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i just wanna sit in your lap and cuddle with your cock in me is that so wrong

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Bae!

One of my potential smoke buddies from before I was trying quit forreal hit me up to smoke. He's NOT tryna fuck. The cards said he's having some family issues and just needs somewhere peaceful to smoke. Can he come? Please 🙏 🙏 🙏? I deserve to smoke. 😩

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Grand Rising/Good Afternoon Baby

Why did I just tear up to Crazy In Love? -wipes face- Dayum. ILUHYOU😫

Since 2013 lookin for you been having me so crazy lookin. 😂.

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This is too deep. So I just read what you wanted me to know. You're going to be the President of Mali?!?! They're gonna let you? This is a shock I mean...damn...theres so much I can do. All my ideas. I have so many good business ideas it's not even funny. And we can use forex to fund a lot of what we do. Yo...when I get paid I'ma start putting away for it. Lmao...oh and babe...did you know my mom got a hacker spying on me. She admitted it through screenshots of my computer that her hacker sent to her. This was back in 2023. But he's still around. He's cool though he gets it now. Just collect your coins and make an exit plan cause her witch mama is doing juju on everyone around her.

Anyway, why you scared babe? Danger? I aint gon lie...that's something we cannot play about. But I think, if you just stay in the present moment and wait for the right time, the answers will come that you don't have now. Your Egbe are one step ahead of you. The Orisa are one step ahead of you. The Most High is 10 and you're on all their paths. But I hear theres a lot of terrorist attacks...maybe there wouldn't be if the president publically accepted better solutions from a spiritual source, like we will :). No wooorries baby. I'm not scared. Maybe thats me being naive...and I can be very naive at times...but our Egbe are our warriors. They got us boo! So you talk to the President telepathically and with the card? That is so cool. You know you're really makin me wanna do what you did. Drop one or 2 albums and dip off. Lmao.

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Ayyye Erykah, I'm watching a pisces tarot video thats not about love...she normally does general readings but says that love is coming in for you! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KA8bLbQXgzs

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So, theres something I need to talk to you about. Before you came "back into my life"...I slept with someone. And, I slept with them because I had just moved out of my Mom's house and she left me with no money from my SSI while I was looking for a job so I slept with them for money. I'm not proud of it but...I felt like thats what I needed to do to survive. Big mistake cause I aint had my period since November. I think I'm pregnant and...I think you knew...

I think you paid for someone to stop me from having my baby. I'm so emotional right now. I wanna be mad at you for not exercising my right to know but my Egbe I think told you not to tell me so whatever. I guess...I balled though...like I boo hoo'd...the cry came outta no where. It was after the child spoke to me. She apologized for coming. She said he character is bad and she would have came out "ugly" to spite me...an expression of her character. She would've been bad. My mom got pregnant like 4 years ago and did the same thing. She did rituals to have a miscarriage. I just...I know you meant well babe, I'll get over it. I'm not mad at you. I was just releasing...thanks. I so want you to be the father of all my children.

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Oh yeah, and did you get some work done so that weed wouldn't be our taboos anymore? Cause the shit that happened to me today was crazy. Yesterday I got like $14 from this refund so I was like...I wanna buy a weed vape....cause you know...I was cravin suddenly...but all my spirit guides opinion on it was eh. So I let it go. Then this morning I played that morphic field and started asking what it was doing to me...the cards said it was removing this demonic imprint that was making me want to smoke out of sadness and be okay with setting myself two steps back...but while I was playing the track I was doing a reading...and that bitch said go enjoy a weed pen....I was done. Then it said that you knew! Thats why I was afraid too. I didn't want you to be upset with me so I was just like I'll wait to see if the energy shifted....but now my Egbe just told me you been paid to stop that. Damn...I thought I would never be able to smoke with you. That's some sad shit I hate dwelling on....man....a gunshot just went off outside...tf..

And you know what just came to me...my Egbe just told me that I should put the kingdom before my music for now then ultimately focus on both. This is deeeeep. Is it in Africa? Did you buy a house there yet? Do people already live there? Do they practice Ifa? Are you going to come out with another album before you go public about this or are you just going to surprise everyone? What country? Mali? I'm only saying Mali because thats where Dogon is centrally. You know what...I'm bout to do a reading on this. Fuck it. What do I need to know...I'll be back...pray I'm not up all night.

