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every day i wake up with a motivational chant of "i am more than just a mask on the face of inevitable decay, i am not just a unit of carapace encasing the darkness like an insect crawling forth from the mold into the morning, i am definitely a human being who eats coffee and drinks pollution like my fellows two leggers, and the despair i feel now is as temporary and meaningless as the catharsis i have also felt"

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i’m in that stage of my life of “i’ll take whatever healing at all” pm

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mc is wayne static + dexter from dexters lab teaching you chemistry and drug making

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rick sanchez yugioh was hard to accept for a second, but i've kinda warmed up to the shenanigans

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Kanto Starters by ipkipi

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all pau with that

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Text reads: “I still get a bad feeling in my gut and heart when you're around. But now that bad feeling... The bad feeling has evolved, like a small creature growing into a huge, sickening beast, with skin like burns, breath like rotting flesh, teeth like swords, the appetite of a furnace. First it was sadness. Then it became anger, irrational anger, immature anger. Then it became professional anger, the kind that a corporate type would have against a competitor, that would lead to life-destroying manipulation. Now, no thanks to Armin Meiwes, it's become this sickening anger that leads me to want to kill you, I want to slaughter you. I want to cut you open and remove all your organs, I want to hang them up on my wall. You'll really be beautiful then. I want to make you into that monster; I'll burn your flesh, then suspend you on the wall as you begin to smell like rotting and crisp meat... Run my soiled hands through what is left of your hair as I place a beast's skull upon your head, giving you the teeth and face you deserve, mein schatz. The leather gloves on, made of your hands, stroke your mangled frame, your skeleton, the meat that refused to part from your bones. You would be my final work of art. Die stumpfe Klinge – gut und recht Ich blute stark und mir ist schlecht Muss ich auch mit der Ohnmacht kämpfen ich esse weiter unter Krämpfen ... But of course, none of this will ever happen. Please do not take offense. :]“

IM KINDA LAUGHING BUT NOW ITS FUCKED UP BEcause wow. you weren’t kidding, i just thought you were a joke trying to make me feel bad

i mean im not wrong but

just want to point out, we never met. we never ever met. i am so glad we didnt.

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oh shit i found the rage post from after i ended things and the subsequent pity party

best believe i am SO glad i didnt delete the post

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i will freely admit that i haven’t always been the best judge of character, but i am so very glad that this was one of the few moments where i chose to break it off. i used to feel guilty about it, heyyyy turns out i wasn’t alone. fuck

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HOLY FUCK I N G SHIT

god this is fucking wild considering everything that happened. and THE NAZI IMAGERY THAT WE ALL WENT “oh thats just vk style” god we were fucking idiots

i do remember that this was from around shortly after i ended things romantically from her. i looked back around the time and i found this post among others about her emotions at the time. DLS was a wild, wild time

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i’m going down a rabbit hole on an ex of mine i knew as Tom/Isel who is now more famously known as liquidcoma, a pedophile, and im trying to get a full picture of what went down. mostly because APPARENTLY SHE TURNED OUT TO BE A FUCKING PEDOPHILE and i was romantically involved with this person during a pretty formative time so ftr i was in an LDR with this person when she was Tom and before she fully transitioned/got WAY into drugs and apparently was prostituted by an older person? i cant remember why i ended things but i remember ending our friendship over her trying to show me her genitals when i told her i wanted to be strictly friends but pedophilia my guy??? do you still live with your grandparents, what the fuck do they think, are you arrested? the fuck??  wtf happened to asmond? wtf went down with everything? 

i honestly found out about this a while ago, but other things have been happening in my life and taking up my brainspace so everything with isel got kinda shoved into The Vault so i could deal with my life. i kinda hope asmond is ok? we weren’t friends, at all. but i remember thinking isel was such a fucking hypocrite over the way she treated him/they/am very respectfully unsure what pronouns asmond goes by.

i just cant get this off my mind right now

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"When you elite stumble and fall, you really break to pieces..."

- Yuno

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Everyday conflict…. 

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Dream crystal 💎✨

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Untitled Artwork, Asian Art

Medium: Polychrome woodblock print; ink and color on paper

Purchase, Bequest of Dorothy Graham Bennett, 1989 Metropolitan Museum of Art, New York, NY

http://www.metmuseum.org/art/collection/search/63830