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It never fails to amaze me the way Carmy pleads, no, begs Sydney: "stop, stop that" when she is just listing the things that she is sorry that he had to go through.

Something about how Carmy and Claire's relationship seemed so superficial, how she laughs even at the moments he is more vulnerable, like when he talked about his hand injury or when she mocked him in their phone conversation about his anxiety. How much she said she wanted to understand it all, and yet fails to be compassionate or even considerate.

And here is Sydney after all of that, and after all he has put her through, just listing the things she says she doesn't understand, but knows that are awful. She is considerate first and foremost, and even Carmen recognizes it later in the conversation.

But yet, he can't take it; he simply cannot take Sydney seeing all of his suffering and expressing concern and care for him. The man who begged his abuser for a crum of acknowledgment, the man who cried after a whole life of abuse by his mother, the only time she offered some type of accountability. Sydney has not done a single bad thing to him; he calls her his friend, but he cannot take her genuine caring.

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Sabrina out here making hits about The Bear

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The Exact Moment Syd turns Carmy on

Syd tells T.J. that the big brother in the stinky house is the best in the world at video games but sometimes if you play them too well, he acts "weird."

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His behavior when she made a delicious cola braised short ribs (aside: we still need justice for those cola braised short ribs!) with risotto after he had told her they needed a new menu bears out this description. But "weird" is doing a lot of work here; Carmy's reaction to Syd overtaking him with her athletic cavatelli plating time is one of his unlocking a new-to-him emotion: his competitiveness turning into a shocked, sudden and even angry sexual arousal as he is bested.

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The fact that his competitive edge acquires a sexual dimension when it is focused on a young woman is evident from the contrast between Syd and Marcus. Even though Marcus' desserts overtake Carmy's own dessert abilities, he never reacts the same as he does to Syd's kitchen prowess.

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He also has no issues taking orders from an older woman, Chef Terry, that we see him show no sexual attraction to--see above how she is someone he respects but is well outside his personal bubble (unlike Syd).

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Despite promoting her to partner in Season 3 with an ownership stake, Season 3 Carmy treats Syd like an inexperienced sous chef he still needs to train. Carmy does not fully acknowledge Syd's skills are as good as if not better than his own till Season 4 when she plates the cavatelli in record time in front of him.

The reason I think this unlocks a new emotion for Carmy is that no attractive young woman has been able to match him in all the other kitchens he's been inside. We see a young sous in Empire nervously bring him a broken sauce and she is the only one his age that we see him directly interact with; so we can say he is accustomed to ordering younger woman around in his kitchens where they are not able to keep up with him on his skill level (Syd in Season 3 says "You're hard to keep up with sometimes," and he says condescendingly, "Well, I've been doing this longer" and she shoots back "I didn't mean on a skill level").

Otherwise he is surrounded by young and old men. Despite what Richie thinks his life was like, Carmy reveals in Goodbye that he did not have even one day that resembled the trip Richie and Mikey took with music playing in the car. What the various montages of Carmy's fine dining resume in Season 3 revealed are

He's a teacher's pet and the teachers are usually older white men, with the exception of an older woman (Chef Terry).

Fine dining kitchens are silent like churches during service. No flirty or convivial chatting is happening, people work side-by-side but it is not the intimate shared personal bubble and private conversation that he is having with Syd by Season 4.

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3. His competitiveness means he is set above his peers and even in the down time when he is shown eating at the French Laundry, he sits by himself or remains silent when surrounded by others at Noma. He sleeps alone in a fug of nicotine and "restaurant smell."

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4. He does not share his inner self--Chef Terry is the only one to see his sketchbook and later Sugar tells Marcus that she was never allowed to see Carmy's sketchbook. We also know that Mikey and Richie looked at his drawings and used that as ammo to tease him about Claire. He is protective of his sketchbook and seems to sketch alone. Showing his sketches to Syd in Season 2 is a big deal for him that he wants to quickly brush off as thinking about what it means to him is too much for him to admit at that point.

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Essentially it appears from the Season 3 flashback montages like a monastic life of loneliness, grueling physical exertion and competitive anxiety to be the best among his peers.

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That all makes Syd's cool, seemingly effortless overtaking of Carmy's cooking speed in Season 4 a new experience for him.

