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We are financially unstable and our school has no mercy and they won’t give student discount despite not being at school for 2months.

Im really anxious and thinking that it’s probably my fault but I won’t kill myself for the reason that its a grave sin...

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Im really sad and hopeless.

Can I rest for good?

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I feel like a disappointment already

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For any of you who are writing ‘across the pond’-here is a little guide I put together of some common differences between British and American English!

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Again

I said it once and will say it again “Life is depressing”

I tried to become a person who would instantly say yes to do every house chore without protest nor complaints.

I tried to become a person who would ziplock my mouth to oppose saying negative remarks to another human being.

I tried to become a bigger person, a mature one that thinks about the future and how I can repay the hardships of my parents from raising and giving me all I needed since I was a kid.

But after all these exhaustingly tryouts, I realized that im trying to become a person that im not in the first place.

Without trying, I am a person who is pretentious— faking that I have such great personality but inside a monster lives.

I am also a person that talks carelessly. Unthoughtful. Insensitive and Inconsiderate. Self absorbed and thinks highly upon myself but in reality just a piece of dirt.

Im a young adult now, 18 but dreamless. I don’t have an ambition nor a dream profession in the future. Let me say that im disgustingly useless that wants a simple and monotonous life forever. The pressure of being successful in life is slowly taking its toll on me and I don’t know how much I can handle.

My nasty attitude reflects because I don’t even have friends. Imagine the anxiety whenever there’s a gathering and im on the same table with people that felt obliged and forced to adopt me into their circle knowing that im friend-less and they just pity me for being too alone.

I wish I wasn’t born. Im a complete disaster in the making.

and a

failure soon.

My life is in pitch black trying to fit in the rainbows of life.

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Words to replace said, except this actually helps

I got pretty fed up with looking for words to replace said because they weren’t sorted in a way I could easily use/find them for the right time. So I did some myself.

IN RESPONSE TO Acknowledged Answered Protested

INPUT/JOIN CONVERSATION/ASK Added Implored Inquired Insisted Proposed Queried Questioned Recommended Testified

GUILTY/RELUCTANCE/SORRY Admitted Apologized Conceded Confessed Professed

FOR SOMEONE ELSE Advised Criticized Suggested

JUST CHECKING Affirmed Agreed Alleged Confirmed

LOUD Announced Chanted Crowed

LEWD/CUTE/SECRET SPY FEEL Appealed Disclosed Moaned

ANGRY FUCK OFF MATE WANNA FIGHT Argued Barked Challenged Cursed Fumed Growled Hissed Roared Swore

SMARTASS Articulated Asserted Assured Avowed Claimed Commanded Cross-examined Demanded Digressed Directed Foretold Instructed Interrupted Predicted Proclaimed Quoted Theorized

ASSHOLE Bellowed Boasted Bragged

NERVOUS TRAINWRECK Babbled Bawled Mumbled Sputtered Stammered Stuttered

SUAVE MOTHERFUCKER Bargained Divulged Disclosed Exhorted

FIRST OFF Began

LASTLY Concluded Concurred

WEAK PUSY Begged Blurted Complained Cried Faltered Fretted

HAPPY/LOL Cajoled Exclaimed Gushed Jested Joked Laughed

WEIRDLY HAPPY/EXCITED Extolled Jabbered Raved

BRUH, CHILL Cautioned Warned

ACTUALLY, YOU’RE WRONG Chided Contended Corrected Countered Debated Elaborated Objected Ranted Retorted

CHILL SAVAGE Commented Continued Observed Surmised

LISTEN BUDDY Enunciated Explained Elaborated Hinted Implied Lectured Reiterated Recited Reminded Stressed

BRUH I NEED U AND U NEED ME Confided Offered Urged

FINE Consented Decided

TOO EMO FULL OF EMOTIONS Croaked Lamented Pledged Sobbed Sympathized Wailed Whimpered

JUST SAYING Declared Decreed Mentioned Noted Pointed out Postulated Speculated Stated Told Vouched

WASN’T ME Denied Lied

EVIL SMARTASS Dictated Equivocated Ordered Reprimanded Threatened

BORED Droned Sighed

SHHHH IT’S QUIET TIME Echoed Mumbled Murmured Muttered Uttered Whispered

DRAMA QUEEN Exaggerated Panted Pleaded Prayed Preached

OH SHIT Gasped Marveled Screamed Screeched Shouted Shrieked Yelped Yelled

ANNOYED Grumbled Grunted Jeered Quipped Scolded Snapped Snarled Sneered

ANNOYING Nagged

I DON’T REALLY CARE BUT WHATEVER Guessed Ventured

I’M DRUNK OR JUST BEING WEIRDLY EXPRESSIVE FOR A POINT/SARCASM Hooted Howled Yowled

