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"Femininity is rewarded!" "No, masculinity is rewarded!"

You're both wrong. It's perceived gender conformity that's actually rewarded.

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why don't people use the phrase 'just for shits and giggles' anymore

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i was so angry at everything when i was 13. and i was right

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Goals for summer 2018- wear floral dresses, eat lots of berries and honey, always be barefoot, look at the moon and the stars, witness the dismantlement of Donald Trump and his entire administration, and plant lots of flowers. 

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ahhhh finally the weekend is beautiful and wide open ahead of me. surely this will be the weekend I finally get my whole life in order and do the twenty-seven things I've been putting off and fix my sleep schedule and make memories with friends and discover my purpose in this world. surely

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the most annoying people are people who don't understand storytelling. they be like "oooo how convenient that this thing happened to the main character in the very beginning". yeah no shit. that's why the story begins here

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Well … points made, lmao.

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New favorite tweet

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There's a tiktok going around of a creator saying something along the lines of "you need to stop going home directly after work, it's bad for your mental health. You need to start doing things, even small things, free things, like meeting friends or going for a walk in the park or taking a class, on weekdays."

And in theory, I totally agree! That is solid advice! That will improve your mental health in the long run.

But I think we need to have the conversation that modern capitalist society intentionally makes that hard to do! Sure, it's a nice thought to go for a walk after work, but who of us has access to a nice green, safe park in our immediate area to do our walking in? What about winter when you don't get out of work until it's already dark? It's great to go meet friends after work, but how do you do that when your friends are spread out all over the place and they all work just as hard as you do and are also busy and tired? It would be good for you to take a class, but that costs money that you might now have. Not to mention if you're working full time all your free time and what little energy you have during the week is spent trying to stay on top of the housework.

And that is fully intentional! That way you get home, you're too tired to do your housework so you buy some gadget that promises to make it easier for you, you're too tired to cook so you order in, and then you plop yourself in front of your screen of choice and let an algorithm feed you whatever it wants so you can shut off your brain, and you get your dopamine hits by buying stuff, so you feel some sort of fleeting happiness for a moment. Capitalism works best if the masses work hard for some profit of margin they will never benefit from, and then immediatly spend any money they did just make on whatever they are told to spend it on so the economy does well.

So yeah, I don't know what the solution to this is. But I think I will start challenging myself to do something for me after work every once in a while. Just as a tiny act of resistance, just to prove myself that I am more than just a cog in a machine.

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what are you wearing rn and is it representative of your style

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i do not ghost purposely i just have no idea what to say ever

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Everything Trump touches dies. #ETTD

Go MAGA, kill your career.