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There was no professional reason for Carmy to be watching Syd that closely except by Season 4 he can't help himself from watching her all the time, wherever they are (kitchens, weddings, alleyways). His face cycles through all the emotions: obsessive focus on Syd, disbelief at her speed, competitive anger at being bested, and right there--arousal that he doesn't know what to do with, has to fidget and adjust things to refocus.

This is one Olympic gold medalist recognizing another's prowess with the added overlay of sexual attraction. The auditory cue "Mystery Achievement" tells us that Carmy then will spend the night thinking about it (But every day, every nighttime I find/Mystery achievement. You're on my mind/ And every day, every nighttime I feel/Mystery achievement. You're so unreal).

Since I believe so much of Carmy's sense of what Syd values in him is her being a fangirl and his needing to prove that he is always the best Chef in every kitchen she steps into, his sexual arousal is followed by the tragic conclusion that there is nothing she needs from him anymore. That's why the next morning he watches her cook the scallop in lurid 1980s music video colors and withdraws quickly to sneak a smoke after declaring it "better than perfect."

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Meanwhile Syd is oblivious, only focused on shielding Tina from Season 3 Carmy's wrath.

There's something larger we should consider here about how both men and women find each other's talents sexually appealing, but in patriarchal societies, women are trained to stay in environments regardless of whether they are better than their male counterparts or not while men like Carmy never consider becoming the supportive presence when they are faced with yielding to a newer, better female counterpart. He cannot conceive of her wanting him around now that she has overtaken him. Nor of what it might have meant for her to continuously make herself small while he took over all the menu planning in Season 3 in order to shore him up even as he was hellbent on tearing himself and everyone else apart. Even as he compliment-bombs Syd in the Season 4 finale, he never stops to recognize that maybe he should try being the Syd for her now that their roles are reversed in his mind.

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THE HASHTAGS

Insidious type of genre is 'In any other instince this black female character would've been the love interest but suddenly media writers care about depicting strictly platonic relathionships when it comes to them and the mc'.It's not on the same level as disposable black girlfriend but it does seem soooooo convinient and dosen't deserve the credit of in a vacuum doubts imo

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in each frame Syd's bandana is different... overlook it 🥹✋🏼

Talvez eu devesse ter feito num por do sol. Talvez eu refaça, mas tenho preguiça

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Does Bobby flay literally want to square up with me rn? Keep my boyfriends name out of your mouth

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i’ll be so honest i can’t look at more sydcarmy analyses because it makes me lose my mind

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yeah so what the fuck was this parallel excuse me?

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So many new people are discovering The Long Walk and I don’t want to be that person but YOU’RE READING IT WRONG!!!!

Yes the deaths are gruesome and tragic and horrific.

You’re missing the friendships and how even when faced with imminent death you can still be their for the person besides you.

You’re missing how these boys are living for each other.

Fuck the Major. He is not the story.

The boys living and dying are the story.

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The way I can confidently say that the panic attack scene is the most convincing and turning point sydcarmy scene out of all the major ones. It's what converted my mom into a believer, and my friend who HATES workplace romance.

Literally upon watching it my mom went "yeah.. she's definitely his peace."

#hello???

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the only change from book to movie that could actually somewhat upset me in regards to the long walk is if they change it so that the last two walkers are garraty and mcvries. not only are you robbing garraty of pivotal moments of reflection and grief brought on by losing his best friend before the end of the competition is even in sight but more importantly you're robbing stebbins of his rightful runner-up title. those last few beats of the book where the only two people left in focus are garraty and the guy who's been haunting his narrative the entirety of the story are vital to ME

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Uncle Jimmy: Had a dream about him once, your dad. We were up in, um... like Lake Geneva... or someplace, and we-we're going along. We're driving along in this car, a big SUV. He's in the passenger seat, and we're driving fast, like, really fast. And I can't get control. You know, it's like bumpy cars flying all over the place. He wouldn't put on his seatbelt. Suddenly, this little kid... a little boy, he walks right out in the middle of the road. I jam on the brakes really hard. Car stops like a millimeter away from him. But, your dad, he goes flying through the windshield, but he never lands. He keeps on flying. ( sighs ) Carmy: What happened to the kid? Jimmy: I stood there waving at him.

I think Carmy is a Jr. BTW. Upon rewatching the show, I notice that Carmy doesn't show any resentment toward his father, Mr. Berzatto Sr.

So I wanted to share what we know of Father Berzatto.

We don't know Father Berzatto's name. My headcanon is that Mr. Berzatto was Carmen Berzatto Sr.

