I'm a little hungry and lonely on my birthday- she looks at the floor feeling his hand on her chin to make her look at him

-I would love to, birthday girl- he fixed the plastic tiara following her inside, she opened the door to the small apartment letting him in, first thing he noticed was that cherry perfume of hers, but inside her home it was more prominent hitting his senses

-I have instant ramen only and I'm craving it… do you think you can make it while I change my clothes?

-no problem at all- he followed her to the kitchen hearing while she signaled where to find everything, then she disappeared into her home.

Jay feels thrilled to actually be inside her house instead of outside having glimpses of her, his sleeves rolled up, the tie was on his jacket pocket and the first two buttons undone, he was feeling relaxed almost like is usual for him to be there, like he belongs there, he was in cooking ramen for her, putting extra effort to make it tasty, hearing the faint sound of the shower running, imagining her there under the water he smiles for himself, taking the plates to serve both, peeling the boiled eggs, this was so domestic and improper of him, but he likes this foreign feeling, by the time she stepped outside her bathroom she looks around only to confirm that he's not near running to her bedroom to dress herself, she wasn't used to wear a bra on her home so she slipped a baggy t-shirt and cotton shorts form the male section of her work, when Jay saw her he almost swear, he could imagine her in his clothes in his home, soon it will be like that, he just needs a little patient before making it come true.

-thank you… looks really good for someone who has never eat one of this

-who told you that? My nanny once gave me one because she used to love them

-but not this flavor I bet, this is my favorite and simply the best one to ever exist- Jay smiles at her adorable reaction

-eat and tell me how I did it- she took a big bite eating with her cheek full making a satisfied sound

-so good… now try it you'll like it- she looks with hopeful eyes seeing him take the first bite looking his face contort into something almost like pleasure- good right?

-the best thing I have ever tried- he took another big bite making her giggle eating too.

She felt better seeing him more grounded instead of his expensive look, so relaxed and comfortable around her, she offered to watch a movie, Jay looked at his watch checking the time.

-even if there's nothing I want more but to spend time with you, is getting late and I live a little far from here- he brush his hair back with his hand

Why did she feel disappointed? What if her best friend was right and she needed to live?, this golden opportunity, he was actually nice even if he looks intimidated and makes her nervous, her voice was tiny and embarrassed not used to actually being around boys or flirting.

-Why don't you stay the night?... I can make popcorn and give you clothes… you can stay- Jay smiles seeing her so red asking him to actually stay

-Birthday princess wants me to stay longer?- she nods and almost whined at the pet name, he looks at her adoring this- I'll stay, but you better choose a really good movie- she squeaks in excitement

-let's go, you gotta change- she gets up holding his hand and dragging him to the corridor to her bedroom- I have the same items you bought so don't worry

Jay was inside her room, it was better than he imagined, it smelled like her. She pushed him to her bed to sit, while she went to her closet choosing the same as she's wearing, giving it to him.

-you can change here or the bathroom while I make the popcorn, also here's the remote if you wanna start choosing something- she went out giggling not knowing why she was so happy about something so simple, maybe because her friends always told her that it was something boring and dragged her to places like bars or parties.

Jay was so happy on her room, looking at everything there, he started to undress looking at the photos of her and her friends displayed all over, he put on the shorts she gave her smelling her laundry detergent but most important that characteristic smell of her it was all over the room, her scent, he feels drunk on that folding carefully his clothes when he caught a glimpse of her laundry basket, a tiny lace coming out of it curiosity took over him taking it out looking at her panties, he smiles like if he just found a hidden treasure, black lace small that probably covers almost nothing, he knows is so wrong to do it but he can't, he just loves her too much he takes the fabric to his nose smelling the little piece of fabric, he felt dizzy it was so wrong but he was loving every second of it, he might found his new favorite smell, he was so into it that almost forgot he could get caught and all his plans about her will be ruined, he folded her panties and put them on his pants pocket, he was finishing folding his own clothes when she entered the room, Jay was still shirtless and she immediately closed her eyes.

-sorry, I should have knock- he let a small laugh putting the shirt on

-it's okay, it's your home… I finished dressing you can open your eyes

-did you choose the movie?- she sits on her bed happily

-not yet but I know what I want to see- he took the remote searching for what he wants, he was about to sit on her desk chair

-no, you have to be here… you're not gonna have popcorn- she pats the spot next to her and he couldn't say no to that

They got comfortable next to each other putting play on the movie, everything was normal and Jay felt that simpleness in life that rarely he could experience, she was so comfortable thanking her friend for pushing her to actually try with Jay, she got tired of being sitting laying down in bed putting her head on his lap, at first he froze but then his hand found his way on her hair, playing with it, the movie was pretty normal until the characters were having a heavy make out session, even if it wasn't explicit it was clear the sex escenario that it was planted as plot, she froze for a moment turning her face to look at Jay.

-Did you think I was easy?

-what?- he looks at her pretty face adorned with a frown

-when you invited me out… you thought about that- she signaled the tv and the characters waking up tangled in bed- you invited me drinks at the bar and moved me to VIP hoping I was easy?- Jay frowns

-no… I mean you're really pretty and hot… but I wasn't trying that… did I made you believe that?- even if he was a pervert and saw her so many times in her naked ithout her consent, he wanted to first try instead of forcing himself in her- sorry I didn't mean that

-It's difficult to think of something else… I mean you have money… you probably are used to the people doing whatever you want, maybe you thought I was easy and that your money would make me have sex with you

-no I talked to you because I was so blinded by your beauty that I had to try… I… I don't know what can I say to make you feel different about me

-if I ask for a kiss can it be just a kiss?- she looks at him still frowning

-I would do anything you want

-wanna just kiss… please not like that, sweet

Jay smiles cupping her face leaning to kiss her lips so softly, he basically fold himself since she was still laying on his lap, he was usually more rough but she demands sweet and he will be, he cannot deny her, Jay could sense how timit the kiss was so he pulled apart smiling the tv being just background noise now, her eyes looked at him and he basically melted at how adorable she looks,he kept playing with her hair.

-if I say I want more but then it's too much and wanna stop, would you?

-yes, as much or as little as you want- she takes a deep breath getting up and straddling him- is it okay if I hold you?

-yes I would like that- Jay placed his hands on her hips, he was taking all his self control to not pop a boner now that she was sitting on his lap- I don't have much experience… and my friends always said that I need to take more risks with men… that sex is amazing and stuff like that… I feel so dumb now

-don't…

-do you have a lot of experience?- Jay didn't want to lie but didn't want to be show as fuck boy

-I do actually…

-do you think it is a turn off that I don't?... I went on a blind date with this guy last week and he told me boys hated prudes…- she's pouting and Jay felt jealousy creeping on him hearing about her date but then it was rage, how did he dare to tell her that?- I just don't feel ready… my friends say that I'm dumb because I want romance not just sex, that I read too much novels that my brain is broken

-it's not bad to know what you want and if the other person it's not willing to do it it's not for you… personally I find adorable that you're inexperienced and it makes me think in ways to ruin you

-you really? You really like me?- she looks surprised

-wasn't I obvious?... I thought I was, I'm not used to flirt either usually girls come to me for my money

She pouts, cupping his face giving him a peck, really chaste, she looks at his eyes taking a deep breath closing her eyes to lean to kiss, she just put her lips on top of his, he smiles feeling that innocent kiss, when she pull apart he could barely call that a kiss but he smiles satisfied.

-can you kiss me? More like in the movie… like when the tongue is inside touching mine

-oh you wanna a french kiss- she nods eagerly- okay if you can't talk but wanna stop just tap my chest- he takes her hand showing her the motion- okay princess?- she let out something similar to a tiny moan making him smile- you like when I call you princess?- she nods again- words

-I like being a princess… your princess… please kiss me- she sounds impatient and he was holding to that barely self control on him

He cups her face inching closer, the first lip contact made him smile kissing her slowly, gradually he kissed her with more passion until his tongue poke her lip, she gasped and he used that as an opportunity he wasn't timid like her, his hands left her face, one was on the back of her neck pulling her closer to the hungry kiss and the other wrapped on her hip rubbing up and down, he was so into it being more rough pressing her body against his, he gave a little squeeze to her butt cheek making her squeak surprised, his member was starting to come alive and probably she could feel it, she did the tapping on his chest to stop, he growled pulling a part, but smiling seeing her red swollen lips.

-sorry I don't wanna that- she signaled his lap

-it's okay we're not gonna do anything you don't want- her hands rub his shoulders feeling happy

-i never did something like this- she smiles

-did you like it?- she nods

-it's better that in the books, thank you for stopping- she gives a quick peck- you're the first one to do it when I say and not when I'm crying- he frowns

- shouldn't be grateful for that, no one should even do something you don't like… somebody did something you didn't want?

-my last date wasn't so great… he thought we have the same idea of just casual sex, that's when he called me a prude because I didn't want it, I told him no but he just touched me under my skirt until I cried, he left me at the cinema alone, he also did this- she lifts a little her short showing a purple mark on her tight really close to her bottom- he was really rough, you touched me there too but it felt different- Jay wanted to touch and kiss the spot to make her feel better, but his irrational side wanted to murder the guy

-how did you get to be paired with such an idiot?

-it's from my school the captain of the football team, my friends like him and he even go out with one of them so they paired us together- she shrugs her shoulders- sometimes I don't know why we're friends if we're so different

-you should be with people that helps you be the best version of you not someone that put you on dangerous or uncomfortable situations- Jay kiss his fingers then placing them on her bruise- kiss it all better

- I'm sorry I said no when you invited me out, I was just still feeling his hands on me and didn't want it to be the same with you, specially because I don't know you yet

-it's okay it was a luck that we get to coincide in the same bar, now we have our first not official date, I really wanna take you on a proper date

-i kissed you on our first no official date… -she blush- please don't think wrong about me I'm not someone that does that often

-You don't owe me explanations and I won't think bad about you, I still think you're really pretty and I wanna get to know you… do you wanna go out with me to get to know each other?

-I would love to

Y/n wrapped her arms on his neck snuggling on him, Jay wrapped his arms around her body swinging softly while playing with her hair, it was late she was tired and he was lulling her, she slept like that on his arms, Jay watched her for a while not believing that it was real, that all those days watching her through windows and monitors were a memory now, he was holding her and he didn't had to force her, maybe it will be easier if he just makes her belief that he's the only one he needs, he will make sure of that. He took his phone sending a message, asking to one of his contacts to hunt the captain of the football team, he will make sure that ever again he will be able to even breath, he sent money as a payment for the job asking for it to be quick and not noticeable so she won't find out right away when that asshole that dared to touch what's his disappears.

Jay got comfortable laying on bed, with her still snuggle on his chest he took a blanket putting it over them he was here holding her and he wouldn't miss that opportunity to wake up next to her, he just needs a little more patience before she's completely his, before he takes her to his house and never let her go.

🎶Oh, can't you see

You belong to me?

How my poor heart aches

With every step you take🎶

Thank you for reading, I hope you like this I know it's really different from what I usually post but I wanted to also give it a try

[en-trashy]

Little love 이희승

Heeseung takes care of his baby alone, after some struggle his wife needs time away and he takes charge of everything.

