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[eternclstud]

shes looking over at him with unbearable longing but only for a second before she has to look away ( pretend this was sent on sunday )

tension weighs heavy in the air , poignant silence stretching itself thin between bated breaths . quiet and unflinching in how intently he watches her , there is a strange softness in that lingering want of his , that is not all hunger anymore , but something he can seldom recognize anymore , and begs to coil itself within the crevices of his pale contenance .

damon exhales , not out of need - but out of habit . that swell of humanity in him flaring . he feels warmth , and for a second he remembers the sun , what it's felt like not only to withstand , but enjoy it , to bathe in its gentle glow just because you can . he used to enjoy the sun , he thinks . once . before all this . he thinks she would've liked him then . cold fingers reach for a lock her hair - gently tucking it away behind the arch of her ear . he can smell her perfume from here , it permeates the air . in that moment , he wants nothing more than to kiss her . ❛ ... goodnight , elena . ❜ damon says instead , and steps back , the lingering goodbye leaving a trail of melancholy in its touch ; floating around her orbit ... it's so confusing . she makes him act so human , sometimes , he almost forgets - because he wants to forget - what he really is .

[eternclstud]

supernatural, seasons 1 - 5 starters.

the following is a collection of starter sentences from the cw show, supernatural.

i can’t do this alone.

where you headed?

no way i’m telling you.

i have these nightmares, and sometimes they come true.

you’re all i’ve got.

we go after this damn thing, together.

can i help you?

i kind of — i need to talk.

i’ve done some things … not good things.

there’s always forgiveness for us if we seek it.

salvation was created for sinners.

tell me what’s on your mind.

i’ve lied. a lot.

does that make me a bad person?

i know what you are.

you can’t be here.

this is hallowed ground.

maybe that works in the minor leagues, but not with me.

you’re wasting your time.

even if i did know where they were, i wouldn’t tell you.

this is everything i know.

what happened to them is not your fault.

it’s not my fault, but it’s my problem.

it’s not your problem. it’s our problem.

you got any better ideas?

this ends. now.

i’m ending it. i don’t care what it takes.

although i’m not too crazy about this new tone of yours — you’re right.

think real hard. it’ll come to you.

last time i saw you, you fell out a window.

i don’t know what you’re talking about.

this is what war looks like. it has casualties.

i’m gonna kill you, you know that?

sorry? i didn’t quite get that.

what the hell are you looking at?

who said anything about handing it over?

i want to stop losing the people i love.

i just … i just want this to be over.

did you get it?

you know this is a trap, don’t you?

don’t get yourself killed, alright? you’re no good to us dead.

it’s your fight. you finish this.

i want to thank you. for everything.

even when i couldn’t count on anyone, i could always count on you.

i wanted to let you know, just in case.

you kidding me? don’t say just in case something happens to you. i don’t want to hear that speech.

no one’s dying tonight.

i was hoping to kill more of your friends.

you know, i must admit, considering what they say about you, i thought you’d be … taller.

well aren’t you the chatty one?

i can’t believe you just shot me!

i’m so not in the mood for this.

holy water, (name). real cute.

where the hell did it go?

if you had just let me go in there, i could have ended all this.

the only thing you would have ended is your life.

you’re just willing to sacrifice yourself?

that’s not gonna happen — not as long as i’m around.

it’s not worth dying over.

no matter what we do, they’re gone. and they’re never coming back.

sometimes i barely feel like i’m holding it together.

did you really think i wouldn’t find you?

you gonna read me a story?

he begged for his life with tears in his eyes.

for your sake, i hope you’re lying.

you son of a bitch, you promised!

the things i did … it was a nightmare.

i’ll figure something out.

you’re selfish, you know that?

you don’t care about anything other than revenge.

how the hell are we gonna get in?

why are you splashing water on me?

come on. come on, we’ve got to get out of here.

(how are you?) / i’ll survive.

you saved my life back there.

i’m trying to thank you, here.

mad? i’m proud of you.

what the hell has gotten into you?

if you’re so sure, go ahead. kill me.

this was worth the wait.

two wrongs don’t make a right.

i want to know why. why’d you do it?

listen, you mind just getting this over with? ‘cause i really can’t stand the monologuing.

mask all that nasty pain, mask the truth.

you’re not my dad.

it’s inside me. i can feel it.

get back or i’ll kill you. i swear to god.

did i do this?

tell me if they’re okay!

you have to stay still.

i just need to find them.

you look good … considering.

man, tell me you can hear me.

come on, you’re the psychic.

i don’t know if we’re gonna find someone.

so, what? we just sit here with our thumbs up our ass?

well you sure know something.

if there’s only one working part, that’s enough.

you got to help me.

you haven’t called a soul for help.

aren’t you gonna do anything? aren’t you even gonna say anything?

i’ve done everything you ever asked me. everything. i’ve given everything i’ve ever had.

how is revenge gonna help him?

i should have never taken you along in the first place.

you get the hell away from me. stay back!

don’t worry, (name). i’m not going anywhere.

why won’t you look at me?

what’s happening to me?

it’s just a dream, that’s all.

i got to say, i’m impressed.

it’s out of my control. it’s just fate.

you always have a choice.

god, i feel like i’m at a slumber party.

alright, (name). this isn’t gonna work.

i’ll be damned.

oh, it’s good to hear from you.

it hasn’t been the same without you, (name).

you can’t kill death.

there’s got to be a way.

thanks for not giving up on me, (name).

this was the only way i could get you to talk to me.

what the hell do you want to talk about?

death is nothing to fear.

you’re living on borrowed time already.

how stupid do you think i am?

you really want an honest answer to that?

i took you for a lot of things, but suicidally reckless wasn’t one of them.

did you really think you could trap me?

i want to make a deal.

i don’t know how to help you. but i’ll keep trying, alright?

i mean, come on, you can’t … you can’t leave me here alone.