Carmy is named after Berzatto Sr., and I assume this is because Berzatto Sr. was present only at his birth.

Carmy feels a sense of empathy for a man he never knew, mixed with curiosity. He harbors a lot of anger toward his mother, who stayed behind. While she caused some damage, a child must eventually recognize their parents as human beings. His mother was left to pick up the pieces that his father had abandoned.

The reason Carmy does not hold that much resentment is that he understands his father more than anyone.

Things we can gather about Carmy Berzatto Sr.:

His chaotic nature and coping mechanisms, including gambling, alcohol, and frequent career changes, mirror Mikey's.

Mr. Berzatto, although absent during the good times, left behind evidence of prosperity in the form of the beautiful Berzatto home and the long business ventures he had with Lee and Jimmy. He made some wise business decisions, such as investing in a successful restaurant in Illinois called Ed Debevic's.

From that love and investment alone, I've gathered that the concept of Ed Debevic's appealed to him greatly; it's a restaurant where the staff is known for being rude and witty, often responding to customers with clever comebacks.

Thus far, Carmen Sr. had a way with words and would verbally spar back and forth, more than likely enjoying the teasing and confrontation, like his son, who loves chaos, which drew him to investing in a concept like Ed's.

He enjoyed a good sparring session, and, as Donna mentioned, Mr. Berzatto (Carmen Sr.) and she often engaged in fights. Mr. Berzatto loved Donna, and she loved him, though it wasn’t easy. Listening to their relationship, Mr. Berzatto at least stayed when it was time to fight with his wife, while she would be the one to storm off. I imagine that he, like his son, would probably enjoy Donna giving him a piece of her mind, much like Carmy does with Sydney. So the smile at Sydney telling him to shove acid up his ass is a male Berzatto thing.

More about him: Carmy Berzatto Sr. valued restaurants not just for the food, but for the people and relationships they created. Mr. Berzatto found connection and love there and saw something good in restaurants that he wanted for the Berzatto lineage; it was a semblance of happiness. Carmy can only remember that when Berzatto Sr. was even remotely happy, it was in a restaurant. What does Carmy tell Marcus? “With restaurants, you’re never alone.” So, not knowing his father, he still has this resonance with someone he more than likely got the same brain chemistry from, minus the self-medication his father used.

We learn that Berzatto Sr.’s absence coincided with difficult times and high bills, but he also seemed absent from the good things. He wasn't there for Natalie or Mikey's birth. Now, he sounds like Carmy, who even forgot his sister had a baby.

Carmy not only has empathy for his father, who left the place, but he also understands his father. He can imagine and identify with why his father was in the restaurant business. It wasn’t the food or the company itself that drew him , it was the connection Mr. Berzatto felt and the life he saw in an industry that could be a reflection of the Berzatto legacy continuing. It was good that he had a vision for his family, and he ran away.

So I see Carmy having an understanding of his dad leaving, and I assume that, though everyone voices disdain for their father's abandonment, Carmy knows something they don’t necessarily know. He, like Carmy, probably left in his own way of breaking a pattern, of changing his constant running away, but he never came back.

Carmy Sr., like Carmy, would panic. Let’s line up how this fact is suggested: we hear this when Donna reflects on Carmen, ghe one Berzatto Sr. was there for, and he had panic attacks. So Father Berzatto would have no problem verbally going back and forth with the woman in his life, he also loved restaurants, would have panic attacks, and run away.

Carmy is his father, and he knows it, so he wants a family tree that's better than what his father left.

As we remember the episode before, Carmy expresses the desire to lead a restaurant or family tree that’s panic-free. It’s not just the restaurant we’re talking about here; this is a family tree that Carmy has been assigned to lead and keep going. It’s the patriarchy and the role of father and husband that Carmy has to take on. At the end of the day, though it was Mikey’s restaurant, it was his father’s vision for the family and lineage that one that Carmy shares. Carmen Berzatto is the last patriarch left. Uncle Jimmy has held that role for some time, waiting for someone to take over the wheel.

And that’s what the dream Jimmy voices is talking about.

The car is the Berzattos , its line of family — that Jimmy has been steering even while Carmen Sr. was alive. Carmen Sr. was already off the path of leading this family; he was without a seat belt, ready to get off the path and the responsibility and vision he had for the family. When he ejects from the car, it’s because this young boy is on the road now. Unharmed, but the cause of the father's exit is unknown. Carmy is the boy who stopped the path while Uncle Jimmy’s eyes are on the kid.