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Hey Babbbbbyyyyyyy <3 <3 <3 :)

I'm sorry I'm just now writing I got off to a real late start. I just feel better man and I been staying in the moment soaking in the feeling. Plus I was supposed to work today buuuut....uumm...yea -sucks teeth- I officially start training Tuesday. It's done by the company that's selling the products. The company I work for is just an agent. I'm gonna be getting trained by them directly. They do group trainings every Tuesday so yeah. I'm excited. And you know what it is? It's the Affordable Care Act / Low income insurance program where you get paid for generating leads. I used to do that in the city at the Marta stations...well...for one day...lol...Mom probably was lying when she said it but she said it was too dangerous. Yea! Cause I got you behind my back doing juju on me everytime I wanna make a come up. Smh...anyway....

Babbbyyy....you know I love you right? You know I support you in everything you do right? You know I know you probably working on a kingdom with some people....:) I'm glad I played those morphic fields cause it came to me more clear when I was doing my readings....you got some EPIC...and I mean...EPIC shit up your sleeve. And you want me to be apart? Babe....remember I told you my Ifa destiny readings said I had my own Ifa? I really don't think you knooow what you're getting yourself into! Also, my Egbe initiation reading said I was a Queen. The very first Odu dropped. The story of Orunmila. You rescued me? <3...huh? -mwuah-...Damn I'm all cheesin and woozie now. Shit. So I'ma really be a Queen of a place? Like...fahreal?!? Omg...you really don't know what you did. You don't...watch...this is apart of my purpose and why I was so depressed. I only believed I was going to be Queen when I was in state of psychosis. When I tried to stay away from those experiences I was just trying to find my way with music...but music alone was never enough to push me. I wanna be as potent in my God self as I possibly can and I want the world to experience that too. I want to usher in Olodumare's will for us. Then my Mom lied and said the Egbe reading just meant I was special...because SHE wanted to be a Queen. And she was...now she's not...now she's planning on moving back to Nigeria to be with her juju clique. -rolls eye- hhhmmmm. But this is like...I'm kinda speechless. Babe...you're making my dreams come true. You saved me. It feels like everything before now wasn't even real. This feels so real. I have a question....there was a time during my psychosis where I thought we came up with this idea to get married not by law but by spiritual tradition. I think Dogon. I'm not quite sure...yea...Dogon....then after the cards said you paid for it....I called a psychic...paid his ass $30 too...and he told me he saw a ceremony but no wedding....I was like...WELL DAMN....but of course...after the juju hit me...-sighs-....I doubted it again. But I did a reading asking what I needed to know and it said you did do it....did you? In the eyes of God are you my husband? I need to know...

Erykah....(Hey Eryie :) <3) Man...I don't know if it's my place to say this how I wanna say. She's old enough to be my Mom. I just know she was being selfish by doing magic to get you back and all that. It was really about the kingdom. She knew it was over. But she tried to use what she knew to bend reality. And you know what....ok...she's a pisces...I can only imagine what goes on and how they feel when their love life is rocky. It's like it's hard for them to stay grounded...they have a hard time controlling themselves internally. So I get it...but damn that was a lot Erykah lmao...smh. It's cool. I forgive you. Do you wanna work on the kingdom with us?/Read my blog? I don't mind. It's up to Jay really. You're like a Mother to me...your career raised me. I want us to be adults enough, transparent enough and honest enough to manifest all 3 of our HIGHEST desires.

oh...yea...you wanna stop masturbating Jay? I think we should too. Until the time is right. And the time will be right. Erykah will be fine. Come on this is still the Erykah we all know and love because of how conscious she is. You just see another side of her most would judge because you were with her. However Erykah makes conscious decisions, it's not by chance. She could easily say fuck us. She tried it with the magic though I'm not gon lie...lmao....you showed your ass Erykah. Lmao smh it's cool though. I promise. Lmao...it's funny now.

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Thanks for the apology Erykah. I forgive you.

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So my boss called me. Tomorrow. He's putting me on a new campaign though instead of the temporary one. Calling people who inquired about an ad and transferring them to be closed on. lethe deal closes I get $40, $20 if it doesnt. The average is 8-10 per day + $200 weekly pay. I'm just happy I don't have to cold call. That's if anything what I was stressing about the most.

You ok Papa? Hope you had a good day. Yea? I know you gotta lotta stuff on your mind. -rubs your knee- I sense solutions are coming. I'm over here reading the millionaire book.