Tw: slight suggestive almost nothing, fluff daddy Heeseung pure comfort in my opinion

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It was never easy, it started without planning anything, back then Heeseung only felt how she drifted away from him, how she stopped answering or wanting to see him he waited until he couldn't take it anymore going to her apartment waiting in the rain for her to open she was coming back from the convenience store down the street when she saw him soaking wet and with an apologetic face, she quickly put her umbrella over both of them.

-I’m sorry- she looks at him confused not understanding why he was saying this- I'm sorry, I know I'm sometimes don't know when I fucked up, that I work until late night when you need me but I swear that I love you and nothing is more important to me than you're

-Hee I'm not angry with you- Heeseung always apologized for things that he even sometimes didn't knew made her upset, always wanting for her to feel loved and appreciated- let's go inside you're gonna catch cold, you left clothes here from last time

He just smiles following her letting her prepare a warm bath for both, undressing himself before help her do the same and getting both inside, his gentle hands started to caress her body, he was smiling giving kisses on her neck and shoulders so happy that she wasn't angry with him, but that relief lasted only a few minutes when she started to cry, he was petrified.

-did I hurt you? Sweetie, what's wrong?- her sobbing broke his heart and he thought only in the worst, what if someone harassed her, hurt her, what if it was him? He could never forget himself- I think I'm pregnant- Heeseung’s hands stopped completely shocked by the news, but then extreme happiness rushed all over his body.

-i'm gonna be a dad, we should definitely move together now for our baby- Heeseung back hugged her spilling some water kissing her neck with more passion- maybe we need a bigger space so he or her can grow happily and have their own room- he was blinded by the happiness that he almost didn't noticed how she cried more- what's wrong? You don't want the baby?- he felt a pinch of pain on his heart thinking about that possible escenario where she have an abortion, he could never push her to do something against her desires and even if he really wants this baby he won't pressure her to feel the same as him.

-you're not angry?

-why would I be? You want me to be angry?

-i I don't know… your career your dreams… I ruined things I should have take better care to avoid this- she cried harder scared of the future

-no, don't ever say that- he manhandled her to make her straddle him cupping her face and looking straight into her eyes- listen this and listen well… nothing in this world is more important to me than you, you're my dream, I can change career, job, house, the car, I can replace anything in this world but you, there's not a single person in the entire universe that can replace you, I don't love anyone else you're my true love I want you for the rest of my days- she was pouting looking at him Hee kissed her softly- and to be fair probably it's my fault that you're pregnant because I can't never have enough of you- he squeeze her butt shamelessly, pulling her closer to his body, feeling her naked breast on his chest making her squeak surprised

-stop now… this is serious I need you to think with your head not with your little friend

-we both know is anything but little- he wriggle his eyebrows

-you're impossible- she finally let out a sincere laugh, but soon enough her brows knit with worry- are you sure you want this baby?

- I want what you want princess, if you wanna keep the baby I'll be more than happy to be a dad, but if you don't I'll take you to a clinic- Heeseung kiss her forehead taking the body wash to help her clean her skin- since the first day we started to date I told you I was your slave that didn't change

- I don't know what I want yet

- we can figure it out together- Heeseung finished bathing both of them taking her out.

In the bedroom he started to dry her, playfully he started to touch an kiss her naked body until they ended up making love, he was so enchanted by her, reassuring her that everything will be alright, and she did believe that, how can it be wrong when everything feels safe inside his arms? The morning after that Heeseung woke up early to make breakfast for her putting extra effort to the best his cooking skills allowed him to, by the time she woke up the apartment smells like pancakes she could hear him cursing putting only a long t-shirt to cover herself, in the kitchen he was struggling flipping things in the pan making her laugh, seeing her genuine smile made him happy himself.

-good morning baby mama- he kissed her passionately

-good morning baby daddy- Heeseung blush hearing her- I just suspect that I'm pregnant the test is still on my purse ready to be done just that I'm afraid

-you want to do it together- she just nods and Heeseung takes her hand following her to the bathroom, waiting for her outside until he heard the gasp, he opened the door and found the pregnancy test with the two lines confirming his new dream come true- oh fuck we need to buy a crib a house, diapers, I'm gonna schedule an appointment for the doctor- Heeseung takes her face on his hands kissing her so passionately

- are we sure? I mean… you really want a baby?

-did you notice that I almost go out to yell everyone on the street that I'm gonna be a dad? - he said playfully and she let the worries go for now, he dropped to his knees pulling her close to him giving kisses on her belly- hi honey, it's your daddy, I found today that you're here and I can't wait to meet you, I love you, I love you so much you can't even imagine, please grow healthy mommy and I will wait for you

That melted her heart, hearing his usually carefree boyfriend to be so soft for a human being they both created, she felt safe and for the first time in the last couple days she didn't feel afraid of the future, Heeseung was there and will be for the rest of her life, she didn't have to worry.

The following months were a rollercoaster of emotions, Heeseung change completely his dream of being a singer, he left his group and was now dedicated to be a producer and songwriter for the same company, he move out of the dorms to buy a small house were they moved together, the appointments to the doctor, how she left her job as a barista when her bump was so prominent she couldn't do anything and had no other option but to take a break until the baby was born, the remodeling of the house the build up of the baby's room the small wedding they had, along with Heeseung's needy persona she didn't have a break, everything was pure happiness with small episodes of sadness, worries, emotional meltdowns, morning sickness, sore feet and back pain, but overall a constant feeling of safety, she felt it on her chest that warm every time Heeseung did something for the baby and her; then the actual labor, Heeseung cried for half an hour holding their new born, a beautiful baby boy, it was the most perfect human being Hee has ever seen.

-we made him- his tears didn't seem to stop while he carried the fragile body on his chest- can you believe that we did the most perfect little being

-don't cry Hee, he's gonna think you don't want him- she said extending her arm to wipe his tears, tearing herself seeing the scene in front of her

-never in life… daddy is so happy to finally be able to hold you my little Junghee

Things were smooth for as long as Heeseung had the paternity leave, when he have to be back at work she started to crumble down, little by little she started to feel bad about this whole thing, she didn't feel capable of taking care of herself much less another human, slowly her capacity to take care of them deteriorated, Heeseung was working extra hours because of a comeback of his ex members he was on recordings until late night sometimes coming home to find her crying while carrying their sleeping baby, he noticed how the dark circles under her eyes where prominent and noticeable, how her voice was strained of the constant crying, he knew it wasn't alright, trying to find another way to actually manage his work and family life. It was when Junghee turned 3 months old that he arrived around five in the afternoon only to find his wife curled up in a ball in bed

-sweetheart I'm home now, where's the baby- he looks around the room only seeing her, his thoughts always searching for the worst escenario

-I don't know, I can't anymore- he felt his body run cold, desperate to find his baby, but in that moment Junghee cried on his crib he ran to the baby's room quickly took him on his arms, bouncing him to pacify him, he quickly noticed the state of his son, he sighed preparing the bath for his baby cleaning him and removing his dirty diaper, he peaks at the room seeing his wife crying.

He started simple, bathing his son, changing his clothes and giving him a bottle until Junghee fell asleep he put his baby back in bed to go attend his wife, he prepared the tub for her too, making sure it's the way she likes it, back in the room he gently took her on his arms undressing her.

-let’s go sweetheart you're gonna take a bath and we'll go to the doctor

Y/n was unresponsive, letting him do anything to her crying some more feeling the lovin hands of Heeseung helping her to wash her hair, it's been days since the last time she did it, when he took her out Heeseung made sure to wrap her in the softest towel, combing her hair and dressing her up like a doll, he even put on her skincare and she couldn't help but to feel disgusted with herself, since Junghee was born she haven't take care of herself. Heeseung got her ready the diaper bag for them to go out, taking his son on his arms and his wife's hand to go to the car, he secured their baby on his chair in the back seat and also secured y/n on the passenger seat, he drives singing softly for both of them smiling at them until he parked outside the doctor, he made an emergency appointment knowing it wasn't normal the way she feels, he knows that motherhood is hard but not the point she's reaching now.

Doctor Min was a really kind and patience human, that's why he liked him and trusted him to take care of both his treasures, the doctor first examineded Junghee prescribing an ointment for the diaper rash he develop due the lack of constant changing, then y/n when she started to explain what she felt Heeseung feels his world crumbling down too, how he couldn't notice? Was that horrible as a husband and dad that he failed to notice?

-I truly love Junghee I'll never do something to hurt him on purpose…just that I can't…I don't know… I'm not ready… I'm a bad mom don't wanna be one- and she broke down there crying her soul in the doctor's office- I feel like he hates me because he knows I'm the worst can't even take care of myself much less him

The doctor listened and gave her a tissue to wipe her nose, Heeseung was bouncing Junghee to not wake him holding her hand to reassure her, he gave the prescription in bold letters on top it reads “postpartum depression” he indicated for her to take a break from taking care of the baby and pills to regulate her hormones and help her get through this, Hee stopped at the pharmacy on the way to their home buying what she needs, also stopping at her favorite place to have dinner, when Junghee woke up in the restaurant and started to complain her eyes immediately teared, Heeseung was fast and took a baby bottle from the bag feeding him.

-is okay princess see?, he just was hungry… you must be too choose whatever you like- he leans to kiss her temple

She let him love her and take care of both, even if she felt that pinch of guilty leaving all the responsibility on him, she ordered and took a few bites of her food, Heeseung started to hand feed her while eating himself and holding Junghee, smiling brightly and making silly conversation about something that happened on his work, even making her laugh a little.

-I think it would be beneficial for you to go on a break… your cousin Youngseo lives in Jeju and you haven't saw her in years, maybe you can go for a few days to clear your mind and your heart- he proposed still smiling

-but what about you? you don't wanna come?

-I have to work darling, also some alone time will help for your mental health

-Youngseo doesn't know how to take care of babies how am I going to make it alone if you stay here?- she started to panic but he hold her hand

-Junghee will stay with me, I'll take care of him

-but your work you have… you can't… I have to take care of my baby- he cups her cheek making her look at him

-princess you need to rest, what's happening to you is not something easy… I'll sort myself and work, besides I'm sure the members will be so happy to help me while I'm at the company… I haven't been fair with you I promised you that will be together to solve everything but I haven't been around that much… I can take care of my little boy while you take care of that beautiful brain of yours- he pulled her to kiss her lips softly

-what did I do to have you? To even deserve you?

-I don't know maybe being the most beautiful girl ever to lay your eyes on me even when I was a pathetic looser

-you were never pathetic

-but yes a loser… and now I look hot as a dad, don't you think little Hee?- he baby talked to their son- little Hee said yes very much- she looks at both with love on her eyes, she truly loves them just couldn't understand why she couldn't take care of her baby or herself

-i love you… just a couple days okay? And I promise I'll be fine- she leaned to kiss him

-take all the time you need, just come back to me

The next day in the afternoon he dropped her at the airport, saying their goodbyes, she was holding her baby hugging his tiny body and kissing the top of his head.