(name), you got to hold on.

you can’t go, not now.

we were just starting to be brothers again.

can you hear me?

it’s an honorable death. a warriors death.

you’re very cute.

there’s no such thing as an honorable death.

i’m not going with you. i don’t care what you do.

how do i know this isn’t just another trick?

oh, (name), i’m offended. don’t you trust me?

so we have a deal?

what are you doing that for?

you got some kind of angel watching over you.

you really don’t remember anything?

i had some things to take care of.

why don’t i believe you right now?

can we not fight?

half the time we’re fighting, i don’t know what we’re fighting about.

i just don’t want to fight anymore, okay?

(name), are you alright?

you shouldn’t have had to say that to me.

i put too much on your shoulders.

i made you grow up too fast.

i just want you to know … i am so proud of you.

why are you saying this stuff?

you’re scaring me.

stop asking if i need anything. stop asking if i’m okay.

i’m okay. really. i promise.

come here. i’m gonna lay my head gently on your shoulder. maybe we could cry, and hug, and maybe even slow dance.

don’t patronize me, (name).

what do you want me say?

aren’t you angry? don’t you want revenge?

look, don’t be stubborn. you know i can help you.

you’re not gonna hit me again are you?

look, if you don’t want my help, fine.

you didn’t think i remembered, did you?

they’re nice. they’re your friends.

i guess we’ll just have to blend in.

will you give me a little help here?

just because i’m not caring and sharing like you want me to —

these are your issues, quit dumping them on me.

am i gonna see you again?

(name), where did you learn to do all this?

i’m not alright. not at all. but neither are you.

that was beautiful. absolutely beautiful.

he’s the only one who gets to call me that.

something i said?

i can still see her, you know, the way she was.

but, hey, that was a long time ago.

truth is, i’m not handling it very well.

it just feel like there’s this hole inside of you? and it just gets bigger and bigger and darker and darker?

you and me? we were born to do this. it’s in our blood.

why are you even talking to me?

it’s an insult to his memory.

you can hit me all you want. it won’t change anything.

might as well put her out of her misery.

i just sharpened it, so it’s completely humane.

like i said, (name). no shades of gray.

you knew, and you just didn’t care.

i think you and i got some things to talk about.

i might be like you, i might not. but you’re the one tied up right now.

okay, i’m good now. we can go.

come on. i won’t even hit you back.

yeah, (name), but you didn’t. and that’s what matters.

you’re a pain in my ass.

i guess i might have to stick around to be a pain in the ass, then.

i don’t want to listen to you! i’m done listening to you!

it just feels like the right thing to do.

i think dad would’ve wanted you to have these.

if something evil happened there, it could have easily poisoned the ground.

well, don’t get too excited. you might pull something.

what else would it be about?

that’s perfectly normal, (name). especially with what you’re going through.

we shouldn’t even be here anymore.

you want to take another swing? go ahead. if it’ll make you feel better.

(name), where are you going?

what’s dead should stay back.

what the hell’s the matter with you?

stop it! that’s enough, okay? that’s enough!

i don’t scare easy, but you’re scaring the crap out of me!

you’re tailspinning, (name), and you refuse to talk about it, and you won’t let me help you.

i can take care of myself, thanks.

are lives are weird, man.

honey, is something bothering you?

haven’t we already talked about that?

haven’t we wasted enough time on him already?

you really think i could do something like that?

you brought me back.

you know what you did.

how could you? i loved you!

you really think this is gonna work?

it’s still me. i’m still a person.

i think she broke my hand.

you wanna stay for awhile?

i’m sorry. for the way i’ve been acting.

it’s my fault that he’s gone.

you can’t tell me there’s not a connection there.

we don’t know that, not for sure.

you’re the most important person in my life.

i never should have come back, (name).

i was dead. and i should have stayed dead.

you wanted to know how i was feeling. well, that’s it.

what could you possibly say to make that alright?

if i ran off with you, your mother might kill me.

you’re not a murderer, (name). you don’t have it in your bones.

i was upset, and i wanted to see you.

i’m sorry, baby, i’ll never leave you again.

what am i supposed to do now?

you mind your tongue with me, boy.

no one in their right mind chooses this life.

it’s my way of being close to him.

it was just a nightmare.

