estellaisnt

[estellaisnt]

I think god puts pretty people on the fyp to taunt me. Every time I scroll its a girl with wonderful lips little to no cupids bow perfect hair and beautiful skin. Even if the video isn’t a thirst trap and its some weird video posted at 3 am they always are beautiful. Small noses, thin eyebrows, hourglass body. But I’m not jealous I’m annoyed, not at them. But at the simple fact I’ll never be as pretty as them. No one chooses to be ugly, and I say i’m not. My hair isn’t too short to do anything with, acne is rare, and eyes are pretty. But i’m mediocre and I find that’s the worst place to be. I have been so ugly guys literally moved spots away from me. I have been so ugly even my friends taunted me. But being mediocre… Knowing that no matter how nice someone is to you, you will never compare to their beauty. No matter how much you like a guy knowing he will always choose the next one over. No matter how much you want to be seen you are ignored over and over again. Some people may disagree, but when I was disgustingly ugly atleast I existed. Atleast I was mentioned, and I could never get my hopes up. Anyways this is a rant ig so ignore it