-I'm sorry I promise I love you… I'll be back to be the mommy you deserve- she gives her little son to Heeseung- please take care of him

-you offend me, you sound like I can't take care of my son- she looks at him judging her husband

-you didn't shower for three days because of a videogame I have reasons to doubt

-it was one time and before I even knew you were pregnant I changed, I'm a new man and this one is responsible of himself, his hot wife and his cute son- she giggles pulling him for a kiss

-please forgive me… I'll do things right when I come back… I love you

-you don't have to be sorry and I have nothing to forgive, I love you you're the only one that I care about… oh sorry no, the second one I care about- he looks at Junghee who is giving one of those baby smiles and babbling- he says that he loves you that he'll wait for you to be ready… now go or you gonna loose your flight

He kissed her one last time seeing her go, he hates the idea of letting her go, or be apart for longer than a work day, but he knows is the best for y/n and for Junghee, he stayed in the airport until he was sure the plane took off.

-just you and me now, I hope you trust daddy to take care of you- he got in the car securing his baby on his chair- listen you may think or be confused about why mommy left, well she wasn't at her best, but is not because she doesn't love you… in fact she loves you a lot sometimes I'm jealous because I meet her before you and I think she loves you more than me- Junghee giggle and Heeseung acted surprised- what? My own child laughing at me

He kept talking to Junghee when they arrived home, his baby was already sleeping, he took him to his crib, putting the baby monitor to start cleaning the house. How couldn't he notice the state of everything in their home? The big loads of undone laundry piling on the washing machine room, the almost empty pantry, the dirty dishes, he did everything he could accomplish before Junghee wakes up he almost finished with the laundry and vacuuming the house when the baby complained he quickly got there to hold him making him stop crying.

-oh so you like daddy's arms, well I still need to clean so you'll come with me

Heeseung searched for a video tutorial on how to use a baby carrier, to make sure Junghee will be safe while he does the housework, while his baby was in bed he was crying.

-i'm sorry, I'm doing my best okay? Just give me a second, are you hungry?- he checked twice that everything was secure before even putting Junghee on the carrier or take a step, once his baby was flushed to his chest the crying stopped- so you really like daddy's arms, do I have a little spoiled baby?- Junghee giggle and Heeseung couldn't help but to smile feeling warm all over his chest- so this is what love feels like? I felt it with your mom the first time I saw her, the same I feel with you right now- he looks at his son with deep love enchanted by him and how tiny and fragile he is, he does have the same Bambie eyes as him- so that's why your mommy tells me no to do those eyes I feel like I can do anything you ask me for

Heeseung spend solid 30 minutes just looking at his baby, caressing his soft hair and kissing his head, even hugging him and rocking him to soothe his complaining, it was until he realized about the time that he started to do the chores again hearing the babbling and baby talk even answering like if they're having a proper conversation, he was completely exhausted sitting on the couch with his baby drinking his bottle.

-my beautiful boy… are you enjoying being only with daddy? I'm enjoying very much being with you, don't let mommy hear me but I think you're the love of my life- he traced his little features with one finger, enjoying how soft his skin was looking at his Bambie eyes attentive of every move Heeseung makes

Heeseung was like an expert taking care of his little son, even if he relayed on his phone and YouTube tutorials to do things for Junghee, like washing his clothes on a separate laundry load how to apply lotion and make a baby massage to relax him and put him to sleep, he took the bassinet installing it on his room next to his bed.

-You'll be daddy's roommate until mommy comes back, to keep each other company even tho you have your own room… but I'm not used to be this lonely- he changed his onesie and rocked him to sleep before laying him down, only watching him with love eyes, Heeseung couldn't believe how eye-catching his son was.

He got himself comfortable sending y/n a message, wishing her good night and telling her how much he loves and misses her. The next morning he got up really early checking on his sleeping baby, grateful that he only woke up once hungry and for a diaper change, he showered with the baby monitor on the bathroom afraid that he might wake up and cry for being alone, as he learned yesterday he likes to be held, he got dress and even made quick breakfast and prepared a bag for the day, counting diapers and bottles when Junghee cried, but this time different more heartfelt, Hee quickly picked him up looking with worry at his son rocking him and patting his bottom, hearing his little sobs slowly changing to his regular breathing.

-what happen? Did you get scared? I'm sorry daddy didn't want to make you afraid, I was making my breakfast and yours too- his baby was cradle in his arms and he was swinging him softly he leaned to give him kisses on his hair.

Hee went to the baby's room to choose his clothes, Heeseung was so happy taking a shirt similar to one he owns looking for a matching outfit, he started to fill the baby tub to bath him, doing it with so much care making sure to hold Junghee tight enough, he never put that much of an effort to be soft with someone, he wrapped him on a towel only taping his body to dry his skin, Hee put him on the changer talking to him so he doesn't cry, once he was done he place him on the carrier to go take breakfast he gave a bottle for Junghee helping him burp after before even thinking in eat himself, he checked the time hurrying up to get on time for work.

-I didn't think that much what I'm gonna do with you, but I just know you're really well behaved you just like to be held all the time which is inconvenienti if I need to do something, but you also stay pretty well in your chair or whatever if I talk to you… guess you don't like to feel alone but I know you love daddy so much and that's why you're gonna be a good boy and behave at my office

He kissed his forehead starting to put things on his car, toys, the baby gym, the stroller everything just in case he needs something to entertain Junghee, he secured him on the car seat driving to his office, in the parking lot he found his ex members who came to say hi but we're astonished seeing his baby there too, the last time they saw Junghee was in hospital after he was born, surprised by how much he grow and overall how much he looks like Heeseung in a mini version.

-it’s definitely yours… don't miss understand I'll never put in doubt y/n but he's your copy… just much cuter- Jay said- can I hold him?- Heeseung nods giving authorization, he'll need a lot of help to take everything out from the car if he doesn't want to come up and down all those floors to the parking and to his studio.

Everyone took something to help, Jay was holding the baby careful with his head all of them went up and everything was smooth they helped put together the baby gym while Heeseung went to the cafeteria to ask for hot water to have in case his baby is hungry, when he came back he found everyone panicking giving toys to his crying son, he immediately frown.

-what did you do to my baby?

-nothing he just started cry- Sunoo said with embarrassment, Heeseung got close seeing his little son extend his tiny arms to him, he understood what happened, holding him to his chest and giving him a kiss on his hair

-you don't like your uncle's either only daddy… what am I gonna do with you?- Junghee stopped crying immediately like all those times when Hee holds him

-so he's a daddy's boy- Sunghoon looks at them with fondness

-also a mommy's boy, he just loves us way to much I like to think

-where’s y/n by the way?- Jungwon asked

-she's in Jeju, with her cousin it was a family matter and I'll be taking care of Junghee alone until she's back

The day was easy even with Junghee on the studio, his ex members went for periods of time to watch and play with the baby, even the staff, everyone was enamoured by how easy it was to be with him, how well behaved he was even when he was this tiny, by the time of his naps Heeseung improvised a bed on his sofa, putting the cushions so he can't roll and fall, he watches him sleep for sometime feeling inspired to write a song about this love he feels everytime he looks at his son, he worked on it for most of the afternoon until it was almost time to leave, Y/n called him, he answered happy to see her through the screen, she looked better, relaxed and at peace.

-hi gorgeous, how is everything going?

-hi… good I think I went to an spa today and for a walk at the beach… but- she stopped herself having this unsure feeling of share what's on her mind

-but… is okay you know you can tell me everything

-it's just I felt guilty that I'm enjoying here alone but I don't feel like this with my baby- her eyes fill out with tears

-no, don't do that to yourself… I know is not easy, but this is what you need, to relax to be alright for you and Junghee… also it's my fault too I left all the responsibility only to you- she shakes her head denying him

-you work so hard for us, I should be able to take care of him

-you work hard too… all the house work, Junghee, you… dealing with me is a lot sweetheart

-but…

-no more but… is okay to need time and space, we'll wait for you at home, besides we're also having a good time, he's a super star here at hybe, everyone come to see him do nothing just like now- he focused their little baby sleeping peacefully- I understand why they do I also just stare at him… I still can't believe we made the most perfect human

-you're not angry with me?

-no, why would I be?

-for everything I did

-what being hot? No darling that's not something to be angry for… giving me the most perfect little being? That's actually the best thing someone ever did for me… try so hard to do everything even when you weren't feeling well? That's something to admire… I'm so lucky to have you I could never be angry with you- she finally cried on the phone, but she was smiling

-i love you so much

-i love you too, keep having fun I'll see you in a couple days

The week pass, everyday with the same routine, Heeseung got so used to take care of Junghee that he couldn't imagine going to his studio without him, everyone else also was so used to see him carrying his baby that now people asked how's Junghee not him, he smiles knowing that his son stole everyone's heart with his calm demeanor and how he asked always for his dad, almost like if he wants to only be glued to Heeseung, his ex members constantly went to the studio to see his baby even taking gifts with them, from toys to baby clothes, he was spoiled there; even in the meetings Heeseung had to attend Junghee was there with his pacifier looking with Bambie eyes at everyone in the room, they made sure to not talk so harsh or yell to not upset him, everything seems to revolve around this tiny human and Heeseung feels so proud that it's his son the one everybody loves.

-what type of sorcery did your mom and I used to make you? Everyone is in love with you- he baby talked after the CEO went to check on his son, not him and the song he was producing- even my boss comes to see you and admire how cute you're

Heeseung took a break from his work to lay on the floor next to Junghee who is on his baby gym, he likes to play with him watching the new movements and sounds he makes, smiling when he babbles almost like replaying to the previous conversation. He took him on his arms and lay down with Junghee on top patting softly his back putting him to sleep, Hee did the same dozing off holding his baby and feeling complete like nothing in this world is important only this little moment, minutes later Jake arrived to see the baby but seeing the scene unfold he just snapped a pic and sent it to Heeseung with the caption I'll come back later, sweet dreams mini Hee.

When he woke up his baby was still sleeping he looks down at him kissing his head sitting carefully to not wake him, he saw the photo Jake sent putting it as his lock screen, he sent it also to y/n telling her how much he loves her, he got to work again holding Junghee in one arm cradling his body and using the other one to finish the sending of some files, he works in silence until the little complain made him look down, Junghee was slowly opening his eyes and when he focused properly first thing he saw was Heeseung smiling immediately melting complete his dad's heart.

-did you like it more to sleep with daddy?- the baby babbling came immediately- you did? You're so spoiled by daddy and you know that- the little giggle makes Heeseung smile wider- you enjoy having daddy wrap around your little finger don't you?- and like if he knew his tiny hand closed around Heeseung's finger making both giggle- yes you know and you enjoy every bit of it… guess what? mommy comes back tomorrow- the little scream of excitement melted him more- yes, she missed you so much

He video called his wife to let her see Junghee, since she haven't saw him everytime she calls he's already sleeping or playing with someone else, when she answered the strong wind of the beach and her telling them to wait makes Heeseung laugh, she went inside the cafe looking at his baby.