(name), i am trying to help you here, but you have got to be honest with me.

you asked for the truth.

can we make this quick? i’m really tired.

let’s pretend for the moment that you’re not entirely insane.

you’ve seen it, haven’t you?

what happened? talk to me.

these people are actually making deals with the damned things.

so we gotta clean up these peoples mess for them?

so, what, we should just leave them to die?

i don’t know what you’re talking about.

i was weak. i wanted to be great.

who don’t want their life to mean something?

i’m going to hell, one way or another.

you don’t really want to die.

i don’t want to die.

sit tight, alright? we’re gonna figure this out.

are you nuts?

i can buy us time to figure out something more permanent.

now allowed to say no, (name), not unless you’ve got a better idea.

we don’t have time for this.

just keep him alive.

i’m not going to put you out of your misery.

your misery is the whole point. it’s just so fun to watch.

i can’t do this anymore.

it’s all your fault.

i could have brought him back.

what the hell was that for?

shut your mouth, bitch.

it’s not the best time for a bleeding heart, (name).

what if we all have it?

it’s safer if you stay here for now.

i thought we were both going to die. you can’t hold that over me.

you can’t pull that crap with me, man.

why do we have to get stuck with all the responsibility? why can’t we live a little bit?

whatever weight you’re carrying, let me help a little bit.

you can tell me anything, you know what.

you don’t believe me.

he said that i might have to kill you.

take some responsibility for yourself, (name).

the truth is, it’s not your fault. (name), none of it is.

please, you’re in danger.

thank god you’re okay.

this has got to hurt like hell for you.

you can say a lot of stuff about me, but i’m not disloyal, and i’m not stupid.

i’m officially uncomfortable now. thank you.

well, sounds vaguely ominous.

what did you mean i looked the type?

i don’t scare that easy.

i should have found a way to save him.

you can’t save everyone.

the more people i save, the more i can change.

alright, time for bed.

if i ever turn into something i’m not … you have to kill me.

everyone around me dies.

please, you’re the only one who can do it. you have to promise me.

you have nothing to apologize for.

feels good getting back in the saddle, doesn’t it?

it had his face, but it wasn’t his face.

how’d you even know i was here?

i was chosen … for redemption.

hey, man, you’ve got to try this.

you’re enjoying that way too much, it’s kind of making me uncomfortable.

wait, there’s no such thing as unicorns?

i believe in what i can see.

i’m not enabling your sick habit.

there’s just chaos and violence, and random, unpredictable evil that comes out of nowhere and rips you to shreds.

you want me to believe in this stuff? i’m gonna need to see some hard proof.

this is vengeance. this is wrong.

men cannot be angels.

what you’re doing is not god’s will.

“thou shalt not kill”. that’s the word of god.

weren’t we gonna go to the movies?

we should go, or we’re gonna be late.

look, i said i was sorry.

are you sure you’re okay?

you’re just one person, (name).

(name), it’s me.

are you bleeding?

i tried to wash it off.

i don’t think it’s my blood.

(name), what the hell happened?

(name), i don’t … remember anything.

what did you find out?

nobody’s noticed anything unusual.

nobody saw me walking around, covered in blood?

how the hell did i get here?

what happened to me?

what if i hurt someone, or worse?

we don’t know what happened.

what’s the last thing you remember?

it just … feels familiar, you know?

please tell me you didn’t steal this.

i’m not thinking anything.

okay, now this is disturbing.

look, i just want to talk to you, that’s it, okay?

oh, do you a favor. that’s what i live for.

what’s going on with you, (name)?

i don’t know how i know, i just do.

i’d say they don’t like surprises.

should we knock?

even if you did do this, i’m sure you had a reason.

i killed him, (name).

you’ve gotta snap out of it.

you never told me this.

i didn’t want to scare you.

no one can control you but you.

you promised me.

we’re gonna figure this out, okay?

i don’t want to hurt anyone else.

i don’t want to hurt you.

whatever this is, you can fight it.

you know, i’ve tried so hard to keep you safe.

you’ll live to regret this.

how’d you find me?

that looks like it hurt.

just had a run - in with a hot stove.

you’re really carrying a torch for him, aren’t you?

romance — that’s just out of the question.

i’m not trying to hurt you, (name).

i’m telling you because i care.

i care about you a lot.

maybe you should leave.

it didn’t have to be this way.

you’re not (name).

you really don’t know the truth, do you?

he put him out of his misery like a sick dog.

why are you doing this to me?

shoot me.

are you that scared of being alone?

that’s holy water, you demonic son of a bitch!

i got lots of names.

why didn’t you kill me? you had a dozen chances.

would you give me two minutes to patch you up?

how did you know he was possessed?

i know demons lie, but do they ever tell the truth, too?

i’m part of this now.

this is my fight. i’m not getting your blood on my hands.

so, what bring you?

well, it’s good to see you.

don’t try to con a con man.

