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Neptune's New Grove

I want to talk about the once in a lifetime transit of Neptune movie into Aries and what this can potentially mean.

A generational planet whose domain is the murky depths of our despair disguised as dreams desires and wishes. In its home sigh of Pisces we were glamoured by celebrity and Hollywood we deeply dreamed of becoming a star and fame was the only route to self actualization. Never really taking into account of how this becomes your undoing.

In aries prepare for the undoing of this, the fall from graces mental health decline of our most beloved stars as we move away from celebrity culture and look into awakening from our own delusions.

Escapism is Sexy

Neptune also rules escapism and addiction and being in Pisces there were no walls to contain the fantastical thinking

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Colour of the day ~ Pale Sakura

Cherry blossom season brings attention to the very normal action of trees blossoming.

We stop to marvel and feel good, why do we like pretty things, it is meant to invoke light happy emotions but this is a smoke screen. This colour can also mean violence/danger as for something to now bloom something had to die in its place.

Part of myself I am afraid to see die.

Spring blooming can also evoke feelings of sadness

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Colour of the Day ~ Menthe

Mint Green, freshness

I am feeling punchy and zingy.

I do not normally know what to do with this feeling or where you put it's so it ends up misplaced into fear, anxiety and paranoia.

What's the point I snarl at myself, my inner critic and perfectionists the tone of my mother.

Where do I go from here

This green represents the potential that I believe I cannot reach so what is the point.

What is being projected out.

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the universe has a plan for you, even if you can't see it yet.

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Colonialism | Imperialism perseveres the predator class

Predator class breeds a parasitic class of their own gatekeepers

Parasitic class of gatekeepers breeds pathetic and weak beta males with delusions of grandeur and entitlement who’s overpaid money-laundering front job is to LARP as alpha males in front of the camera

Plebeian young girls who work several underpaid jobs hold umbrellas for the delusional pathetic and weak entitled 20 inch taller betas who call it “assisting”

When a LARP job of the parasitic beta is finished, the plebs take their hard earned money to pay for the experience of watching entitled delusional beta male parasites pretending to be an alpha male for over an hour; they also give them their time, attention & energy

The Predator class taught the plebs that this is “leisure time” and to call it “entertainment”

Earnings of this activity get laundered and multiplied which strengthens the position of The Predator class

The cycle is perpetual

Economy is fake

Your faith in the system is what preserves it

It’s collapsing

Enjoy the decline.

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People who are starved out of conversation will approach it as if it was sacred, people who are starved out of touch experience any touch given to them as the highest form of intimacy, people starved out of gentleness will react to it as if it’s an invasion, an attempt to break them down, and people starved out of a community will approach it as if it was a minefield.

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Clockers (1995)

Grazie A.P.

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December Decider

December Psychic Reflection Energy Readings

The last year of the month, the top of the zodiac wheel yet the darkest of days we have to endure to get on the other side.

Death is strongly on my mind, I keep on swinging from wanting to live to wanting to die. This is the energy, death is strong in the air wanting something inside to die to be reborn, a mask to be shed so that you can finally be free.

Alternatively the dark days with no sun makes me want to die, it seems like a never ending dull grayness, why does winter drag every year?

Anyways lets check in, which photo are you drawn to and the message is for you.

n underwater deep-sea diver—calm under pressure, flowing with the currents, navigating the rollercoaster of life.

If you’re drawn to this image, it signals that you’ve chosen to let go and allow the crashes to happen, to let the missed opportunities slip away, and to face the worst-case scenarios as they unfold. The chaos of the world is inevitable, and this energy invites you to embrace it—to dance in the rain and surrender to the deepest fears lurking in the darkest corners of your mind.

It feels freeing to release the burden of worrying, especially when so much is beyond your control. By adopting this mindset, you’ll move through December with greater self-confidence and clarity. Without the noise of frustration over how things “should” be, you’ll hear God—or your intuition—more clearly.

Life is calling you to engage with it as if you’re playing a game, uncovering new clues and tasks each day. And if you don’t know the clues just yet? That’s okay. Trust in the process.

You need a nap—take it.

Life feels boring, gray, and uninspiring right now, but your soul is urging you to express your vibrancy. Create. Paint. Draw. Be chaotic, because this is your natural state. Yet, the society you live in dictates your tastes and desires. The pressure to conform has overridden your own inner sense of joie de vivre.

Minimalism, maximalism, quiet luxury, loud labels—these are trends we feel compelled to follow to gain worth, status, and validation among the crowd. But you, my dear, were born to stand out, to march to the beat of your own drum. That’s where you feel the most you.

You’re being called to reconnect with yourself, to break free from the mold, and rediscover the beauty of your individuality. Tap back into your essence and set yourself free.

Thinking, overthinking, strategizing, and trying to map out and plan for your future—it’s kind of driving you insane right now, isn’t it? There’s a lot of fear surrounding you: fear of staying still, staying stagnant, staying where you are. What is this fearful belief? Whatever it is, it’s blocking you from being content in the present.