-hi my love- Junghee looks at the phone seeing his mom, trying to grab de screen babbling happily- you miss me? I miss you too- he babbles smiling and moving his feet excited- I wanna hold you and kiss you too… he looks so happy Hee, like he really loves me- she started to tear up

-he does loves you just like daddy does

-i miss you so much, both of you… being away only helped me to reaffirm how much you meant to me, how much I love having a family with you… that it was the right thing to keep the baby he makes me happy I was just afraid of hurting him or not being enough

-sweetheart if something I learned taking care of him is that he doesn't care he just likes to be with us, he already thinks you're the best- the happy babbling made her cry happy tears- see? He just said I love you mommy, you're the best- he focused his tiny face and just by seeing her he smiles and giggles melting her heart too

-i love you too my love, you're the most important being in my life, your dad is second

-i heard that but I'm not offended

-i talked with a psychologist here I think I wanna go to one regularly

-I’ll help you find one

-you don't think I'm overreacting right?

-you offend me again, I'll never think something like that

-you're the best that why I married you

-I though it was because of my looks and how good I'm in bed

-don't say stuff like that in front of Junghee- she blushed

-I was thinking that I wanna make another one, or just have the practice of making one- he wriggle his eyebrows

-you're like a horny teenager

-can you blame me, I haven't seen or feel my wife in days

-you still find me attractive? I saw my cousins in a bikini and she's just wow… I have tummy now and stretch marks

-yeah because you carried my baby there, you look so hot because your boobs did grew and now they're bigger… I'm imagining it and God I'm gonna have a problem in my pants- she blushed so intensely hearing how much he still desires her body, the one she sees with a lot of imperfections

-thank you

-for what? For loving my wife?- he huffs- no thank you for being this hot- she giggles like a teenager hearing her first love confess

- I love you

-I love you too sweetie… I was thinking that maybe you can go back to work at the café, maybe take a part time in the morning, I can bring Junghee here and take care while you work then you can come pick him up and I'll see you at home

-really? Can I?

-of course, you loved your job… this way we both take care of him, we both work, we have more money and weekends to go out like a family

-i'll consider it thank you… for being the best husband someone can ask for and for choosing me to be your wife and help me get through everything

-nothing to say thanks for I do it because I love you and my mini Hee

The next day he was waiting at the airport for her, with the Junghee on the carrier and he holding a sign “Heeseung's wife Junghee’s mommy” when she came down and spots them she ran to hug both of them, Heeseung holds her by the waist pulling her on his side to kiss her passionately, he didn't care who can see them or what they can think, he was so into the kiss that he only pulled apart when the babbling became little yells of excitement.

-Envious you don't want to share mommy with daddy- he laughed taking him out of the carrier so y/n can hold him

-my love how much I missed you- she kiss his head hearing his little giggle- I did missed you a lot- she hugs her tiny body crying

-don't cry he's gonna think you don't want him- he repeat the words she said when he crying when Junghee was born, wiping her tears

-never if he's the most precious thing that I have… then it's you- she smiles seeing him leaning to kiss her temple and Junghee's head

-let's go home you have to tell how your vacation went and I have to really bury my face on those titties- she gives him a smack on his shoulder, laughing

Heeseung wrapped his arm on her shoulders guiding her to their car happy to see her being herself again, to hear their baby happily reply to them and be so attached to them only, this was truly his dream come true.

Fin.

So there's baby fever in my family now, and I just couldn't help but to imagine Heeseung like this.

Also I activated my anon messages if you by any chance want to talk, thank you again little stranger for reading me.

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Master list

이희승 (LHS)

Little love [comfort fluff]

박종성 (PJS)

Every breath you take [yandere, perv stalker]

심재윤 (SJY)

Prey [yandere, toxic, obsession]

Pup [smut, perv hyung line, nasty]

박성훈 (PSH)

Diamond [One side love, smut]

Forget me not [heartbreak, angst comfort]

김선우 (KSN)

Sweet [Chubby girl comfort fluff]

양정원 (YJW)

西村力 (NRK)

Shadow [angst no comfort]

Sunshine [angst fluff]

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Sunshine 西村力

After the incident Niki wants y/n back to be roommates but she doesn't want him anymore, broke relationship is not the best. Sunshine fem character and dark aura Niki (not rude anymore)

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Pt.2 of this

Tw: jealousy, opposites attract, slight description of the suicide attempt, hospital and treatment, parenting neglect, slight toxic Niki, skin ship, kisses, a lot of Jay interaction with the female character:)

The bep of the machines was the first thing she heard then Niki's voice struggling to keep his composure on the phone.

-Ma'am I know… yeah y/n told me about the cruise ship but… no, this is really important I just need some basic info about her medical records… hello? hello?...- Niki cursed under his breath running his hand through his hair, he didn't have a single idea of what to answer 

-O positive- her voice sounds strained and weak- I'm allergic to penicillin, I said yes to be an organ donor- she talks through the oxygen mask taking a deep breath- my full name is y/f/n and my security number is on my phone notes… if not they can search my dad and I'm under his security number 

Niki was writing everything as quick as possible to not miss anything giving her phone so she can unlock and provide the security number she handed her phone feeling so tired and cold, she was trembling a little, Niki let her check the paper before going to give it to the nurses by the time he was back in the room with her, she was already tearing up, Niki rushed to her side wiping her tears.

-thank you for helping me, is okay you can go now- her little voice sounds so small and tired of this

-i register myself to be the one here during the night in case you need it- he rubs the back of his neck still unsure to get closer, Niki have this itch to hold her and hug her close to his chest, when he saw her pale and fragile he noticed how much smaller she was compared to him, how easily it is to hurt her- one of my hyungs is on the way here to bring me some things to stay

-you don't have to, I'm really okay and I don't wanna bother you more… I'm sorry for… everything I didn't mean to be a bad roommate 

- you're not- he was interrupted because of a nurse coming to inspect her vitals asking Niki to go out while they check on her.

Heeseung arrived at the hospital bringing a bag with all the things Niki asked for him and her, when he was allowed inside again they explained him where he is supposed to sleep, the bathroom, the button to call in case of emergency and all of the instructions, Niki smiles and nods his head,then smiling at her noticing that they removed the oxygen mask taking out some things for her.

-is really cold so I thought that you may want this- he took out her knitted blanket putting it over her body, taking also her favorite gummies along with his tablet- today is Thursday and we still have a long list of must watch together

She tried to feel happy about this but in reality she knows that he's only feeling pity, this is the longest he has ever talk to her and the first time she actually sees him interested in doing something together, also for the first time she didn't have anything to say to him letting him do this. The movie was a teenage romance, classic nerd girl that becomes pretty after taking her glasses off, along with the popular mean guy that notices her after an equally mean popular girl ditched him, she couldn't help but to tear up not because it was something sad but because she seems to never experience something similar to love, from anyone, Niki noticed wiping her tears helping her to get comfortable to sleep, she was grateful that he didn't try to dig in or talk about her crying, closing her eyes and succumbing to the tiredness in her body, he stayed there watching her in the dim lights of the machines, seeing her chest rise and fall, the line that indicates that her heart is beating, he wanted to make sure that she was still there, just observing her until he couldn't stay awake anymore.

In the morning she woke up first looking around the room finding him sleeping in the small couch there, her phone rings and she answered it was her mom complaining about why a boy called her when she's on vacation, Niki woke up and she felt ashamed that for her mom it was more important her cruise ship instead of her daughter.

-is was nothing mom, just a little fall but I had to be rushed into the emergency services I'm okay tho… yeah I don't think they call again for this… sorry for bothering you have a good day- and just like that the call was finished- you can also go now probably is not much longer before they discharge me from here 

-I can't leave you here alone, how are you supposed to go back to our apartment- Niki gave a warm genuine smile, but she didn't feel it like that

-I won't be back there…-she whispered- I'll will take the first trip to my parents house- she gives the best smile she can- I'll try to take as much as I can this time, but I don't think I can take all, my dad will come after their vacation to pick the rest

-why you mean? You don't have to take all, if you wanna go spend some days to your parents house is okay, but it will be a problem for when we start the new semester bringing back everything again -Niki smiles sensing what she's trying to tell him but refusing to 

-i won't be back next semester… I think is better for me, everyone eventuality will know that your shadow tried to kill herself and I don't want more people to look at me with pity, is enough having your friends pity and yours… - she takes a deep breath struggling a little to talk that much- with luck I'll be able to start in September in the community college near where I live.

She did, she tried to smile and be alright with this choice, to left her dream college and her so desired major to be a public accountant like her dad, since is the only thing she can actually study there.

-can you please leave? Please I wanna be alone- her voice sounds so defeated and helpless, her life like she imagine was crumbling down before her.

Niki really wanted to stay but he also wants to respect her boundaries, leaving reluctantly, just when he closed the door he could heard her sobbings, it broke his heart to listen that, he felt like trash for being the one responsible of everything, if he wasn't so reckless she would never be this hurt, he missed how cheerful and colorful she was he feels miserable now because he took away that little light she was. She cried until her tears run out, a nurse came in to leave her breakfast followed by Niki, unsure to be welcomed inside again, she eats small bites feeling the struggle to swallow, the lump in her throat hurts when she eats, the silence between them feels suffocating for Niki in that moment Jay appears with a gigantic bouquet of tulips.

-how are you feeling miss sunshine? He smiles at her leaving the flower next to her bed, she couldn't take her eyes from them, the flowers are so pretty and her favorites too

-i feel better just cold

-i can imagine you almost pass away because of hypothermia, it was a luck Minju was there, if not the sunshine will be gone- Jay was warm, and she reaffirm why everyone was in love with him, he wasn't like those frat boys in the movies, he's handsome and kind

-Minju? Kim Minju?... Saved me

-well not like that, she was taking a walk when she saw you climb the bridge and called the emergency services, when you fell the paramedics arrived, they took you out in time and treated you… she wanted to come but she wasn't sure if you would want her here so she sent this - Jay took a plush keychain of a bunny, with bows and a dress similar to one she actually owns- she hopes that you like it and that you get better soon, also she told me that she won't tell anyone about this 

-can you say thank you for me, and that I'm sorry for the struggle and the bother I may cause to her- she smiles genuinely for the first time in days, admiring her plush and her flowers- I left the jacket at home, you can return it and have your money back

-oh no it's yours, how can I return something you look so cute wearing? It's yours is also a gift so don't even think in paying me back- Jay got close to her, brushing the baby hairs out of her face making her blush, no one was ever this good to her- there it is, that beautiful color on you- he smiles and poke her red cheek making her more shy- gotta go I have to pick my mom for a date, see you sunshine hope you get better 

-thank you for coming Jay, I really like my flowers- she was blushing intensely like a teenager, and Niki was seeing their interaction feeling something on his chest a pinch there, uncomfortable and it made him somehow angry, is he jealous? Of Jay and y/n?Jay left the room waving at her and sending a flying kiss that made her giggle, Niki rolled his eyes and saw him go, after Jay was gone only the beep of the machines were the only sound in the room.