(name), back from the dead. getting to be a regular thing for you, isn’t it?

how about i smack that smartass out of your mouth?

careful, now. wouldn’t want to bruise this fine packaging.

oh, don’t worry, this isn’t gonna hurt you much.

feel like talking now?

i’ll make him bite off his tongue.

you’re not getting (name), you understand?

i’m gonna kill every one of you first.

i don’t give a rats ass about the master plan.

this isn’t going like i pictured.

you know when people want to describe the worst possible thing, they say it’s like hell? there’s a reason for that.

hell is a prison made of bone and flesh and blood and fear. and you sent me back there.

whatever i do to you, it’s nothing compared to what you do to yourself, is it?

they’d have been better off without you.

by the way, you really look like crap, (name).

you wouldn’t know anything about that?

that sounds vaguely dirty, but, uh, thanks.

you okay? (name)? is that you in there?

i watched myself kill (name) with my own two hands. i saw the light go out in his eyes.

it must have been awful.

it wasn’t you.

if it’s the last thing i do, i’m gonna save you.

dude, that’s not how it happened!

sorry, i just … i can’t even concentrate.

if you wouldn’t mind, just give five minutes.

you brave little solider.

thanks, thanks for the hug, but, uh — i’m okay.

what are you talking about? i’m a joy to be around.

okay, that is just nasty.

looks to me like something was hungry.

i have had it up to here with you.

then you know that i can’t keep letting you hurt people.

come on! those people got what’s coming to them.

i don’t think i can let you do that.

i don’t want to hurt you. and i know that i can.

like i said, i liked you. but you shouldn’t have come alone.

you wanna see a real trick?

could we please just leave?

okay, so we’re taking the scenic route.

stop. i’m mad at you.

hey, you love me.

you’re a jerk.

i’m so sorry. i didn’t see you there.

you’ve got to help me.

we should get somewhere safe first.

what the hell just happened?

don’t worry, (name), everything’s going to be alright.

you’re serious about this, aren’t you?

just take it easy, alright?

something happened to them. something they couldn’t control.

i sure as hell ain’t making apologies for them.

we’re all just scared of the unknown.

the only thing i’m scared of is losing (name).

i have to see him again. i have to.

i don’t like keeping her in the dark.

i know you feel guilty, but let’s just stick to the plan.

what aren’t you telling me?

don’t what? don’t tell me because i’ll mess up your hunt?

whatever it is, tell me, please.

you’re like a walking encyclopedia of weirdness.

what did you do to him?

you should worry about yourself.

i didn’t do anything to you.

hurting me won’t bring her back.

all i got left’s hurting you.

what am i supposed to do?

this isn’t working at all, is it?

i’ll see you in the morning.

maybe we should talk privately.

god, i am so stupid.

well, i guess neither of us are who we said we were, huh?

i don’t remember anything,

is there something else we can try to make it go away?

i’m sorry. i am.

stop it. don’t talk like that.

i don’t want to hurt anyone else. i don’t want to hurt you.

i can’t do it myself.

i need you to help me.

i don’t want to die.

we don’t have a chance.

i am getting out of here right now.

no, come on, we’ve got to work.

i - i don’t really know what i’m doing.

isn’t that kind of cruel? messing with their heads like that?

hey, i just play the part. i don’t write the script.

i’m very glad that you’re, you know, alive and well.

you won’t get rid of me that easy.

i’m sorry, what were you saying?

raising these spirits from the dead? making them murder for you? that’s playing with fire, (name).

you know what, you’re right, i don’t understand.

i’ve got nothing against you. you’ve got no part in this. please, just leave.

i cannot believe there’s an afterlife.

there’s an afterlife alright — but mostly it’s a pain in the ass.

i wouldn’t have done that if i were you.

they’re not gonna be very happy with you.

would have hated to have gotten thrown in here.

hey, you feel that?

you telling me you didn’t see that?

i think i’m adorable.

we’re not quite done here.

this is, without a doubt, the dumbest and craziest thing we’ve ever done. and that’s in a long, storied career of dumb and crazy.

i’m not thrilled about this, either.

do yourself a favor: don’t talk.

i want to handle this alone.

i can’t thank you enough for this.

oh, man, are you a sight for sore eyes.

i am the last person on planet earth you want to screw with.

what are you doing up?

oh, you can’t sleep, huh?

(are you alright?) / i don’t know.

honey, you’re scaring me.

just tell me what’s going on.

forget it. i’m just happy to see you.

i guess i was wrong.

are you sure you’re alright?

get some rest. i love you.

you been drinking?

i’m really glad you’re happy.

i get it. why i chose you.

why do we have to sacrifice everything?

that was so easy, i’m embarrassed for you.

i’m sorry that we don’t get along. and i wish to hell i could stay and fix it, but i’ve got to do this.

you’re just gonna slow me down.

this is dangerous, and you could get hurt.

look, whatever stupid thing you’re about to do, you’re not doing it alone, and that’s that.

i don’t understand. why are you doing this?

you don’t want to do that.

yeah, i can see that it’s blood, (name). what the hell’s it doing in here?

there are things out there in the dark.

i’m just trying to help you out, (name).

why don’t you just sit tight and try not to get us both killed.

there’s nothing here, (name).

stick behind me and keep your mouth shut.

this is real? you’re not crazy?

why’d you have to keep digging?

put the knife down, (name).

you’re not real. none of it is.

why is it our job to save everyone? haven’t we done enough?

are you lost?

still doesn’t tell us where we are.

i feel like i’m in a nightmare, and it just keeps getting worse and worse.

you said we were chosen for a reason! that is not chosen, that’s … killed!

i don’t think god has much to do with this.

hey, look at me, it’s not even that bad.

hey, listen to me, we’re gonna patch you up, okay? gonna be good as new.

i’m gonna take care of you. i got you. that’s my job, right?

you should eat something.

i hate to bring this up, i really do. but don’t you think it’s time we … bury (name)?

i’m not going anywhere.

i just don’t think you should be alone, that’s all.

you don’t think i’ve given enough? you don’t think i’ve paid enough? i’m done with it.

i should send you straight back to hell.

you’re like a … puppy. you’re just too fun to play with.

i swear i’m gonna tear that son of a bitch apart.

i did what you asked. now what?

that was pretty cold, wasn’t it?

you of all people should know that what’s dead should stay dead.

i knew i kept you alive for some reason.

can we celebrate for a minute?

