27. INTJ. Queer. Sometimes I feel fine. Like a normal person. Other times I'm consumed by my personal hell. Adhd, cptsd, panic & anxiety disorder. Nursing student.
So I found this super neat thing where medicare (aka insurance for older, retired people) makes a set of rules that tells doctors when the patient they admitted to the hospital is actually admitted or just under "outpatient observation." Then they act like they're being responsible by forcing the hospitals social workers to give the patient a paper they need to sign that says they're under observation so their insurance isn't going to cover a chunk of the bill.
I'm having real issues finding a therapist. I really really hate virtual therapy. It feels so far away and impersonal to be talking on video or even worse on a phone. But the only place in the area is 100% virtual and seems to be planning to stay that way. I was on a waitlist for a different therapist, but after a few months, they updated their insurance policy and stopped taking mine. It looks like the only behavioral health associated with the hospital I work for is a Women's Mental Health and that just feels icky. Like I don't really identify as a woman, and I really don't want to think of my mental illness as a "women's issue." Plus it sort of looks like they focus on post-partum depression, PMDD, basic anxiety, depression (which are all important illnesses to be addressed, just not my thing)
Day 5 of covid: I'm getting short bursts of energy followed by omgINeedToLayDown. Wild to think I could be going back to work tomorrow. Hopefully that incidental extra day off will get me well enough to go back on monday without killing any of my patients from missing everything 😅