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[ennuide]

My silence is mercy

My words are pity

How can I show mercy;

to someone so violent?

How can I show pity;

To someone so beautiful?

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I hate being hit on, but on the other hand, I know I'm not the type to make advances on other people. Maybe it's trauma. Maybe it's bliss.

[ennuide]

I found him;

He was under every lie, empty promise and, guilt trip

Because thats where I left him

Burned, scared, in pain

I found him;

He is the lunatic, the confident, the poet

Because thats who he was

Loved, loving, reckless

I found him;

His cosmic insignificance, his care, his world

Because people are everything

Not wise, not stupid

I found him;

He is In pieces, but things are falling in place

Not for anyone but myself, I will fix him

Because only I can put it all together

Because I found him;

He is me

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Can't stay awake forever

So that's how I was

That's how the sun felt

Hope, persuaded my bias

But broke me till I knelt

Working for a better me

How I wish I was to be

But for not, drained your time

Battle fought, never forget

This is repercussion for your crime

The pain is your only regret

But, it should be more

It's people we all yearn for

My world is dyed Grey;

And pink, new neutrality

Harder to breathe every day

Smoke enshrouds my mentality

But it's not bad a means of self;

All to keep preserved on the top shelf

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The Final Shape

Tommorrow is a nightmare I'm daydreaming today

A moment passes instantly but also takes years

As these doors of opportunity take their final shape

That's how I'll be known as a shadow in the frey

Afraid of the future, broken by my fears

Wanting a better life, sculpting progresses nape

Life is Capricious by nature, making it hard to stay

But change is good, draws ennui back when it nears

Go with the flow flowing through Destiny's cape

Betroth to ambition a pact that rebels who we obey

Afraid to listen so we won't cut by word's sheers

This path is rocky and leaves barnacles to scrape

So look to tomorrow and don't fear it today

These moments are important, so make them last years

As one door closes, another takes shape