-Minju likes you a lot- she only looks at her lap and the plush Minju send- I heard her talk about you with her friends… we share a class- she knew that Minju rejected him since Jay told her- I'll talk to her to clarify everything before I left, I promise, you can try again I bet she'll say yes this time- she bites her lip trying not to cry again, her little crush on Niki must be gone now, specially since he made very clear how he feels about her

-I don't think it will be the best 

-She's really pretty… like the movies we saw, popular and pretty, just that unlike what happens in films she's really nice and kind too… you'll look so good together… you also look like one of those bad guys in movies but you're kind too that's why people like you 

-I haven't been kind to you 

-Is okay, I know is because I'm a lot to deal with… not even my parents, they prefer to be far away from me than be on Christmas together… last year was the same- she shrinks her shoulders trying not to think a lot about this

- you're not… people likes you too

- I know is not true, that's why I don't have friends… don't wanna talk anymore my body hurts 

-okay, but Jay hyung said it, you're a sunshine

Niki left the room to call for a nurse to check on her, they did an usual check up and gave her medicine and treatment, she fell asleep tired with everything that happened, when she woke up in the afternoon the first thing she saw was Niki sitting on the couch sewing her green dress looking at a tutorial on his phone, she looks at him with amusement he's frowning while doing the stitches so carefully I took him a while to notice that she was awake watching him.

-oh just in time, look- he lifts the dress to show her proud of his work- it broke when you fell but now is like brand new- she didn't know how to feel about it, she didn't want to be overly excited of Niki doing simple yet meaningful things for her because of guilt 

-thank you… is my favorite recently I didn't mean for it to be ruined- Niki handed the garment for her to look at it, making her smile for the first time after the incident, he felt his heart skip a beat seeing her like that with that little spark of hers

-you look pretty when you smile - that little frase and Niki's smiling face made her remember his venom words, Niki is getting closer to her- miss sunshine is getting her colors back- he chuckled and leaned over her automatically erasing her smile, he's trying to… she doesn't know, he's trying to kiss her making her nervous pushing him away just when his face was centimeters away from her face, her voice came out in a whisper 

-can you leave please? Like leave really… I don't wanna you here, I'm not feeling well… and neither I'm sure if I want to keep seeing you… you make me feel confused because you treat me bad and now you're kind… -she felt ashamed of what she was saying never putting boundaries for anyone before- I like you, the same way you like Minju… but I don't want you to only kiss me because of your pity 

-Is… I don't feel pity 

- neither your guild, you made clear what you think of me, don't wanna see you ever again please?- she looks at him with her teary eyes- I'm not a disposable toy you can treat badly and then kiss… go home Riki

- I'm sorry… I won't do it again… I'll just stay to take care of you won't do anything like that again it was a mistake…

- of course kiss me will be a mistake- she didn't even know why she was crying maybe it was everything, she couldn't hold it anymore, she felt angry, so angry something unusual in her, when Niki tried to talk again she didn't let him- just go now don't wanna see you ever again… this whole thing is a mistake, you and me as roommates, this lame get together on Thursday when your friends couldn't be with you… I don't wanna be the last resource for when you're bored… go… GO

A nurse heard all her rage talk and her yelling at Niki, seeing her so distress made her call security on her room, taking Niki out of the hospital, he felt so frustrated and dumb for what he did, kicking a trash bin screaming in frustration, after some minutes to cool down he went inside the hospital but only to find out in reception that y/n asked for him not to be allowed anymore, now that made him more angry wanting to break in just to see her, security took him out of the hospital again into the parking lot where he called an Uber to the apartment once there he noticed how dark and gloomy it was, how he was dark and gloomy, he once had that light but he extinguished, Niki took away the sunshine that y/n was and he knows she's right about wanting him away, what was he thinking? he did it on an impulse, he just saw her and wanted to do it, now what?.

Niki paced around the tiny apartment, he will make things right, he'll find a way to make it up to her, first thing is to actually put on all the decorations and little details about her in the space they live in he took everything out of the box and back in the original place, the cushions, the vase, the little colorful figures she likes, probably she'll need a bigger vase for the bouquet Jay gifted her, maybe a welcome home party, that's exactly what he's gonna do he started to plan everything for her, Niki received the email of her check up and all the studies the hospital made on her, also that tomorrow she will be discharged, with no time to waste he started to do everything going out to buy her decorations a cake, he even buy a Christmas tree hoping that they can decorate together, y/n did bring a box with ornaments for the holidays it was in a cellar in the basement of the building he did bring it upstairs finding really colorful things, he admired everything amazed by how she was able to imprint her personality in every little detail around her, he started to place and put little Santa figures and a Christmas village around the apartment even inside her and his own room; it did made him smile like a fool seeing the snow globes on his desk, on her room he found her book of designs for her classes all the ideas she does have the creativity, Niki didn't want that lost forever, that spark that shines in every thing she does.

When y/n was discharged she didn't have an idea of what to do, she wasn't sure where to go or how to get there, if she goes to her parents house she will be locked outside since she doesn't have keys, going to a friend's house yeah sure, find another place to stay with what money? She was having a headache putting on her green dress, it was cold outside but she didn't have a sweater only the blanket Niki brought for her she picked her things and stayed standing on the parking lot trembling, a really nice car parked in front and Jay did came out of it.

-my god little sunshine where's your coat?- he quickly took his off putting it on her shoulders opening the door for her- get in I'll take you home or whatever you wanna go- she looks at him with Bambie eyes so thankful that he turn on the heat

-I don't know… I don't have where to go… don't wanna see Riki now

- I can take you to the frat house and let you stay in my room, but if you feel uncomfortable you can tell me and I'll find a solution- he gives her a smile and she nodded in affirmation

-how did you know I was discharged?

-Niki told me… be wanted to do something nice for you but he made clear that you didn't want to see him so he sent me for you, by the way he organized a welcome thing for you hoping that maybe you can forgive him

-I don't feel ready to see him yet…

Jay only nods not digging in the topic anymore he drove in silence parking outside a beautiful house, really large, he opened the door to help her get out of the car and then he let her walk in first.

-Im back, there's a new rule… no walking around the house naked or semi naked, no sex jokes, no harassing her, no touching her, no talking to her unless she wants to talk to you, most important no coming into my room… now boundaries set, this is y/n is my guest for tonight and as long as she wants, we want her to feel comfortable so behave

Everyone there agreed with him without questioning him, Jay guides her through the house into the last floor and a room more like a penthouse, letting her in she looks around amazed, while Jay texted Niki to tell him that she won't be there for now.

-now clothes, you look really pretty with that dress but is not suitable for winter, soon will start to snow and we don't want the sunshine back in hospital or sick at home- he took sweatpants ang a long sleeve shirt, also one of his sweater- probably it will be big for you but is better than freeze

Jay went out to let her change clothes, waiting until she told him it was alright to come inside, he did knock before coming inside for her, she feels shy because nobody had been this attentive to her

-you must be hungry and tired of the hospital food, let me make you something

Y/n wasn't sure if Jay was doing this because he feels pity for her, but unlike the way she felt with Riki with Jay she felt something genuine and warm, even if it was pity she wanted to enjoy having someone caring for her.

When Niki saw the message he wanted to punch himself in the gut, she didn't even want to be near him, she prefers Jay over him even when she meet him first, Niki clenched his jaw before packing some things in a pink bag, taking the cake and going out straight to the frat house.

He didn't need to be invited since Jay was his friend, he did have free entry there, he saw the new ones doing the chores of the house as part of their initiation, asking one of them where's Jay, they indicated the way to the kitchen before he could go inside he heard her laugh, a genuine soft laugh, enjoying the bad jokes of Jay, when hold himself and grounded his thoughts before stepping inside, Jay was mixing something on the stove and she was sitting on the counter smiling wearing Jay's clothes, why she was so happy here? Why does her spark only shine here and not in the apartment with Niki?

-oh Niki I didn't knew you'll come here

-you told me I didn't need an invitation to the frat

-yeah I said that, you can go to the game room if you want the newbies finished the cleaning

-I didn't come to play… I come to take her home- Niki locked his eyes on her blushy face, feeling something pinching his heart

-don’t wanna go please Jay, you told me I can stay here- she whispered pulling Jay close to her using his body as a shield putting more distance between her and Niki, something that made him furious but he swallowed all to not upset her more

-I know you probably hate me now, and I don't blame you I know what I did was wrong and it was worse how I tried to force myself into you by kissing you… it's just that I don't know what I feel, I thought I was done with you, but now that I experienced how's life without you I noticed how dark it actually is, how horrible is to come back not hearing you singing voice in the kitchen, how painful was to see your things in the trash… I know I fuck It up but I don't know how to be a good friend and I thought that maybe if I push you out you'll never have to be near to be disappointed of me but you're and you hate me… I'm stupid okay? Because maybe I wanted to deny how much I started to like you, how much I love every bit of you… I'm sorry I hurt you and that I was the one responsible for you to try end your life, I never felt so afraid to lose something until I didn't saw that sunshine that used to like be around with me in our apartment, I really want an opportunity to make things right this time, please just one? One chance I won't fuck It up again- She was petrified listening, holding onto Jay, Niki felt more nervous that she didn't answer and probably he just ruined things even more he tried to get close but Jay put distance between them

-I need time to clear my mind, I don't wanna come back right now to the apartment… I'm not sure I can be near you… at least for now- her voice was soft and calm, unlike her hammering heart, Niki let out a deep breath

-okay… I did bring you your cake, I wanted to surprise you at home but it's your favorite and it will be a shame if we throw it away, it's cherry velvet cake… also I bring your clothes even tho I hoped for you to come back with me

He left the things there in the kitchen island, giving one last look at her before leaving the kitchen and the house. When he arrived home he saw the sign he made for her and the balloons and everything, he saw how even if he used a lot of colors it was still gloomy, it needed her to shine, he went to bed even if it's just the afternoon he buried himself under the blankets.

In the frat Jay finished cooking for her making her company, feeding her, trying his best to not think in Riki, but how could she if he admitted that he likes her, maybe not romantically like she does but at least friendly, Jay did everything to help her feel better and she did, he put on a movie and made pop corn, making her relax, by nighttime he helped into bed tucking her in the blankets, he made himself a improvised bed on the floor.

-I can take the floor, I don't feel good knowing I took your bed

-what kind of men would I be letting a beautiful lady sleep on my floor while I'm in bed?

-we can share then? Is really big and I don't feel uncomfy with you… you make me feel safe- Jay smiled climbing on his bed and taking his side of the bed.

-Well if you don't feel good I can go to the living room and take the sofa, okay? Don't feel bad of telling me that, good night sunshine

-good night Jay, thank you

She quickly fell asleep still feeling a little weak and cold, snuggling in Jay's side taking his warmth, in the morning he woke up with his arm wrapped on her and she peacefully sleeping, he stayed like that enjoying this peaceful morning, that didn't last long his bedroom door opened abruptly with Niki coming inside uninvited holding a bag and a tray with coffee, frowning and clearly pissed that they were not just sharing bed but alsothey're cuddling

-what are you doing here?- Jay said in his deep morning voice

-I came to see her and I did bring her favorite for breakfast- Niki said like if it was obvious or if it was something he did on the regular

-as you can see sunshine is still sleeping, you can leave I'll tell her you'd been here later- Jay said not minding that Niki was literally killing him with his eyes and just when he was about to talk he interrupted- listen she doesn't want to see you now stop forcing yourself on her, she needs time you hurt her Riki stop doing it now

-just tell her I came to check on her and that I'll wait for her at home- Niki left defeated leaving the breakfast for her in the nightstand, when the door closed and he didn't longer hear steps he chuckled

-I know you're awake sunshine- Jay moves slightly to push a part enough to see her blushing face- good morning, did you sleep well?