Carmy has been assigned to lead the legacy, not just the restaurant, but the family. The restaurant is still a family restaurant, and Richie isn’t exactly a Berzatto, a true-blood Berzatto to take on the legacy, nor is Sydney, yet.

That’s all on Carmy. Richie can hold space for it, but you can tell Richie wants Carmy to lead the family — that is, he’s the patriarch now. And it’s what Uncle Jimmy has voiced to Carmy: it’s all him. Richie expresses that the restaurant they led with strength and honor. A masculine, traditional male approach to leading a family. He reminds us and the audience that the Berzatto family recipe has always been treating the guest like family, something Mr. Berzatto started and loved about the restaurant industry, and seems to always do, that's why the family is so big, it was Father Berzatto who would accept everyone as family and wanted to keep that going.

But we also need a literal family, which is the foreshadowing of Carmy holding Sophia. She’s not the Berzatto throne; she's taken on Pete's family tree. It's the son. It’s Carmy who will have a child who’s going to carry the Berzatto name.

So yes, I think Carmy has some understanding of the role that he’s taking on: the patriarchy and leading the Berzatto family to continue what his father wanted, something good, panicless, not lonely, but filled with love and more than just work. He wanted something to carry and something good to surround the Berzattos that his father or Mikey could accomplish.

So, canonically speaking, ending-wise it needs to be suggested that Carmy has successfully continued the Berzatto line and kept the family tree going and also healed the patriarchal side of the Berzattos.

Like, Carmy is literally taking on the patriarchy of an old traditional Italian family. He’s going to be an actual partner to the matriarch of the family (Sydney). He’s going to lead his family with honor, tradition, and calm. He’s not leaving like his father, not with old habits like we assume is classic Berzatto men.

But who will Carmy look to when it comes to leading and being the head of the family tree? What other male figure can give him guidance? This is where Emmanuel comes in and why Carmy has yet to meet his father-in-law. Carmy isn’t the family man yet, the man of his family, the family he wants Sydney to be part of. He has yet to fully take on the role of patriarch. He doesn’t have the model or challenge to do it, and that challenge lies in seeing the love of his life’s father, Emmanuel, and how he leads a family. Aa father who is reliable, steady, and spreads good.

My other theory with Emmanuel is that he could mirror Carmy in terms of father relationships. I wonder if Emmanuel had anyone to look to in being the man for Sydney’s mother and leading her family. From all we can gather, Emmanuel didn’t know the traditional male role of learning to navigate a car, something men typically learn from their fathers. Sydney’s mother knew it because, unlike Emmanuel, she had a strong father presence. Emmanuel eventually had to live up to that and lead long after the matriarch passed, becoming the ultimate father figure, creating good in his family and leading without a model or help, something Carmy will soon do.

For Carmy to meet his father-in-law, he must have a sense of identity and honor in leading a family, a role that Emmanuel also took on. This is the lead-up for Carmy to meet him and become a dad to his own family to become Mr. Berzatto.

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Sydney about Carmy: And my man…thank you to my man🥰☺️☺️☺️

Sydney to Carmy: Have a fucked up day, bitch😡👹👹👺😑

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being anti ai is making me feel like in going insane. "you asked for thoughts about your characters backstory and i put it into chat gpt for ideas". studies have proven its making people dumber. "i asked ai to generate this meal plan". its causing water shortages where its data centers are built. "ill generate some pictures for the dnd campaign". its spreading misinformation. "meta, generate an image of this guy doing something stupid". its trained off stolen images, writing, video, audio. "i was talking with my snapchat ai-" theres no way to verify what its doing with the information it collects. "youtube is impletmenting ai based age verification". my work has an entire graphics media department and has still put ai generated motivational posters up everywhere. ai playlists. ai facial verification. google ai microsoft ai meta ai snapchat ai. everyone treats it as a novelty. every treats it as a mandatory part of life. am i the only one who sees it? am i paranoid? am i going insane? jesus fucking christ. if i have to hear one more "well at least-" "but it does-" "but you can-" im about to lose it. i shouldnt have to jump through hoops to avoid the evil machine. have you no principles? no goddamn spine? am i the weird one here?

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Carmy calling for Syd in the walk-in

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you’re not my fucking family / i hope you fucking freeze to death

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