(name), tell me the truth.

you shouldn’t have done that.

don’t get mad at me. don’t do that. i had to. i had to look out for you, that’s my job.

you saved my life over and over. you sacrifice everything for me. don’t you think i should do the same for you?

there’s nothing i wouldn’t do for you.

i don’t care what it takes. i’m gonna get you out of this.

[eternclstud]

— no guilt, no shame, no regret . i mean , come on , if you could turn it off , wouldn't you ? [ ... ] you haven't . [ ... ] of course i have , rick . it's why it's so fun to be around .

[eternclstud]

he smirks that damon smirk , which is pure satisfaction wrapped in charm , and an unposken admission of its own . of course he knows ; she does too . it's difficult not to - touch her , sometimes . she's too good for him , little miss sunshine . he'd never admit it out loud , but she's way better off with stefan , isn't she ? the good brother . the righteous brother . selfishly , he wants her all for himself anyways . it seems his stunted heart never learns .

i care about you , damon . something grips at his maw , an uncomfortable tension , it lodges in his throat too , and when he tries to swallow his saliva tastes like bullets . why does she think that should matter to him , at all ? it does . it does . he turns back to the windshield , afraid she might catch the hint of vulnerability sitting in the icy blue of his eyes if he stares any longer , and pretends to be focusing on the road . ❛ ... okay . ❜ he doesn't push anymore , and something in damon seems to have visibly softened .

after a moment in silence , where he swallows that disgusting taste of sentimentality , damon tries to recompose himself , letting a crooked smile sneak back into his mouth . ❛ really ? ❜ he taunts , a sharp eyebrow rising at the music . ❛ now - i know this isn't the kind of music you usually listen to ... ❜ a beat . ❛ elena gilbert ... are you trying to be sweet to me ? ❜ the accusation unfurls smoothly , playfully from his tongue , and he smiles wider , which almost feel like a thank you coming from him . does he really look like that much of a wreck ? he must .

❛ like i told you once ... you're not the worst company in the world , elena . ❜ and for all of his protests and suspicion , he doesn't really think he'd want anyone else sitting there like a little gremlin on his passenger seat , keeping his mind off things . ❛ besides ... i haven't seen much of you since you've dumped the budget version of me , ❜ and now it was complicated , wasn't it ? you'd think it'd be easier - they're broken up , time to celebrate ! but it's never been quite so simple with the salvatore brothers . sometimes , he catches himself trying to cheer up - only ... he's not any good at that . used to be . now part of him wants to revel in his misery , and the other part of him ... just sees his little brother . he had to get away , their combined relationship woes over the doppelgangers was getting to be too much . ❛ i figured ... maybe you needed to get away from everything for a minute , too . i've heard from very reliable sources elena gilbert used to be a party girl ? ❜ he nudges her . ❛ do you deny these accusations , miss gilbert ? ❜

deep chocolates roll in exasperation as she slinks further into cold leather , ignoring the facade . why did she put up with this ? the feelings melded when it came to him are so frustratingly complex and contradicting that it made her feel dizzy . it was true , she has to hold a moral high ground that's ever steadfast - it didn't feel right to find him or his antics charming , but also in a way his devotion to pester her was in a sense endearing . ❛ you know what you did .❜   voice smooth but unforgiving , an attempt at closing the gap for further embellishment . they were both similar in the way stubbornness coils within like a harbored disease that rears it's ugly head often . all this innocence framed by him was nothing more but a mere performance - a bad one at that .

though , his lack of faith in her intentions was starting to feel like a personal attack . eyes grow wider and doe-like as her gaze falls back onto his , reaching out as nimble digits softly curl over the curvature of his arm - giving it a gentle reassuring squeeze . ❛ i need you to know that i care about you damon . ❜  the moment lasts a couple of seconds before she pulls away carefully , lithe digits curl within the sleeve of her shirt, rolling the fabric down around her palm , idly fidgeting with the hem as she contemplated even giving him anymore . truthfully she didn't know what answer he was searching for , was there some other reason she should want to go with him ? ❛ sometimes that means i can want to be there with you while also trying my best to prevent you from doing something stupid . ❜  it might sound harsh , but it's exactly what he asked for .

❛ i don't think a vampire should be the spokesperson for normality and i'm comfy like this ... ❜   so get over it . annoyed by his scolding techniques , allows a huff to unfurl - the urge to take something - anything and repeatedly thrash it against him out of sheer frustration was enticing her more and more as the seconds pass , that wouldn't favor well to the fact that her life was literally in the palm of his hands . so she starts working the knob on his radio . skipping through different stations and melodies until finally settling on an alternative rock station . something not too heavy but not as sappy as pop music. ( though , she used to love pop - just like her mom . anytime they drove together you could hear their songs blaring while jeremy begged for some form of reprieve in the back . all she can do now is reminisce . ) ❛ why'd you choose me to come with you ? ❜   of anyone he could have compulsed , herself included , he didn't .