-good morning, I did… I'm sorry I cuddled you… thank you for telling him to go, you think he knows I pretend to be sleeping?

-no, he's too dumb to notice small things, oh and don't say sorry for something like that I cuddled you too- he smiles sitting in bed with her- let's have breakfast now that is still warm

-thank you Jay, for everything- he started to feed her little pieces eating almost everything until she was satisfied- can I ask you why you helped me if we're not friends?

-oh I thought we were friends now- Jay looks at her- I did it because you need it, you're actually nice and my mom would kill me if I saw someone that I could help and I won't do anything about it… also I know Niki can be a stubborn but he's my friend and I know he cares about you, one time he spent solid 20 minutes talking about you, you don't talk that long about someone you dislike, he's dumb and hasn't developed his brain well enough yet to know when he really likes someone, the way he likes you and not someone like Minju who he likes because he's used to seeing her at our parties and she's cute, but not like you

-you’re saying this only to make me feel better

-you think I'm lying? well if I wasn't right Niki wouldn't even remember the things you like, he wouldn't know what vintage shop you're so in love with, he wouldn't notice your size to buy you a dress, wouldn't know your favorite snacks- Jay hold her by the shoulders to make him look at him- he knows everything about you even little silly things about but he took way too long to know that he wants you not Minju, he doesn't even know her major, but about you, oh boy don't get me started, Minju rejected him because in a supposed date Niki talked about how annoying you were singing happily while making his breakfast, who the hell will talk about someone else when you wanna date?

-i I didn't knew that

-sunshine don't tell me you're just as airhead as him- Jay dragged his hand on his face- you know everything about him too and didn't notice how he was slowly dying for you… it was just a suspect in our side as friends but how he nearly kills me when I cuddled you only helped me put together everything, I helped you because he's my friend and I need to help him sometimes but doesn't mean I won't tell him when he's messing everything that's why I kicked him out of here

-thank you again

-is okay sunshine, let's get you ready for the day okay?

Jay was really careful with her to not make her uncomfortable, even if she was in a house full of unknown men she felt safe, Jay was outside the bathroom door while she shower so no one can come inside and see her vulnerable, she came out already dress with the clothes Niki left for her, she was wearing a monochromatic yellow set warm a cozy for the weather.

-i’m ready JayJay

-oh my little sunshine you look so beautiful- he makes her twirl to look at her- gorgeous- she's blushing and smiling- let's go do your hair

Jay sit her on his chair in front of the desk taking a blow-dryer brushing her hair, styling it in a high ponytail with a bow, giving a mirror so she can look at herself while he goes shower, she was waiting for him scrolling on her phone when a message from an unknown number pop on her notification.

At first she was confused and then realized it was Niki, she didn't answer not feeling ready yet to face him after everything Jay said about Riki, he wrote that he missed her, she started to spiral down in thought until Jay appeared again.

-you feeling good?

-yeah I just I don't know if I wanna go back to live with Riki or if I wanna be on this college anymore I think my parents were right and it was a mistake my major, coming here in general- she hugs her knees 

-how can it be a mistake if you love your major? most important if you're so talented… you can't tell me you're not I saw your designs in the exhibition at campus 

-I feel confused now

-don't let someone take away that from you- Jay takes her hand helping her to get up- c’mon let's go out to do something fun instead of staying here to cry about my friend 

She happily accepted, following him to his car and letting him take her anywhere. They spend the whole day in the amusement park, riding everything she wants even if Jay felt afraid sometimes, they had food and snacks, even they tried the fair games and Jay won a big plushie a blue bear, when he gives it to her she bounce hugging it, Jay took photos of her alone and them together, calling it a day when she said she was tired, even if she was out of hospital she got tired more easily than before the incident, Jay drove both of them back to the frat carrying her because she fell asleep on the ride home, Niki was waiting for them in the front door frowning at Jay.

-where were you?

-out, don't make noise you're gonna wake her

-stop doing that

-what carry her inside? Am I supposed to leave her in the car?- Jay laugh softly 

-no, taking her away from me

-i don't have time to deal with you now Niki 

Niki was blind by jealousy holding Jay's shoulder trying to take her from his arms, Jay held her hugging her body and making her stir and complain.

-look Niki is late she's tired and I'm too, go home now

-why you take y/n on a date when you know I like her, why you insist in taking her away from me- Niki started to yell, making her open her eyes confused- I'll take her with me now- Jay holds her and shield her body away from Niki going inside the house ignoring him, asking the newbies to take him out while he rocks her to sleep again.

She quickly fell asleep again leaving her peacefully sleeping on his bed and going down to the front door to confront Niki about this, who was yelling at Jay that he was a bad friend for dating the girl he loves.

-i'm gonna say this once before I kick you out of here, I didn't take her away and in fact I find really funny that you think that when you pushed and insulted her in front of all of us, that you left her alone when she wasn't feeling good only to find out that she tried to take her own life, it's actually hilarious that you realized your love for her after almost losing her but you never appreciated everything she did for you- Jay laughs humorlessly- you are blaming me for your own decisions, sunshine doesn't want to be near you, doesn't even want to see you, now go and don't come here unless she tells you to do it, get it… new rule he's not allowed in the house until I say so, if you see him catch and call the police because of an intruder 

Jay went inside the house and directly to his room, she was still sleeping, he changed clothes before getting inside the bed with her.

Two weeks pass in a blink of an eye, Niki didn't tried to be back in the frat again, he wasn't invited when his other friends were there playing videogames, unlike the times Niki forbade her to leave her room, she was invited to play with them, Sunghoon let her win a couple times but not Heeseung or Jake, as she learn they're competitive, she learned a lot about them and their personalities even got to know Sunoo and Jungwon who also we're friends but didn't hang around so often because of their tight schedule, she was happy and more comfortable now, her mind cleared a lot even if Niki kept sending messages and she didn't reply them. It was already Friday and they were getting ready for a party in the frat and even asked her if it was okay for Niki to come, she didn't feel bad about him again so she accepted, she was kinda nervous to see him again even if she wasn't sure to be back with him in the apartment she knows she cannot live in the frat forever, she was taking her time to get ready wanting to look pretty maybe Niki will notice that she's wearing makeup today or that she's wearing a dress shorter than usual or heels, or maybe he won't, her mind was racing by the time Jay knocked on the door.

-ready sunshine? the party already started Niki it's been here since we started to prep everything, just letting you know in case you don't wanna cross path with him

-is okay I'm ready

- gorgeous as always

Riki didn't have as much fun as her, he became darker and the apartment gloomy, he goes everyday to her room, like a creep to see her clothes and smell her perfume on them, he even took one of her pillows to his bed to hug at night, he didn't eat well missing her in the afternoon cooking and dancing in the kitchen, he sent texts that never had a reply but he somehow feels warm on his chest when the read appears below them. He didn't expect for his friends to invite him to the party in the frat specially when they post their pictures together and her doing everything he used to do, he saved all the photos to be able to see her, smiling and shining, he got ready early and arrived before everyone hoping to see her before the house become a mess, but she was nowhere near so he helped to install everything, the guest started to come one by one until it was somehow crowded he feels suffocated trying to find a place for him alone but just in that moment she was coming downstairs looking like an angel, that pinch of jealousy on his chest hurt when he noticed Jay was holding her hand and making her laugh, by the time she noticed him looking she waved softly at him, Niki feels his heart skip a beat not wanting to make the same mistakes he just waved back not following her.

Y/n noticed the dark circles under Niki's eyes and how he didn't look at his best, but even with all of that he was still as breathtaking as always, he was wearing a sleeves black t-shirt and ripped jeans, he looked good with his silver chains and rings; she followed Jay to where his friends are, laughing with them, slowly each one of them got a girl to be entertained the rest of the night, even Jay did after he reassure him that she'll be okay and if she doesn't feel comfortable she'll be back upstairs, y/n was alone drinking from a glass, a non alcoholic beverage Heeseung made only for her, she was dancing slightly to a song she likes.

-do you wanna dance with me?- Niki was behind her looking ashamed and ready for rejection

-maybe- she looks at him now that he's close a little frown on her soft factions- are you a good dancer?

-I’m the second best dancer in the whole campus- he rubs his neck- you're the first place- that made her giggle and Niki relaxed

-I would love to dance with you- she takes his hand guiding him to the living room where all the other couples were dancing, Niki hesitate to hold her- is okay if you don't want to hold my waist we can hold hands

-no, it's just… if… it's alright if I touch you- she nods and Niki nervously holds her and started to dance relaxing slowly- I'm sorry I was a horrible person with you

-you really were mean to me and rude too

-I know, Jake called me a dick head- she laughed- I'm glad you like my friends

-why is that so?- Niki pull her body closer to his afraid to let her go

- because I wanna a chance, to make things right this time… and if you like my friends now I already have a worry less, I won't be afraid of you dumping me because of them

-why would someone dump you because of them if they're so good to me and everyone else?

- I, well I don't know, you're right I'm the bad one of the group

-you’re not only a little rough- Niki blush ashamed, spinning with her to the rhythm

-can you give me a chance? I promise I'll change, I'll be better for you- Niki searched in his pocket taking a small box from it- I want you back home, I haven't started to decorate the Christmas tree, and it's almost the date, I was hoping we can spend Christmas and new years eve… I found this in the shop you like

He handed the box and when she opened she found the most beautiful thing, it was an ornament, really colorful and pretty, she knew what it was but didn't want to get too excited.

-the lady told me it was a Louis Tiffany original, but I don't know if it's real of if she just told me that to sell it for much more, she gave me the certificate it's inside the box- she was amazed looking at the fragile ornament

-oh Niki it's, I don't know what to say… this are expensive for an ornament, it's a Bradford of Tiffany, it's… I'm speechless

-well I was hoping that this can be the first of many, I asked for more in the vintage shop, so we can decorate our apartment

She put the ornament back in the box throwing herself on his arms to hug him, giggling and bouncing in excitement, Niki's heart beats faster now that he gets to feel and see her spark again and for him, on an impulse she pecks his lips, really fast almost none but Niki was petrified.

-sorry I didn't mean I got really excited- Niki cups her face looking at her lips getting closer and asking silently for permission, she nods slightly and he leans to give her a sweet kiss, soft and short, pulling apart, she smiles so big wrapping her arms on his neck and feeling Niki's hands on her hips holding her close to his body.

-Can I move back to our apartment?

-nothing would make happier that my sunshine coming back to our home

-your sunshine?

