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Hello everyone. I'm absolutely terrified to open up about this, but I am having surgery on my thyroid to remove a goiter that has become very large / given me problems eating and breathing in general. My ocd is going crazy and catastrophizing;, I have been neglecting my health for five years until I experienced some symptoms that terrified me. My dr. Advised me that I will need two types of surgeons, one an ENT and one a thoracic surgeon. I am going to make a formal fundraiser very soon, but I was informed by my Dr. That the overall cost of this surgery (plus recovery) will be around 700,000 pesos- almost 13,000 usd. That is. My wages of three whole years. I am from the global south, in the philippines, and my wages are far smaller compared to my peers in the global north. My insurance is trying to cover around 40,000-80,000 pesos, I am unsure yet. Right now, I am unable to work all three of my jobs because I needed to do a ton of tests and resting, my new meds making me extremely drowsy as I was also diagnosed with type II diabetes and hypertension (?). I still am the only person in my family who can work- my mother is completely unable to move independently due to nerve damage from sepsis, she is legally blind and a full time wheelchair user. my father is very very immunocompromised due to heart disease and kidney failure, and my younger sister is autistic, with a low frustration threshold. Since Early April, I have had no income as I was in and out of the hospital; thanks to everyone's generous donations for my teeth that I am now allocating for this surgery instead, insurance, and my lovely friend Mango's large donation, I have been able to eat well, and cover about 12%-15% of my upcoming surgery's fund. Am trying to build up more breathing room for my gofundme, as it is common practice for philippine hospitals to prevent patients from leaving without having paid in full. I am humbly begging for everyone to please help me, Because I have not been working and will be unable to work for a couple of weeks. this is the most terrifying thing I have ever gone through, and I have been ignoring it for the past 5 years ♡ if you are blessed with disposable income and a generous heart, please send it my way! It means the whole world to me.

You can pick up a print from my inprnt here:

You can directly send a donation here:

*400+ exclusive drawings* on my patreon for only a dollar a month!

Please say it's going to ok! I cannot do this alone.

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haven't been on here for a bit but look at my baby!! she is so gorgeous i love her raaaaaaagghhh

A floral Doodle!✨ @endthestarlight's Rosalynn!

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some late night/early morning doodles from a few days ago

the difference is cracking me up sm lmao

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Pleasant Gathering

From left to right: Cinnabar, Monette, Edelweiss, Aros. Monette and Aros belong to n0cturnal.

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🌠 Kana & Demo 📨

Recently been getting into closed species stuff lately as a distraction so I thought I should share these two. Demo is fully designed by me while Kana is a redesign for a gift character I got.

Kana is an astrologer and fortune teller, very mischievous and faux mysterious. Demo is a postman who often delivers to her and all her antics just fly past his head. I imagine these two have some mutual pining going on.

Kana's original design credits can be found here

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You Can Help Hammad Save His Family🍉‼️🫶🏻

VETTED BY ASSOCIATION; Hammad was referred to me through Safaa and her campaign (vetted by 90-ghost)

This campaign is created on behalf of a very valuable and dear friend of mine, Hammad A., who is dealing with devastating tragedy and loss that none of us in the empirical core could possibly begin to imagine.

Hammad is one of the most thoughtful, considerate, and hard-working people I know -- and while he has tried his best to provide for his family under these immensely difficult circumstances, he now needs our help to keep him and his family alive.

Picture this: Your life has been turned upside down instantly; everything you have worked your whole life for -- gone in an instant. Everything you once knew turned to rubble and destruction. Your home, where you grew up and created childhood memories with -- gone. Your job, where you dedicated your energy and effort into building a career you loved -- gone. The most basic necessities we take for granted -- warmth, fresh air, the ability to move around freely and safely -- ripped away from you.

These are only a few of the difficulties that Hammad and his family have been facing for over 464 days. 

As you understand by now, there is only so much resilience the human body can endure, and the urgent need to do anything you can to save your family is the exact reason Hammad has allowed us the opportunity to help him and his family be freed from the immense suffering and stress they currently face.

His tent was recently flooded, damaging the little items that he had after losing everything, and destroying the little shelter he and his family had to protect them against the harsh elements.

Hammad needs your help NOW.

Even the smallest amount is so highly valuable in lifting a margin of stress from the weight of this tragedy off the shoulders of Hammad and his family. Your contributions to these lifesaving funds are invaluable. 

Chuffed has a waiting period for processing and transferring funds. If you want your donation to IMMEDIATELY be sent to Hammad, paypal is linked below.

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Do you think Israel's boasting about obstructing the passage of humanitarian aid across its borders will be enough to make people stop criticizing us for collecting individual and family donations, arguing that "donating to trusted organizations is better" or because we won't receive them anyway?

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Design updates, making them fancier starting with the siblings! Lilian is looking super cute, and Brandon finally gets some much needed pizzaz ✨

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🌸 Chérie-Blossom and Rosalynn 🌹

Friendly and inviting sharp angles / standoffish and unapproachable soft edges

Bonus Lilian art and the last you'll see of this design:

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Braaaannn!!! I love him *punts him into the sky*

An enthusiastic Doodle!✨ @endthestarlight's Bran!

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Because of You, We Still Have Hope 💙🙏

There are moments when it feels like the world has moved on, like everything we’ve lost is just another story that people scroll past. But every now and then, kindness reminds us that we are not forgotten.

Today, we’ve reached $1,580 out of $90,000, and while it’s still a long way from what we need, it’s proof that people still care. That hope still exists.

I never thought I would be in a position where I had to ask for help just to survive. 25 members of my family are gone. Our home has been reduced to rubble. Every day is a fight—not just for survival, but to hold onto the smallest piece of dignity.

💔 No stability, no safety, no certainty. 💔 Evacuations, grief, and endless struggles. 💔 Dreams on hold, because survival comes first.

But through all of this, your kindness gives me strength.

Even if you can’t donate, just sharing this post helps us reach more people who might be able to. Your support—no matter how small—makes all the difference.

🙏 If this post has reached you unexpectedly, I truly apologize. I promise I wouldn’t be asking if we weren’t in desperate need. If this isn’t for you, please feel free to ignore it. No hard feelings at all.

✅️ Vetted by ✅️

@bilal-salah0

From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Your kindness is the only reason we still have hope. ❤️

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They're all so beautiful ❤️

Doodle Commissions for @lazodiac!💖 Thank you so much!😭

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Happy (belated) birthday Ron!!!! 💚🎉

I don't have birthday art for him but I did draw this recently

It's the 3rd where I am and I always forget but I swear this time I actually remembered before his birthday came, but then forgot on the day that actually mattered- and when I did remember I forgot again orz

This was actually a doodle page with kanro in it so here she is too (⁠*⁠˘⁠︶⁠˘⁠*⁠)⁠.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡

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Oh god I miss them so much, happy 1st year anniversary to their existence !

I don't know the exact date but I made them January last year when I was having an absolute shitty time and they remain precious in my heart

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Art I made for the @in-the-name-of-love-zine ! Check it out here!

Happy 10th anniversary to the magical boys ever!! I wish we got to see more of this group post ova TT

Can't believe I forgot to post this until now lol

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Happy Pretty Boy Day!

The zine has been uploaded to the Internet Archive!

Two versions: one has the spreads, the other is optimized for scrolling.

It's a total of 221 pages, including the cover!

Thank you everyone who contributed, it was a lot of fun to put together!

- Erika

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A bit late but I finished all the palettes! Now I wait for sprout fight hehe