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the curse of adhd:

i will remember with absolute clarity, when the thought strikes me that i have a text to send someone, that this is the fourth time in three days i've attempted to send this specific text

i will forget, in the time it takes me to pick up my phone, that i picked it up intending to send a text

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Somebody on Twitter pointed out that almost all of the netflix Avatar show was filmed so that the focus of the action would be at the center, so it could be viewed vertically, like on tiktok

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someone once referred to Jareth as Sarah's personalized Tumblr Sexyman and I can't stop thinking about it

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there is little worse in this world than people being horny for your favourite character that you are not horny for. shut up about his dick i wanna talk about his narrative significance

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see, and the amatonorms don't want you to realize this, but two people can do something together that one of them feels romantic feelings about and the other doesn't, and as long as they're both enjoying themselves and neither of them is pressuring the other to suppress their feelings, that's like, totally normal and okay and probably even good.

for example, we can cuddle in a way that maybe i feel is completely platonic and maybe you feel is a little romantic, and as long as you're not gonna start suggesting we "take our relationship to the next level" (whatever the fuck that means) and as long as I'm not sitting there telling you "don't catch feelings, we're only ever gonna be friends" (and of course it is fine for me to remind people that I'll probably only ever want to be their friend. the problem is in telling them that they have to feel a certain way about me too, when of course the only things that matter are how they treat me, that they feel good about how they treat me, and that they feel good about how i treat them), if we're both enjoying cuddling (even if we're enjoying it to different degrees or for different reasons) and it makes us both feel valued/cared for by the other, then cuddling is a good thing for us to do in our relationship.

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learning that apparently several hundred people have been pronouncing 'miette' as 'mighty' has actively worsened my day

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The very fact that every TOS reboot is afraid to depict the closeness between Kirk and Spock in the same way it was depicted originally is a devastating reinforcement of how gay that shit was

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When people get a little too gung-ho about-

wait. cancel post. gung-ho cannot be English. where did that phrase come from? China?

ok, yes. gōnghé, which is…an abbreviation for “industrial cooperative”? Like it was just a term for a worker-run organization? A specific U.S. marine stationed in China interpreted it as a motivational slogan about teamwork, and as a commander he got his whole battalion using it, and other U.S. marines found those guys so exhausting that it migrated into English slang with the meaning “overly enthusiastic”.

That’s…wild. What was I talking about?

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idgaf if bethesda ever tells us concretely which country launched the first nuke, the only answer i will accept is the original one, the one that said "we wont tell you, because it doesnt matter. there is no moral highground in the story of the great war, and the end result for those alive today is all the same either way. those most responsible faced the fewest consequences, and no justice was served. there is no justifiable way to nuke anyone, no matter who struck first. everyone lost and thats the very nature of war and always has been. war is evil, and in that way, war never changes"

not broadcasting who was "really to blame" is purposeful, and any other answer would undercut fallout's core identity to me

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The trouble with designing crunchy tabletop RPGs is that the people who want extremely complicated character creation rules and the people who want extremely complicated procedures of play comprise a Venn diagram with only partial overlap, so you keep getting people showing up at your table who put together wonderfully baroque character sheets which they haven't the slightest idea how to effectively play. What we really need to cut that particular Gordian knot is a game whose character creation rules are four hundred pages long and require flowcharts to properly understand, and whose procedures of play fit on an index card.

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Here comes the cavalry!

This week The Bad Batch comes to an end. I cannot express what this show has meant to me as a Star Wars fan, and how much Tech has influenced my life. Getting to cosplay these wonderful characters at Star Wars Celebration last year with my friends, old and new, was a dream (even if I was still feeling the weight of the season two finale) and I cannot thank the team behind the show enough for the story they have told.

I can't wait for Wednesday and I'm terrified for it in equal measure. Time to see it through, I guess.

Echo by @meggophoto

Wrecker by @wreckerslovechild

Omega by @kitkatpadawancos

Tech by Me!

Photo by @charlottewoolrych_photography

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im guessing its an aroace experience to fantasize about relationships all the time and ship things all the time and be obsessed with romance as a concept but the idea of someone flirting with and seeking you out and actually dating someone and kissing someone seems immensely weird and unnatural to you.

and also if you have had fictional "crushes" that were actually just you liking the character and the character design and confusing that with the fandom expectation of having a character you simp after.

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in all seriousness it's very alienating knowing theres Something Wrong With You. like seeing your mental illness come through in your behaviour and thought processes and knowing it's irrational and unhealthy, knowing other people are reading you as weird or stupid, and not being able to do anything about it is such a lonely experience