-mine if you want- Niki blush and she enjoyed seeing him like this

-maybe I'll think about it, you know Jay calls me like that- Niki huff annoyed

-don't even mention him… you're mine, my sunshine, not his, not anybody else- he was still swinging side to side to the beat of the song on the background

-that makes you my storm cloud

-pretty funny you're- he rolled his eyes and she giggles- I missed you a lot I almost died, I missed your laugh and everything about you I put your things back in place but it's not the same without you I'm sorry for the mess I made

-hush now you're ruining the mood, and probably you're ruining my future boyfriend's proposal- Niki was surprised and quickly started to cover her face in kisses, making her smile and giggle- I'll say yes but you have to take me on a date first

-oh of course wherever you wanna go or do I'll take you- he leans to kiss her neck peppering kisses on her soft skin.

-i think I love you… it's alright if I say that?- Niki lifted his face from her neck

-I think I love you too… I may adore you even if I realized too late

-not late, in time to not ruin our opportunity together

-just in time to see my sunshine

She smiles happily about the outcome of everything, even with the pain and the struggle, she likes how everything at the end was worth it, how he seems to deeply love her now. she's the sunshine, Niki's sunshine and he was so happy to be able to hold her and dance with her on his arms, hearing her sweet voice and beautiful laugh.

Fin.

Thank you so much for reading this and liking the first part too

[en-trashy]

Shadow 西村力

Niki and y/n are roommates by accident and their relationship is not the best. Sunshine fem character and dark aura Niki (kinda rude)

Is angst at the end with no comfort

4.9k words

Tw: rude roommate, opposites attract, slight description of depression but never catalog like that, mentions parental abandon (but just a little), suicide thinking (if you deal with this ideas always seek for professional help), slight description of suicidal acts

It all started because of a mistake with the real estate agency, confusing her application for a girls shared apartment and pairing her with Nishimura Riki. She moved first bringing all her colorful life into the tiny space placing green cushions on the white sofa, a pink knitted blanket on a basket in the living room, an orange vase with tulips in the coffee table, the colorful mugs and plates on the kitchen, every space she went in had now a splash of color imprinting her personality in this new home; Riki arrived a week later finding the living room decorated with balloons and a welcome sign, while she's holding a strawberry cheesecake, the first thing she thought when she saw him is how handsome he was, his sharp features and black hair.

-hi my name is y/n is a pleasure to meet you, we're gonna be roommates we're gonna have so much fun 

Riki wasn't so happy about this arrangement, her dark clothes clashing with all the colors, he rolled his eyes annoyed by her high pitch tone, full of excitement, he directly ignored her going straight to the empty room, she followed him there, in the bed was a basket with a lot of different things as a welcome gift.

-I bought some hygiene products, I just didn't know you were a boy. I should have bought you something different but I guess you can still use them, those are my favorites and…

-look this is a mistake I should be with someone else, I called the agency they told me there's no other option but for us to be together as long as our contract says, so there's rules, one keep your things for you, two don't bother me, three never come into my room again, four we're here because of a mistake we're not friends or nothing don't talk to me

His tone was harsh while pushing her out of his room slamming the door locking it, she was puzzled and a little taken back, decided to not let this tiny mistake to actually ruin her mood, she cut a piece of the cheesecake for her storing the rest in the fridge with a flower post-it and Riki's name on it.

Days keep passing and things didn't change a lot between them, Riki avoids her as much as he can, only coming together at dinner when he would search for something in the fridge even if she cooks enough for both, and she would serve both plates but end up eating alone in the kitchen table, Riki did eat the food once she was inside her room and next morning she would find the clean plate in place with the rest of the dishes, only sometimes he will be with her during dinner eating and listening to her conversation, thanking her for making the food even more rare just a couple times he would compliment her cooking skills, even if this whole deal wasn't what she was expecting it made her happy that he enjoyed at least something from her, learning his favorite food to make it one of those days when he didn't feel at his best. Their routine was always the same, Riki would wake up before her to shower, make coffee and breakfast eating before leaving for college, by the time she was in the shower he already left, taking the meal and the coffee Riki left for her packed on her yellow lunch box, always stumbling into classes almost late but barely just on time; they shared a couple classes but he always acted like they are strangers, Niki, as most of the people called him, was with his group of friends all the time, he had that dark aura that pulled people like magnets his cold personality made everyone revolve around him and his friends, the sport and frat boys; meanwhile she wasn't able to have friends even with her bright personality she would say hi to everyone in the corridors, sometimes someone will acknowledge her and say hi back, rarely she had small and trivial conversations with someone else, just that always ended up alone for group projects or lunch time.

Things started to change between them gradually, it started with Niki leaving snacks for her, slowly the snacks become her favorite gummies, he bought flowers for the vase in her room always different colors and types, each month Niki did the grocery shopping never forgetting pads for her and ice cream, once she found a shopping bag from a vintage store she usually goes to have a look finding a beautiful green dress along with a post-it “hope it fits”, even if they still haven't a close relationship or talk a lot she was feeling seeing for the first time in her life, even appreciated, she cooks for the both of them and do the laundry, he takes the trash out and vacuum moving the heavy furniture, it was a perfect balance for them. Y/n talks and Niki listens, she dances and sings around the house and he admires her from afar.

The months keep passing but during a particular time of projects and assignments, y/n was overload with homework, Niki managed to do it with his group study that happens to be his friends, she did her best to do the assignment meant for three people all alone, it was late at night on a Friday night, almost midnight and she was nowhere to be found in the apartment, the rain outside was heavy and even if Niki pretend that he wasn't worried about his roommate he was, usually at 9 she was there, never longer than that, no parties, friends or boyfriend that he knew for her to be out this late with this weather, it was almost one am when she stumbled through the door soaking wet with dark circles under her tired eyes, she managed to get into her room and change clothes before passing out in her rug, the loud thud alerted Niki finding her door open and she on the floor unconscious, he quickly picked her up putting in bed, she was burning in fever stirring uncomfortable, he stayed awake all night to cool down her by the time she woke up he was uncomfortably sleeping kneeling on the floor and his head on her mattress, her mind did have blurry memories of how she got there finding the cloth he used along with the thermometer, putting the pieces together realizing that Niki took care of her, she flustered like a teenager, his cold roommate actually cared about her; happily she got up straight to the kitchen to make breakfast for the both of them, she didn't even care about the ache on her body of how she just experienced an exhaustion episode she was thrilled because of Niki, for as long as they lived together she couldn't deny how handsome he was maybe he was opening to her because he liked her back.

-what do you think you're doing?

Niki's voice deep and a little angry pulled her out of her daydreaming, seeing his face makes her stutter

-I I was making breakfast for us

He just sigh letting her finish with that and waiting sitting for her to plate everything, once they finished he washed the dishes before going to his room, to change his clothes and going out of the apartment slamming the front door, that day in particular she couldn't take him out of her mind waiting for Niki to be back by lunchtime or dinner, which didn't happen it was late at night and she was curled up in the couch waiting for him, by the time the frat party ended Niki stumbled a little tipsy inside making her jolt from her spot.

-Ki, are you okay? Let me serve you a plate I made us hot pot I'll help you into your room-Niki slapped her hand off him, when she was trying to help him remove his jacket

-stop trying to undress me… whatever you try… not happening… not tonight

-but…

-just shut up, my head is killing me… tomorrow we can do whatever you want-Niki went inside his room, she happily put everything on a tray, his food, a glass of water and a painkiller leaving it at his door and knocking softly, knowing it is better to give him the space he wants.

That night she went to sleep with a thousand butterflies on her tummy, thinking that she may have an opportunity with Niki, all those little details about him replayed on her head, how he always left her cup of coffee and breakfast ready, how if he buys a treat for him always leaves one for her labeled with her name, how he folds the laundry but always respect her undies basket, how he started to buy her flower because one time she forgot to buy them and he replaced them bringing her favorites and then he did it every time, all those little details about him made her feel sort of in love.

Monday morning she woke up early to make breakfast for them, waiting sitting for him, by the time he arrived at the kitchen and saw everything nonchalantly he just sit to eat trying not to be as rude as last night

-good morning Ki-she said with a big smile he responded only with a grunt, she started to talk about a hideous project she had to do alone- so my friend Jinni she likes this boy so she tried and actually get it now they're starting to date… that's why I end up alone for the project but it's okay… then my other friend Ryujin she's busy with the female soccer team and her colleges decided to pair with her but it's alright calculus is not so difficult this semester and it's the only time I'll have it in my major that's why I didn't worried

Niki got up hoping for her to stop talking, taking his empty plate to the sink and washing it immediately, he dried his hands while she washed her plate, he started to go and she rushed to catch him, putting her shoes quickly she runs to be next to him, holding her bag and trotting alongside him to keep pace with his walk, he put on headphones and she just stayed in silence with him by the time they reach their college Niki walked straight to his group of friends she stayed a couple steps behind.

-you have a little shadow today, a colorful one- Heeseung the captain of the basketball pointed at her she waved happily to them, and all of them responded, Niki rolled his eyes pushing his friends to go inside

-she’s driving me insane since I woke up, I can't get her to shut up or leave me

-she looks friendly, can't be that bad- Jake looks back at her and how she tried to follow them but also tried to give Niki the space he asked

-try to live with her, all my apartment looks just like her, she's always talking nonsense and now seems like she wants to be glued to me- Niki got inside his class preferring to wait for his professor instead of being a minute longer with her, his friends didn't understand him but they know better not to dig on it.

For her the day went as usual, she tried to reach for him but didn't saw him anymore, so she went home alone, cooked for them and waited for Niki he arrived late and straight to his room, she left the tray with his meal at his door knocking on the wood hoping he would eat it, she went inside her own room playing some music and doing her homework.

The winter arrived sooner than she expected, somehow she was closer to Niki, every Thursday night when all his friend were busy with training or something related to frat they had a movie night, they both have snacks and a list of movies to watch that they were trying to accomplish, in college most people started to recognize her as Niki's colorful shadow following him every chance she had; another turn in the co-living was that every two Fridays his friends will come to the apartment to play videogames, one of those nights she received the message from her parents “sorry we can be together this time of the year, your dad got a good deal for a cruise ship will see you in the summer for the vacations, we love you honey have fun with your friends” she blinks a couple times just staring at the message, it was the second year they left her alone for holidays and she though this time maybe will hurt less, but it wasn't like that, she tried to cry silently in her room, specially because Niki's friends were there and could hear her, when he started to invite them in, she thought that maybe he wanted for her to be comfortable around his friends too, at first she was excited for their roommate situation to escalate gradually, however Niki asked her to not come out of her room and now she was grateful for that not wanting for anyone else seeing her cry for something silly like being left out of her family plans.

By the time his friends left the house she was starving and already ran out of tears, the hole in her chest was still there and it hurt making a couple sobbings escape her, Niki heard it doing the same she does putting her dinner on a tray leaving it at her door with a soft knock, she smiles when she opened finding this little detail, she contently ate the pizza he left and went to sleep with hope that maybe Niki will also stay with her for the season.

The last day of classes she was behind Niki all day, buying him his favorite snacks, waiting for him outside of his classes. The only moment alone and in peace was when he and Minju got some time alone, he confessed to her and thought that everything will go smoothly but Minju rejected him.

