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I don't think enough people acknowledge how funny it is that like half the Mass Effect series is essentially about 'captain kirking' but the only reason Captain Kirk gets away with that stuff is because Star Trek is episodic with short term threats. Mass Effect meanwhile is at all times about existential threats on a ticking clock. Shepard get your tongue out of that alien there's a war on!!!!

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happy make-a-terrible-comic day!

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I open Tumblr. I post something that should be a diary entry. I close Tumblr. I open Tumblr after having it closed for 1.2 minutes. I reblog 176 posts in a row. I add tags of absolute gibberish to 7 of those. I close Tumblr. I open Tumblr I post yet another should-be diary entry. I close Tumblr. I open tu

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There's a pervasive quality to self loathing that seems so impossible for people to grasp. People will praise and admire and love and put me on a pedestal and at the end of the day I'm alone again and I look down on myself just as much as I always did. The idea that my life has inherent value, the idea that this world and its people's lives are better with me in it. It's something I rationally, theoretically understand, but that never feels emotionally true. Other people are there, doing what I do. Doing it better. People who are less troubled and complicated and broken. My friends could be spending their time with other, better people. I imagine a version of myself who is worth knowing and it's someone that couldn't possibly ever exist. The real me is too flawed. Too many scars. A funhouse mirror of a better me. Unacceptable.... And yet I'm here. I'm stuck with the me I am. Much as I've changed it to my liking, there's so much that can't be changed. We make do with what we have. That's just how it is. But no matter how I attempt to relate these thoughts to people, I'm met with confusion and concerned stares. The concept of my self loathing as alien to them as the concept of self love is to me. They can't understand what it is to know you're simply not enough. And then I feel truly alone.

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seeing a black and white cow is always so damn awesome it’s like Hey i know that guy.from my kindergarten abcs

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observation: among a certain subset of tumblr users, the term “blorbo” has become unchic, but the concept it describes is still important; and so it has been replaced with “The Character”

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i didn't miss #makeaterriblecomicday, there's still more than an hour left in my timezone, it's fiiiine! much like i'm sure YOU didn't miss this buny's really cool trick!

...r-right?? oh dear

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“paid subscription with ads” is fucking crazy. if you pay for a service and then get served an ad on said service you should be allowed to pipe bomb its executive at no legal risk

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this wait for chapter 5 is pissing me off

i'm the original waiter since 2018

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as soon as the internet decided depression and anxiety were the everyman mental illnesses and therefore not to be taken seriously we were all fucked tbh bc the fact that i have to feel embarrassed to admit i have debilitating anxiety because people will think im just an uwu dont call me out coward is ridiculous. its insane that i have to clarify that my depressive episodes are like life threatening and not whatever dipshit dumbed down idea of depression people seem to have like oh yeah i just wanna watch netflix and eat ice cream and not text people back. like bro i think im the devil

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customer service is cooking my brain, man

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Being an adult in this recession and being like wow I am totally "splurging" on 3 new sets of cotton underwear and 3 pairs of socks like whoaaaaa hold your horses duke of the land where's all this money gonna come from

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