It’s hard to be content with the present reality if things aren’t going the way you’d like, or if you feel threatened or unsafe in your life. It feels easier to keep running, convincing yourself that you’ll find safety in the future once you’ve reached a specific, designated “safe point.” But the constant running is wearing you down.

Maybe now, as the year draws to a close, it’s time to stop strategizing and simply be in the moment. By being in the now, I mean truly accepting your reality and where you are, instead of running away. Breathe life into your current situation—acknowledge it, embrace it, and begin to change it from a place of presence.

Yeah, it’s difficult to smile. When was the last time you genuinely smiled from your heart or laughed from your soul? It feels like a really long time ago, doesn’t it? What has happened? What is your story? Write it down. Your hurt is righteous—you are not ridiculous for feeling rage, hatred, or bitterness. These huge, so-called ‘bad’ emotions and thoughts are beginning to tear through the mask of peacefulness you present to yourself and others.

If you find yourself engulfed in these emotions lately, do not shame yourself or label yourself a bad person for feeling this way. This is a passing storm, and once it clears, it will make space for deeper emotions to emerge. One of the big ones might be jealousy or envy—emotions we’ve been taught to ignore or suppress. But feel them. These emotions, as uncomfortable as they may be, are part of what makes the world turn. They’re woven into the fabric of our desires.

Let’s breathe through them together.

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December Decider

December Psychic Reflection Energy Readings

The last year of the month, the top of the zodiac wheel yet the darkest of days we have to endure to get on the other side.

Death is strongly on my mind, I keep on swinging from wanting to live to wanting to die. This is the energy, death is strong in the air wanting something inside to die to be reborn, a mask to be shed so that you can finally be free.

Alternatively the dark days with no sun makes me want to die, it seems like a never ending dull grayness, why does winter drag every year?

Anyways lets check in, which photo are you drawn to and the message is for you.

n underwater deep-sea diver—calm under pressure, flowing with the currents, navigating the rollercoaster of life.

If you’re drawn to this image, it signals that you’ve chosen to let go and allow the crashes to happen, to let the missed opportunities slip away, and to face the worst-case scenarios as they unfold. The chaos of the world is inevitable, and this energy invites you to embrace it—to dance in the rain and surrender to the deepest fears lurking in the darkest corners of your mind.

It feels freeing to release the burden of worrying, especially when so much is beyond your control. By adopting this mindset, you’ll move through December with greater self-confidence and clarity. Without the noise of frustration over how things “should” be, you’ll hear God—or your intuition—more clearly.

Life is calling you to engage with it as if you’re playing a game, uncovering new clues and tasks each day. And if you don’t know the clues just yet? That’s okay. Trust in the process.

You need a nap—take it.

Life feels boring, gray, and uninspiring right now, but your soul is urging you to express your vibrancy. Create. Paint. Draw. Be chaotic, because this is your natural state. Yet, the society you live in dictates your tastes and desires. The pressure to conform has overridden your own inner sense of joie de vivre.

Minimalism, maximalism, quiet luxury, loud labels—these are trends we feel compelled to follow to gain worth, status, and validation among the crowd. But you, my dear, were born to stand out, to march to the beat of your own drum. That’s where you feel the most you.

You’re being called to reconnect with yourself, to break free from the mold, and rediscover the beauty of your individuality. Tap back into your essence and set yourself free.

Thinking, overthinking, strategizing, and trying to map out and plan for your future—it’s kind of driving you insane right now, isn’t it? There’s a lot of fear surrounding you: fear of staying still, staying stagnant, staying where you are. What is this fearful belief? Whatever it is, it’s blocking you from being content in the present.

It’s hard to be content with the present reality if things aren’t going the way you’d like, or if you feel threatened or unsafe in your life. It feels easier to keep running, convincing yourself that you’ll find safety in the future once you’ve reached a specific, designated “safe point.” But the constant running is wearing you down.

Maybe now, as the year draws to a close, it’s time to stop strategizing and simply be in the moment. By being in the now, I mean truly accepting your reality and where you are, instead of running away. Breathe life into your current situation—acknowledge it, embrace it, and begin to change it from a place of presence.

Yeah, it’s difficult to smile. When was the last time you genuinely smiled from your heart or laughed from your soul? It feels like a really long time ago, doesn’t it? What has happened? What is your story? Write it down. Your hurt is righteous—you are not ridiculous for feeling rage, hatred, or bitterness. These huge, so-called ‘bad’ emotions and thoughts are beginning to tear through the mask of peacefulness you present to yourself and others.

If you find yourself engulfed in these emotions lately, do not shame yourself or label yourself a bad person for feeling this way. This is a passing storm, and once it clears, it will make space for deeper emotions to emerge. One of the big ones might be jealousy or envy—emotions we’ve been taught to ignore or suppress. But feel them. These emotions, as uncomfortable as they may be, are part of what makes the world turn. They’re woven into the fabric of our desires.

Let’s breathe through them together.

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Your trauma responses once kept you safe. Thank them, then gently let them know their job is done. It's time to grow.