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[endandegg]

Ponder

I ponder and summit then plummet to the ruins. fixing and dispersing asking what it is they’re doing. thought it was doggy awesome, thanks, see you later, less late next time, enter no trade evoking no trust 

see you later when it’s relevant, rent’s paid, no hush

isn’t that nice, i spent sixteen years learning my vices

To translate my feelings into short songs, for someone 

who once said “it was that song i heard last week 

when i was out of town with a good friend”

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and so i started a blog

if honesty is the key to life

why do i feel like an asshole when i am alive

and all these chemicals the piano plays

i want to sit down and enjoy my days

but i prescribe my medication to myself, most of the time

and even though you say that it’s okay

you’ve got to treat yourself right

and even though you say that

the permission slips on time

you’re not right for the choices you make

that’s what they told me and i felt fake

well fuck them if they can’t understand

everyones different with their own shitty plans

i scored the best flowers

and i gave it away just in hopes

that it would return

set yourself on fire 

for something that you believe in

because all these trees are growing tall

with treason show me the reason to continue

all of these things i believe in

the good things

pink and gold

flowers and roses

killing my time just a cheap bottle of wine

i looked down the river as you crashed into my kayak

why do you have to feel like sandpaper

every time i skin my elbow on you i feel the truth

the truth is i am slobbering drunk on your couch

you wore a bracelet and i want to head south

back to the place where i have grown up wearing gilligan’s hats

no one knows you like you know yourself

so don't go to sleep tonight

think about what you could do better

you could do better than this

i'm wasting all my time trusting in everyone else

when i forget the line to the song goes

trust yourself before you help them out

because no one starts in the middle of a book

if you do really want to kiss me just fucking let me know

i won't take it the wrong way

because i believe in it

charging my phone before i go to sleep

and you're lying here dying

and i’m trying to find a way out of this

no one's honest except for you

i really don’t give a shit what comes back to me

i’ll keep being the best that i can

coz’ nothing comes back to your or me

in the ways in which we’ve planned

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juice

there’s so many species of dogs 

but they’re all dogs at heart

there’s many sober feelings 

but you’ll be torn apart

you’re seldom juicing squeezing

but I know your heart

is dying barely breathing

i know you’re long from perfect

but we’re all long from perfect

you’re seldom juicing juicing squeezing

i’m dying barely breathing

we’re all selling our hearts

you’re dying barely healing

i’m moving with this wheel and

I’m moving in with that funky feeling

you’re seldom juicing squeezing

i’m dying barely breathing

every instant grab it, make it

you don’t want to fake it

tell me what is your goal

stuck in a loop out of control

tell me what is your goal

stuck in a loop out of control

where is kevin?

he’s on his knees

begging for forgiveness

he’s got the heavy heavy heavy disease

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smooth on the seaside beaches

exasperation and the sweet taste of peaches

pumping through your veins when bribes turn into leases

stuck with something in a million pieces

smooth on the seaside beaches

praying for an imaginary jesus

everything it comes and goes

i’m wearing overthrows and overcoats

it’ll never flow just where you want it to go 

without a seed to plant and a garden to grow

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just a photograph

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hot coffee and tea leaves

free like the waterfalls

healthy eaters

they’re just like me microwaves

that of which we can’t see in our brains

we’ll be real cozy

thousand dollar caskets for priceless memories

i'll never grow, you’ll never show up, you’ll never grow up

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I’m cold. are you?

hi cold nuts.

huh?

I said hi cold nuts.

america the land of the

martian cult infinity

i think i’ll go maybe i’ll leave

follow for another night

put another wall berlin knocks it down

where ya goin’?

nowhere

you can’t just leave like that in the fuckin’ song

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can’t have inspiration

don’t know who you love

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I always feel like shit

Does that mean you’re a crybaby too?

Yeah there are, like, other organs in your body.