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what does your soul smell like ? ➥ damon salvatore's soul smells like candle smoke .

key words :

self-assured, courageous, intuitive. you are an expert at overcoming your demons and should be proud of how brave you have consistently shown yourself to be. others are amazed by your perseverance, strong personality, and unapologetic uniqueness. compatible with: coffee, freshly baked bread.

tagged by: @survivcrsgvilt tagging: steal from me u cowards

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“i expected better from you” well that was your fault lmao I got nothing to do with that

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{Words by José Olivarez from Citizen Illegal /@fatimaamerbilal , from even flesh eaters don't want me.}

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there's the shadow of a smirk on the corner of his mouth . ❛ mm . yeah ... you're right . i have no idea what i was thinking . ❜ oh , he knew exactly what he was idea . the kid's so useless he can't even trust him to be bait - she'd have been better off with a socket-puppet for a helper . but this was funnier , and he was petty , and the idea of leaving katherine alone with green day's reject amused him .

❛ sorry i missed all the fun . ❜ he's really , really not . he's not even actually reading right now .

was that your plan? from @eternclstud

"No that was Jeremy's plan and this is why we don't listen to kids with zero experience isn't it Damon?"

He may want to be inclusive for the Elena gold star, but Katherine is much more interested in plans that are viable and likely to actually work, not stoner babble.

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there's that look of feigned confusion , innocence that does not exist inside damon salvatore ( haven't for awhile , anyhow . sweet innocent damon is dead and buried , and that's for the best ) . ❛ last time what ... is happening ? ❜ the word pops from mouth wrapped in incredulity , as if reiterating them to elena would make them any more believable , even if he really isn't trying very hard to convince her , not really . she knows as well as he knows most of his 'accidental' brushes are very deliberate . but he lets her do this song and dance , he plays along ; it keeps her morals and his pride unscathed . ❛ yes , elena ... i thoroughly enjoyed making sure you're safe and sound inside my car , ❜ poor him , scolded for being responsible , of all things ! that taunting smirk that threatens to tug at the corner of his mouth tells an entirely different story . ❛ last i remember , you were still human . ❜ insufferably so .

the rhythmic tapping of his fingers against the wheel let some of his restless bleed through , but damon has always been exceptionally good at holding a calm , neutral facade . until he isn't , and he snaps , and when it breaks , it shatters . ❛ mmm ... ❜ he hums , and his steely blue gaze shifting to the corners of his eyes , stealing glances and biding time , trying to dig for some ulterior motive . ❛ for me ... or with me ? ❜ what is she so afraid of ? did she come all this way just to babysit him ? cute .

❛ ... can't you sit like a normal person for five minutes ? what's wrong with you , ❜ damon scolds her like he'd scold a misbehaving puppy chewing on his favorite shoe , thwacking her knee to discourage the behavior . ❛ you're asking a lot of questions , right now ... haven't you ever been on a road trip before ? you're supposed to put on a song and ... enjoying the ride . ❜ he turns to her with a cheeky grin , his eyes narrow slightly as he gestures towards the radio . ❛ go on . i'll let you torture my ears for awhile . ❜

❛    damon  !  what  are  you  -   ❜   as  if  nimble  fingers  weren't  capable  enough  or  broken  ,  he  took  it  upon  himself  to  make  quick  work  of  locking  her  in  .  it  felt  purposeful  as  does  most  of  his  actions  ,  and  as  much  as  she  wanted  to  believe  damon  was  just  really  into  vehicle  safety  -  the  feeling  of  his  toned  hand  deliberately  brushing  against  her  made  the  intentions  of  his  actions  clear  .  a  heightened  sense  of  electricity  foiled  within  the  touch  as  she  turns  to  face  him  ,  those  chocolate  hues  rolling  in  exasperation  as  she  chirps  -  ❛    i  hope  you  enjoyed  that  since  it's  the  last  time  it's  happening.   ❜   a  lack  of  fortitude  however  ,  a  half  smile  blooming  from  the  corner  of  rosy  lips.

eyes  gaze  back  towards  the  road  ,  the  pretty  scenery  filling  her  belly  with  flutters  butterflies.  it  was  rare  for  her  to  find  the  beauty  in  nature  anymore.  ❛   i'm  not  running  from  anything  -  it's  not  like  that  .  ❜   so  this  would  have  to  be  a  give  and  take  -  fine.  the  question  presumed  rolled  around  her  cognize  for  a  minute  ,  eyes  nearly  form  into  slits  -  carefully  constructing  what  was  really  needing  to  be  said  -  .  ❛   believe  it  or  not  -  i  just  * wanted *  to  be  here  for  you.  ❜ 

shifting  with  ease  in  her  seat  and  pulling  legs  taught  beneath  her  and  crossing  them  against  the  leather  -  mindful  enough  by  not  let  the  grit  of  heavily  worn  converse  to  dirty  the  seat  .  getting  comfortable.  it  was  funny  how  people  can  talk  so  much  but  never  really  say  anything  .  words  dangle  from  his  maw  and  exactly  zero  of  them  gave  room  for  imagination  .  he  picked  her  to  go  on  this  trip  with  him  ,  it  had  to  mean  ...  something  right  ?  the  mask  of  silence  that  overtook  the  car  was  deafening  -  but  she  didn't  plan  to  let  it  go.  stubborn  to  the  core  and  completely  unsatisfied  with  the  previous  response  provoked  she  will  try  again  -  ❛   okay  -  so  we're  going  to  florida  to  get  ....  what  exactly  ?  and  why  is  this  ...  thing  so  important  to  you  ?   ❜ 