-listen Riki I like you and all of that, but we all know about your girlfriend

-what, no wait what girlfriend?- he was beyond confused

-the girl, the colorful one, the one that lives with you and follows you everywhere, we know about what you have, you're the only thing she talks about, only about you Riki, sorry… maybe another time- she gave an apologetic smile leaving him standing with the bouquet of flowers

In that moment y/n found him, going alongside with him and talking about her classes of the day, he was so done with all of that about to snap just when Jake and Sunghoon pulled him.

-I hope you're ready for our trip I'm so excited, the cheer team is also coming with us- Jake, known to be not just the smartest in his major but also a charismatic playboy, she tried to keep the pace with them

-Finally this is over, one more week and my eyes will pop out because of stress- Sunghoon was extremely popular for his looks but also because he was the captain of the hockey team- you're gonna come with us too?- she was surprised to hear that Sunghoon was talking to her

-I don't know, Ki haven't invite me- she almost whispers

-oh Ki such a bad boy- Jake said in a mocking tone- we leave in two days, to ski, don't forget to bring warm clothes princess, we don't want his little shadow to disappear- he said in his characteristic flirty tone

She could only nood feeling her cheeks burn while they walk away from her, maybe that her parents left her wasn't so bad after all, she would spend some time with Niki, impatient for that day to come she went home quickly and started to pack her winter clothes, she ordered his favorite take out for both, waiting patiently on the living room with a movie, when he got inside the house he didn't look so happy to see her, but she didn't noticed that.

-ki I ordered your favorite… I'm so excited for us to go on a trip together, I thought I'll be alone all season because I couldn't be with my parents and all my friends are going back to their families- her tone was high pitched, just like every time she talks about something she likes, Niki rolled his eyes taking his food and going inside his room

She stayed there until late night watching the movie alone, she fell asleep on the sofa curled up trembling a little, in the morning she woke up covered by a blanket and the living room clean, the sound of the shower alerted her that Niki was awake, she got in the kitchen to make breakfast making extra effort to have perfect pancakes for him, she uses her heart shape pan for the first time giggling with the results, when Niki entered the kitchen and saw everything he rolled his eyes but still he sits and eat.

-I’m so happy to spend time together, I already packed my things, I know we still have today to do it but I just couldn't wait, I went skiing just once I hope I still can do it- her voice was just noise for Niki, he didn't pay attention to her neither what she was saying, he opted to wash the dishes and let her keep talking.

He tried to do his own things but she followed him constantly even inside his room, he even put on headphones but even if she didn't talk she didn't leave him alone following like a shadow even sitting on his gaming chair while he packs a couple thing for the trip, just watching him, by the afternoon his friends arrived to take him to the mall and shop for everything they need it, Niki felt peace washing over him of finally have a time without her around, or he thought so.

-why don't you come with us? Sunghoon told me you're gonna come skiing with us, we're gonna buy equipment- Jay the leader of the fraternity invited her with a really nice smile, she basically squeak in excitement taking her purse and sweater, sitting in the back seat next to Niki

The shopping day was smooth most of the time, Niki managed to be away from her while he was with Jake and Sunghoon buying the snowboards, Jay offered to go with her to search for a padded jacket, she choose a pink one trying on, Jay was a gentleman and she understood why half the campus was in love with him, he helped her to tie her shoes kneeling in front of her, asking about her major and why she likes to study fashion design, it was the first time someone listened to her, really listened to what she likes, she was giggling when she saw Niki again going straight to him holding his hand.

-look I found a really pretty one, is pink and Jay told me it looks really nice on me- Jay nods confirming that she looked good- can't believe I'm going with you skiing Ki, feels like a dream

Niki removed his hand from hers, but she holds him again intertwining their fingers, talking again about the trip, once in the parking lot Niki was so done with her, but what made him snap was the mention of friendship

-Ki can't believe I'm your friend… even tho I like you a lot, but it's okay just being friends not gonna be weird about our relationship- she whispered for him and gave him a warm smile but he couldn't take it anymore, he removed his hand a little violent from hers, almost pushing her, everything pent up in him, how she never got the clue of him wanting space, the way that was the reason Minju rejected him, how everything in his apartment had a piece of her and her personality, he pushed her by the shoulder making her almost trip and fall on her butt

-I’ve told you that we're not friends, for you and me being together it was a mistake, I can't even stand you, you're so annoying not just for me but for everyone, that's why you don't have friends, allegedly you do but why you end up alone in every project, you eat alone too?, because no one sane wants to spend a minute with you, hearing your voice is enough to make anyone's ears bleed, and what's worse you look like a kindergarten painting book, you and I will never be friends, not even your parents wanted you for holidays what makes you think I do? I didn't invited you, they did because they feel pity of you- Niki said each word with venom on his voice and she just froze hearing him, her eyes fill with tears ready to spill them

Niki went inside the car slamming the door, Jake looked at her with pity before going inside too to scold Niki for what he did, Jay and Sunghoon tried to reach for her but she stepped back, wiping her tears and smiling.

-I forgot to buy something… I'll go for it, I'll call an Uber for me later, see you around- she tried to talk normally but her voice cracks at the end

-let me take you home, is not safe for you to go like this- Jay tried to reach for her again but she stepped back and basically run away from them

-wait y/n, please let us help- Sunghoon tried to catch her but she disappeared, he found only her shopping bag lying on the floor he picked it and went back to the car where the other ones were scolding Niki for being so rude- man you cannot treat girls like that, no matter what, you have sisters you wouldn't like someone talking to them just like you did to her

Once all the rage left his body he felt ashamed to have treated her like that, he was just angry because he was rejected and blamed her, Niki asked for his friends to stop at a bakery that he knew she likes and asked for macaroons, he went inside the apartment finding everything dark, with heavy steps he knocked on her door.

-I know you're probably angry with me, but I'm sorry that I talked to you like that. I didn't mean it- he didn't receive an answer- is okay if you don't want to talk to me but I bought you this little cookie you like and I have your bag with me… Jay hyung told me you looked so cute with your new jacket, maybe you can try on your outfits and show me

Niki peaks inside the room, it was empty and dark like the rest of the apartment she was nowhere to be found, he waits for her in the living room but she didn't came home it was late night already, it was pass midnight and she didn't even call, but how was she supposed to call? He didn't provide his number in case of emergency and he didn't saved hers when she wrote it in a post-it for him, he stayed looking at the door as long as the sleepiness allowed him, she opened the door at 3 am, all this time staying in a 24 hours café, seeing Niki sleeping on the couch instead of make her butterflies revolve made her nervous that he would wake up and say more hurtful things to her she tiptoe to her room locking herself inside avoiding Niki, early in the morning his phone started to ring his friends calling so he can hop on the car and they can go, he didn't notice a change in the house giving up for now in solve things with her, he took his bag and went downstairs, when his hyungs asked for y/n Niki lied about it telling them that they solved things but she felt ashamed and didn't want to come anymore.

She woke up nearly midday feeling like a truck ran over her, her body feels drained and her headaches, all his words keep replaying on her mind and something she was always afraid since childhood was growing inside of her, she is afraid of feeling this way, replaceable, even if she tried so hard to be nice to everyone no one ever stayed by her side, it was true she didn't had friends or someone who worried about her, if she just disappears probably nobody would notice, her parents only called for her birthday sometimes, all the darkness inside her started to grow and she felt repulsed by all the colors she insisted to put on in everything with the hopes that all those dark feelings in her eventually would disappear, she didn't feel this empty and lonely since she was ten and tried to jump from a bridge, those memories flooded her thoughts erasing any coherent or rational feeling; she wasn't pretty, or popular, or important, she was just that colorful shadow that people started to notice once she was behind Niki.

In an automatic like movements she took a box filling it with all the decorations she once put on display on this tiny apartment she tried to make her home, in the coffee table she left the money to cover the next month rent and a note, she changed her clothes for her favorite green dress it was short and not suitable for the weather outside, she put on a cardigan and her shoes, going out she left the box with her belongings next to the trashcan and walked to the park near the building she spent this past semester, she was never good in reading people, but she thought that maybe this time was different and Niki would be the exception, she didn't though that her small crush for him would hurt like this, she got next to the bridge leaving her cellphone and removing her shoes there, she stands on the edge looking down her toes numbing, the water was not freeze yet but it wouldn't be long for it to be a gigantic ice cube, she closed her eyes before surrender and jump…

Niki was back to their apartment just a couple minutes after, the trip was cancelled because of the bad weather on the way to the mountains, it was not safe and the news alerted everyone to stay inside, he noticed the box of her things in the trash, picking it up and bringing it inside again.

-i'm back, I know you're here, you left your things outside- Niki called from the door leaving the box on the floor- c’mon I'm sorry is not for you to throw away these things you love

Niki noticed the letter and the money, when he reads the words on the paper he feels all his body turn cold: “Hi Niki, when you read this I'll probably be gone, it wasn't my intention for everyone to hate me, I'm sorry to be a bother all this months I already took my things out, if you call my mom she will come to pick my clothes her number is on my nightstand, probably she will come after her cruise ship hope you don't mind keeping them for a little, I left the money for my rent in the meantime you find a new roommate, I hope you had fun on your trip, tell Jay that I'm sorry the jacket still have the tag he can return it and have his money back. Thank you for being my roommate. I really enjoyed our time together” Niki was confused, why would she left without her things, where she went? Her parents weren't even in the same country, he took his jacket and run outside maybe he can still catch her, the bus station was a couple blocks from there, he ran and on the way he saw the sirens and the ambulances near the bridge, he recognized her baby blue shoes and the flower case on her phone, he ran to get there seeing how the paramedics and police take her unconscious pale body from the water, the green dress he once bought for her was sticking to her body, a cop stopped him to get close to the scene, close to her.

-no, y/n, let me go, she's my roommate I'm her emergency contact, please let me see her- Niki fight to be released, one paramedic informed that she'll need someone to be with her at hospital to provide the info about her, that's when the cops let him be near her, Niki took her shoes and phone he got inside the ambulance next to her unsure to touch her, holding her cold hand- hey don't be like this, please I didn't mean all those things I said, we have to go back to our apartment, you have to help me place our decorations back in place, the trip was cancelled we'll go next week you have to show me how you look with your new jacket… please don't go

She looked so fragile and for the first time all the color she always put in everyone's else's life was gone, that little spark was no longer there and Niki felt afraid to lose that part of his life, that color he got used to and now was comfortable with.

Fin.

I appreciate feedback if someone reads this, thank you in advance little stranger

[en-trashy]

Hi.

My name is Stan, this is not a proper blog, I'm just casual writer and I use this as practice since English is not my first language, I'm not hopping for someone to actually follow me or like what I do, is just a way to empty my ideas that I want to read but I don't find.

I like Enhypen and prob only write about them, most specifically Hyung line since is the one I'm more comfortable writing or imagine about, and prob a lots of Sunghoon since is my bias.

Unimportant things that you may be interested in:

Don't care about pronouns I don't use them, I'm a girl but people tend to miss gender me because of my name and I don't care

I'm 26

I'm INTJ

My favorite color is green

I have a major and a master degree

I like art a lot

Not very good at making friends

As far as I know I'm not uncomfortable on any topic but maybe I will find out later on.

Master list

If you're here thanks so much little stranger