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I got triangles up in my staircase oh no

there was no ice cream feeding to the children

in the summer the warped tour’s way too hot

they say one day be prepared because you never know what’s coming

walk down fifth avenue and feeling really scummy

put your needle to the nose

he puts up your clothes

we don’t need no care

we just need earth fire and air

sweet America Land of the whore

sweet America the land of industry

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sweet friend of mine victory is out of line

i’ve been questioning all of these things

vacation it can’t come fast enough

saving my money feeling out of luck

it’s tough in the city where no one sleeps

so call your own friendship to the line

your own little moment to shine.

so pick all your cucumbers out of your salad

at olive garden you were feeling kinda hasty to leave

were you leaving or taking the lead?

Its funny how people take fear by the reigns

put a spike to their veins and feel happy all again

and i want to hold onto what i can be allowed to keep

swimmin’ in the sand x8

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friends become foes friends become foes 

onions make you cry just like 

friends become foes 

i would kill a rabbit if i had it

i would burn the wood if i had it

if i wanted to learn magic i would make this all disappear

i wouldn’t burn my house down

find the thing that i have not yet found

a family who’s out of town just like everyone

i grew up with daughters and sons

we grew up with classmates and hashtags

we grew up in the 21st century

don't listen to the social media

just stay in your room

and eat pita bread

and go to bed feeling no longer insatiable but indeed relate-able

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someone doesn’t know

my daddy hit the jackpot now hes winning big and hell never stop

cause if you bet enough you bet enough money sometimes you’re gonna win honey

the rhyming and the bunny made you hop over your heel

i’ve gotta a fortune you want to know

and the fortunes gonna go something like

you will always succeed in your future

no weed weed nothing needed

just you nothing to do

so you go for a walk and walk always these chickens squawk 

no one is really as lively as you when you're out walking alone in this crazy zoo

run bun al capone in this boys beggar home hes never working alone hes got his head in the zone

but hes out drinking making noise i never want to stop partying with the rowdy boys 

cloudy thoughts and cigarette smoke and never going to sleep alone

all these thought awake me up to early 4am i cant sleep anymore because

the milk mans knocking at my door and it about time that i wake the fuck up from this lucid doctors scheme

im always repairing my knees when i fall down and get the disease

i want nothing but these trees i want nothing but this soil

gives me eggs hard boiled please c'mon boys get on your knees and suck it

i am your bucket, i am your chum, i am your chew, i am your tobacco, i am you

you are me and we are the truth because you cant see.... when we are alone

i am nothing we are winning and we are suffering we are beginning to see the real dues due

its like stories in the pictures and photo booths.

its like the books that we read

the warning we don’t heed

the things that we don’t need

we always fucking want

the poems that it haunts

you on your lawn

ill be killing time

looking for a steady source of green 

money in between 

my knees

i’m shaking at them

what has gotten into those men 

white collar crime with a blue collar mind

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They were good after time aged like teen spirit and I can be bad at jokes all the time and I think you’d still laugh. You are a bad liar. Hold onto it. I want to hold onto the good (intentions in you). You understand. Good music makes me feel bad. with you everything’s golden.

I want to rip it up. Complete what I was thinking all along. I feel not like a sinner in a saint’s body. We all do it. I wrote it down 5 times. It still looks bad, smells bad, tastes like old toast. Instead of pushing away verbally, I showed my true colors. I have many.  I left my favorite proper noun for something a little more profound.  I strayed and felt okay. I drove all the way your house in the middle of the night. Tell myself this is nothing really. Do what you need to convince me. You always have been good at listening. Echo your thoughts, You see me seeing you. You talk over me. I don’t mind. Our laughter coincides. Now I’m feeling fine. I want to stop time. You put James and Giant Peach on your television. There’s so much on my mind you get. I can do so many things with my own bare hands. You pick them up; answer my metaphor. Nothing is complicated.  You wrap your legs around my torso. We softly tumble and we become one. Its movie time and there’s blankets. we are infinite. I never want to leave your bedroom. Morning never came. You stand in the kitchen and say everything’s going to be okay. I remember not believing you.  I drive away alone feeling miserable and empty. I’ve never felt so empty in my life. the drive home, the polite lady, the fireplace. it all just went away.

Now everything’s alright.

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