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tumblr has been the most consistent thing in my life since i was like 14

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I believe in the separation of church (fandom) and state (media creators)

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I'll be hosting my own kinktober, where the only thing allowed is two characters asking each other for consent to watch paint dry

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“have dr. lecter draw up a psychological profile you seemed veryyy impressed with his opinion” hugh delivered this so BITCHYY i genuinely thank God for giving bryan fuller the prophetic vision of casting him because will graham would not have been his cuntiest self without hugh dancy and his snarky microexpressions

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Hannibal (2013-2015)

1x04 - “Œuf”

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we ran out of devotion that corrupts. would you guys be cool with devotion thats a little annoying to everyone

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water doesn't make rocks smooth. they hired me to go down to the beach with a sander every night and smooth them myself. it's not much and it's not honest work.

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sometimes i say “i think” but actually i know. on account of being the knower.

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Y'know that quote about "if you're the smartest person in the room, you're in the wrong room"

Also applies to queerness and neurodivergency

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Hannibal (2013-2015)

3x06 - “Dolce”

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PSA: anybody who prefaces discussion of purity culture in fandom with “in the OLD days, we all knew how to ignore content we didn’t like” is flatly wrong. I was there, Gandalf, and the Harry Potter ship wars arose in a culture of mailing lists, ship-specific websites, and forums with separated boards. Intra-community fandom conflict is not a specific failing of The Youth. 

It is OTOH true that the specific form/tone of fandom purity culture has arisen and worsened over time, and for sure social media algorithms/tags and the agglomeration of all fic to AO3 have not helped. But people could and did start vicious, long-lasting fights over what fandom content was acceptable or not, some of which escalated to harassment and severe bullying, even when they had every opportunity in the world to stick to their own bubbles. There has never been a truly golden age, there was never a Garden of Eden, we’ve always just been people forming communities and having social interactions. 

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such a profound sense of delight when I realize that a piece of media is matching my freak to the very letter. there are creators out there who are my exact kind of sicko and we are reaching out to each other as if across the cosmos.

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art will save you, being unreasonably passionate about something niche will save you, letting past sources of joy show you the way back to yourself will save you, earnestness over composure will save you, the natural world will save you, caring for something bigger than yourself will save you, daring to be seen will save you, kindness not as a whim but a principle will save you, appreciation as a practice will save you, daring to try something new will save you, grounding will save you, love will save you, one good nights sleep will save you

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the crazy part about destiel is they did fall in love over and over again. cas lost his memories. dean saved cas’ jacket even tho cas was dead. sam had to hold dean back when cas sacrificed himself in the apocalypse universe. dean specifically went to find cas in the endverse. he wouldn’t leave purgatory until he found cas. cas betrayed all of heaven, everything he’s ever known for thousands of years, because of dean.

but that only happened in ONE universe. they only found each other like that in a single universe, out of the hundreds that chuck made. it’s so tragic bc it’s the opposite of every single “I love you in every universe” soulmate trope. but in that one universe, they love each other over and over and over again, through death.

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I do not "tweet", I do not "snap", I do not "make a tiktok", I BLOG ON TUMBLR DOT COM, and if I have no wifi, I USE MY NOTES APP

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obsessed with screenshotting things i will never look at ever again