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he looks pleased , satisfied ; cocky , even . not just because she'd agreed but because damon loves getting what he wants . ❛ that's the plan . ❜ he tells her , which perhaps isn't very comforting at all , but it is to him . he notes the way her finger pointedly presses against his chest , commanding , but chooses not to say anything for once , settling on being amused by her antics instead .

the engine roars , announcing their departure , and damon feels strangely at ease once she settles in the passenger seat . he fastens her seatbelt - a little too close for comfort . the way he smiles tells her it's not accidental either . is it ever ? it gives him a strange sense of satisfaction he can't quite pinpoint . maybe it's because he knows how much it will piss everybody off . or maybe it's because ... god help him , he's actually growing to enjoy her company . ❛ ah . you know ... unfinished business . somebody has something i want . you know how it goes . besides ... i like florida . you can drink from a person in broad daylight and nobody even bats an eye . ❜ damon explains in his damon way , which doesn't explain much at all ; probably because he doesn't trust her yet . not again . not enough to explain further .

❛ what about you ? why are you here ? ❜ 'with me' seems to go unspoken . her , alone , with him , in a car . could spell trouble . he gave a small explanation of his reasons ... surely he deserves a sliver of truth back from little miss 'trust breeds trust' . ❛ i mean ... besides the pleasure of my company , ❜ naturally . the word 'pleasure' seems to roll out of his tongue suggestively , almost like a tease . the trees on the road flash past rolled down windows , but his eyes struggle to focus on the road . good thing he has heightened senses . ❛ running from something again , or ... do you just really miss having some non pg-13 fun ? ❜ either way , he's happy to indulge her .

as  soon  as  he  shifts  -  raising  above  -  there  was  a  brief  moment  where  her  composure  threatened  to  crumble  beneath  the  weight  of  his  icy  leer.  but  she  doesn't  ,  she  refuses.  further  displaying  her  unwillingness  to showcase  weakness elena anchors  the  weight  of  her  frame  sturdy like porcelain , keeping herself  as  she  has  been  -  unfaltered.  (  but  her  heart  tells  another  story  as  it  palpitates  to  the  reverberating  sound  of  her  name  dancing  impishly  over  his  tongue  .  )

shoulders  slowly  lowered  ,  her  fragile  guard  relinquished  as  the  echo  of  his  voice  held  a  resounding  shroud  of  reassurance  that even  elena  gilbert  was  not  anticipating.  there  was  this  lingering  feeling  tidied  in  her  gut  that  aided  the  resolve  that  she  felt  vulnerable  to  ,  she  wanted  to  go  -  to  be  there  for  him.  at  the  end  of  the  day  elena  could  count  on  all  ten  of  her  fingers  of  individuals  she  could  call  when  she  needed  a  friend  -  something  tells  her  he  doesn't  know  what  that's  like.  everyone  ,  even  damon  salvatore  ,  deserves  to  have  someone  they  can  rely  on.  ❛   okay  ,  ❜  her  head  nods,  a  single  digit  pressed  against  his  chest.  ❛   i'll  come  with  you.  but  no  mind  games  ,  and  we  both  come  back  in  one  piece.  got  it  ?  ❜  brows  raise  atoning  to  the  meaningfulness  her  worse  exude.

a  gesture,  a  small  but  sweet  nod  -  a  non-verbal  agreeance  to  flee  on  a  small  road  trip.  just  the  two  of  them.  but  it  comforts  her  in  the  way  he  needs  her  ,  the plithe of this resolve  the  fawn  remains  blissfully  blind  to  .  damon  needed  this,  and  so  did  she.  the  world  she  loves  so  much  betrays  her  with  a  constant  state  of  tragedy  and  grieving.  she  has  earned  a  moment  of  reprieve  and  the  ability  to  just  live  for  once.  slipping  off  to  the  passengers  side,  taking  in  the  smell  of  pristine  leather.  it  was  her  choice .  nobody  can  take  that  from  her.  ❛   where  are  we  going  anyways  ?  what's  so  important  that  you  need  to  make  a  weekend  trip  of  it  ?  ,

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IAN SOMERHALDER  in The Vampire Diaries, 1.13 ‘Children of the Damned’

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damon , damon . elena seems to love the sound of his name in her mouth , almost as much as he loves hearing it , especially how she actively twists it into something of a reprimand , as if she held any power over him . ( maybe she did , just a touch , just a tiny bit . not that he'd ever admit it out loud . )

❛ elena . ❜ his turn to play with her name , then , and oh how he seems to relish the way it rolls off his lecherous tongue ; drawled , mocking , every syllable veiled with meaning , because it's a part of her he gets to have , a small sliver of her he can steal all for himself . the clear blue of his eyes mirrors the skies above , and he angles himself ever so slightly closer , looking down at her , watching , taking her in . he knows how she feels : insecure , uncertain . he can see the conflict in her eyes as clear as day , and for once , he chooses to reassure her . because he wants her here , with him . away from stefan , from mystic falls , from her half-witted friends . just the two of them , having fun . does she even remember what that feels like ?