I WONDER Pondered Voiced Wondered

OH, YEAH, WHOOPS Recalled Recited Remembered

SURPRISE BITCH Revealed

IT SEEMS FAKE BUT OKAY/HA ACTUALLY FUNNY BUT I DON’T WANT TO LAUGH OUT LOUD Scoffed Snickered Snorted

BITCHY Tattled Taunted Teased

Edit: People, I’m an English and creative writing double major in college; I understand that there’s nothing wrong with simply using “said.” This was just for fun, and it comes in handy when I need to add pizzazz. 

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Dream

My ultimate dream would be, to skip college and serves as a pioneer in a secluded territory with lot of trees, an ocean and a mountain.

I don’t see myself as a career woman because I don’t even have a dream profession to beging with.

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Careful

I have a toxic attitude of meddling with others’ business and talking nasty things behind their back. And also not thinking things through before doing something that could possibly haunt or penetrate me in a long run.Im having a hard time containing myself whenever I get sway in a conversation and even add fuel to the fire.

Im an introvert, and that means I hate a vast crowd and starting a conversation.Thus, shouldn’t talk mindlessly.But on a negative note, I am the complete opposite. I don’t always talk but when I do I hurt people verbally and that sucks knowing that i’ll only realize my mistake when its already too late.

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I wish I could just die.But not a painful death.

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To all the dumbasses that feel ashamed to be sorted in Hufflepuff:

Remember you are in the house of Helga Hufflepuff; the boss ass bitch that dueled Salazar Slytherin and defeated him because he thought she was not a powerful witch.

Kisses my little badgers♡

A proud Slytherin.

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I’ve always liked quiet people: You never know if they’re dancing in a daydream or if they’re carrying the weight of the world.

-John Green

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An open letter

Hello intellectual friends from another planet! I am Anne btw.

I am writing this out of curiosity.

I bet your planet is really cool that is why you’re still not paying us a visit,the earthlings.

We have this eager group of people trying to locate you guys and they haven’t succeeded yet.Your hideout or planet must be equipped with invisibility.WOW you’re far more advanced than us or I guess you have some magical enchantment or superpowers just like the heroes from MARVEL (sorry dc)Cool stuff,huh

I have a lot in mind,in trance.Do you exist? Or just a mere non-contextual myth?

Are you really wicked just like how the media peeps perceived you to be?

Are you planning for an all-out invasion?

Well.If you have good motives,of course you may.This planet is loosing it’s sophisticated nature by people succumbing for their desires and greed and the rapidly changing era that demands greater attention to evolving issues.

Every move you make in this planet is worth judging,a depressing sight to behold.

Living in this planet is a paradox.Today,you ought to live but sometimes you wish to disappear.

But hey there’s still good in us overshadowed by the mischievous.

To burst the bubble,We are nothing special but space dust.To dust thine shall return.

Friends,we’re not worth the long term planning and invasion.Just stay in your perpetual utopia,the cosmos and maybe send me an invitation to transverse yoh place?

Sincerely yours,

A little ray of pitch black,Anne

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Triumphant!

The feeling when your team exceeded the almost impossible expectations.

Worth all the tears!

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Review

To all the boys I’ve loved before,cliche premise and generic storyline (sorreh folks) but I truly appreciated the aesthetic and cinematography with high contrast that was well executed.

And the nice framing especially when peter and LJ were in the midst of a quarrel in the hallway I

fell inlove with the shots so I whispered to myself that If I were to produce and direct a movie It would be inspired by this movie’s technical standpoint.

I did pay much more attention to the little details tho.

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All I did was for you

But all I did was nothing for you

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This was such a good day for journalists in our school since we have been in a constant enlightenment before the upcoming competition.

Nothing new,we still love the idea of cramming and letting our procrastinating evil dominate our mind instead of doing something productive.

Setting aside shortcomings,group categories improved a lot except for collab-output existence still in the deep sea.

But we will attempt the seemingly impossible venture,3 hours total for writing,illustrating and the most problematic lay-outing.Wish us well!

Let’s prove them that we can do this without their help.

We may be hopeless and inexperienced but we still have the passion that lies within us.

The passion to learn.

The dream to leap.

The goal to win.