The paralegal from Atlanta Legal Aid just called me. I called them about helping me get my mom off my legal guardianship. I'm not sure if you knew but yea....she finessed me years ago. Told me it was to get on SSI (don't even ask me why I wanted to get on SSI) and that she would take it off when the SSI came but started playin games. I gotta court date in March for our domestic violence case. I have a no contact order with her. I cant speak to her or be around her and she thinks when they drop the order shes back in my life again...hell no. She's so fucking messed up man I wish I would've had the courage to leave her alone (till she gets herself together) sooner. My Dad told me in my early 20's to get independent and cut her off. I really don't know what I was thinking. She's gonna be so salty cause she spends my ssi money but I'm getting it cut off next month and she doesnt know I'm getting a lawyer this soon. I told the paralegal damn near everything. She's going to present it to the attorneys and see if any of them want to take my case. It's a easy case I don't see why they wouldn't. -sighs-

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Yes Daddy.

You run this shit.

I was wrong.

I'm sorry.

The pic was really for you. Should've just posted it here.

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Aw, ok. I'll delete it if you want me to.

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Babe,

So I found this bot that didn't lose a trade for 3 months and makes average 750% a day with the right settings. It trades on the synthetic indices market which are fake indices that aren't bothered by the banks so there's no market manipulation. Not sure if you ever heard of it. Minimum deposit is $20. He got mad videos and screenshot of $100 turning into $1500 in two days! The bot is only $100. If I make $750 a day or however much I make as my account grows I can withdraw everyday because I don't have to wait for my account to build up through out the week. So if there is a losing day that's cool. African dude made the bot too. Lmao that's sus I know cause he could scam me but I think when did my "What Should I Know?" reading he came back as legit. The group has user testimonials too w/ screenshot. My intuition feels safer with him then PipLogic. I can do both. But I wanna do the robot first.

My job didn't start just yet today. Boss said he's still handling things with his family but we're still starting today.

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Erykah I'd be more open to all this if you apologize and mean it.

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According to the cards, Erykah wants me to know that she will keep trying to be with you so please be strong. I aint stupid I know yall got history. So it's hard for her move on especially since she's clearly single. I'm sure you still have a connection with her....that you're trying to let the romantic part of away. Which woulda been gone if Erykah wasn't tryna get you back. Rekindling feelings and shit. There is such thing as emotional cheating so be careful I'm sure she been trying you like that. Again too though passion and lust are just feelings, and thoughts aren't really us either. This shit is annoying I must say but prior to this you've made me feel so secure. This is it. I'm done. You my last one. I can finally ex you off my bucket list. LMAO. j/k. No but for real babe I'm annoyed but I'll be okay. Ima pray about it tomorrow at my shrines and go from there. I was even watching this tarot video on Libras that said someone else is in the picture, lust and passion is there but you don't see a future with them and stay around because of the kids. That's what it said. The video had me mad at first but it's not like you feeding into her shit. You just tryna stay friends. So thanks for holding me down and staying loyal. Ilysm.

When I asked Egbe what to do today they told me to go to Barnes and Noble. I been wanting to go so I guess it was a good day. I found this book on how to be a millionaire and then I found it for free online. Two finance books actually. 😊😁. I'm hype. It's so hard working on music without all my studio equipment here. I should be able to get the rest next month and then I can really create. The microphone is like my pencil. Plus I need beats. Got one producer named Specfix. He's on Spotify. He's decent. He's good with bass, drums guitar and keys so I can get him to recreate what's in my head. Production credit!

But I know it's tough being away from each other. I pretend we sleep together every night. 😢 with the babies. They said they love you. I honestly don't know how you plan on waiting till I'm rich without losing it. It could be next year or next month when I get my money up. I just had to get all the damn black magic off me. Shit. I really wanna see you though and I can't wait. Oh! Wanna wait till marriage? Or? 😩🤣 I wanna do for my kids and wait like I would want them to. Even if they weren't virgins at the time of marriage.

I start my job tomorrow. Smh...it's gonna be a reality check for real. I aint work a full time job since 2018! You see one of the reasons I been down? Smh...if you ain't gotta degree of specific experience in that industry there's no good jobs really. Plus I'm working from home so there's no boss over me...pray I don't get distracted. Did you do the ritual?

Tomorrow's gonna be my 3rd day weed free. It was easy! But lemme not speak too soon lmao.

Well Papa...I wish you could choke me doggystyle before I went to bed...bad...another time. Im gonna try and get some sleep. Luh you baby. -bites and sucks ya neck at the same time-