❛ yes . ❜ his answer is firm , steady as steel , no room for doubt to linger in the space between words . ❛ get in the car , ❜ he gestures with his head . 'come with me already , girlbert' , his eyes seem to coax her . doesn't she know by now he doesn't want to hurt her ? if he wanted her dead , she would be . ❛ chop-chop ! we're losing daylight . ❜ and he doesn't allow himself to persuade her any further , stepping backwards , giving her room to decide as he makes his way around his trusted camaro . he needs her to make this decision for herself . no tricks , no intimidation . he wants her to want this too . he wants her to want his company . he wants this to be real .

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a  crease  endowed  over  olive  features  as  lips  furrowed  in  a  bestowed  scowl  as  her  deep  chocolate  orbs  sized  the  older  salvatore  -  looking  into  him  ,  searching  for  duplicity  in  those  deep  ocean  blues  .  ❛  damon  . i'm being serious . ❜  the sound  of  gentle  honed  itself  within  warm  vocal  chords  ,  encased in velvet like a sweet treat while a craving strikes , unmatching  of  the looming concern harrowing along her silhouette .  what fragile  humanity  ,  torn  between  doing  what  her  heart  earns for  and  what  directs as  most  logical  .  everything  inside  is  telling  her  to  run  -  but  she  doesn't  necessarily  want  to  .  trust  breeds  trust  .  if  she  never  gives him even just a sliver  of it how  could ever  she  expect  him  to  reciprocate  ?  a  soft  sigh  escapes  rosy  tiers  with  risen  brows  .  ❛  can  i  ..  really  trust  you  damon  ?  ❜  digits  tighten  the  grasp  on  her  shirt  ,  resting  a  protective  arm  around  herself  .  ❛  i  need  you  to  tell  me  that  if  i  get  in  that  car  with  you  that  i  will  be  ...  safe .  ❜

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some girls just can't resist my good looks , my style and my charm , my unflinching ability to listen to … taylor swift . ind  &  sel ( low act . ) damon salvatore from the vampire diaries ,   s1 - 2 canon compliant , with some elements from s3 , and others ripped from the books .    will not acklowedge anything past / mid season 3 as canon .  if you hate damon / delena , or can't stand seeing ian's face this is not the blog for you , curate your dash .  18+ blog . damon is a vampire , and a dick , expect blood , gore , and nsfw themes . minors dni  . written by lenny .

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exclusives with : @survivcrsgvilt . this is a sideblog , i follow from @bitmiscuous

some rules under the cut:

i don't wanna go on and on about stuff, so regular rules apply: don't metagame/godmode without permission , be nice , don't harass me for replies .

if u hate damon for x and x reasons thats valid , but i don't intend to soften his characterization to cater to anyone else except for myself . please don't harass me about playing a fictional character . this is a character i write for fun , and while i can acknowledge his behavior would not be okay irl , i am a grown individual who is quite therapized and very capable of dicerning between reality and fiction , i look at tvd through the goggles of entertainment , everyone is fucking everyone and a murder is just another thursday , nobody's very fazed . his fictitious crimes simply do not bother me , i find the character compelling all the same , and if they bother you that's completely fair , but again , not the blog for you .

if u can't tell , i'm pretty trigger free , so triggers will be present on this blog but i'll try to tag the more obvious ones .

i'm completely refusing to accept the 'off switch' in my canon , i'm sorry but i fucking hate that plot device lmao .

anything and any characters post s3 don't exist to my damon , we can still plot , but all the nonsense that happened won't be applicable . this means no stupid sire bond , no siren , no enzo , no lab , no dumb canon about their mom being a vampire god help me ... i think u get the gist . ik about later seasons from friends , but haven't watched from s3 onwards and i have no intention to do so , soooo ... yeah .

english isn't my first language , i'm not super knowledgeable in the us either . i'm doing my best , be patient with me , have a cookie .

i'm stealing some of the more gothic-like elements from early s1 / the book . i think they were dope . there might be mentions of fog / the crow if i feel spicy , i'm not sure how much yet so i'll leave this be .

in othello's words : "i am one who loved not wisely but too well". damon is a complicated dude , he's selfish and cruel and reckless guy , loving and being loved by him is not easy , that doesn't mean he can't love people . he does ... his own way . he loves his brother , and that doesn't stop him from being selfish , and punishing him . he won't let him die , but he won't let him have peace either . he'd take a bullet for him , but he'd also cause him immesurable pain , usually as a consequence of his recklessness , but sometimes intentionally . he loves elena , that does not make him unselfish , or not dangerous to literally everyone around her . and depending on the verse (though i'll argue he'll always carry a torch for her) , damon loves katherine , and it doesn't keep her from idealizing her into something she never was to begin with , being petty and vengeful and mean . he's fueled by love , but that love doesn't always make him kind , and occasionally it makes him crueler . he's a complex dude , and i like writing about it , if this or him make you in any way uncomfortable , please , curate your dash , block me , do what you have to do , no hard feelings . just please don't come for me over a fictional character , thank you .

if i think of anything else i'll add to this <3